Chapter ten

The battle of Naraku

As they returned to the castle Jaken already had dinner made and ready for them. "My lord, I have taken it upon myself to make lunch, hoping that it would put me in somewhat of your good graces."

"You mind telling me how Inuyasha got out of the dungeon? You are the only one in the household that chooses not to be a part of the team." Sesshoumaru growled.

"I am sorry, my master, I just wanted to have him forgive me for my betrayal.? Please… please… don't be mad. He swore to her no harm."

"I think Jaken that you better worry about the betrayal that you have done to me and what is mine before you think about the betrayal with him."

"Did he try to harm her?"

"Harm her no, he scared her and that was enough." Sesshoumaru couldn't believe after everything, that this imp would disobey him again.

"How did you know that he scared me Sesshoumaru." Kagome questioned.

"I have told you, but you choose not to believe."

"I have a little faith, it is building as times surpasses. I just wish there was someway to get it back entirely, I am getting so tired of guessing."

"Of guessing what? I don't know how I can prove it to you, the only thing I can hope for is that being around me, you will remember." Sesshoumaru looked disappointed in a way.

"Not now, not with so many around, when we are alone I will tell you of my desires if you promise not to take advantage of them." Kagome implied so much more than what she actually intended.

Sesshoumaru growled, " I would never take advantage of you, or lie to you."

((so can you tell me if someone is lying or telling the truth)), she asked the voice in her head.

((You will already know the truth, but I can help you decipher if you have forgotten.))

((Thank you)) Kagome had to look away from Sesshoumaru she thought that he might be able to see that she was having a conversation within herself but if she had looked she would of seen that he was having a conversation too.

They all sat down at the table and began to eat. The entire time Sesshoumaru couldn't help but to think about her telling him her desires. For so long he has desired her.

"Kagome, once you remember everything, like I know that you will, I would love it if we could sit and bull shit about the old days." Sango looked at Kagome with hopes of starting a conversation.

"Well why don't you tell me some things about the past. I can reminisce with you even if I don't remember." Kagome wanted to remember she wanted to know about all the things that she didn't know about.

"Remember when you made Inuyasha sit so hard that he lost consciousness." Sango and Miroku started to laugh.

"What do you mean I made him sit?" Kagome was more than curious.

"There was this necklace before you and Sesshoumaru got together that Inuyasha had to wear and any time that you yelled sit he had to sit."

"Wow, that must have been nice." Kagome let a smile come over her face, "tell me more."

"You don't remember Kikyou or Naraku but I wish you could remember the battle where we killed them and you finished off Naraku once and for all."

"Well who are they." Kagome questioned.

"Kikyou was Inuyasha's mate here before he took you to the modern era." Shippou popped up.

"So why would we have killed his mate? Is that why he did this to me?"

"We killed her because she joined Naraku who was an evil half demon here, we had no choice. And it might have been one of the reasons that he took you but we think that it was to get back at me." Sesshoumaru spoke wounded.

"Why would he want to get back at you so badly?" Kagome now felt a little sorry for this strong demon.

"Because when you connected the jewel once we defeated Naraku, you didn't wish for him to be full demon, instead you wished for everyone who participated in the completion of the jewel would get what they most needed or desired. I got my heart back as he got freedom from his oath to Kikyou. he was jealous I already had power of all the land and then I had you cause my heart was open enough to see your heart."

"What was his oath to Kikyou?"

"That he would go to hell to be with her once the jewel was finished. That is why he is still here." Miroku spoke.

"So when Naraku was alive, who was the most powerful?"

"Those who fought with honor were stronger." Sesshoumaru said proudly.

"Yea, but those who fought with dishonor took us far to long to defeat." Miroku spoke honestly.

"Only because we had a traitor among us, and a ludicrous half blood. Not that I am against half bloods, but he was all about becoming full demon that he lost site on what actually mattered." Sesshoumaru seemed a little agitated at the thought of this unparticular past.

"So this Kikyou, what kind of person was she that she would betray you?" she looked directly at Sesshoumaru.

"She wanted your life, she believed that you had her spirit she was a walking dead carcass, and when she realized that we would not let her take your life, she decided to try and take it herself." It seemed as if there was pain flowing from Sesshoumaru's voice.

"Did I have her spirit? Was this evil apart of me?" Kagome looked back down at the table, moving her food around with her fork.

