"Why are you three late?" Anya questioned normally she wasn't so uptight on five minutes late but Connie's entry had made Guy all up tight and Sacha was panicking.
"Don't blame me...blame Luke held us up," Zosia argued she didn't need a lecture especially since she wasn't feeling 100%, "Did I take the folic acid this morning?" Zosia asked Dom and Dom shrugged, "No I didn't...damn it," Zosia cursed but that earned her a disapproving look off Anya, "Sorry...I'll get changed."
Dom, keep an eye on Zosh she's a stubborn cow and wont admit when she needs to admit defeat - she's unwell - and probably won't tell Selfie when she needs to quit xx - Luke
OK will do xx - Dom
Cheers she's stubborn so good luck convincing her ;) xx - Luke
Ughh gotta go Selfie's entered with Beauchamp so speak soon xx - Dom
OK xx
"Go now," Anya ordered and both Dom and Arthur hurried into the changing room where Zosia was putting on her black high tops and then pulled down the scrub trouser ends before popping two paracetamols out of the packet.
"Headache?" Dom queried Zosia shook her head of course she would as her head was hurting and her throat too but, she was not about to admit it to Dom and Arthur, "So you take paracetamol randomly? And you can't use period as an excuse as those have stopped."
"I didn't sleep well last night," Zosia mumbled as she tied her hair up into a pony tail before twisting it round and pulling another hair tie around to secure the bun into place.
"Feeling unwell?" Arthur asked concerned of course if Zosia was unwell when not pregnant he wouldn't worry as much, but since she was carrying his child her health and baby's health was more of a concern for him. He pulled on his scrub top and trousers before putting on his trainers and reapplying his glasses. Dom followed suit but didn't have the hassle with the glasses.
"Maybe it's the constant ear banging I'm getting!" Zosia snapped she wasn't even that long into work and she felt like bed was the only option, so even though she felt exhausted from baby and cold she had to keep working.
"Zosia," Arthur sounded genuinely concerned he couldn't face Zosia passing out again especially since stress was not good when pregnant, so he wanted to take the load off her, "Look just tell your dad or Sacha that you're not well," Arthur followed Zosia out the door Dom slowly followed, "Zosia...hello?"
"Oh just back off Arthur!" Zosia snapped she didn't need this especially since it was making her feel worse, though she knew he was right last thing she was going to do was admit he was right.
"What on earth is going on?" Guy asked the last thing he needed was a domestic he knew Connie would bring good publicity to the hospital, but he didn't want Arthur or Zosia ruining that reputation, "Well?"
"Sorry Mr Self," Arthur said quietly but Zosia had vanished, maybe he shouldn't have pushed her she didn't need all the hassle and Arthur knew Zosia wouldn't listen she never does.
Zosia had dashed to the bathroom she thought for a second that she was going to vomit, but it was a false alarm, she wished that this cold would go away. Saying that she wished she had stayed at home as now it was at it's peak, "Zosia?" Anya called she had seen Zosia dash in and was concerned, "Are you ok sweetie?" Anya asked as she shut the toilet entrance door.
"I should've stayed at home," Zosia splashed water on her face the cold felt nice against her hot face, Anya approached further and placed her on Zosia's forehead.
"You're burning up," Anya announced and she folded her arms, "Why didn't you call in sick?" Anya asked, Zosia shrugged before leaning against the cubicle, "Go home Zosia."
"I'm fine."
"Zosia you are unwell and pregnant...I think you should go home...or if you're worried about being alone, the on-call room is free," Anya smiled and Zosia sighed, "OK...and if you want I'll bring you in some hot orange squash?" Anya offered she remembered when Zosia was little whenever she was ill hot orange squash would make her feel better, and even when not ill she would have it but it was the days when Zosia was a baby - one to be precise, she missed her lying on her lap on the sofa, drinking from her bottle or trying to copy Anya speaking Polish, usually it came out as babble but it was cute watching her try, bonding just that little bit more. Though whilst Anya was able to let Zosia progress from baby to toddler, to child to teenager to adult; Guy found it hard as he missed most of her baby days, childhood a lot of teenage years he still treated her like a kid, she guessed it was because he felt guilty and he would always see her as his little girl, but he needed to let go and realise she is an adult. Though Anya admitted sometimes she would treat her as a kid, but mostly she was able to let go.
