AN: Due to the Fact I have now obtained a job I will not be posting as quickly but I'll aim for at least one chapter of one of my stories a day. I write other things so fanfics while fun are not my priority. Enjoy 36 Weeks & Counting! =)

I Do Not Own Inuyasha

Chapter 10

So she had hit the ten week marker and while her morning sickness was easing her stomach was not. Was she supposed to have this much of a bump at ten weeks? Rin examined herself in the full length mirror turning her slim form from side to side to observe the obviously protruding bump. Strange she thought as she watched herself, very strange. Picking up the card Tsukiyomi had given her Rin thought about the group, perhaps talking to women who had previously been pregnant would help her. She had no idea what she was supposed to be doing or how her body was supposed to be acting during pregnancy. All she knew was that three weeks ago she had had a flat stomach, and now it wasn't flat, it was a very distinguished bump as if she was sixteen weeks pregnant rather than ten. She was feeling the huge now and in retrospect she hadn't even begun.

Dragging on a sundress Kagome had picked out Rin pulled on flats then walked out of her room right into Sesshomaru. She sighed as she stepped back then smiled up at him.

"Where are you going?" he purred out, her heart rammed in her ribs while her body heated instantly at his smooth baritone voice. What was wrong with her!?

"To a support group," she admitted, his amber gaze was making her hot, she wanted to run before she did something truly foolish like kissing him.

"Really, why?" Sesshomaru asked as he turned towards her while she attempted to slip around him.

"Why! Because I'm ten weeks pregnant and look like I'm sixteen weeks pregnant, because I'm tired of the only one I can talk to about my body's changes is the male inu daiyōkai who talked me into being knocked up, and because I'm scared to death! Don't get me wrong being pregnant isn't all bad, the changes are something I'd rather discuss with a woman over you; no offense; and while I'm thrilled to be pregnant I want someone to understand how truly terrifying this experience is." She sighed.

"Rin," he asked in that velvety voice of his which sent shivers up her back now. Why was her body acting so damn strange! Even to her this was strange, something in her wanted to jump into Sesshomaru's arms, kiss him senseless and drag him to the bed. But it felt wrong to even think that since he was her best friend.

"I need to talk to someone, I'm not sick, I want to go, and while they're your pups this is my body and I insist on knowing what's going on!" Rin continued to argue as she carefully descended the stairs trying to escape from Sesshomaru. If she wasn't careful then nineteen years of friendship could fly out the window. She didn't think she could stand that. Sesshomaru meant the world to her, she would not mess it up by being stupid and being human and being confused. She refused to screw this up. He was her only true friend and she would not lose him because her body was being hijacked by two mini-Sesshomaru! That was final!

"I was going to offer to drive you," he said sounding slightly amused, she grumbled as she walked to the car. He got in the driver's seat, she tried to press herself to the door so she didn't do something truly stupid. These evil little parasites were taking after their father and they weren't even born yet, Rin scowled at her bump as she traced light circles on it. Gods above did she love these two but they were hijacking her body and making her feel weird things! Not fair, she thought.

"Are you alright Rin?" he asked in that same cold, indifferent tone he always used.

"No, the invassion of the body snatchers has begun," she grumbled as she stared at her bump. Was there supposed to be this big of a bump at ten weeks? She really needed to talk to a female about this matter since talking to Dr. Suikotsu was just straight out weird because of his job and because his love to talk to her in something she was relatively certain many women considered a sexy voice but to Rin it was creepy. Now if you wanted sexy, her eyes slid in the direction of the stoic Sesshomaru, talk about sexy! What the fuck was wrong with her mind!? Rin felt twitchy again. She needed to get away from Sesshomaru for a few hours at least to collect her thoughts and reorganize her brain.

Yeah, retreat, regroup, reevaluate the problem with a different solution. Trouble wasn't leaving her alone, and it had decided to attack her in the form of hormones. Rin decided that when she met up with her Maker she and He were going to have one very serious talk because He had done a complete injustice to the world by making women the childbearing ones. She liked the thought of men being the pregnant ones, the thought made her grin evilly.

