Chapter 10

IvanPOV

Looks like father and son are getting really to know each other. Now the only getting his parents back together part might be a bit harder. I mean Dimitri is probably going to be all for it but Rose. Alex did say that she never got with someone else, might be hope for them. Maybe he can serenade for her under her bedroom window. On second thought I heard him sing in the shower once and let's just say it doesn't sound pretty.

Could also send her flowers every day with reasons why she should forgive him. But she might set them on fire and send them back. Or dress him up as a pizza delivery boy and then surprise her with a lap dance. I think I need to stop watching adult movies cause that sounds even worse. Good luck finding and outfit big enough to fit Dimitri in with all his glory.

Then I heard him walking up from behind me saying to Alex he will meet him inside in a bit. 'D! How's it hanging my man. See you two are getting closer by the minute'. He had a serious look on his face what was starting to worry me. 'You need to do something for me. I saw Alberta today and she asked me about Alex. Then all of a sudden she pointed out how he looked like a mix of Rose and me.'

Oh boy I thought and my eyes widened, so the only thing I was able to say was 'Oh'. He narrowed his eyes at me and saw that something inside his head clicked. 'Oh is that Olena calling dinner is ready! BYEEE!'. Turned around quickly and began walking back to the house taking bigger steps then usual. 'IVVVAAAAANNN! I heard him growl 'GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE OR I SWEAR I WILL CUT SOME PARTS OF!.' I started to squeaked like a little girl holding on to my precious jewels.

I could feel his warm breath in my neck and was slowly turning around holding up my hands in surrender. 'You know' he said as a statement not a question , what made me swallow hard. 'Talk.' Oh lord how was I going to explain this him without being punched in the face. 'Well you see uuuh I couldn't find anything so I went out on a limb and asked him. And eeuuuhm he didn't deny it and kind of promised him not tell you.' I visibly flinched and ducked away waiting to be screamed at. But when he didn't do anything to deny it I kept talking. He was telling me about his name change and told me about Rose and her life in New York.

AlexPOV

That felt awesome, I won all my matches and I had my dad cheering me on from the side lines. We both made it the second day with flying colors. I was grinning like a fool sitting at the dinner table waiting for everyone. Then I saw Ivan mouthing sorry followed by my dad looking at me like I was in trouble.

Oh crap was all I thought 'Before you say something, I want to say I am sorry! I know I shouldn't have lied. And I understand that you want me to leave.' Tears started to roll down my cheeks as I continued. 'You are probably disappointed in me now. Sorry if I embarrassed you in front of everyone. I will start packing right away and will ask if they can place me with another family. I promise I will stay away from you and your family. Please don't tell my mom I will be in so much trouble, I am so sorry I just wanted know who my dad was'.

With that I ran upstairs feeling like a fool an started crying my eyes out. Grabbed everything as fast as I could and shoved it in my suitcase. I really fucked it up and now I have to face the consequences. Should have written a letter or an email that this wouldn't have happened. Then the bedroom door opened and it was Olena? 'I….I… am sorry Miss Belikova… I am packing already. Really really sorry leaving right away. Thank you for everything, you have been nothing but kind to me.'

But before I could walk away she grabbed me tight and held me tightly against her. Tears turned in to sobs and before I knew it she kissed my forehead and said 'What you did was stupid but brave, you didn't how we would react. But I am glad you did, cause I have another grandson I am very proud of.' Almost couldn't believe what she was saying and looked at her with disbelieve.

DPOV

How could he think I would be disappointed in him. It broke my heart when he started to cry and break down. Telling his mom would be something inevitable cause she and I are going to need to have a talk. The fact he went through so much just to get to know me softened my heart.

I need to talk to him but what do I say to him. What if he didn't want me near him? Did I give him the feeling that he had to leave? Was upset that he lied but I never and mean never regret meeting him. Really have to stop him before he feels rejected, when I was coming closer to my old room I heard that my mom beat me to it. She was holding him tightly and heard her say she was proud of him.

Knew my mom already saw him as family the day she met him. Didn't want to interrupt their little moment but I had to let him know I was just as proud. 'And so am I to be your dad!' I said while holding my arms open hoping he would walking into him. More tears started to roll down his cheeks and he ran right into them. Felt so good holding him and saying out loud for the first time that I am his dad.

He kept saying sorry and asking for forgiveness, but that wasn't necessary. 'But I do like to have a word with your mom about everything.' Nodding and sniffing at the same time he said 'So your finally going to propose to her'. That made me laugh and I kissed his forehead 'Well she first has to forgive me and talk to me'.

