nWell people, it has been a while. I have been very busy with exams and studying and blaaaaaaaaaaaah. I also conquered my fear of roller coasters and am very addicted to it. So be happy for Eri-chan. I am also finally having my moving on ceremony (graduation) on Friday, then my five day orientation (-.-) where I sleep over at a college and crap, and then go to medical school. Yay. Any ways, let me move on with the chapter and shut up. Btw, this is just a filler chapter, no more than a thousand words so that we are able to move on to day three. I think that will be my pattern. 2 full chapters for each day and then a short filler to top it off. Alright have fun readers~!

Day 2: Reality is Overrated

Edward's P.O.V

I sat in there in the dark corners of my mind, trying to make sense of the things around me, but finding myself too tired to do so; both mentally and physically so.

Something made me want to wake up, yet I was so far gone under the layers of brittle emotion that I felt unable to move under the ready to collapse weight. There was a light above my head, trying to bring me out of the realm that I created for myself, this self-induced hell, and yet I was the one holding me back.

It was always fact that I was one to hold myself back; I could have an entire team ready to support me and give their heart and soul (hell I already do) but I would be the one to sit behind the sidelines, to separate myself from the world and say "I'm not ready for this."

I wasn't ready for a lot of things that I threw myself into, but in the end, it wasn't just about me anymore, I was fighting for so much more now, I hadn't the luxury to be selfish and withhold myself from opportunities any longer.

Small steps would lead me towards victory, so my first step is to sift past this and wake up. Wasting away in my mind was pointless if I could not make further contact with the real things that were reality.

I felt myself surfacing, making my way towards the top, and then, I was up.

I looked around me and saw no one. There was some light in the room, and it seemed as though it were closer to mid morning now.

I went to get up, but I felt a warm hand push me back down.

"Lay back down. You have a nasty fever and I would prefer that it doesn't get worse," came Roy's voice from beside me.

I looked to him, his eyes red and weary. He must of skipped out on sleep to take care of me, the damn fool.

"You don't have to torture yourself for me you know. We can't both be scrawling out our inner emotions just to please one another in a way that seems not only useless, but heart breaking as well," I said, the guilt clawing at me.

"I don't do these things for my own gain, I do them because I care about you, and that's all that really matters to me," he answered.

"I care a lot for you as well Roy, and to see you put yourself through this and put all this strain on your heart because of me makes me feel… like a parasite." I closed my eyes for a moment.

"I don't want you to feel as though I don't appreciate it, because that is not the case, I just don't want you to suffer. We are only human. There are no real heroes in society. There is no one on this planet who does not feel pain in one way or another. I cannot expect you to be okay after all of the toxins I release from myself. In the end, what I mean is, if you find that you need to stop, to sleep for a while, to go for a walk, don't let me stop you from doing that, don't let me stop you from doing anything Roy," I finished, opening my eyes again and looking towards him.

He smiled.

"Ed, I enjoy spending every minute of my time with you. Honestly, I would rather be the one who is there when you need to empty those toxins, and I would rather be the one to talk to you even if it is just to discuss the different flavours of cheesecake Ed. You haven't held me back from doing a thing, you've only drawn me closer to you if anything. You are the most wonderful thing in my life, despite what you may think or believe, and I never want to break away from that. You haven't been a parasite to me at all, just the silver lining that hangs above in the most glorious of situations."

He was still smiling like an idiot, and I couldn't help but smile too.

"You're a fool, Roy, but I can live with that," I poked at him, laughing a little.

"If that is what pleases you then so be it," he laughed, sitting down beside me.

"Bastard," I said under my breath.

"Shrimp," he whispered loudly.

"WHO ARE YOU CALLING SO SHORT THAT YOU HAVE TO PICK ME UP JUST TO SAY HELLO?"

"I didn't say any of that," he said between spurts of laughter.

"But you wanted to," I pouted, crossing my arms over my chest.

That's when it came to me. Even in the depths of our own despair, we find the time, the reason, to laugh and to simply enjoy each other's company. We can forget all the matters of the world just for a few moments in time, and focus our attention on the beauty of emotion that is bottled up inside of us all. In our darkest days, we still have this underlying emotion that we love to ignore.

"Roy, I have my reason," I piped up.

He nodded.

"Well, my reason for today is because even though there is a lot of chaos around me, and within the inner most parts of my soul, I can still laugh and find joy within myself. For this, I am happy because I feel human."

Yup, short sweet, and to the point. Next will be day 3, which I want to get up by tomorrow but I have a lot to do so we will see how that works out. I promise there will be one before the end of the week. PROMISE~!

Thanks and please review if you can because I do need to know how this is going for you guys.

Happy Reading,

~Eri-chan