"No Kagome, You were never a part of her and she would never be apart of you. You are our sister, friend, mother, and mate? We know you don't know this but we all love you." Sango said in a way that made everyone look at her insightful words.

"So tell me about this battle, where these dreams came true."

Shippou was all excited that he could finally help his mother that he almost shouted, "I can show you, I can show you like a movie."

"How can you do that, son?"

Shippou was shocked because once again she had called him son. "I would have to use illusions and I would have to draw everyone's memory I can show you what everyone remembers, we would all have to hold hands."

"We are in," Sango and Miroku spoke simultaneously.

"Most of the memories would have to come from me, son, in order for her to see what she needs to see. I was the closest one." Sesshoumaru commanded.

"I guess I still can't help, I wasn't around at the time." Segome spoke.

"Neither was I sister, we could just stand by and watch." Rin said.

"But I wish I could help too." Whined Segome.

"You can help daughter, just being here helps, trust me." Kagome reassured her.

At that point Segome and Rin got up and moved to the end of the table as all the others came closer to one another so Shippou could pull from them. You could feel the energy flowing around the circle as Shippou started pulling the memories and a bright light showed in the middle of the table.

*The movie of the past*

the outer rims were fuzzy, but the picture in the center was the clearest. Kagome could see herself, she was human she looked like she did in the modern era. She saw herself and Sesshoumaru standing in the center facing a tall dark, long haired man and a woman that looked a lot like her standing next to him. it was silent. She pulled back the string on the bow, concentrating on the shot knowing that she had to make it count not seeing Kikyou come behind her. Sesshoumaru saw Kikyou move behind Kagome and grab her arrow half way as she held it above Kagome. He started to move towards her when at that moment Kagome released her bow as she was pierced from behind by kikyou's arrow. He was too late to save Kagome but he did take vengeance on Kikyou. He used his poison claws jamming them into Kikyou filling her with his poison and watched as she fell to the ground beside Kagome. As Naraku fell to the ground his minions disappeared and the jewel glided to Kagome making the jewel she held in her hands complete. Sesshoumaru stood above her as she placed her hands together around the jewel as if she was praying. In her dieing breath she wished for all who helped with the completion of the jewel to have what they most needed or desired. As everyone realized what was happening they all filtered into the center. A light pink glow surrounded all that were gathered around Kagome as the light vanished you could see that all were healed of their wounds and that Rin had been brought to Sesshoumaru's side. The power of the jewel had brought Rin to Sesshoumaru. You could see that Sesshoumaru eyes were softer than they had ever been. Rin was changed into a demoness like her father, Miroku's curse of the wind tunnel had vanished and him and Sango had become demonic. The only people that you could not see a drastic change in was Kagome, Inuyasha, and Sesshoumaru. But knowing the oath that Inuyasha had with Kikyou the fact that he was still there made them understand what he had received. The others at that point looked confusingly wondering what Sesshoumaru and Kagome had received.

*End of past movie*

"So what did we get Sesshoumaru?" Kagome asked.

"I got my heart, and you became demon. My demon mate."

"Why didn't it show me changing?"

"Because all desires must have been fulfilled before yours came to be."

"why did you just receive your heart? How did you loose your heart?"

"For all I needed to be complete was my heart, you had already given me my arm which was my other missing piece."

"That still doesn't answer how you lost your heart, and now how did you loose your arm."

"as far as my heart is concerned I was taught to be cold fore there was no reason for me to have it, my arm well you had something to do with that." Sesshoumaru spoke sheepishly.

"What did I have to do with it, and if I took away why would I give it back."

"You are the one that gave my brother the sword that took my arm, you gave it back to me in your own words because you wanted me to reflect my name."

"What is your name?" Kagome asked.

"Sesshoumaru."

"I mean what does it mean?"

"Umm.. killing perfection."

"How romantic." She was being playful.

"Only you would know if I am truly the killing perfection." Sesshoumaru bounced back.

"Well maybe that part I will have to be reminded." She caught the sly remark that he had made and knew that he was talking about the little death that came from physical pleasure.

"Been waiting on you."

"Well I hope you haven't waited to long that you have forgotten."

"it is as much a part of me as breathing I would never forget how to please you."

"Hey, we are all here… remember?" Segome interrupted.

"Sorry, she unlocked the cage I had to answer to let her know I was still here."

"Yea, yea, yea… whatever." Shippou laughed.

