Teach me sadness and pain
By
Tsuki to Taiyo
Okay, I'm back! Sorry for a very, very late update. I had an extremely big problem that I need to overcome. My readers and hopefully reviewers… my mind stopped giving me the words and the plot and that is what we generally calls… Mental Block. But anyway, I'm back and I am now full of angsterific ideas.
And I still find it hard to believe that many people likes Murata x Wolfram. Care to enlighten me why I should like it? Except for Wolfram being Shinou-look-alike I can't see them together, really. But no offence that came from a MuraWolf hater.
Now I found another good pairing… Drum roll please… Conrad x Yuuri. Why I am starting to like this pairing? Well, unlike Yuuram where Wolfram should always be rescued etc. in ConYuu there is something sweet and Yuuri becoming a good uke. But still, I would continue to write for WolfYuu. So smile…
For those who are wondering… Wings of Words came from Gundam Seed Destiny the fourth opening song and Ichirin no Hana came from Bleach the Third opening song.
A great love? It's when you shed tears for him but still you care for him. It's when he ignored you but you still long for him. It's when he starts loving another, and yet you manage a smile and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you."
Chapter Ten: Hold on or Let go?
Four Thousand years was such a very long time… He had been trapped in this chamber for that long so the irony of him taking refuge in this place is amusing. He sat on the box and closed his eyes. He can feel his sage, his maryoku was… happy…
"Azalea…" he whispered.
When he was trapped in this place, he thought that Soushu would swallow him up; the mere thought of his beautiful sage was enough to have him going… He knew that someday… the two of them would meet again and be together finally.
He had abandoned him, he admit it. He thought that his sage would also feel this way… that the two of them could survive just by the thought of the other. But unlike him… unlike him that was respected and almost coddled, his sage… while his sage experience too many pain and sadness.
He had abandoned him and now he slipped away from him. He was in love with Shibuya Yuuri… his chosen Maou… the one he personally made. His soul and his powers, he made it… His beloved fell in love with his creation…
"Shinou-heika…" a soft voice said.
He looked and saw Ulrike looking at him sadly.
"I only remember a little thing on my childhood… Ulrike… but I'll never forget this one… once when I was a child… I was flying a kite. But the wind was blowing on my back. It was so strong but I was stubborn so I cling to the kite until the threads break. The kite flew away even further. It was just like now… I am stubborn to let him go. But if I cling to him like that somehow I know he will just slip away. Should I let him go? If I don't will he hate me?" Shinou asked.
For once… Ulrike has nothing to say.
It had been a week since the end of the engagement of the 'royal couple', a month since the affair of the Sage and his king. Everybody in the castle noticed it of course. But they have nothing to say since the two deserved it. Wolfram von Bielefeld to forget the pain had concentrated on training his soldiers. He was fierce but this fierceness had been an advantage since his soldiers became stronger. He refused to meet with the king again giving reports through messengers only.
The king had a bigger problem. The sage… is acting strangely. But he refused to say this to Yuuri.
"Come on, Ken… you had been strangely gloomy since you came from the temple? Did something happen?" Yuuri whined as Murata laid the tea on Yuuri's desk.
"I told you… I have bad stomach…" Ken smiled.
"Bad Stomach? If you had any… you should be running to the bathroom instead of brewing me tea" Yuuri grumbled.
Murata laughed.
"It's nothing… I told you… and you sign through the different line"
"Eh? Again?"
Murata laughed but then he felt the wind.
"Murata… thank you…" Yuuri smiled.
The sage looked at his smile and said "What's with the sudden fluff?"
"It's just even if… I can't really answer to you… you still support me… you are still there no matter what…"
"Yuuri… I only wish for your happiness that's why I am not forcing you to love me…" to love you is enough for me… he added on his brain.
The king smiled. Then there was a knock.
"Come in" the sage said promptly as Yuuri signed some papers making sure that where to sign. IT was Gunter. Although, he showed that he no longer angry… the tension of the inhabitants of the castle still haven't disappeared.
"Lord von Kleist? Did you need anything?" Murata asked.
"Yes, your eminence… there are some delegates from a country called Caledfwlch. They wish to make an alliance to us…"
"Why suddenly? Caledfwlch had been an enemy since the seventh Maou's reign right? They always side with Big Shimaron?" Murata asked sharply.
"Apparently… since Dai Shimaron loses its military power some human countries had been invading their lands…"
"I see…" Murata said. "Call them immediately so we can arrange the alliance…"
"Of course, Your Eminence"
Yuuri stood up and said "Our allies are increasing day by day… a good news for Shin Makoku but it means more paper for me…" He sighed looking at the window.
Murata laughed. "Okay… Great Demon King you should put on your royal garb"
Yuuri found himself sitting comfortably on his chair. He wore a serious face as the sage sternly stood on his side. Gwendal and Gunter are there while Conrad was training some soldiers.
The throne room opened revealing a half-dozen people. On the front is a man with long silver hair, his head half-bowed and wearing silver shoulder guards over a black garb, an aura of fire seemed to surround him. His eye sockets are deep and he is carrying an expression like Gwendal only worse.
"It's my outmost honor to meet you, Your Majesty, Shibuya Yuuri… I am Zephyr" he kneeled with one knee while his other is closed to his chest.
The two demons didn't know why but the two double black looked at each other…
"It's a pleasure to… ehm… Meet you too… Sir Zephyr of Caledfwlch" Yuuri said with an expression like he was suppressing something.
"Let us discuss the alliance tomorrow you must be tired of the journey…" Murata said.
"Of course…" the white-haired man said standing up.
As the door closed… Wolfram with his head held-up high and Conrad walked. Wolfram finally has the courage to face Yuuri and the pride too. It is when the two Soukoku burst with very loud laughter.
