And dream I do

by aerisofthewhite

She is standing on the edge when she first sees him. A one shot from Yuna's point of view as she struggles to cope with events leading up to and during FFX. Ten Parts.

10. Whirl of Disarray

Part Ten- Whirl of Disarray

Maybe two or three days later, after the fight, at the end of everything, she dances.

She's lost something about herself with the end of her pilgrimage. She has seen him broken over his father but couldn't comfort. She's heard him say a desperate goodbye and couldn't dissuade him, couldn't even fully understand, except that he meant to leave- and still does. She used to be the force that held them all together, used to smile and nod and send them all marching forward but now she s at a loss as to what is going on or what to do.

She raises her staff high above her head and sends with a fury that she's never had before, knowing that this is the end of Sin, the end of the Aeons, the end of the journey, but more than anything, this is the end of that strength and resolve that she built and was broken and he helped her glue back together. She s breaking again- or at least she will be- and she puts all her strength into this sending. Because it's all she gets to do, all the part she is allowed to play. And it's all she's going to be fit to do for a while.

They'll say that she did it all- she bested her father and conquered death itself and managed to come out of it all unscarred- but that's not quite true. They'll say she's strong, forcing herself on, doing her duty even after killing her Aeons and battling Sin and knowing she has to say goodbye- but in truth, she has to be strong. What other choice is there? This was meant to be her sacrifice- and she's losing that and the one thing (the most important thing) she thought she d be able to keep until the end and keeping the rest. But if he has to go to make Sin leave, then she's going to make sure the sacrifice is worth it and Sin is gone for good.

So she plays her part and dances, without stopping or thinking, with a frenzy never seen before. This was supposed to be her story, her journey, her sacrifice- but in the end, all she will do is see it through and hope she has the strength left to continue on when the dust settles beneath her feet.

[Finis]