"Segome that is how you came to be, don't be mocking it." Rin giggled.

"Don't remind me."

"Hey I wanted reminding." Sesshoumaru sneered.

"Hey I just want to remember what it was like to conceive and to give birth."

"UMM. I can help you with that." Sesshoumaru spoke again.

"well I think I need to get some memories back first, and then we will see." Kagome shied away.

"Hey now there are kids, remember? I mean come on I am perverted but not in front of children." Miroku piped up.

"Sorry," both Kagome and Sesshoumaru spoke at the same time.

(You didn't mean that?) smirked the voice in her head.

(I know, I think I am beginning to like all of this) Kagome thought.

(Well, if you want to remember what exactly it was like, I am sure that he would gladly take you up on it.)

(Later I will tell him of my desires, you think this is moving too fast?)

(depends, do you believe him that you have a past?)

(It is making more since, a kiss would be a step in the right direction.)

"Hell ya," screamed Sesshoumaru.

"What was that for?" Segome asked seeing her mother look at him with suspicion.

"Umm… just thinking about the past." Sesshoumaru blushed.

"yea right dad." Rin knew too well that her father was thinking of more than that.

(you there?) came the voice again.

(where did you go?) Kagome asked the voice, suspicious that he was sesshoumaru.

(I have been talking to you, I think you were distracted.)

(can we continue this conversation later?)

(As you wish my lady. Have too much on your mind?) the voice toyed with her.

(Well you can read my mind, you tell me.)

(I don't read your mind unless you give me permission, do I have it?)

(Yes, but I am distracted right now.)

(Well with that I will let you go for now. Remember I am here.)

(Thanks again, bye.)

When she had returned to the others she sat back and listened to there nonchalant conversation, she couldn't help but to keep thinking about the conversation earlier with Sesshoumaru and how easy it was to toy with him.

Sesshoumaru stared at Kagome as she watched the others. He admired her, and he wanted her to remember. he loved the playfulness they had earlier and he was hoping he wouldn't lose it again. he was getting aroused just sitting there watching her. In reaction he lifted his hand and lightly grazed that placed his mate mark would have been on his chest. He noticed her reaction.

She felt the heat rise within her; all of a sudden she felt her legs quiver. She knew she kept getting this exciting feeling but when she looked around the room she didn't notice anyone doing anything. Then her eyes met with Sesshoumaru, she reached up to the back of her neck and rubbed her mate mark.

She saw his eyes light up, she felt like she could feel his arousal. She knew then what the voice had been telling her and that Sesshoumaru had a mark as well as she did.

Sesshoumaru feeling every move she made look down into his shirt when he saw that his mate mark was back and that it was burning. He let a growl slip between his lips.

The rest of the group heard his growl and could feel the tension growing as they saw the two demons looking at one another they grabbed the children and quietly and slowly arose from the table and left the dinning room to give the two alone time.

The two had not even noticed that the rest of the group had left; they had even forgotten that they were there. They were lost in torturing one another constantly rubbing their marks. It was like they were trying to see which one would cave first.

Back and forth they went the growl's between them getting stronger and stronger, the heat in both of them arising so high, an outsider would say that it had become a boiler room. Sesshoumaru couldn't stand it anymore he leaned over and grabbed her hand that was on the back of her neck. Leaving his arm around her and kissed her fully. His other hand steadying him so he wouldn't just collapse on her. There kisses continued as their inner demons were fighting to get out. "Mine," she heard him growl.

She pushed her hands up in front of her. "wait a minute, I didn't say now."

"Come on please, no more torture, my mate." He said falling to his knees.

"Well, we will have to see." She arose from the table and cockily walked out of the dinning room.

Everyone in the palace could hear Sesshoumaru's growl as he tried to readjust himself and his thinking.

When she reached the gardens she collapsed onto the bench still trying to calm herself down, she couldn't believe she had let herself lose that much control so quickly, she had to remember. She didn't want to continue on this blind journey. She heard his growl, she felt his suffering, knowing all too well herself. Why had she put him through that? Did she really care? She knew that she did, but she didn't want to be too easy. How was she suppose to tell him that she wanted him, that she had a desire within her for him and she had no clue why. they told her why but she didn't know whether or not to trust that instinct about him she had trusted it with Inuyasha and look where it got her.