Alex started to bite his lip and said 'Well euhm you could euhm invite her over here and you know' clearling his throat 'tell her you also still love her too. Cause she still thinks about you every day.' Then he handed over his passport which said Name: Alexander Andrei Dimitri Belikov-Mazur. My jaw dropped to the floor and gave him a confused look. He gave me a small smile and told me how he found me on the internet and having the same name must meant she doesn't hate me. 'She still wears the necklace you gave her for Valentine's day. Saw the inscription engraved on the back' he whispered.

Then I saw his birthday and noticed it was the same day as mine making me swallow loud. He grabbed the picture from my desk and pointed at it while saying 'Every year on my birthday she falls asleep crying holding this picture of you'. Could it be that she was thinking as much about me as I was about her. But why did she never contact me? I really need to know, but then I need to talk to Rose in order to find out the reason.

Gave him a look and asked 'Did you tell me everything or is there still something your hiding?'. He was shifting a bit uncomfortable leaning from one foot to another. 'Da' was the only he said making my pupils the size of a golf balls. 'You speak Russian? Saying to him in my native tongue. He blushed and said back 'Might have taken a few lessons'. Oh god he heard everything we said and did the only thing I could do what was burst out laugh.

RPOV

Had an odd proposal today from Alex, I mean I am excited to see where he staying. And so kind of the family to buy me a plane ticket to visit my son. That's just a lot, don't really have the money to pay them back. He sounded so excited that his mom would come to see him in Russia. This is all so much, should I just do it and see what happens?

Within a week he would be coming home and I would stay there during that time. What am I supposed to do there, I know nothing about the people there. From what I heard of Alex the town is small but feels homey. So many thoughts were going through my mind, most of them what if? So many things can happen, what if for some reason I see Dimitri.

Would it really be so bad, if he has his wife he wouldn't care. Come on Rose you're a big girl now, you don't give a damn about him. No fooling around with a married men, maybe I should google him and see if he is single. Great go all creepy stalker on him but at least he wouldn't find out. What ever happened to the see were life takes you Rose. Well maybe she got a bit more careful after having a 15 year old son I thought.

But I don't want to disappoint Alex, he was so happy that they arranged for me to visit. And of course he won the tournament as a pro. The last person in the finale was someone he fought before Nathan Dashkov, little fucker tried to cheat. Good thing Mr Dozdrov saw it and was able to tell the referee. Couldn't believe he was encouraged by his own father, they both got disqualified.

Another big trophy to put in his little hall of fame, well not so little any more. It started to take up almost half of his bedroom so I had given up space in my closet. Didn't have many pieces of clothing so I gladly gave it up. Instead of the wooden doors it has a glass door so you could see right through. My boy has become quite the little warrior in the dojo.

What should I do? Wasn't like this was going to happen anytime soon again so I better do it. Called Alex right away telling him I was coming to Russia. In the background I heard excitement and people clapping what felt weird it's just me. But then maybe they were happy for Alex, they have been taken care of him over a month.

Made arrangements at work what surprisingly went smooth and without any struggles. Not like it is a few days but I shouldn't be worried about something that isn't a problem to start with. Since the dream I had last night I have been a little on edge. I can still feel his fingers on my body caressing me gently leaving a trail of kisses.

Flashback

Was laying in bed when I felt somebody kissing the back of neck. Warm tingly feeling on my skin every time his lips touched it. Whispering how beautiful I was and how much he loved me. Felt so good having his warm body against me. His hand slowly stroking my thigh then my stomach making me lay on my back. Closing my eyes feeling my legs being gently being opened kissing my calf up to my inner thigh.

Could feel myself getting wet while his tongue got closer to his final destination. Two fingers thrusted inside me and his lips brushing against my clit. Kissing turning into sucking as his fingers slowly moved in and out. His fingers being replaced by his tongue penetrating me as deep as possible. Feeling the heat inside my body rise as I got closer to my orgasm.

My eyes started to roll in the back of my head at the overwhelming feeling of pleasure. Tasting me and making sure to take every drop he had just produced. Feeling his warm breath on my neck as he whispered 'I still love you Roza'. Then waking up panting and the blankets sticking to my sweaty body.

Didn't know if I had to cry or relish the memory of something that will never happen again. Felt betrayed by my own dreams making me feel what I thought was long forgotten. Didn't want to feel and crave for something I should no longer think about. Kept wondering what I would do if he was standing right in front of me. What if he said he has been longing for me just as much I was for him.

Couldn't do that to myself he hurt me, he chose to not be in his sons life. Could I ever forgive him for that?