"OK," Zosia nodded and she grabbed some tissue to blow her nose with, "OK."
...
"What's going on with Zosia?" Colette asked Anya curiously as she strolled up beside her, "Bar the baby growing inside her...but is she OK?"
"Came into work with a cold...and has made herself feel worse, Zosia's in the on call room, I'm about to make her a hot drink and if Sacha or Guy ask...it's either that or she works herself until she's exhausted," Anya answered as she pushed files into Colette's arms, "And I'm pretty sure Sacha wont that hanging over him."
"What about Guy?" Colette asked.
"He knows what's good for him," Anya then walked ahead into the staffroom, leaving Colette to dump the files somewhere.
...
Dom had seen Zosia walk into the on-call room and decided to investigate as Arthur was trying to leave her to calm down before he started talking to her again. Dom opened the door then turned around to shut it, "Ahh!" she jumped and covered her chest she wasn't expecting anyone to walk in and was applying a cold flannel to her chest, before going into the on-call room she wanted something cool to put on her chest, but even though she knew Dom was gay it was still awkward, "Ever heard of knocking?!" she shouted.
"So Zosia...you are ill then?" he questioned, "And sorry."
Zosia pulled her top back on before sitting on the bed, "Why are you here?"
"I was worried...so what's up?" Dom asked curiously as he walked over to the bed, then he sat down on it Zosia felt the mattress sink lower and she leant back.
"I have a cold...and it was either go home or stay here," Zosia answered she placed a hand protectively over her abdomen as if she was shielding her baby from any danger, "And I really didn't want to go home."
"Did you remember if you took folic acid or not?" Dom asked and Zosia shook her head though she began to get emotional; her eyes filled with tears and she began to shake, "Zosh?!" Dom exclaimed and put his arms around her, "What's wrong?"
"I forgot to take it...and I really need to take it!" Zosia tried to pull herself together it hadn't crossed her mind until now but she had a family route of Spina Bifida and luckily Zosia hadn't inherited Spina Bifida but she knew her dad's side apart from him a few had been affected, "Spina Bifida runs down my dad's side...and my third cousin was badly affected by it."
"And you're worried about your baby getting it?" Dom asked he ran his hand up and down Zosia's arm just to offer some comfort, and Zosia nodded, "Well if you want...I can get you some it's going to run out of stock Zosh."
"I didn't know I was pregnant until twelve weeks...a baby is pretty much formed before then..." Zosia expressed her concern and Dom held her tight, "And the genetics-"
"OK let's think like doctors...yes because of your family history you are more at risk, but even if your baby does have it Arthur wont go anywhere, I'll be there, your mum and dad, we'll all be there, Luke for sure will be...so you wont be alone, but for now you are unwell and you don't need the stress OK," Dom reassured and Zosia nodded before standing up, "Right...you need to be in bed..."
"Thank you Dom," Zosia smiled she just needed someone to express her worries and she was just thankful that he had listened.
"No problem...now sleep..." Dom ordered as he switched the light off and left the room, "Mr Levy," Dom smiled at his boss.
"Dominic how do you fancy spending the day on Darwin?" Sacha asked.
"Why?" Dom asked curiously.
"Well Arthur's interested in Neuro, Zosia's nowhere to be seen and I thought that maybe-"
"Of course...I'll go up there now," Dom trailed away wondering what Sacha had set him up with, though whilst walking he bumped into Anya, "Urmm can I call you Anya!" Dom asked and Anya nodded, "OK well I'm worried about Zosia, since you're her mother it seems right you should know."
"Enlighten me," Anya ordered.
