Chapter 10

All right Kate thought I can do this she said to herself taking a deep breath she wasn't sure how she had come up with the courage to even drive over here but now that she was here she couldn't seem to get out of the car. Dammit Kate just fucking grow a pair and just do it you have no other choice. Closing her eyes she was instantly startled by a knock on her window. Rolling it down not sure what she was going to say.

"Car givin you trouble again Kit Kat?"

"Yeah" the lie coming out before she could stop herself. "Making a weird noise."

"Well come on give me the keys and I'll take a look."

"Yeah Okay." Kate said as she got out of the car and followed Tig to the office she knew he wasn't going to find anything wrong with it but what else was she supposed to say. As she approached the office she bit the bullet.

"Uh Tig is Happy around?"

"Yeah he's in his dorm hasn't gotten up yet you know him and sleeping in."

"Thanks I'm just going to pop my head in and say hi."

"Sure you are Kit Kat." Tig replied giving her a wink and his signature grin.

Kate made her way slowly to Happy's room she hadn't seen him in a month he had avoided the Dog since the night she left in tears and she avoided all things Samcro. Her relationship with Renee was still not mended nor did she think it would be. Harry scheduled them alternating nights during the week so Kate only had to see her on the weekends and even then the only thing she ever said to her was drink orders and Renee had given up trying. She knocked tentatively on Happy's door, waited until she heard a gruff "Yeah," come from him, and then slowly opened the door. He was sitting shirtless on his bed and looked like he had just gotten up. Kate instantly wanted to turn and run. His eyes locked onto hers in confusion. "Hey Kate."

"Hey Happy" Kate said as she entered the room shutting the door behind her wanting privacy.

"Well at least your clothes are better this time." Happy remarked taking in her plain jeans and a t-shirt. "What can I do for you?"

"Ummm so I ummm needed to talk to you." Kate said looking at her feet.

"Well you're here so talk."

"So well ummm something has come up and ummm I kind of need some help."

"Your car break down again."

"No that's not it, god I wish it was." Kate now trying to control her breathing as she began to sweat. "I ummm so I'm ummm I don't really know what to say here ummm….."

"Just spit it out little girl." Happy said reaching for a smoke and lighting it. But Kate just stood there braced against his door. "Kate seriously I gotta get into the garage or Gemma's gonna have my ass."

"Hap, Happy I… I" Kate stammered then dropped her head. "I'm pregnant." She said then letting out the breath she had been holding.

"Yeah" Happy said giving a slight pause before continuing his smoke.

"Yeah"

"And?"

"And what I'm pregnant."

"Not sure why you're here Kate telling me this."

"Well it's, it's yours."

"Nah don't think so." Was all he said as he methodically put on his boots.

"Happy I'm serious it's yours. I wasn't with anyone else but you."

"We always used protection Kate so not mine."

"Hap what the fuck do you want me to do. I'm kind of freaking out here." Kate said already exhausted by this conversation and the tears starting to form.

"I guess Kate if you plan on keeping it you should find the real dad and let him know." Happy said standing up and going to his dresser to pull out an envelope. "And if you're not then here." He said handing her the envelope. "Do you understand me Kate." Kate just stood there with her mouth open holding the envelope. Happy walked closer to her grabbed her by the shoulders and made sure to look into her eyes with his cold as ice ones his tone never faltering. "Tell me you understand what the fuck I'm saying Kate!" Happy shouted in her face using a tone she had never heard him use before but that night with Lou.

"Yes… Yes."

"Say yes I understand Happy." He said giving her a little shake.

"Yes I understand Happy."

"Good now get the fuck outta here I got shit to do." He said releasing her from his hold and opening the door for her ushering her out and then slammed the door.

Kate stood there staring at the door that had been slammed in her face. She didn't know whether to cry or be pissed. She really didn't know what to expect coming here but she wasn't expecting that from him not even acknowledge that it was his. Yeah she knew he'd want her to get an abortion he had already expressed his desire not to have kids. God she was an idiot what did she expect from him to go and hold her hand take care of her suddenly her stomach lurched so she was now running down the hall to the bathroom making it to the toilet just in time. She suddenly just wanted out of here she rinsed her mouth out and rushed out of the clubhouse back to the garage bay where Tig was looking under her hood. He saw her approach and stood up.

"Can't find anything Kate I didn't hear a noise and I don't see anything. You want me to keep looking."

"No, No thank you Tig I really have to get going."

"Hey Kit Kat you alright you don't look so good."

"I'm fine really Tig." And now here came the water works. "I have to go Tig now I have an appointment."

"Okay Kate." He said getting in the car and pulling it out of the bay. She quickly rushed into the driver's seat as soon as it was vacated.

