A/N: Sorry this is late, but haven't been really up to much this week. But with the help of my amazing girlfriend I am getting back into the swing of things. Hope you guys enjoy this one, leave me a review.

Enjoy :)

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Chapter 10: If Only

Clubhouse (Bo's Bedroom)

With the help of Dyson, Bo was now laying on her bed. Fast asleep, giving all of that chi had really weakened her. Lauren was sat by her side, holding her hand and running her thumb over her skin. Even though she had gotten her memory back the day before, it wasn't all of it. It was just a few bits and pieces, bit now she had it all back. Her feelings Bo had grown in the last hour, now that she remembered how they fell in love.

The blonde also felt very guilty, for not being able to remember the succubus sooner. If they were truly in love as much as she felt they were, then Bo should have been the first person that Lauren would have remembered. But she didn't.

Trick also explained how Bo healed her, they were somehow mated. Lauren didn't know exactly what that mean so she let Trick explain for her. He summarised that in the time they were dating, that Bo must have mated with her. He didn't know exactly how the process is done, but he knew that it was very intimate. Lauren didn't need to hear the rest. He also said that it wasn't supposed to work with a human.

He didn't mean it to sound nasty, but there was no other way to phrase it. In fact he was very happy for his granddaughter, she had found the one that she was meant to be with. And more importantly, her inner succubus had fallen in love with Lauren too. And that was a big deal, succubi didn't normally mate. It wasn't who they were, they were free sexual creatures. They didn't discriminate gender and they weren't meant to be monogamous.

But due to Bo's human upbringing, her humanity played a big part in her life. And her inner succubus had to get used to that as she got older. So the fact that the succubus inside her had chosen to be monogamous too, was incredible. Lauren was a lucky girl.

The blonde decided to change her shirt, it was soaked with blood and it was starting to smell. She walked over to the succubus' dresser, opening the top drawer where she usually kept her stuff when she stayed over. Lauren gasped in shock as she saw all of her clothes, she remembered Bo saying that she took some of her stuff after she was pronounced dead. But she didn't know that the brunette had taken all of it.

And just like that, her love for Bo grew again. To think that the brunette loved her this much, to take her things and keep them even though she didn't have to. Just so she could have something to remind her of Lauren. It blew her mind. Lauren pulled her shirt up and over her head, then grabbed one of her old white v-neck t-shirts. Before she could even lift it over her head, she felt someone behind her. She smiled to herself, she could tell that it was Bo.

She didn't know how, or why it was happening. But she could feel her. Was this part of the mating?

"You really should be resting" Lauren said without turning around. She felt warm hands encircle her waist, spinning her around.

"How can I rest when you're stripping?" the brunette chuckled with a smirk. "Are you okay? Do you feel anything?" she asked, her worry over what happened resurfacing.

Lauren shook her head with a smile. "I'm fine Bo, it's like nothing ever happened. What about you? You expelled a lot of chi, it's a miracle you are even standing right now" she said going into doctor mode. She hadn't gone into Doctor Mode in almost a year. It was hard to do when you have no memory.

"Doesn't matter, I'd do it again. Do you really remember everything?" the succubus asked.

"Everything…." Lauren sighed, "… I'm so sorry Bo" she whispered cupping the succubus' cheeks gently. Bo frowned, what was she sorry for? None of this was her fault. "For what?" she asked.

"For forgetting you. I hate myself for it… If there was anyone I would remember, it should have been you… How, how could I have forgotten you?" the blonde asked, the question was aimed more at herself that Bo. The succubus couldn't believe her ears, Lauren was actually mad at herself for not remembering her.

Bo didn't say anything, she just pulled Lauren to her and captured her lips gently. She didn't want her to think that Bo was mad at her for forgetting. She could never get mad at her, especially for something that wasn't her fault. "Listen to me. You have nothing to be sorry for, okay? All of this, was out of your control babe… And even when you didn't remember, you still chose me. You chose us" she smiled at the blonde, a stray tear rolling down her cheek.

Lauren nodded, the stayed quiet for a few minutes more. Resting their foreheads together gently. "So, mated huh?" the blonde asked with a laugh.

"Yeah, threw me through a bit of a loop too. How do you feel about it?" the succubus asked, she wanted to know what her girlfriend thought about all of this. It was a lot to just be sprung on you all at once.

"I think…" Lauren took a calming breath. "… I feel pretty good about it. I mean, not a lot of people can say that they are a succubus' mate. Right? From what I've read about your kind, it's pretty rare" the blonde said.

"Aw, does that make you feel special babe?" Bo asked with a laugh, tightening her hold on her girlfriend's waist.