She loved the thought of the indifferent, stoic, and mighty Sesshomaru suffering through pregnancy. Yes the thought held appeal to her. He'd probably endure it with silence but he'd suffer all the same, the thought was appealing.

"Rin?"

"Hm?" Rin looked up to Sesshomaru who was looking critically at her.

"We're here," he nodded out of the window of the passenger window. She just sighed as she got out of the car, then popped her head back in the window.

"You'll come get me if I call right?" she asked. He lifted a brow at her.

"You know you're super annoying when you do the who silent superiority thing," she grumbled.

"You're irritating when you're fidgety," he retorted.

"Deal with it," Rin grumbled as she stomped up to the house.

"Rin," she turned around only to see him following her with her jacket. He slid it around her shoulders, "relax," he growled in her ear. Then he was gone, she was standing there feeling hot, bothered, and fidgety. Again. Damn him! But she loved him anyway, sighing she walked off to the front door. Quietly she knocked on the door. The door flew opened a hand snatched her wrist and dragged her into the house despite her shock.

"Rin! Come in!" a voice screeched.

Alright, she thought as she trotted out of the house relieved the two hours were up, she didn't need a support group. The information had been useful and helpful in her opinion but she did not need those women micromanaging her pregnancy. About the only useful thing Rin had learned was she needed to talk to her partner, the partner being whoever she was relying on. She was relying on Sesshomaru for the most part and she'd need to have a discussion as to define their relationship. Being the child's father was half of what he was but he was also so much more to her and she felt it time to just admit to it. This didn't mean Rin had to be happy about telling him everything she was feeling. Most of this he wouldn't understand.

One: because he was male, men did not understand the changes she was feeling since they didn't understand it. Now that she thought about it she thought it weird her doctor was a man, as was her partner, and the nurse; she was having a serious talk with Sesshomaru about that.

Two: he was partially inu which meant occasionally he had some very…doggish traits rearing their head and it would be difficult for him to be completely rational about this from a human standpoint. She knew he had some very animalistic instincts and they were at the core of who he was.

Three: he was a yōkai, daiyōkai at that, and they were superior in every way to anyone who crossed them. Rin doubted there were many who could rival Sesshomaru in strength or will but she was going to try.

And four: he was Sesshomaru, and yes it was a legitimate reason if you asked her. Sesshomaru hated everyone who was not his pack; he didn't care about his family but the center of his pack was what he'd protect and guard with everything he was. Trying to talk to him about families…

Oh boy, she was going to need a lot of will power to get through this. Not that talking to Sesshomaru was a bad idea but he wasn't exactly talkative and he was so damn stubborn there were times she felt like she was pounding her head against a brick wall. Talking to Sesshomaru required patience, persistence, stubbornness, and determination. There were times it was like talking to the wind though and there were times it felt like she was trying to move a damn mountain. Sighing again as she walked down the street she pondered just how she was going to deal with this.

Rin really did need to talk to him. Preferably without Dr. Suikotsu around. She wanted to talk to him about the changes happening in her, about how she felt about him, and about the future. The pitiful thing was it was so soon after Ayaka's death it pained her to think of the future. The future she was taking because Ayaka couldn't be here to have it. Sucking down a breath she decided she'd ignore her guilt and pain as she'd try to talk to Sesshomaru. Preferably before she had the pups.

"Rin?"

"Eep!" she spun around to look at one very disgruntled looking inu daiyōkai. "Oh it's you," she sighed out.

"Yes it's me, and you are not where you're supposed to be," he snapped irritably at her as he opened the passenger car door for her. She rolled her eyes as she walked to the car and got in. He shut the door and almost magically appeared in the driver's seat as he started the car and they drove to the mansion again.

