Chapter 9:

Chapter 9:

A/N- So I think I'm nearing the end on this story. I'm losing reviews so I have about three or four more chapters planned before the story is over. This chapter is kind of a filler but I think you all will like the next chapter the most. Enjoy(:

Jude's Pov: It's been three days since I've set foot in G-major. Darius told me that I could take a short vacation and that was something that I most definitely needed and an offer like that doesn't come around to often so I took him up on the offer. But nevertheless, I'm back. Truthfully, the only thing I have been doing is writing; which is good since Darius has scheduled a performance for me on 'Dancing with the Stars; the Results'. I'm not gonna lie. I don't want to perform, yet. I'm still trying to figure everything out in my life and with me and Tommy fighting, it doesn't make it any easier. I don't understand why I feel like this. Why something so stupid could do this to me. Just thinking about it makes me tear up. But I don't wanna feel like this. Even though it is my fault. Tommy keeps trying to help, but I keep pushing him away. I don't mean to, it's just that I can't trust him. I should be able to. I wan to. But yet, I don't. I need to talk to someone, other than Tommy. I understand that he wants to help but every time he tries, we end up fighting over something pointless. I'm usually the cause, though. Sadie. She can help. At least I hope she can. :

Jude let out a small relieving sigh as she walked into the studio noticing that it was empty. Just how she wanted to find it. She walked across the small room until she came to the small couch that was in the back of the studio. Sighing once more she set her bag down on the floor and plopped down on the comfortable cushioned couch. Jude leaned her head back until it was laying on the back of the couch.

"Hey Jude!" A voice sounded as he walked through the door, smiling.

Jude jerked her head up instantly as she heard a voice, "Ohh, Hey." Her heart beat fast from the sudden shock that she had just experienced.

"'D' tells me you got a gig on Dancing with the Stars. Congratulations!" He exclaimed.

Jude put on her best smile and nodded at Kwest until she finally breathed a short and low "Thanks."

"No problem. Well I gotta get going. Karma is starting her next album." He stated, grabbing a c.d. off of the soundboard that he had came in to retrieve.

"Yeah, good luck." She chuckled softly. For some reason it was easy for her to talk to Kwest. Of course she wanted to keep her distance from him, but he always had a smile plastered on her face that made Jude laugh. And put her in a good mood. She needed it, more thank anything.

Kwest shook his head, laughing softly, "Thanks Jude. I'll see you later." With that he walked out and made his way into the studio that Karma was occupied in. After Kwest left it hit her that since Kwest was bust with Karma, she would have to work with Tommy. Alone. Alone with Tommy.

"Shit," She mumbled once realization hit her that since Kwest was busy with Karma that she would have to work with Tommy, alone. Alone with Tommy.

She reached down and unzipped her bag half way, pulling out her journal and sitting it on her lap. She opened it to the page that had a song that she was currently working on. She picked up her pen that was laid in the middle crack of the journal and began reading over her already written work, marking out and writing things when necessary. The song was done, but changes were wtill needed.

A little over half an hour passed and Jude had finished it. She hummed it, smiling at the words scribbled on the page and closed it proudly once she had finished looking it over.

"I knew this was gonna happen. It was bound to." She thought, as Tommy walked in just as she closed her journal.

He walked in the studio and flashed Jude a weak smile in Jude's direction, just long enough to acknowledge her presence, then made his way to his usual seat in front of the soundboard. He cleared his throat and began messing with a few buttons on the soundboard, "You excited?" He questioned her with his back facing towards her. "About tomorrow?" He finished.

His voice startled her a bit even though she was fully aware that he was in the room. It sounded, raspy. As if he was lacking sleep or just stressed. Either one was her guess. "Yeah. Totally." She replied, in almost a whisper. It took everything in her to just say something back. It was hard. Her life was hard right now. "What are we doing today? I already have the song for tomorrow, so.. I don't need to be here that long. Right?" She questioned. She stared at the ground, not being able to look at him at all. Not even a small glimpse of him. All she could feel was his eyes, cutting a hold through her.