"Actually it does. Don't ruin my moment" she replied with a chuckle. The succubus nodded bringing her in for another kiss. Deepening it, Lauren didn't even realise that she had no shirt on. Which didn't stop her from removing Bo's as they got lost in their embrace. Then went their jeans, shoes and lastly their undergarments.

In no time at all they found themselves rolling around under the covers, breathing heavy as their hearts raced. Bo noticed that her inner succubus was on overdrive right now, it was probably a mating thing. It was telling her to feed, but she could never feed off of Lauren. She was human, and the brunette didn't want to hurt her.

"Feed…" Lauren breathed out as she laid underneath her girlfriend.

Bo wanted to so badly, just the way the word rolled off of the blonde's tongue made her want to lean in. Her inner succubus was clawing at her insides. "I could hurt you" she said shaking her head. That was the last thing she wanted. Lauren had been through enough.

"We're mated Bo, I don't think you ever have to worry about that again… Feed" the blonde whispered holding the succubus' face in her hands as she looked down at her. She didn't know why, but Lauren could feel that Bo's feeding wouldn't hurt her. Deep in her gut, she could feel it. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that they were mated.

The succubus in Bo came alive, her eyes glazed over and turned blue. The light radiating off of them was burning into Lauren's own eyes. But she couldn't take her eyes off of her. She was radiant. Bo leaned down, pressing her hips down harder as she began to feed. Lauren tasted different, she still tasted amazing. But it was a different flavour of amazing. And there weren't many of those.

Downstairs

Trick and Dyson were forced to wait in the kitchen, where they could hear everything that was going on. Dyson had also called for the four unconscious soldiers to be removed, except their weapons were still here. They thought that the women had stopped for a second, but it wasn't long before they started up again. The two men wanted to take their minds off of the noise, so they started talking about the whole mating conundrum. Even though Dyson still loved Bo, and he believed that she was his mate he knew that their time was over for good.

He thought that maybe he had fallen for Bo too quickly, they weren't even really dating when he gave his love to her. But he did it anyway, he wondered if there was a way for him to undo it. Or get a second chance with someone else. Someone that could love him the way that Bo loved Lauren. "So how do you think it happened?" the wolf asked.

Trick gave a small shrug. "Succubi are very rare creatures, my wife and Aife were the only ones I ever knew. They are not an easy species to come by, as you can imagine. It could have been a complete accident" he said. He didn't really know much about the situation himself.

"Or?" Dyson knew that wasn't all that Trick was thinking.

"Or… Bo's inner succubus knew exactly what she was doing. And she may have chosen Lauren a long time ago" the barkeep said thinking it over in his head. Of course, how could he not have seen it? Dyson noticed the look on his friend's face. He was thinking of something. "What is it?" he asked.

"I see it now. Two years ago, Bo came to me. She confided in me about something that happened when she faced the Lich. She told me that he tried to kill Lauren, and before he could get the chance she stole the chi of all his vessels at once. I never understood how she acquired such a power, now I see…" the barkeep trailed off.

"Her succubus was protecting Lauren" Dyson finished for him. He understood Trick's train of thought, and he followed it. He knew this better than anyone. Every time Bo was in danger, or someone was threatening her. Dyson's wolf would roar inside, telling him to rip the person that threatened his mate to shreds. Bo's succubus clearly acted the same way. "Which meant that she chose then" he added.

He would be lying if he said that, that didn't sting a little. Loving someone who didn't love you back was always horrible. And until he found a way to break free of his hold, the wolf was fated to live this life forever. "So what does this mean for them?" he asked.

"What do you mean?" Trick asked.

"Well, without sounding like a jealous ex… Lauren is human, she will grow old and pass on eventually. What will happen then?" the shifter asked. He really didn't mean it in the way it sounded, he had come to think of Lauren as a friend. Plus, she saved him from Taft. He owed her his life.

"Perhaps that circumstance has changed now" the old man said with an eyebrow raised.

"Meaning?" Dyson asked.

"Meaning, that this new development might alter Lauren's position in life. Bo will need Lauren to feed off of, now I know you are thinking… that, that can't happen. But we all know how unique Bo is, and how she likes to break the rules. Lauren being human, might not matter anymore" Trick said. Being mated meant that Bo's succubus would only crave Lauren from now on, which meant that maybe the mating might change the blonde.

"OLA FELLAS!" Both men turned their heads the door when they heard Kenzi yell. The girl walked into the house with Tamsin in tow. Looking very tired and a little peeked. The young human stopped in her tracks when she heard loud moaning coming from above her. "That didn't take them long huh?" Kenzi laughed.

She then noticed the small pool of blood on the floor and then the four huge guns on the kitchen counter. "Uh… Did I miss something?" she asked pointing to the blood.

"Lauren got shot" Dyson said simply.