"The support group…I don't think that's for me," Rin admitted sadly as she stared at her bump and hands. All she had confirmed was she was supposed to be showing but they hadn't told her anything else about pregnancy. In fact all those women seemed interested in doing was gossiping, it had nearly driven her crazy.

"Hn," was his answer.

"We need to talk," she said carefully, his amber gaze slid towards her and he tilted his head slightly as if to say 'continue'. "About the pups, I want to be involved. I want to be their mom, I want to be with you and Inuyasha and Kagome, and I want a family. I'm tired of holding it together and pretending you're nothing more than my best friend," Rin admitted.

"Careful about your next words, Rin, they'll seal your fate," he warned her in a cold deep voice, she didn't look at him as she took a shaky breath to stable herself.

"I love you," she breathed. There she had said it, she had admitted to her deepest darkest secret and she wasn't dead. It hadn't killed her but the silence in the car just might kill her. She felt the car pull over to the curb, alright so maybe he'd kill her now and save her the torture of loving him by ending it all. Then again he wanted these pups so he just might torture her for the next six or seven months. Somehow that didn't strike her as out of the realm of possibilities.

"Rin," his clawed finger turned her chin so she'd look at him. Though his amber eyes were still unreadable there was something soft in them, something which had her melting again. It was so tender it almost made her want to cry.

"I've loved you for a long time, since I was six and I know you don't feel the same way but the only thing I took from that support group was I needed to be honest with my partner and that's you and I just, I just wanted you to know I love you as a lot more than just a friend. I'm sorry," she muttered out miserably trying to look anywhere but in his eye. If she looked him in the eyes again she just might break and she didn't think she had it in her to survive this break if she broke. This time if she broke she'd shatter and there'd be no picking up the pieces, gluing her heart back together or continuing on with her life. She had just handed him her heart to destroy or accept and it terrified her.

His lips brushed hers lightly then.

Rin froze in shock then melted into the tender kiss. So this is what kissing Sesshomaru was like, she sighed as she let him lead the kiss wherever it was going to go. He growled softly as he nipped her bottom lip before pulling away, she stared at him with wide eyes. Her heart was pounding away and her blood was singing while her senses were reeling in the aftermath of being kissed by Sesshomaru. Rin was pretty certain her brain was mush at the moment, while everything else in her was aching for more. He nipped her bottom lip again.

"Why?" she breathed, he smirked.

"Hn," was the answer she got before he brushed his lips against hers again and they continued driving to the mansion. Rin was sitting in complete and utter shock. Her mind was reeling from what had just happened and Sesshomaru was sitting there all cool, expressionless, and indifferent to the world while also managing to look perfect. She slumped in her seat. She'd never understand Sesshomaru! The male inu daiyōkai Sesshomaru would never make any sense to her!

Sesshomaru helped her out of the low car, they walked into the mansion when he scooped her up then dashed for the bedroom.

"Sesshomaru!" Rin giggled out as he tossed her on the bed. He was suddenly on top of her, his lips on hers again as he kissed her long, hard, deep and seriously.

"I missed you," he murmured softly then kissed her again, deeper, slower, harder, longer than she'd have thought possible. She sighed in delight when his fingers roamed over her body.

Rin woke comfortably hugging mokomoko and being hugged by Sesshomaru in return. She turned her head to look into a set of warm amber eyes watching her.

"Hi," she breathed. He kissed her instead of answering, Rin groaned for it felt so damn good to have him kiss her.

"Nice nap?" he murmured as his lips traveled down her throat.

"Yeah, what are we doing now Sesshomaru?" Rin asked curious because he was obviously naked with her, she could feel a certain hardness forming near her butt.

"I want you," he admitted. She moaned at his touch and gave up everything to him again.

Finally they had to stop so they could get dressed to go get Kagome and Inuyasha from school but curiosity was bugging Rin in this matter. As she stood in the bathroom brushing her hair she wondered why he was doing this with her. Sesshomaru wasn't one to reveal much of anything but she knew he was not the lover type. He was not the type to love anyone, care about maybe and use certainly but Rin wasn't certain on if he loved her. His arms came around her gently as she looked up at their reflection in the mirror. True he was wearing his normal blank façade he showed the world and everyone around him but there was look of tenderness in his eyes.