Tommy turned around in his chair staring at Jude who faced the ground, refusing to meet his gaze. A small bitter laugh escaped his mouth, "What, got a date or something? Or you just don't wanna be around me?" He rolled his eyes still staring at her. He was determined to get a look from her, and wouldn't stop staring until he got what he wanted.

Silence.

Jude stared at the ground, listening to him intently as he spoke. Even if she wanted to say something, nothing would come out. She was sure of it.

"Jude. I understand what you're going through-"

She shot her head up speaking words that she didn't think were in her. "You have no idea, Tom. None whatsoever." The only thing she could do was throw out harsh words to keep her from crying, so she did just that.

"Well I'm trying to understand. But you won't let me in."

"I don't want to have this conversation. Drop it." She said fiercely.

"Jude, please." He said, almost pleading for her to let him inside her thoughts.

"Sorry, but I don't feel like I have anything to tell you. And if you're not gonna drop it then you can just not talk to me at all. I shouldn't have told you. Big. Mistake." Once she was finished with her rampage she let out a loud breath and stood up.

He stared intently at her. Everything she said; it didn't hurt or pain him whosoever. He knew that none of it was true. Everything she said, she was lying. At least that's what he told himself, and what he hoped.

"Fine." He turned back around in his chair, now facing the soundboard. He looked over his shoulder at Jude giving her the same attitude that she had given him, "Since you don't wanna be here then you can go. I have better things to do than deal with you. Leave." He made a shooing motion at her to leave before turning his full attention back to the soundboard.

She stood silently, her mouth agape, trying to register what he had just said. If he had just said it. She finally came to the conclusion that he had said it, and in her mind he meant it. Every word. His lack of emotion. It hit her. But she shouldn't have expected different, since she was acting the same towards him.

She took the hint and snatched her bag that was on the ground and put in on her shoulder, walking towards the door. "Bye," She mumbled before walking out of the door without looking at him. She couldn't. Tears were already forming.

"God. I'm such a fucking baby. I ruin everything." She scolded herself silently in her head as she walked into the lobby.

No one was really around. Recording. Or in Darius' case, figuring out ways to make more money.

Spotting her sister at the receptionists desk she began a slow walk towards her hesitantly.

"Hey Sadie." She greeted with a half-hearted smile on her face.

Sadie sat down a few papers before looking up at her sister and smiling, "Hey. What's up?"

Jude licked her lips slowly staring at the ground before continuing, "Um-. Wanna-… Wanna go out for lunch?" She stammered finally meeting her stare. "I need to talk to you." She added in, in a whisper even though it didn't intend on coming out as one.

Sadie stared at her sister suspiciously, sensing something was wrong. She was always the first person to predict something was wrong with Jude, she always knew. "Yeah, sure."

"Thanks." She replied. She felt comfortable around her. There was less tension in the atmosphere when Sadie was around. Jude was everything but afraid of her. If anything, she felt safe and not able to be harmed.

Sadie turned her head to the clock, "Ten fort-five." She read aloud looking back at Jude. "Tell me where you wanna go and we'll meet there."

11:55-

Jude sat in the empty booth looking at the dessert menu that was placed on the side of every table in the restaurant. She felt uncomfortable giving her attention to the people in the restaurant. If anyone came up to her and gave her a second of their time, she probably would have jumped them. Anyone who spoke to her. IT showed on her face. Fear. Anger.

"Jude." Sadie smiled at her sister as she scooted into the booth on the other side of Jude.

"Hey," She smiled slightly, but real. For once. This was the first real smile she had shown in a while.

Sadie groaned slightly, "Darius wouldn't let me leave, three minutes early. He is so uptight." She complained, chuckling slightly.

Jude joined in on her laughter knowing that it was true.

"Hi! Welcome to 'Olive Garden'" The waiter greeted as he handed them two menu's, placing one in front of Jude and the other in front of Sadie. "What can I get you ladies to drink?" He asked.

Sadie was the first to reply, "Tea. No sugar."

"Water. Thanks."

He nodded writing it down then looked up at them once he was finished writing, "Okay, I'll let you both decided what you want and you can order when I get back." He concluded, making his way to the kitchen area to prepare there drinks.

Jude and Sadie both scanned their menus. Finding what they wanted.