"Zosia's worried about the family history of Spina Bifida...I think maybe she needs reassuring, anyway I had a chat with her and I think she needs a mother daughter chat, I told her if it was to happen she'd have support but I think-"
"I was wondering if she'd bring that up...thank you," Anya squeezed Dom's shoulder and then went to find Zosia. Anya had wondered if Zosia would think about it, she had a talk with Guy not long ago about it and she had also again learnt more about Guy through the conversation and they both hoped that their grandchild would be fortunate to not inherit the condition.
...
"Come in," Zosia called and the on-call room door opened revealing her mother, "Hi," Zosia sat up and pulled her hair to one side.
"Got you this," Anya chucked her an orange at Zosia which Zosia caught, "I remember you liked those when ill," Anya walked over to the bed then sat down looking at her daughter, "Right...don't kill Dom-"
"He told you about the Spina Bifida worry?" Zosia asked as she played with her hair, Anya knew that was a way for Zosia to keep herself calm and Anya nodded, "It sounds so stupid."
"No...it's perfectly normal...Zosia your dad was the same he was really jumpy at the twenty week scan anyway he told me about his family history and yes we were worried, but you came out healthy. Dominic is right though if your baby did inherit the condition you wouldn't be alone," Anya reassured and Zosia nodded, but also sighed as she looked up at the ceiling, "Also this," Anya placed the heated orange squash onto the table where the bedside light was rested on, "Should still be warm...but Zosia if you're ever feeling worried, don't hold it in, I'm your mother you can talk to me," Anya reassured and Zosia nodded, Anya then shut the curtains and then switched off the light, "Rest OK and don't let anyone boss you around, if they do send them to me."
"Mum...I love you."
"Love you too, now drink that and rest," Anya ordered then she left the on-call room leaving her unwell daughter to rest. Zosia finished the orange squash before turning over to sleep, "Guy," Anya called and her husband walked over smiling, "Zosia."
"Is she alright?" Guy asked concerned and Anya shook her head he pulled her into a corner, "What's wrong with her?"
"I'll tell you later...there's quite a lot," Anya answered then they both went their separate ways, hoping that their daughter was OK.
...
"She'll be OK Zosia," Arthur reassured his baby's mother as they waited for her to come out of theatre, it was 48 hours since their nameless daughter was born and today surgeons were going to repair the lesion on her spine.
"She will die...or something...she won't survive this," Zosia lifted the soft toy blanket to her face the soft fabric would be the only thing that she has to remember of her baby.
"Zosia you can't think that," Arthur said but she wasn't listening, "She'll be fine."
...
"We regret to tell you that your daughter did not survive surgery," Zosia felt heart drop into her stomach like someone had just punched her right in the gut, she was numb and cold.
"But...how?" Zosia asked was the first word she spoke but the surgeon shrugged his shoulders and walked away, then Arthur did too, "Arthur come back!" Zosia shouted.
"You should've taken the Folic Acid!" he shouted in Zosia's face his eyes full of rage and face full of grief, "This is all your fault!"
"Arthur I-"
"No! YOU'RE USELESS!"
"Zosia," she heard a female voice and looked around trying to find the source.
"I'm sorry," she cried and slid down the wall pulling her knees to her chest, "I'm sorry," she placed the blanket to her face and cried coughing and choking, "I'm sorry."
"Zosia!" The voice called again and it suddenly went black, "Zosh?"
"Woah stay calm," Colette pushed the Junior Doctor back down gently as Zosia's face was full of cold sweat and tears she was shaking and drained of colour, "You're OK," Colette reassured though it didn't seem to help as Zosia's breathing was heavy and she could swear that Zosia's heartbeat was loud enough for her to hear outside her chest, Zosia felt worse than she did earlier her nose was blocked to the point where breathing through her mouth was the only option, her head she felt was physically banging against her skull, she felt weak like she was floating on air and her throat was sore and dry.