Kenzi found that a little hard to believe, since she could hear the blonde's name being called over and over again by her roommate. "She's sounds fine to me" Kenzi said.

"Look, Kenzi. It's a long story, just know that there was an attack. Lauren was shot, but Bo healed her" Trick said. Kenzi's jaw dropped when she heard what he said. Bo healing Lauren? Since when could the succubus do that? She knew that Bo could bring people back to life with her chi, but she didn't know that the brunette could heal the wounds of another.

"Moment to freak out about that please!" Kenzi said.

"Since when can Bo heal people?" Tamsin finally found her voice as she walked into the kitchen. She had never heard of a succubus being able to do that.

"She can't heal people, she can only heal Lauren… They are mated" Trick said.

"Mated? As in the way D-man is all mooney over Bo? That kind of mated?" Kenzi asked, this was unbelievable. And kind of awesome at the same time. "One in the same" Dyson smiled. There was no point in being sour about this. "So what does that mean? Is the Doc different now?" Kenzi asked, she was a little confused by the whole thing.

"Well, for now she is the same. As for if that will change? I have no idea…." Trick said with a small shrug. Everyone looked up to the ceiling as they heard the moans stop. Which meant that they were done. "… Now we wait" he said.

Bo's Bedroom

After their activities, Bo and Lauren were content as they laid in bed together. The blonde was snuggled up into her girlfriend's side as she laid her head on the brunette's shoulder. Bo had her arms wrapped around the blonde, holding her close. "I'm so sorry…" she whispered against Lauren's forehead.

"For what?" Lauren asked.

"For not finding you sooner. You could have been spared all of this. I knew in my bones that something was wrong, but I was so heartbroken over losing you I didn't that I didn't do anything about it" the brunette said. Lauren felt guilty earlier and now it was her turn. In the weeks after Lauren had died, Bo felt something nagging at her inside. But she was so stricken by her grief that she didn't investigate it. Now she knew what it was. It was her succubus telling her that Lauren was still alive.

If only she had listened then. There would be no Peyton, and her girlfriend wouldn't have been used and abused for an entire year.

Lauren sat up a bit, leaning on her elbow as she looked down at the succubus. "You didn't know Bo, I don't blame you for anything. You told me not to be sorry earlier, and now I'm telling you. Stop it… I know in my heart that if you knew I was alive, that you would have come for me. I know that… It's just like you said, it was out of our control" she said.

Even though she told her to stop blaming herself, Bo couldn't help the tears that escaped her eyes. They were tears of joy and sadness. Joy of having the love of her life back, and sadness over the fact that she was out in the world all along. Lauren leaned down, capturing her girlfriend's top lip as she kissed her with a hand on her cheek.

The succubus held her hand there, her own fingers wrapped around the blonde's wrist. "I love you…" Bo said in a whisper.

Lauren smiled down at her, looking deep in to her eyes. "I love you too…" she said using her thumb to wipe away her girlfriend's tears. "… No more tears, okay?" she said with a smirk. Bo laughed and nodded. No more tears sounded good to her.

"As much as I would love to stay wrapped up in bed with you, I think we should go downstairs and talk about the plan. Peyton won't wait around for long, she'll be back" Lauren said, the benefit of living with that maniac was that Lauren knew her better than anyone. And that gave them an advantage.

"Yeah, you're probably right. Let's go…" Bo said giving her girlfriend a quick peck before getting up off of the bed.

Downstairs

It only took the couple a few minutes to get dressed, once they were done they went straight downstairs. As she walked into the living room, she saw everyone huddled around the kitchen island. They walked up to their friends hand in hand, they didn't want to be apart from each other just yet.

"Sorry we kept you guys waiting" Bo said with a bashful smile.

Kenzi made a Pftt noise, "Don'ts sweat it Bo-Bo, what's an hour between reunited soulmates? By the way doc, congrats on the restore… But just to be on the safe side, I'm gonna quiz you…" the human said walking up to her. "… What am I allergic to?" she asked.

"Peanuts, sensible footwear and anything non-alcoholic" Lauren answered with a smile. Kenzi was impressed, she must have paid more attention to her than she thought. "Did I pass?" the blonde asked.

"With flying colours, by the way I would have accepted just Peanuts. Welcome back doc" Kenzi gave her a wink.

"Thanks…" Lauren looked behind Kenzi and saw the assault rifles on the kitchen counter. She let go of Bo's hand and walked over to them, picking one up. "… Why didn't you get rid of these?" she asked turning to Dyson. Since the bodies were gone, she assumed that he had taken care of them.

"I thought that they might come in handy for when we have a plan together. Maybe you should be careful though" he said.

Lauren looked to Bo who just smiled with a nod. Everyone was in for a shock, the blonde saw an empty soda can on the counter and handed it to Tamsin. "Put this on your head" she said. The Valkyrie looked at her as if she was nuts.