"So," Sadie set down her menu once she had agreed on what she wanted. Staring at Jude she questioned, "What did you need to talk to me about? And why did you leave the studio early? Don't you have a gig tomorrow?"

Jude nodded, "I do! But.. Me and Tommy are fighting. So I didn't want to work with him. Nor did he." She nodded, a bit ashamed of herself for acting that way that she had acted towards him.

Sadie scoffed and rolled her eyes, "What did he do this time?"

Before Jude could answer, the waiter set their cups on their table. "Are you ready to order?"

They both simultaneously nodded as Sadie started to speak, "I'll have the chicken Alfredo."

Jude waited a few seconds later before replying, "Same."

He wrote the order down and walked once again to the kitchen.

Sadie smiled as he walked away then immediately turned her attention to Jude, "What did he do?"

"Nothing." She spat out.

Sadie stared at her as if not believing her. And she didn't. She knew Tom to break her heart; and she knew he always did one way or another.

Jude picked up her glass of water and took a sip of it. She sat it down on the cup holder placed on the table and took a deep breath, contemplating on whether or not she should tell her. Her body shook slightly, afraid of telling her. "Sadie.. I.." She let out a breath she didn't know she was holding, looked back up at Sadie and whispered, "I was raped."

Sadie's eyes instantly shot wide open at Jude who wasn't looking at her. But at the table. "TOM RAPED YOU?" She practically yelled.

Jude shot her head up, surprised at her sisters actions, and accusations. "Shhhhh, Sadie. Be quiet." She said in a hushed tone, looking around to make sure no one had heard her outburst.

Sadie stared at her sister, "He raped you?"

"No." She shook her head. "He didn't. Some other guy did. I don't know him. It just happened."

"Jude." Her sister said sympathetically, grabbing her hand and rubbing it gently for comfort. "You don't know who he is? What he looks like? Don't worry. We'll track him down and have him pay. Big time."

Jude looked at her sister, fear showing in her eyes. "Sadie, I don't wanna find him. He hurt me. He's hurt me more than once. I'm not even suppose to be telling you." Her voice barely came out. She was afraid of him. She had already lost her virginity to him. And had been abused. Their wasn't much more damage for him to do, unless he did it all over again. Which she feared.

Sadie took her hand off of Jude's hand and brushed a stray tear off that had fallen Jude's face. "We have to find him, Jude."

"No! I just want to stay away from him" Her eyes pleading as she stared into Sadie's worried eyes.

Sadie nodded, still not fully convinced that it was the right thing not to find him.

"But, Tommy. I'm so distant with him now." She said knowingly. Even she knew that how she acted was wrong. "-I love him." She whispered.

Sadie nodded, "I know you're hurt. I don't blame you. But Tommy didn't do it. He's just trying to help."

"I know but I keep pushing him away. I can't control myself." She scoffed turning her head in the direction of the window. She was ashamed. Of herself.

"He loves you too. And if you wait to long, he won't be there anymore. Trust me." She let go of Jude's hand as a plate was set in front of both of them. Jude picked up her fork and Sadie did the same.

"Dad, he probably won't approve at first. I mean, you're only seventeen. It's not legal for you two to date."

Jude didn't look at her sister. She knew that Sadie was right. They hadn't been together yet, ever. And when he finally allowed it and gave in, she pushed away.

"But, I support you. Even if no one else does." Sadie knew nothing else to give her. She was shocked at her confession. Of course, she didn't approve of them dating, but right now Jude didn't need negativity. Sadie understood.

"Thanks." She whispered, smiling slightly at her sister.

The rest of their lunch was in silence. The food was so good that they didn't want to say anything. Just wanted to eat.

Sadie dropped Jude off in front of G-major. She had to go run a few errands for Darius and Jude was convinced by Sadie that she should talk to Tommy.

She had it all planned out. Go inside and talk. Just Talk. Without fighting, without her being rude, or making smart elect comments. She walked inside the building.

Her hands shook nervously as she made her way into the studio where she left Tommy. She figured that him and Kwest were probably having lunch, like they always did at this time. She turned the corner, her arms crossed nervously as she walked into the studio but stopped in her tracks as she walked half way inside the studio, surprised and shocked at the sight that she saw before her.