"I...where's Arthur?!" Zosia demanded to know and she sat up looking around, with no sign of him she looked at Colette glaring, "I need to see him!" she shouted and Colette pushed her down again realising that Zosia was disorientated, "Please," Zosia begged and Colette placed her hand on Zosia's forehead, she was still burning up; Colette brushed the hair out of Zosia's eyes she was concerned for Zosia as nightmares as far as Colette remembered rarely happened too her, "I need to see him," she
"Shh," Colette reassured, " Zosia you're in the on-call room...OK," Colette took her hand away then gave Zosia a bottle of water.
"My baby," Zosia shot up again her eyes darting left and right but Colette again pushed her back down again before opening the curtains to let some light in, "Where am I?" Zosia finally gathered her surroundings and she looked at Colette, "Why are you here?" Zosia asked almost angry she harshly wiped away any stray tears and glared at Colette, "Why? Answer me!" Colette rolled her eyes and there it was the highly strung Zosia had reappeared. So Colette put her hands on her hips and looked stern at her colleague.
"Well put it this way...you knocked the glass off and started crying in your sleep and the doors aren't sound proof," Colette explained and Zosia went red, feeling a bit more sympathetic towards Zosia Colette squeezed her shoulder, "What happened love?" she felt Zosia tense up but then relax before she breathed in then out.
"I...I...my baby she...died...but it was confusing, and the surgeon shrugged...then," Zosia felt her eyes welling up and she bit her bottom lip, before carrying on explaining what happened, "Arthur...he..." she heard the words 'YOU'RE USELESS,' 'THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" echo through her head she couldn't find the words to explain how Arthur had blamed her, despite the dream being unrealistic the way he blamed her felt so real it hurt her to think he would blame her. She hadn't noticed that tears were spilling out of her eyes it was only when she felt two drip onto her arm she realised that she had been crying.
"Here," Colette gave her a tissue which Zosia shakily took to dry her eyes with, "It was just a dream Zosia...OK," Colette said softly which even surprised herself she rarely showed any signs of kindness it was what made Colette who she was. She wasn't like Anya able to act a mother, wife and a nurse. She wasn't like Jenny motherly, strict but kind, she was Colette; a nurse and if people needed her help she was there but something about Zosia always bought the best out in Colette. It had been that way since the first time Zosia called her 'Col' and when she always asked for cuddles or when Colette found out her father had died Zosia was about four but she came into her room and gave her cuddle. Although once Zosia started getting a mind of her own she began to hate Colette, partly because of the friendship she shared with her father; Anya never worried she knew that Guy loved her, but Zosia had been on this hating rampage since she was ten and quite frankly Colette, Anya and Guy were sick of it. Whilst Guy and Anya took it in their stride since Zosia was their daughter, Colette on the other hand numerous of times had lost her temper and wondered why now she was here, but when Zosia started to cry in front of her, it was past differences had gone away and Colette just saw a woman who was upset, scared for her baby inside her and she just needed someone to listen, "Hey...it's OK," Colette sat down next to Zosia on the bed, "It was only a dream...and from what you told me a strange one," Colette put her arm around Zosia and rubbed her hand up and down Zosia's left arm.
"My baby...she had Spina Bifida...they were closing the lesion on her spine and she died...it doesn't make sense...I don't know what's wrong with me," Zosia wiped away tears again angrily from her face and huffed, "It's pathetic...I'm being so weak."
"Shock?" Colette suggested and Zosia said nothing instead she played with her hair, "What's going on Zosh?...why are you worried about Spina Bifida?"
"Why are you sticking your nose in my business?" Zosia asked as she turned her head to face Colette, "You're nothing but an irritating wasp who's so desperate to get her claws into my dad," for that Colette desperately wanted to slap Zosia for that but one policies and two hitting a pregnant woman is not a good thing to do.
"I'll let you have that since you're upset...look I'm worried because stress isn't good for you," Colette answered and Zosia rolled her eyes she knew that but how was she supposed to relax? When she was worrying.