"You… you should… have seen your face… Ken…" Yuuri said holding his stomach.
"You too…"
The two laughed together… it filled the throne room. Something heavy seemed to lift from the retainers hearts as they heard the king's laughter again.
"I mean… he looked… exactly like… Sepiroth…" Murata said.
Yuuri threw his head in the air. "The horror on your face… can't be described… I had a hard time keeping my laughter…"
"You too, you know… it's as if you saw a ghost… no… even worse…"
The two laughed… and laughed until there are tears in their eyes.
Wolfram watched at them. His heart is breaking yet… he managed to smile, a sad smile. Now, he knew why he can't leave the palace. He was afraid that Yuuri is still hurt. Now, as he saw the two laughing… he knew… Yuuri is no longer unhappy…
He smiled and walked to the door. He is smiling… with tears on his eyes.
On that night… Wolfram came to his office. He was carrying all the pride he had as he opened the door. Murata and Yuuri were surprised.
"May I request audience to His Majesty?" he asked.
Murata nodded and leave the room closing it.
"What is it you want to talk about… Lord von Bielefeld?" Yuuri asked coldly as he signed more of those goddamn papers.
But now… it is an alibi not to look at those extremely beautiful emerald eyes.
"The sage… seemed to love you so much… Your Majesty…" Wolfram said.
Yuuri closed his eyes. "You two will be a great couple… I am happy for you…" the blonde smiled. Finally, those black orbs stared at those emeralds eyes. There was sadness yet… happiness also…
"What is it that you want?" Yuuri asked. He wanted it to finish soon… he can't bare to look at those eyes. It was painful… scars that Murata closed was opening…
"I… want to be assign to a far province of Shin Makoku… near my uncle's region…" Wolfram said.
Wolfram wanted to ran away… he can't bear to see those two… he can't bear to see the happiness in Yuuri's eyes… the happiness he can't give. It is the only thing that he can't do… Maybe in that way… he can forget.
"I see… if its really what you want…" Yuuri said. "Then… permission granted… you may do as you will, Lord von Bielefeld… I wish you luck…"
"A close friend told me… who needs luck… but I wish you happiness" Wolfram answered as he bowed leaving the door.
On the hallway… he watched Wolfram von Bielefeld leave the room. His glasses were flashing. Of course, he had anticipated it to happen. It is the twist of this novel-like romance… now it is up to Yuuri…
"He chose to let go… Azalea…" a voice from darkness said. Shinou stepped in the light. Murata stared at him with cold eyes.
"Perhaps it is better if you do too…" he answered.
Shinou laughed and shook his head. "Never… I came back for you…"
"Stubborn and childish as ever" Murata said rolling his eyes.
"You had loved me… my sage…" Shinou said stepping forward again.
"Yes… but Shinou… love is like a flower. Like a flower you named me after… if you took care of it… the flower bud no matter how small will blossom but if you just leave it… it will just die…"
"Will you never forgive me?" the blonde king asked.
"I already forgave you… but forgiveness doesn't mean love… Shinou"
Murata walked away. He went to the office of his king.
A passionate kiss… hands sliding on each other's bodies as the two Soukoku fall on the bed. Yuuri moaned as Murata gently nibbled on his neck. The Sage unbuttoned Yuuri's uniform and let the black uniform fall on the floor. Next is the white tunic of the king… Murata's lips descended to his chest nibbling on the flesh…
The sage reached for his pants but as he did… he heard a voice on his head…
"Never… I came back for you…"
He stopped and found Yuuri looking at him…
Yuuri, on the other hand, as Murata reached his pants he heard his ex-fiancée's voice.
"You two will be a great couple… I am happy for you…"
He stared at Murata afraid to show that he was hesitating but as he saw the sage's face… he knew that he is not the only one hesitating…
"It's too early for us to be doing this… don't you think… Shibuya…" the sage said smiling as he pulled away from Yuuri. He stumbled on his side.
"Ye… yes" Yuuri said uncertainly.
He was hesitating… for tomorrow… Wolfram von Bielefeld will leave… He felt something on his heart. It was making it throb… He was afraid… and sad… why? Why? Why is he afraid? Isn't it the best option? If Wolfram leaves… perhaps… he can forget and be happy with Murata? Why is he sad? He loved Murata… He IS SUPPOSED to be in love with Murata. Isn't Murata the one who took away all his pain? The one that made him laugh again? The one that was always on his side?
He is supposed to be in love with such person… It was Wolfram who hurt him… it was Wolfram who made him cry…
"Wolfram…" he whispered before falling on a very uncomfortable sleep.
The blonde put Greta on her bed. The sweet child was sad because he of his decision while his brothers seemed to be proud. Then he saw something on the princess' wall. It was Greta's drawing… it was pinned to the wall…
A picture of what seemed like a black haired stick person holding hands with a girl while the girl's other hand was holding another man's hand… a blonde this time. There is a clumsy writing in the bottom…
FAMILY
Tears silently pour on his eyes…
He removed the pins and folded it neatly on his pocket. He went to his room and packed some clothes. He put the paper on the top of his luggage… a reminder of a once family…
That family was supposed to be happy if he wasn't a fool enough to cheat. That family of him and his king…
"Yuuri…"
I am very sorry for the very… very late update and this one is short too… What will happen on my next chapter?
Chapter Eleven: DaiDai (preview)
The wind is blowing roughly and the black horse was running as fast as he can. The rain is pouring hardly…
"WOLFRAM!!" his loud voice yelled…
The group of soldiers wearing blue uniforms turned together with the blonde…
"Don't go"
Yaaay… watch out for my next chapter!!