"Why are we doing this?" Rin asked silently.

"We have to collect Inuyasha and Kagome," he replied, she smirked slightly as she pinched his arm.

"You know what I meant." He didn't deny or counter what she had just claimed.

"Yes, and it is because you are important and because since I was nine there has only been one creature who also happens to be human, to stand by me without fear. And you love me, that makes you mine," he growled out as he kissed the nape of her neck then, she sighed.

"What about Ayaka? Didn't you love her?"

"No," the answer was cold, clipped, and not something you could argue with. A part of her she hated loved the answer, knowing he hadn't loved Ayaka was somehow a relief to her and it made her feel like a pathetic petty woman; the kind of woman she hated. Another part of her was silently breaking knowing Sesshomaru hadn't loved his wife. Or was she his mate? Rin didn't know as her hands rested atop his, and his were resting on her bump.

"Do you love me?" Rin dared to ask since she wanted to know.

"Hn," an undecided answer. She should've known he wouldn't give her that power over him, Sesshomaru did not like having others know him or his weaknesses and what he perceived as weakness in himself he guarded it closely. Even as a child he had defended his weaknesses from everyone even her.

"I love you," she whispered again as he kissed her neck some more. She'd tell him even if he wouldn't tell her if even mattered to him. Rin didn't really care if he loved her or not, though she wanted him to love her, but she loved him and always had and always would. It was something she had come to terms with today though it had irritated her to no end. While she loved Sesshomaru he didn't not admit what he felt for her. But she doubted he'd ever sleep with someone he didn't care about in some capacity. So she guessed she'd be happy with him caring about her since it was so much more than what she'd get from other men.

"We have to get Inuyasha and Kagome," he informed her before he kissed her lips again then left her be to get ready. She smiled slightly at his retreating form then pulled on proper clothing and flats. Walking to the front door he offered her an arm, she took it as they walked out of the house.

"The morning sickness is easing up," Rin informed him happily as they walked towards the school again.

"Hn," she just rolled her eyes then leaned on him a little. Gods above did she love Sesshomaru but his lack of answers was sometimes infuriating. But like they said, 'actions spoke louder than words'. She'd believe that until the day she died where Sesshomaru was concerned for if he was ever required to say anything about how he felt she had a feeling he'd perish or burn in hell because not even the devil could get him to talk. Leaning on him she smiled softly while she walked with him. So what if he wasn't much of a talk, who cared if he didn't say anything ever, and so what if he was a maddeningly irritating inu diayokai? All she cared about was the fact she loved him more than life itself and maybe he reciprocated those feelings since this afternoon he had loved her.

"Rin!" Kagome came running out of the school grounds.

"Rin!" Inuyasha was two steps behind Kagome as they both came flying to her, she grinned as she greeted them, hugged them then listened to them argue and tell her about their day while Sesshomaru stood with her. He walked them back home.

Sesshomaru watched Rin with the pups as they walked back to the mansion. True her morning sickness had eased, she was still ill in the mornings, but that was the mornings now. This afternoon had just about sent him to heaven hearing those words from Rin's lips, he hadn't been able to stop himself for that first kiss. His lips had brushed hers' lightly mostly as a reassurance then her taste had managed to get him addicted to her so he had to have more. True he hadn't admitted to loving her but she didn't seem to mind if he didn't say, instead she had given him her body.

A few weeks back, at the start of this mess he had asked Dr. Suikotsu about sex if the time should ever come and Rin wanted him. To Sesshomaru's shock the doctor had said it was fine so long as Rin was not on her back, it wasn't rough, and they did nothing kinky in the bedroom. Sesshomaru didn't understand what the doctor thought he did for sex but the doctor had emphasized on no: bondage, S&M, and a few other things which had had his eyebrow twitching. Did he look like a sadist or something!? Probably which was the only reason he hadn't shouted at him to stop, all he wanted to know was if sex would hurt Rin or the pups. He had gotten too much information if you asked him.