"Dad...his side...there's a family history of Spina Bifida," Zosia answered then she sat forward resting her her hands on her thighs, "And who knows? Maybe my child could have it...and what if that dream was a sign? That if he or she did have it...what if," Zosia sighed, "What if the dream is telling me to terminate? That's why she died, I'm being subconsciously-"
"Zosia...it was just a dream, you're looking too much into it, weird dreams during pregnancy do happen. You're also unwell so it's probably just your temperature, have you taken any paracetamol?" Colette asked and Zosia nodded, "You may want to take a shower, you're-"
"Sweaty yes I know...thanks for pointing out the obvious," Zosia glared and Colette laughed lightly which Zosia looked confused at.
"You're like your mother when she was pregnant...it was a nightmare, though Anya pouring urine all over your dad and Kevin's heads was incredibly funny too watch. That stopped Guy fussing around her and Kevin insulting her...unintentionally but he did."
"Didn't she get kicked off the ward?" Zosia asked curiously.
"No...they both realised they went wrong, trust me, but don't try that stunt yourself I don't think Sacha wants the hassle," Colette warned before standing up, "I'll cover for you if anyone asks why you're here but not working."
"Col," Zosia then shook her banging head to correct herself, "Colette," Zosia said softly.
"Yes?"
"Thank you...for listening," Zosia answered she knew it was the right thing to do considering that Colette had stayed even when she had a little outburst.
"Careful..,people think we get along," Colette joked but then folded her arms, "I'm not all bad Zosia...now go before it gets busy."
"Thank you."
"Just go before we hug or something," Colette ordered and despite Zosia being higher up than Colette - a doctor - she still did as she was told, since Colette isn't afraid to stand up to those who upset her or others that she cares about.
...
A few hours later Arthur was back on the ward and caught Zosia talking to Serena Campbell, though still not feeling well she couldn't stand being stuck in the on-call room for much longer, but she was feeling slight abdominal cramps. Though she put it down to being rundown and the stress of worry. Zosia hadn't told Serena about her dream but had asked Serena if she herself had strange dreams, "I had many strange dreams...I dreamt about cravings I had, I was sat on a chair made of burgers once and I had a giant chocolate cake to get through. I then once I woke up made Edward go to the 24 hour Tesco and get me cake and cook me burgers. The rest were so idiotic I think I blanked them out, but another one I remember is I was giving birth on my stairs and Eleanor turned out to be our cat."
"You dreamt you gave birth to a cat?" Zosia asked and she couldn't keep her laughter in she placed the back of her hand over her mouth, "That would disturb me."
"Our cat turns out was kneading on the duvet," Serena elaborated and Zosia burst into giggles, "Did you have any pets as a child?" Serena asked curiously she changed the subject partly because she didn't want Zosia laughing at her anymore.
"We had two cats one was ginger called Ginger I was two when I named her and my dad named the other one he was tortoise shell and white called Bagpuss...yes I know Bagpuss is pink but living with me I may have had him humming the theme tune," Zosia answered and the thought of Guy probably in theatre or on the wards humming a kids tv show theme made her chuckle.
"You're very pale are you sure you're OK?" Serena asked concerned and Zosia nodded, "Doctor March how long do you think I've been a doctor for?"
"Long enough to know when I'm lying I guess," Zosia answered she tilted her head down but the blood rushed to her head and she went a bit dizzy, and rubbed her abdomen again, Serena grabbed her arms and stabilised her, "I'm fine."
"Go home Doctor March," Serena ordered but Zosia shook her head so Serena walked her over to the chair which Dom normally sat on, "Do you really think being here when ill is the best thing for you and patients?" Serena asked.
"Hey are you OK?" Arthur dashed over skidding on the clean floor as he did then he sat on the other chair, "Zosia?"
"I'm fine Arthur," Zosia lied and she closed her eyes as her back ached, she looked up at him but of course Arthur too was a doctor, she was surrounded by medical professionals who knew she was not well, "Don't fuss."
"Wow Zosia you look like hell," Dom had come on Keller for a break he looked exhausted, "You missed it on Darwin...Nurse Maconie got thrown off Darwin by Mrs Beauchamp."
