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A/N 1 I am sorry for those that were disappointed that Sean had experience where Sue didn't. well It saddens me to lose readers I understand that the story may now not be everyone's cup of tea. For those that are still here thanks for sticking around and I hope you enjoy this chapter.

There was a little time between moving back to the apartment and classes and Sue used those few days to get all organized for classes. Yes that meant Binders. Her and Sean texted every night but his classes had already started and he was trying to get used to being back in the swing of class and assignments. So they hadn't actually seen each other face to face since their late night talk.

Sue was worrying about everything Sean had told her. She had so many question about the other girl. Who was she. Had Sean truly loved her. Sue figured Sean must have loved the faceless nameless girl if he'd slept with her. She couldn't see Sean just sleeping with someone he didn't love. At least she hoped she knew Sean well enough to make that assumption.

She knew she'd been in a bit of a funk but she thought she'd hid it well that was until Lexie sat down next to her the night before classes started and point blank asked her what was wrong.

"Sue you've been off for a week now would you like to tell me what has taken the pep and bubble out of you?"

"I don't know what you're talking about." Sue tried to evade her best friend.

"Sue." Lexie looked at her with stern eyes.

"Fine." Sue threw her hands in the air. "If you must know you remember the night Sean helped me move in and then we went back to his apartment?"

"Yes."

"Well we started to make out on his couch and then the oven timer went off interrupting us and well as we ate dinner I explained him how I… well how I don't have any experience I'd never went far with any of my previous boyfriends and I guess Naively I expected him to assure me he was the same way." She stopped her face beet red.

"And he didn't." Lexie guessed. "Oh Sue."

"I mean it wasn't horrible I guess he had a girlfriend before his Junior year and they broke up which explained his hippy phase."

"Wait Hippy phase."

"Yeah long story but if you see Nancy Donahue don't bring it up." Sue cautioned.

"Duly noted." Lexie nodded.

"Anyway so I guess they were together in every sense and I just wasn't expecting that and how can I be mad about something that happened long before we ever got together but I guess I'm still trying to wrap my mind around everything."

"I understand." Lexie took a deep breath and considered what to say. "You know I had a boyfriend all the way through High school" Sue nodded. "we broke up before I went away to school because I was coming here and he was going to Yale and we just couldn't see doing the long distance thing. The thing is we had slept together all through our senior year so it was hard to let go of that relationship. I don't regret it so much. A part of me does but another part of me knows it was the right thing for me at that time and place."

"okay." Sue said a little confused.

"All of that is to say that when I got with Axl." Sue pulled a face. "Yes, yes I know he's your brother but please stay with me. When I got with Axl I had to have realized he was older I knew he'd had a few girlfriends hell he'd been married. There was no way he didn't have experience and I was right he had a lot of experience so much it was intimidating."

Sue pulled another face and wanted to slap her hands over her ears. "Eww."

"Sue." Lexie rolled her eyes.

"Fine." Sue huffed crossing her arms. "Please continue." She scrunched up her nose though.

"As I was say he had more experience then I had expected and like you I found all this out one night when we were having dinner. It took me awhile to wrap my head around it all. I knew I loved him. I knew I wanted to be with him and I knew I trusted him. This was my issue, my hang up and I knew if I wanted the relationship to continue I had to get over it. If I couldn't it would ruin us. I eventually did. Don't get me wrong it took time and patience and lots of talks but me and Axl are more solid now then ever. So the question Sue is do you love and Trust Sean."

"Of course I do."

"Well then there's your answer. Talk to him if it will help but if you love and trust him don't let his past or your past ruin you. Everyone has a past and he was open and honest with you don't penalize him for that."

Sue sighed. "You're right I guess it was just a dent in my white knight on a horse fairytale."

"Oh Sue I love you, you know that but that isn't real life. Real life is messy and complicated and real. Sean loves you. You love him. For now that's all that matters. He's a great guy and I'm so happy for you. It was hard to see you last year. You and Aiden just didn't click no matter how much you tried to make it."

"I know." Sue grimaced thinking of poor Aiden he'd been a great boyfriend just not right for her. No matter how hard she tried. Her heart belonged to Sean and Lexie was right she couldn't ruin them just because Sean wasn't as shiny and dent free as she'd previously believed. If she loved Sean then she had to love all of him not just the perfect parts. She thought she already did but this was just a tiny bump in the road one she hoped they would soon figure out. No that she knew they would soon figure out. "Thank you." Sue said to Lexie.

"Any Time that's what best friends are for." She squeezed Sue's hand as she got up off the couch leaving Sue to ponder her next move.

A/N next up we get a look into Sean's thoughts on the topic and maybe a sue and Sean talk. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Thanks for the support I Have garnered so far.