Why did she do this to him, didn't she see how much he cared about her? He was getting angry, he was so close. He blamed himself for kissing her. Was she mad? Was she scared? He had never been rejected, specially not from the woman that he loved. The anger grew inside of him. he couldn't tell whether she was taunting with him or whether she did it to piss him off. But the anger continued to grow until he couldn't take it anymore and he took off out into the forest. As he was running through the forest his full state took over. He couldn't think clearly. Damn those fucking woman he thought.

(are you there?) her voice came into his head.

(what are you after?) the voice replied to her.

(I think I fucked up, I am sure that you know what I am talking about.) she knew that the voice was apart of her and knew what she had done.

(Well let's see, YES, I would say you fucked up.)

(what was I suppose to do? Does he think me that easy?)

(He didn't say you were easy, you just teased him to the point of no return.) replied the voice.

(Are you male or female?) she asked the voice.

(can't you tell by my voice?)

(Ok, so you are male, tell me how would you feel if that had happened to you?)

(The same way he does, only I don't think I could of stopped. Listen, you get a demon riled up specially your mate who has been without you for so long, you can expect repercussions.)

(Like what?) she asked worried.

(Do you wish him to turn from you? Is that what you want?)

(No, yes, no… I don't know. It would be easier if I remembered everything.)

(well until there is no doubt, you won't?)

(Who doubt's and what do they doubt?) she asked.

(You Kagome Higurashi doubt your heritage and your mate.)

(Wouldn't you if you were in my shoes?)

At that point just hearing her voice calmed Sesshoumaru down out of his full state where he could think a little bit clearer. (have been in your shoes, but have to give them a chance.)

(How do I apologize to him, and tell him that I desire him, that I am just scared?) Kagome had a tear drop from her eye.

(The same way that you have just shared that with me.)

(But he probably won't talk to me now.) more tears started flowing heavier.

(What if I told you that I could arrange for him to be there right now. That I know beyond a reasonable doubt that he wants to be with you, and that he desires you more than anything he has ever breathed in his entire life?)

(I would ask you how, and how do you know he feels those things?)

(just because you have lost your memory doesn't mean I have. I know how that demon feels about you.)

(Ok so how could you get him here?)

(You already have.)

(What?)

(He is standing behind you my dear, your tears brought him to your side.)

(Why hasn't he made an advancement towards me?)

(He chooses not to scare you, he is waiting on you. All you have to do is whisper his name, that will let him know that it is ok and then his presence you shall feel.)

Sesshoumaru had left the forest and had come up behind Kagome during this conversation. "Sesshoumaru," the sweet words blowing through his ears made his heart start beating again as he bent over and wrapped his arms around her waist.

"I am sorry Kagome, a kiss forbidden, but maybe a future permitted."

No more was said as they sat there holding one another as the flowers were blooming around them and the sun was getting ready to set. After the time went by her silence was frightening, to make sure she was ok he moved the hair from the back of her neck and went to catch her scent when he noticed the mark had returned. He couldn't help but to just once lick his tongue over the fang indentation left there.

Kagome melted further into Sesshoumaru's embrace so much that she wanted to tell him, so much that she wanted to say, but still for some reason she was so scared that he would turn her away.

"Don't be sad, please don't cry."

"I'm not there to wipe the tear from your eye."

"Laugh a little laugh, Smile a little Smile,"

"I Promise it will be ok in a little while."

He whispered those words in her ear and she felt the same comfort that she had felt before. He didn't turn from her then why would he turn from her now.

"Sesshoumaru…"

"Not now Kagome, please let me enjoy this moment that I have so longed for with you." He held her tighter.

Soon later Segome not really wanting to disturb their time together came out into the garden. "Dinner is ready, if you two love birds wish to join the rest of the group."

"Segome, we will be there soon. Leave us."

"Ok dad, but you can't have her all to yourself all the time." She said playfully.

"Not now Segome, I know you are playing but not like that, not right now."

"Yes, father."

Segome went back into the mansion to join the others. After a couple of minutes Kagome turned around and looked in Sesshoumaru's eyes. "I promise you, I will have faith in you until such time that you give me reason not to, promise me that you will never hurt me?"

"Kagome NoTaishou, formally Kagome Higurashi, I promise on the life of the moon goddess I will never harm you. I will love you till the day I die, believe me in that."

"I do." She did believe him, she didn't know why but she knew that he was all that she wanted at this moment in time.