"What? No way! It's great that you're back and all, but there is no way I am going to let you shoot something off of my head!" Tamsin yelled, was she insane?

Bo rolled her eyes and snatched the can from the detective. "You know for an age old Valkyrie, you're a baby…" she said placing the can on top of her own head. The succubus remained still as she faced her girlfriend who was now shouldering her weapon. "… I trust you" she gave her wink.

Lauren just smiled, she focused on her target. Clicking the safety off and cocking the chamber. She held her index finger on the trigger, remembering what Jeremy had taught her. He would tell her to breathe deeply, making sure that she took her time with the shot. Rushing it is a good way to get yourself dead. She did just that, keeping her eyes on the tin can that rested on her girlfriend's head.

Bo closed her eyes, she trusted Lauren completely. But she didn't really want to watch. All she heard next was a loud pop, and felt a gust of wind on the top of her head. As she opened her eyes, she saw that the blonde had lowered the gun. Turning around, the succubus saw the soda can on the floor with a bullet hole through it.

Lauren cocked the chamber to empty the used shell, catching it in her free hand as it jumped out of the barrel. She then put the safety back on and placed the rifle back on the counter. The blonde threw the empty shell casing to Dyson who was still in shock over what he just saw, but he caught it in his hand. "You were saying?" she asked with a smirk.

Dyson was speechless. He never thought that Lauren of all people would be this good with a gun, or weapon of any kind. Bo came to stand by her girlfriend, "I am so hot for you right now" she whispered in her ear. Lauren wanted to drag her back upstairs but she knew that they had work to do.

"Later…" Lauren kissed her on the cheek, leaving it longer than she should have.

"So, are you changing your name to Sarah Connor now?" Kenzi asked, she had never seen something so cool.

"No, but having these skills will come in handy. I know Peyton better than she knows herself, and I know all of her tricks. I don't know exactly why she wants me, but I am guessing it has something to do with Isaac" Lauren said.

"I say we just go in and kill the bitch" Tamsin said as if it wasn't a big deal.

"No, she has more resources that you could ever imagine. She had one room just for explosives. Which I am sad to say that I built some of them" the blonde said bowing her head. Bo slid her hand into her girlfriend's, holding it gently. "You didn't know what you were doing. It's not your fault" she said.

"What was she stealing?" Dyson asked.

"What?" Bo frowned, she didn't follow.

"When we first found you at that facility that you raided, what were you after?" the shifter asked, he had been wondering that for the last couple of days now. It wasn't like they only hit one lab, they hit more five all over the county. Which meant that Peyton wanted something, and she had gotten in. The question was, what was it? And why did she need it so badly?

"I don't know. She never told me, and I could never take a peek inside the cases because she kept them locked away. It's a medical research facility, so it has be some type of serum or formula. Something worth stealing… Did you get the manifests for the labs?" Lauren asked.

"Yeah about that, they won't give them to me. Something about classified research. The only one who has access to it is the new chief medical officer" The wolf said in a huff, he was not happy about that. How was he supposed to investigate the case if he didn't have the information to help?

"You mean whoever took over after me? Let me guess, Curtis Knox?" the blonde asked.

Bo nodded, "How did you know that?" she asked.

"He was just below me when I was head of the clinic. He never liked taking orders from a lowly human like myself, I bet he was just dying to take my job after I died. He probably threw a party to celebrate my death" the blonde smiled sarcastically.

"He's an asshole, Dyson had to stop me from ripping his head off once" the succubus said thinking back to the time she found Curtis trashing her girlfriend's office. Lauren kept private things in her office, and pictures of them both. When Bo got there, he had smashed most of the pictures and had thrown them in the bin. She wanted to rip his head off, Dyson had gotten there in time to pull her away.

"Well, he should have quite the shock when he sees my face" The blonde smiled.

"Do you think it is wise for you to show your face there? You have a free life now, going back might complicate things for you" Trick said wearily. After a ward of the Ash dies, their contracts of servitude are destroyed. No point in saving them. But with Lauren it could be different, she was a huge asset to the Light. He worried that they might try spin it so she was be pledged to them again.

"I don't care, I need to know what Peyton has been stealing. Maybe it ties into why she wants me, or it might have something to do with Isaac. So, I think it's time old Curtis and I have a little chat… Care to join me?" the blonde asked turning to her girlfriend with a smile.

"Love to… Lead the way babe" Bo chuckled.

Before anyone could say anything, both women left the house. Not that they wanted to stop them, they needed to get to the bottom of this.

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A/N: Short one, sorry. But my hand is killing me, only now I am starting to use it more. Let me know what you think of this one. Much love xoxo