Emmett quickly left the coffee house, heading straight to his Jeep. He wasn't thinking at the moment, didn't care if he moved too fast. He just had to leave that coffee house, leave behind that dizzying scent. He was barely walking at what could be considered a human pace, not wasting any time getting to his vehicle. He didn't waste any time getting into it either and he didn't seem to care if anyone saw him either. He didn't even look up to see if anyone had spotted him moving so quickly. If they did, then so be it. Emmett really didn't care at the moment. In fact, part of him hoped someone had seen him. He hoped someone questioned if there was something wrong with Emmett. Maybe then they'd say something to Marley and Marley would decide on her own to totally avoid Emmett because he was a freak. Things would be so much easier if Marley was just afraid of Emmett like the other humans around him. Part of him wanted her to look at him and think he was some kind of freak, some kind of weirdo. Maybe then he wouldn't have to worry about things like this.
After starting up his Jeep, Emmett pulled out of the parking spot he'd found earlier and sped out of Seattle as quickly as he could, weaving in and out of traffic without any difficulty. He knew that some of the drivers on the road were probably scared of his driving right now but Emmett wasn't worried about any of that. He just needed to go and he didn't care if he was driving recklessly. The faster he hit the city limits, the better off he'd be. It was the only thing holding Emmett together at the moment, the thought of getting the hell out of Seattle for a bit.
After all, he needed to get out of the city. It wasn't a want. Not in the least. It was clearly a need on Emmett's part to get out of Seattle as quickly as possible. He barely had any focus right now but what little focus he felt like he had was driving him right now, pushing him to leave the city. Emmett had only one purpose at the moment and it was to get as far away from the dizzying presence of Marley Bradford as he could. He was even more confused than he had been at school. It was just too much for him to handle and he felt like getting away was the best option that he had right now. In fact, it felt like it was Emmett's only option right now.
What was he really feeling? What was going on in his head? What was going on in his heart? Could he really feel something for Marley? Was that even possible for him? Could he love someone else like he'd loved Rosalie? Emmett knew that Bella had changed Edward when she came into Edward's life but Emmett didn't see how he could possibly be changed at this point. There was just no way for that to be possible. With Rosalie gone, he didn't think he could care about someone that way again and then Marley walked into his life and Emmett felt like he didn't know what was going on anymore.
He didn't know that he could handle that though. How was he supposed to even care about someone again? After losing Rosalie, it just seemed better to Emmett that he remain alone. He knew that he couldn't handle losing someone else. And Marley was just a fragile human. There was no way he could handle something happening to her. He'd seen all the things that had happened to Bella just because she was with Edward and Emmett wasn't sure he could handle seeing Marley go through anything even remotely like that. Plus he wasn't sure he was even capable of the kind of change that was necessary for him to feel anything for Marley in the first place. But then again …
Emmett growled and pounded his fist against his steering wheel. He was lucky that he didn't break it in the process but he hated that even the thought of Marley could leave him feeling so twisted up inside. On one hand, he wanted her to never take another look at him. On the other hand, Emmett loved the way that it felt when she was around. But maybe, just maybe, if he could get away for even just a day, maybe he could forget all about Marley. Then everything could go back to the way it was before.
With that purpose in mind, he sped out of Seattle and kept going until his Jeep couldn't handle the terrain anymore, which had taken him far but not far enough yet. He needed fresh air, to get away from that dizzying scent that Marley seemed to give off. So Emmett didn't stop once his Jeep ran out of drivable terrain. He parked it there, got out and ran. He ran until he caught the scent of some grizzly bears. That's when Emmett stopped, his mind suddenly focused on the hunt. He hadn't been exceptionally thirsty but once he caught wind of the bears, he realized that he wouldn't mind feeding. Then suddenly there was nothing else on his mind but tracking one of those bears.
The thrill of the hunt was exhilarating and he took a moment to just revel in it. Of course once he caught the bear, he had to wrestle with it. Emmett was never one to just take down his prey. He had to play with his food a bit first, something that often annoyed Edward when they would hunt together although it seemed like Jasper just left Emmett to do whatever he liked without judgment. Emmett just liked to prove that now he was stronger than any bear. It was fun to take it down and wrestle around with the bear until he took it out. And that's exactly what he did.
Emmett, now wearing a rather tattered shirt, wandered back to where he'd left his Jeep. He didn't move quickly but he did head back, figuring that eventually he'd want to head home since it was getting dark and he knew that Esme would be worried about him by now. Once he got home, Alice would give him a talking to about ruining his clothes but he didn't care. He didn't rush to get anywhere at the moment. Now that he'd finished hunting, Marley was back in his head and it made Emmett slow down a bit. For a moment, he had felt exhilarated, free and he wished he could stay in that place, keep those feelings in place of the ones already threatening to take over.
It wasn't that he was trying to figure out what was going on in his head. He didn't think that he'd ever really get a handle on what was going on in his head. It was more that Emmett didn't want to rush back to Seattle because suddenly that city, the whole city, seemed to make him think of Marley. There were reminders everywhere of her and of that dizzying scent she had. Emmett didn't like that loss of control that he felt when he thought of Marley. He didn't like the thought that some human had a hold on him.
It wasn't supposed to work that way. This wasn't how he was supposed to feel about a human. It wasn't how a human was supposed to feel about him either. She was supposed to fear him, she was supposed to run away from him while screaming and he was supposed to see her as his prey. He wasn't supposed to fall in love with her. If 'love' was even what Emmett felt right now. He really wasn't too sure about that. He didn't know what he was feeling actually.
As he walked, Emmett took a swing at the nearest tree out of frustration, knocking it clear to the ground. He stood back, almost glaring at the tree as if he were daring it to try to remain standing right now and watched it fall to the ground, feeling a small piece of satisfaction that he still had some measure of control in his life. He was grinning as he looked at that bit of damage that he'd done.
Emmett knew that he was alone at the moment so he knocked down another tree … and then another. No one could see what he was doing so Emmett didn't worry about how it would look to some passerby. He just knew that it felt good. He continued like that for at least twenty minutes. When he finally felt like things were okay, like he was settled enough to return home, Emmett took off running back to the Jeep.
While he didn't feel entirely clear about what was going on, he felt better about it. Maybe he was crazy but somehow he felt like things weren't as bad as he'd originally thought. Maybe Marley didn't have the kind of control over him that Emmett believed that she had. She couldn't. There was no way some human girl could leave him twisted like that. He'd seen the way Bella had Edward all twisted and Emmett wasn't going to let Marley do that to him. He was stronger than Edward. Wasn't he? He felt like he could resist where his brother hadn't been able to do it. Emmett had to after all. Didn't he? He could keep from giving in to any of the things that Marley made him feel. He didn't belong with a human girl and he doubted that he'd ever love again. It would be better this way.
As he got into his Jeep, Emmett was suddenly grinning again. He felt like things would be okay from now on. Maybe it was crazy for him to think that way but being away from Marley right now, out in the fresh air, Emmett felt like everything would be okay again. Maybe he could go on with his life the way that it was, before Marley seemed to pop up on his radar. Emmett was in control of himself, of his senses and there was just no way that some little human girl was going to change that.