Steppin Out On Love ch. 10
Quinn's POV
I swear that I can't fuckin believe how selfish and inconsiderate Santana can freaking sometimes but it shouldn't surprise me because I've known her my entire life and she can be loyal and fierce when it comes to the people that she cares about but then there's other times that she can be a complete asshole and stuck in her own ways.
It's like day and night as it's hard to tell what's going on in her mind sometimes and I just wish that she would try talk to me about things instead of just running off when she feels things are beyond her control. I wish that the Latina would trust me more and rely on me when she feels that she handle some things because I care about her as she's my best friend as I want to be there for her like she's there for me. I don't know what's going on in her head that she thinks that she needs to walk away from me and I haven't a clue where she's going or how she's doing as it's driving me completely insane not knowing although it's something that we have in common about not having control over things.
I know that she didn't go home because it's the first place that I would look for her and I doubt that she went to Britt's. Where could San possible gone? Why is she running away from us? None of this making any sense. Why does she like she's gonna hurt me or Rachel? What am I not getting? God once I find her, I'm gonna strange her skinny neck and slap the sense into her. I'm pulled out of my thought by soft sobbing and I remember that Rachel has been crying since Santana decided to bail out on us, leaving me to comfort her and pissing me even more because she's causing the diva so much pain. If she truly cared about Rachel then she wouldn't be doing what she's doing and just stayed. Talk about being fucking selfish.
"Quinn?"
"Yeah Rachel" I said looking down at her.
"Do you hiccup think that Santana's okay?" Rachel asked wiping her tears away.
Even through Santana made her cry, still worrying about her. Rachel, you're truly one of a kind.
"Who fucking cares? She's being a selfish bitch and I could care less if she's okay or not" I said folding my arms.
"You don't mean that" Rachel said shaking her head.
"Uh yeah I do. She's a fucking coward and instead of talking to us like a normal person, she decides to run like she always does. I'm sick of dealing with her bullshit and I say good riddance" I said frowning.
I feel a pair of hands on either side of my face gently guiding me into looking into a gentle pair of brown eyes and a soft yet loving smile on the face of one Rachel Berry as she runs her thumbs along my cheeks, resting her forehead against my own. It feels like she's looking into my very soul as it feel like she's taking my breath away with a simple gaze and I don't know what to do or how to feel but I want to reach out and kiss her but I don't have clue if it's okay. I don't want to do something that could possibly ruin the friendship that I'm creating with the diva and make things awkward between the two of us as I'm not entirely sure what's going on with myself to be honest.
"You care about very much about Santana and even though you say that good riddance but you can't leave her alone. She's your friend… your best friend even she can be a pain in the ass and difficult to be around at time although it doesn't mean that you should give up on her. We can't give up on her because she needs us to be there even she thinks that she should be on her own" Rachel said smiling sadly.
"You truly are something you know that, Rachel" I said chuckling softly. "But you're right as much as I would hate to admit, I can't abandon her"
"Promise me something, Quinn"
"What is it?"
"Promise me that you won't leave me or Santana. We both need you" replies Rachel.
There's something in Rachel's eyes that telling me that there's something to this promise than she letting on but I just can't put my finger on it just yet but I need to reassure her that I'm going anywhere. I won't leave her or abandon her just I want to be by her side as I take her face in my hands, leaning forward to place a gentle yet lingering kiss on her forehead before wrapping my arms around her shoulders, pulling the diva in close. The singer sigh softly, resting on top of me as I wonder what going to happen now between the two of us and Santana.
Santana's POV
It's been two weeks since I left the residence and that I'm causing Rachel pain because I can see it in her eyes every time we lock eyes in the hallways at school but I'm keeping my distance as much as possible because she's better off without me there to fuck things up. Quinn on the other hand, is pissed the hell off at me and she's definitely taking her anger off at me and squad but mostly at me in particular by making practice even more of a living hell than usual but I make sure that we're never alone together because I know that she's question me about where I'm staying.