"Should you really be discussing private matters to Arthur and Zosia?" Serena raised an eyebrow which Dom then went red, "Though not that I'm nosy of course what did Nurse Maconie do that's so wrong?"
"Yelled at both Elliot and Jac," though he saw Serena look disapproving at him using first names, "Sorry yelled at Ms Naylor and Professor Hope just as Mrs Beauchamp arrived on Darwin, he said something that if I repeat Ms Naylor will use her surgical expertise to castrate me."
"Well grief can do funny things to you," Serena said when she lost her father Adrienne despite her usual kind, well mannered and friendly manner, losing her husband really made her personality change, then when Serena fell pregnant she became herself again and Eleanor's birth bought her back to life, "He can't help the way he grieves."
"Still what he said was horrible anyway Connie - Mrs Beauchamp threw him off...though Ms Naylor was about to chuck him off before Mr Levy got paged by Ms Effanga to get Ms Naylor off the ward. It was really bad," Dom then walked over to Zosia and looked at her, "Though it looks like you need to be off the ward too."
"Doctor Copeland hows Darwin going?" Anya walked over to the group of doctors and leant against the desk, "Oh Colette can you do me favour? Put these into the bin," Anya held two bed pans full of urine in front of Colette, "Please."
"Of course...are we still on for drinks tonight?" Colette asked she needed to let her hair down and a night out with Anya, was what she needed.
"Sure...you're buying first round though," Anya ordered and Dom then looked at Anya and confused, "I put a good name in for you...I hope that's OK."
"Oh yes of course," Dom grinned and Zosia rolled her eyes, "What's up Daddy's girl?" she then glared at him which Dom then looked really cheeky, "Oh come on Zosia you have had many chances to get into surgical cases," Zosia pushed herself off the chair and walked around the desk, "I was joking Zosh!" Dom shouted.
"Oi what are you-" Colette felt the bedpans being pulled out of her hands and before Dom could move he felt cold urine being poured over his head, he covered his mouth and Colette looked at Anya both nurses though shocked had to try to hold back laughter
"Oh dear Doctor Copeland," Serena sounded like she herself was trying to hold in laughter, "Maybe you should go for a shower and get changed."
"I will get you back for that Zosia," Dom then walked away to get showered and also embarrassed, Zosia huffed and leant her head down before placing her hand on her abdomen and breathing out.
"Doctor March a word please," Serena ordered and Zosia groaned before following the consultant, as soon as Serena left Colette couldn't contain her laughter, Anya followed shortly after laughing. Then they walked away to discuss their girls night out.
"In here," Serena ordered and Zosia walked into her office looking sheepish, "You're very lucky Mr Self wasn't there...and I hope you apologise to Doctor Copeland...I want you off the ward because I can't have you infecting over patients or other colleagues...Doctor March are you OK?" Serena asked as Zosia then let out a gasp of pain, before holding her abdomen, Serena ran to her office door and opened it, "Can I have some help here!" Serena shouted and Ric who approached on the ward came dashing down along with Mary-Claire who had been paged to come on Keller.
Zosia had been bridal carried out by Ric neither him or Serena wanted to keep her on her feet, "What happened?" Ric asked as he laid her on the bed and looked up at Serena their eyes connected, "Well?" he pushed for an answer.
"What happened?!" Arthur dashed towards the bed and straight over to Zosia's side, "Zosia?" Arthur pushed for an answer but Zosia looked terrified and guilty at the same time, "Urmm she's twelve weeks pregnant!" he announced, "Has there been bleeding?!"
"Zosia have you been bleeding?" Serena asked and Zosia shook her head she had just been experiencing cramps but either way she knew that it could be serious, in her head she was thinking it was a sign, but she didn't want to lose her baby at all this was the last thing she wanted.
"Please just make sure my baby's OK!" Zosia begged and she reached out for Arthur's hand which he grabbed tightly, "I'm sorry," she said to Arthur her eyes spilling out tears and Arthur put his hand on her hair and tried to be there for her, "Please just make sure my baby's OK!"
