One week had passed, rumour were quick to flee in the slums, we were geting out of control, i had no news of Kassim and i haven't even asked him what i wanted. That day i just left there, feeling a bit of excitement and yes maybe some guilt?

In the night i asked to be left alone, i grabbed a charcoal from a nearby fire and startes wirting in a linen fabric.

"Sorry Mara, i promise i'll clean it thoroughly"

I needed a plan, we didn't have anymore room in the inn, now known as "The clinic", our pots had been brewing broths for a few days now. Things needed to change, and fast. I need a way out.
In the room next door i could hear a Little girl calling for her mother, and it struck me finally, i've been trying to be busy to not think about it but things were once again pouring at me, i went to the noble district and found a bookstore

"Excuse me?, could you help me?"

A old man, with a white beard, aand matching hair looked a me with bored eyes.

"We don't have anything for you, shoo shoo"

He gestured for me to leave.

"Wait, i'm not a…, what?, i'm looking for some maps"

He looked at me only for a second.

"You need money for that, and you don't seem to have any"

I looked at my dress and feel a Little shy, i had left the dresses Muu gave me tucked away, and wore what everyone wore, a linen Brown dress. I cleaned some imaginary dust from it and looked sharply at the bookkeeper.

"I need to know about a place, i don't now where it is exactly"

He looked at me againhe sighed and went to find a big book, filled with leather pages and a lot of scribbles.

"Do you at least now the name, or what it was near of?"

I was sligthly touching the book with my fingertips

"I do know some things"

I told him everything i knew, he asked if i was able to read and to my surprise i actually couldn't understand it. But giving how my mind was already filled with 20 years of another world knowledge, i couldn't careless.

He began searching for mountains in Reim, and we actually found it in the dark continent, the map seemed to be at least two hundred years old. At that point i wasn't thinking anything, i just though that if i went there, i could find something that would serve as some sort of connection with my baby.

"I don't know anything about it, but i could see if i find some information on your country"

I gave him a strained smile and nodded

"I'll have this map, please"

I grabbed my leather bag and took out some coins.

"Would this be enough?"

I couldn't take my eyes out of the carvings in the map, hoping it will reveal some mysterious meaning behind it.

"Yes that's more than enough, you know, pass in a few days, i'll have something else for you"

I grabbed the map, carefully folded it, and keep it near my chest, like when you hold something valuable and you don't want to drop it.

I left, with something akin to hope, and excitment. I've been thinking about my daughter the rest of the next days. Tried to remember the Little details. Like the way her hair curled itself, even before a hard brush, the way she smiled and gave a hearty and contagious laugh when i gave her kisses in the chin. And how she used to put her leg in my belly when she was sleeping.

Without noticing it i was sitting in the grass in a beatifull dawn, tears had started dropping a few moments ago. I've been feeling so confused, so many feeling at once, the only thing that i've ever wanted was so far away, and i couldn't do anything about it.

I dropped the rest of my body, making a loud thud, the sudden rush of wind around me, made me feel all the grass scent, the kind that has the morning dew on it.

The next days i've had been on auto-pilot, i couldn't concéntrate on anything, and Mara had diagnosed me as severe exhaustion, i had been confined to my room.

When i though that i had more than enough time to come to my senses, got up from the bed, had a quick body cleanse, and looked at the mirror, and the rest had actually done miracles for me, for you could still see the sadness in my eyes.

That was when i decided to leave my place and went to the bookstore, with a confused feeling, half of it was dreafull fear of not finding anything that could lead me to her, and the other was blinded faith that i would found it, and finally be reunited.

When i got in, i was holding my map real hard, the bookkeper looked at me with kind of feeling that i couldn't describe.

"Hey kid, i was wondering when would you pass by again"

I gave him a nervous laugh

"Yeah sorry, just been discharged from the clinic"

He looked at me with a fatherly gaze.

"I found something, but i think that it's not the same one you are looking for"

He grabbed a really big and heavy book, and when he dumped it on the table all the dust was getting on both of our lungs

The cough was intense. He started shifting pages until he stopped in one with alarge drawing of some kidn of Stone arch.

"This is the village you were telling me about, but it was wiped out about 248 years ago"

I was shocked, i was completely and genuinely shocked.

"What else does this say?"

I was frantically trying to find something, but the fact that i couldn't read it was making me angrier.

"It seems that it was a Torran village, and it was attacked to get slaves"

I was feeling bad, really bad. I grabbed my map, and left. Feeling flabbergasted.

I was so focused on reaching to my room without crying or having a mental breakdown, that i didn't notice that i bumped on to someone.

I muttered a sorry and kept going.

Author's note

Hiiiii! Guy's i know that we come on and on, on this subject but i need to toughen up Mika!

Am i being too evil?.

I'm going to make a huge years skip on the next chapter, until the first appeareance of Aladdin,

What do you think?

As always, please keep writing me, and i'll keep answering with all my love 3