"Thanks again Tig really."

"Kate you need anything you come tell me alright."

"I will Tig Thanks." Kate said but as soon as he was clear of the car she made a mad dash out of the lot.

Kate needed help like professional help she still had the envelope of cash Happy had given her a week ago but hadn't done anything else she tried to just go on as if nothing was different. She knew she couldn't go to her regular doctor as soon as she did her parents would find out. These were the times she wish she didn't live in such a small town. So here she sat on a tiny bench waiting for the Dr. to come out of her office. She wasn't sure if she was doing the right thing but she really didn't have a whole lot of options. As soon as the door opened Kate was on her feet and standing face to face with the brown haired doctor. "Dr. Knowles?" Kate had seen Tara at the clubhouse a few times had met her and her boys for a brief moment. She didn't really know her well but knew she was married to Jax mother of his Able and Thomas and Gemma's daughter in law.

"Hello, it's Kate right?"

"Yeah, can I talk to you for a second."

"Sure come in." Tara said motioning her into her office. "What can I help you with?" Tara asked once they were seated.

"Well I'm pregnant and I'm kind of at a loss I'm not really sure what I should do and I don't really have a Dr. here in town I can go to without it getting spread all over town."

"And how can I help you?"

"I don't think I'm going to keep it but I don't know where to go."

"Okay how far along are you?"

"I don't know."

"Well I can get you the name of a clinic. Have you explored other options yet such as adoption or have you considered having it?"

"I don't really have any idea what to do." Kate said and then she broke down sobbing. Tara quickly got up from her chair and came to her aid with a box of tissue. Putting a comforting hand on her shoulder.

"Kate how about we do an exam first see how far along you are and then go from there okay."

Tara showed her to an exam room and gave her a gown to put on.

"Kate this is my friend Rhonda she is an ultra sound tech so she will be performing that on you today. I will stay with you while she does it and then we'll talk."

Kate laid there nervously as the tech put gel on her stomach and began to slide it across her. "There it is!" exclaimed Rhonda "That little thing right there" she said pointing at the monitor. "Let's see if we can find the heart beat." Rhonda made a few adjustments now pushing on Kate's uterus and suddenly the room was filled with a wump wump wump sound. "Okay all done."

Tara left Kate to get dressed Kate was now shaking wondering how she even got here it felt like she was having an out of body experience her body was present but her mind was somewhere else. Once Tara returned she explained in a clinical voice. "Well judging from the size of the fetus you're probably 10 weeks along right now. Clinics will only do abortions up to 12 weeks so it really doesn't give you a lot of time to decide."

"Okay can you get the name of the clinic for me?"

"Sure, Kate have you talked to the father yet?" Tara asked trying hard to stay in doctor mode when all she wanted to do was wrap this poor little girl in her arms and tell her it would all be okay.

"Yeah that's who gave me the money for the abortion he wasn't really welcoming to the idea of me being pregnant. I don't have to tell you who the father is do I?"

"No you don't have to disclose that to anyone you don't want to. How old are you Kate?"

"I'll be 20 next month."

"I understand that your young and the father doesn't seem to be an active participant but there is a lot the state can do for you. You don't have to get an abortion you have options Kate. I understand your situation I was there before I had my Thomas I was young and Jax and I weren't in a stable place."

"Yeah but there is a difference in not being in a stable place and never going to be in a stable place. Tara I really appreciate this I didn't have anywhere else to go and I do appreciate the advice but I really think my best option is the abortion."

"Okay I'll get you the information and get you on your way. And Kate if you need anything or have any questions please come see me."

Kate left the hospital with the clinic information and now here she sat in her car staring at the wad of cash Happy had given her and the card Tara had given her. She rested her head on her steering wheel trying to calm her now full-blown panic attack. What the fuck was she going to do how she could have screwed up this bad. Not sure of what to do or how to make the decision she did the only thing she could think of and left it up to fate. She grabbed her purse to fish out a coin heads she kept it tails she would call the number on the card that Tara had given her. She flipped the coin catching it in her hand slowly opening her hand she looked down and let out a sigh of relief she didn't know she had in her until now.

"I saw Kate today." Tara said that night in bed lying next to Jax.

"Kate from the Dog?"

"Yeah, she's pregnant."

"Really she say who the father was."

"No wouldn't tell me. She's thinking of getting an abortion so I gave her the name of a clinic."

"You think It's Hap's?"

"I don't know didn't really get into her sexual history, she was real scared I don't think she really knows what to do tried to give her some advice. She's just so young Jax. She said she had already told the father and he wasn't too thrilled."

"Stay out of it Tara if it is Hap's it's none of our business."

"I will I'm just worried about her she seems like such a sweet girl. I hate she's going through this alone."

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