"Zosia you need to calm down," Serena ordered it wasn't good for Zosia, the baby or anyone if she was panicking as it wouldn't help them, "If you want I can make then call to EPAU?" Serena offered and Zosia nodded before crying again, "Arthur try and keep her calm OK."
...
"I heard Mr Self is planning a whole hospital tour soon," Serena felt Ric approach behind her and she sighed, "And this is his daughter...and she does work here," Serena twisted her lips and Ric looked confused, "OK thank you," Serena put down the phone and looked at Ric, "Oh don't give me that look."
"What are you doing?" Ric asked then Serena walked away and Ric followed, "Someone could've been waiting."
"I need to be in Guy's good books considering Connie Beauchamp has landed back in Holby...me and Ms Naylor have to work even harder."
"Don't tell me you're threatened by Connie Beauchamp?" Ric asked since when was Serena Campbell afraid of anything? Especially the CEO, she hacked into Hanssen's emails without a thought for his privacy; had Edward's betrayal really affected her more than she let on?
"No but Guy thinks that the sun shines out of Anya, Colette and Connie's backsides...Holby is changing Ric, a brave new world, it's either get on board or get on out," Serena answered and Ric sighed, "OK if your many children swooped in here unwell...would you expect nothing less than 100% treatment?"
"Zosia isn't your daughter," Ric clarified.
"Thank you for clearing that up Ric I'm pretty sure I would remember if I gave birth twice...it's not an event I am going to forget is it? No...but Mr Self is currently raving over Connie being on the wards. Anya is apparently a tiger. The least I can do is make sure their daughter is being cared for."
"So you're happy to bunk someone off the list who has probably waited for days, just so Mr Self doesn't fire you?" Ric asked, "Serena...you are one of the best surgeons here, yes you may not have made CEO but he is more afraid of you, than you are of him."
"You make him sound like a bee."
"Bees only sting when threatened...how many times has he upset you because he's threatened of you?" Ric asked and Serena folded her arms, "Like I said at New Year...he'd rather have you as an allies, no one wants you as an enemy...don't let him get to you."
"Well it's booked now but thank you Ric," Serena smiled and Ric squeezed her shoulder before walking away to leave Serena to see to Zosia, "Right you can go down now."
"You used the 'CEO's daughter card' didn't you?" Zosia asked she had her hand in Arthur's but they had their hands rested upon her abdomen, Serena nodded, "You didn't have to do that."
"So we can go now?" Arthur asked and Serena nodded he sighed a big sigh of relief finally, they'll be able to find out if their baby is still OK, "Do you want me to go with you?" Arthur asked.
"Yes please," Zosia answered.
...
"Hello Zosia I'm Nurse Sharma , but you can call me Priya I'll be checking you over...I understand you had abdominal pain?" Priya asked and Zosia nodded, "No need to be worried dear."
"I am a doctor please don't patronise me," Zosia asked politely and Priya looked a bit taken aback but all the same she respected Zosia's wishes and then began to question Zosia.
"So Zosia how old are you?"
"Twenty six."
"How many weeks are you?"
"Twelve...thirteen weeks this sunday coming," Zosia answered and Priya noted down.
"Have you had any previous misscarriages, terminations, or stillbirths?" Priya asked.
"This is my first baby...by the way things are looking now," Zosia saw Arthur's face he looked upset but Zosia knew he had tried his best to hide his worry.
"I'll be doing your obs and checking your sats-"
"I am a doctor...I don't need you explaining just get on with it," Zosia just wanted to know if her baby was OK, she couldn't understand what had happened other than feeling bunged up she felt fine, "Please."
...
Zosia had finished having her sats and obs done, but she didn't care about her she needed to know if her baby was OK, "Your temperature is a little high-"
"I have a cold that's all...look is there a chance that I can see my baby?!" Zosia asked that's all she wanted to know is if her baby was alive or not, "Please! I don't care about me!...a scan anything please I need to know!" Zosia demanded and Priya then nodded, "Thank you."