Sex with Rin this afternoon had been the closest to nirvana he had ever gotten, he had loved her body and the bump which seemed to make her self-conscious. The bump to him showed she was his and she was completely his, no one else had created that bump. Even if he had not had a part in the conception of those pups the bump proved her to be his. His pups were in her, and he had loved it. Now the trick would be keeping his hands off Rin, this would be problematic if you asked him since he had loved what he had gotten from her. Rin tasted sweet and everything about her was so uniquely her.

Years of celibacy had just been shot to hell because he had kissed the one woman he had wanted since he had seen her in that crummy dinner after fifteen years. Rin just smiled at him over her shoulder as she walked with Inuyasha and Kagome, he felt the insane urge to scoop her up and hide her from the world so he could lavish her with his attentions. He really loved the fact she was pregnant, he loved the changes to her body, and her new scent was his newest addiction. Rin was something else now and she was entirely his, he loved it. All he had to do was wait until tonight and then he could get his hands on her again, until then he'd make certain they were safe.

Setting up in the kitchen Kagome, Inuyasha and Rin all started on homework, since Rin was feeling better she was doing the things she normally did. Homework, cooking, walking them from school since she was too sick in the mornings to take them to school, and all of the talking. Rin had resumed her care taking relatively quickly once she had started feeling better, and he had resumed his role as the guardian of their little pack.

He had thought that since the support group Rin had gone to, things were getting back to how they had been. The pups were slowly going back to normal while Rin was resuming her original roles as caretaker of Kagome and Inuyasha. To his shock though his protectiveness of Rin hadn't diminished now that she wasn't so ill. In fact it seemed more prominent now than ever. Today at her support group he had hid in the tree in the back yard, much to his disgust. Leaving Rin alone didn't seem to be an option for him.

Now he was watching her with Inuyasha and Kagome who were both giggling and laughing. Perhaps tomorrow after Rin's doctor's appointment he'd take all three of them off to go buy ice cream or something. He was certain the pups deserved a treat for all they were enduring, and he figured they were enduring a lot of radical changes in a short time. It would be good for them to know they had his and Rin's support still.

The rest of the evening was calm and quiet as Kagome and Inuyasha watched some TV after dinner then began fighting about what show they were going to watch again. Rin just giggled as she walked into the kitchen again holding the dishes.

"So I was thinking," she started as he lifted her up to sit on the counter.

"Yes?" he asked.

"I'd like to try out being us, not pregnant us or friends us or the guardian us but just try us being a girl and a guy going on a few dates," Rin said uncertainly. He kissed her lightly for he had no qualms with the idea, they'd need to think this through and carefully. Not that he really cared because he was making plans on keeping Rin, the trick for keeping Rin would require ensnaring her. It shouldn't be a problem since she loved him and was pregnant with his pups.

"How's Saturday?" he asked.

"We'd need a sitter," Rin fretted.

"Jaken can watch them," Sesshomaru suggested then Rin smiled evilly. He had a sense that Jaken was not Rin's favorite yōkai in the world since those two could barely be together without arguing.

"Yeah, Jaken can watch them," Rin agreed deviously. He smirked as he kissed her again. They collected two sleepy eight year olds in their beds and then he had Rin all to himself. Loving her was fun, though it was strange for him to willingly lay on his back while she was above him, but he didn't mind since this was Rin and she was the one exception to everything he felt.

After Rin and Sesshomaru left the office Dr. Suikotsu pulled up the sonogram he had done today to see if he saw what he thought he had seen all those weeks ago. Playing it back he watched the bleary image closely. There!

Was that?

It was gone, damn it. This was puzzling him as he put the recording back in it's file then went to his next patient.