I can't go home because I know that either one of them are waiting me to show there no that's no go so I picked the place that neither one of them would think to look for me the tree house that my Papi built for me and the blonde to play in the woods in the back of my house. It's a bitch to hop over the wooden fence that sections off the yard from the other houses but it's the only way that I can get to it without rousing suspicion from the diva and the HBIC but I have to be careful about getting food and bathing but it's the last place that either one of them would look for me.
I have to wake up at the ass crack of dawn to get ready for school and my body is protest against the sudden movement especially my back because of sleeping on the hard ass wooden plank floor as I cracked it. Fuck! This fuckin hurts but it's a simple price to pay to keep Q and Berry safe. I hear someone knocking on the door and I stiffed as the knocking continues when the voice of Puckerman comes through the door as I sigh in relief, walking over towards the door and opening it to see Puck standing out of the door with a bag of food in his hand. True to his word, the mohawked jock has helped me by keeping both girls away from me and bringing me food which I definitely appreciate because I'm fucking starving as I let him inside. I pulled out a bacon cheese burger and Cajun fries before digging into the burger while the jock leans against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest with a frown on his face and I knew that he wanted to say something.
"What's up with you?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"You know how I feel about all of this so I should have to explain myself and I hope that you know that you're doing more harm than good" Puck said frowning.
"Look they're better off without me you know that and I know that so I don't see why you have a problem with it now" I said frowning.
"You're being a punk and not dealing with whatever you're choosing not to deal with. It's hurting Rachel and I'm not cool with that" Puck said shaking his head.
"Fine if that's the way that you feel then you don't have to continue to help me. I can do this on my own" I said glaring at him.
"Oh yeah, like you've been doing so well on your own so far. You're sleeping in a tree house in the wood behind your house" Puck snorted.
"Fuck you, Puckerman"
"Been there, done that" Puck said rolling his eyes.
Puck turns to walk out of the door but stops short of the door, looking over his shoulder and shakes his head at me before leaving without another word as the burger doesn't taste as good as it did a minute but it doesn't matter. I eat the food before grabbing my backpack walking to the house to get ready for school and I do it as quickly possible before taking the long way to the sidewalk before making my way towards school. I walked through the double doors with everyone scrambling out of my way as I pass by when Kurt walks up to me, linking arms with me as we walk down the hall with a look of a cat that ate the pet canary.
"What up Lady Hummel?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"You wouldn't believe me if I told you because I'm having a hard enough time believing it myself" Kurt said shaking his head in disbelief.
"Just spit it out" I said rolling my eyes at his theatrics.
"Quinn and Rachel are an item" Kurt replies.
WHAT!?
"What?! They're a what?" I asked shocked.
"I know right but it's true I heard it straight from Rachel herself and they're a thing now although it makes sense with all the name-calling slushys and the pornographic pictures in the girls' restroom as it was Quinn's childish way of showing that she likes Rachel. I'm surprised that she didn't tell you. They got together some time over the weekend" Kurt said shrugging his shoulders.
"I guess that they were too busy getting their mack on to tell me" I said trying to leave the hurt out of my voice.
I have no reason to be hurt because they deserve each other but a part of me can't but feel this way and maybe… a little jealous because I guess that I wanted Rachel for myself. Oh god I am fucking crazy. Why the hell would Rachel me when she can have something as beautiful and smart as Quinn? Why would she want someone that doesn't even know what the hell is going on with themselves? I shake my head a little as I walked away from a confused Kurt but I needed to get away from everything and get some air as I walked out onto the field, under the bleachers to find the Skanks, smoking a blunt and that's something that I definitely need.
I take the joint away from one of the girls that was smoking it before taking a couple drags from it as the high was slowly coming over me as I laid in the glass when one of the skanks Melissa or whatever but the only outstanding thing about this girl is her blonde hair with reddish pink streaks and the off the shoulder AC/DC shirt.
She hands me a water bottle filled with vodka and I take a long swig of it as burns on the way down my throat but I'm definitely fucked right now as the trashy girl smiles at me perversely before straddling my hips as she starts kissing down my neck. I know that this wrong and I shouldn't be doing this but what does it matter cause nothing matter as Melissa or whatever her name is starts unbuttoning the front of my pants when I hear someone calling my name but I didn't say conscious enough to know it was.
~Nicole The Dragon Rider signing off
End of ch. 10