"Zosia you're really not helping...if there is something wrong with you...then maybe that's why this has happened...stop being a doctor for a moment," Arthur then saw Zosia's glare but it dropped to her looking worried, "Oh no don't cry!"
"Maybe this is a sign...that something is wrong," Zosia looked up at the ceiling and closed her eyes feeling two hot tears spill out of her eyes, "What if it's natures way of telling us that something is wrong?"
"Zosia we have a ultrasound scan machine here could you roll-"
...
"And there is your baby," the screen got turned and both Zosia and Arthur saw their baby, on the screen relief flew over her as she saw her baby, "Your baby is fine...apart from your cold and temperature you are perfectly healthy. I strongly suggest you take it easy and take a week off work. I can-"
"That won't be a problem...Zosia will be able to get time off," Arthur cut in as he knew Mr Self if he heard about this he would make sure Zosia is off work until she well again, "Thank you."
"Thank you...I'm just so glad that the baby is OK," Zosia placed both hands on her abdomen and looked at Arthur, "I'm sorry...I should have stayed at home," she felt again two tears pour out of her eyes, "Thank you for being there."
"You're the mother of my child...and I care about you of course I'm going to be there," Arthur took her hand again and Zosia held his hand tight, "And we can talk to your dad about getting time off...as you need to take it easy."
"OK" Zosia nodded and she then looked down at her abdomen rubbing it lightly, "I find it weird there's a real person growing in there...and how babies are born...it's just weird."
"Like us then," Arthur said.
"He or she has no chance of being normal," Zosia joked and then laughed which Arthur did too, "OK...can we go now?" Zosia asked she just wanted to get back to the familiar ward with familiar people away from all this.
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"Zosia I heard what happened...are you OK?!" Dom raced over and hugged her Zosia pulled away since she didn't want the fuss, "Well?"
"I'm fine and the baby is fine...it was a false alarm but I need to take some time off work a week at the least."
"So that means you need to talk to Mr Self," Arthur tried to push Zosia into getting the time off quickly, he was worried about her and being on this ward much longer, was not going to do her well.
"Where have you been?" Guy asked and Zosia couldn't get any words out, this was not what she wanted to do on the ward, "Well?...why was the ward-"
"Mr Self I allowed Zosia and Arthur to take a break...after all your daughter is pregnant wouldn't want to put unnecessary stress on her would you?" Serena winked at Zosia and then kept a stern look on her face when she looked at Guy, "Perhaps your wife could back me up on this?" Serena raised an eyebrow and Guy then looked to find Anya with Serena, "After all mother's prerogative...you can never stop being a mother."
"I need to talk to you and mum," Zosia said to Guy and Guy frowned what was wrong with her? "It's important...please."
"'My office and it better be important Zosia," Guy said.
"It is really important," Arthur cut in and Guy looked at him with a look which made Arthur be quiet.
"Why else would I disturb your precious time with patients...when your grandchild's life was just...I'll see you in your office," Zosia then stormed away again feeling like she was being an inconvenience but it was important she needed to put her child first no more worrying about other people her health and baby's health was her number one priority, the twenty week scan would tell her if her baby was going to be affected by Spina Bifida and her question was does she tell Arthur?
A/N: Since I haven't updated in a while I thought I'd make it a long one, so I'm skipping ahead to twenty weeks next, I apologise for not having Bonnie thrown off but I can't write dead characters it's weird I'm sorry for being mean to Jonny but in my opinion he has been so horrible to Jac :/ anyway thanks to RainbowChaser90 for helping me once again and PianoNinja thank you as well, ohh and Rena not Sic Rena ;) Sic is an awful pairing name! Anyway Rena is for Lee as she is lovely and I'm glad I can fangirl about Rena with her :). Reviews are welcome! Should Zosia tell Arthur about the family history? And not do what Guy did wait until 20 weeks or should she do what her dad did? xxxx