Here is the update that I promised. Again, sorry if it's kinda short. Hope you enjoy!
"Ry-"Amanda's voice cut off when the other woman pulled her hand free.
"I'm going to go fill in Mom and Liv." She said quietly before turning to leave.
"Ryan, please." Amanda begged.
"I'll be right back." Ryan said, coming back to press a kiss to the bandage on her head before leaving.
Liv and Alex both stood when Ryan returned.
"Is everything alright? You look sick, sweetie." Alex said, laying a comforting hand on her arm.
"She's pregnant." Ryan whispered, falling into the nearest seat, her eyes staring off in front of her. The other women's eyes widened in shock. They both stared as Ryan just sat there. Liv turned to Alex.
"You go, check on Rollins." She said, causing Alex to look back at her. "I've got this." Alex nodded before turning to leave. Liv kneeled next to the other brunet and placed her hand on the girl's knee, shaking slightly.
"Hey." She said gently. When that didn't get Scotty's attention she tried more forcefully. "Hey!" Scotty's eyes shot to her own. "You want to tell what's going through that head of yours?"
"What if it's too much?" Ryan whispered.
"What's too much?"
"This. Us." Ryan answered. "What if I get attached to her and the baby and she decides she doesn't want this anymore? I'll lose them both. Liv, what if-"
"Scotty!" Olivia said, cutting the other woman off. "I get that your life hasn't always been easy, but you have got to stop living under the assumption that everyone will leave you. That girl is head over heels for you, she isn't leaving. And neither is Alex. But, this isn't just about you, this is about Amanda too. And right now, she's probably sitting in that room thinking you're about to leave her." That seemed to pull Ryan out of her head. The younger woman closed her eyes tightly, taking a deep breath.
"I'm being selfish, aren't I?"
"Little bit." Liv replied, smiling gently at her. Ryan covered her face with her hands, her fingers sliding under the lenses of her glasses.
"How could I be so stupid?" She said. Olivia reached forward and pulled the hands away, forcing Ryan to look at her.
"You weren't being stupid. You were just given news that could change your life forever. You're allowed to panic a little." She said. "But, it's over now, so it's time to woman-up and go talk to your girl." Ryan leaned forward and wrapped the detective in a tight hug.
"You won't leave either, right?" She asked, her voice muffled by the older woman's shoulder. Liv smiled.
"No, I won't leave, either." Liv told her, hugging her tighter.
When Alex entered Amanda's room she was greeted with the sight of the other woman crying softly. She quickly made her way to the bed and hugged the blonde tightly. "it's okay, Amanda. It'll be alright." She whispered into Amanda's hair.
"She just left." Amanda cried. "She must hate me now."
"She doesn't hate you." Alex told her, running her fingers through the younger detective's hair. "She'll be back any minute and you guys will talk and everything will be fine, you'll see." After a few seconds the younger woman calmed down and leaned back in the bed.
"You really think she'll come back?" Amanda asked with a small voice.
"I do." Alex said, taking the other woman's hand. "She cares too much for you to just leave. Plus I'd kill her." She added, having the desired effect of laughter from the other woman.
"Mom." A voice said from the doorway. Alex turned and saw Ryan standing there, looking everywhere but at Amanda. "Liv is waiting outside. She said that you guys would watch Emmy for tonight." Alex smiled at the thought of spending more time with her granddaughter. She squeezed Amanda's hand one more time before standing and walking to her daughter. She pulled Ryan to her in a tight embrace.
"You take care of her, young lady." She whispered in the younger woman's ear.
"Yes, ma'am." Ryan replied, squeezing Alex tighter before letting her go. Alex shot one last look at the other blonde before looking back to Ryan.
"I take it you'll be staying here tonight." Ryan looked to Amanda before nodding. "I'll bring you some fresh clothes tomorrow. Love you kiddo." She said, squeezing the other woman's shoulder gently.
"Love you too." Ryan said softly as she left. The brunet looked at the blonde hesitantly before stepping closer, taking the spot Alex had vacated on the bed.
"Ryan, I-"Amanda was interrupted by Ryan's lips attaching to hers.
"I'm sorry." Ryan said when they broke apart. "Baby, I am so sorry. I panicked and I didn't want you to see that so I just left. Which was stupid because I hurt you and I never-"This time it was Ryan who was cut off by a kiss.
"I understand, honey." Amanda assured her, seeing a look of relief wash over the brunet. "I do think we should talk about this, though."
"I do too." Ryan told her. "Where does this leave us? I've been trying to give you space to figure out what we are, but this complicates things a little." Amanda nodded at that. "What are you thinking?"
"I'm thinking…" Amanda thought for a moment before looking back to Ryan, determinedly. "I want to be with you. I want to have this baby with you. I want to give Emmy a little brother or a sister." She reached forward, cupping the other woman's cheek. "I want to go to ultrasounds with you. I want to hear you complain about having to track down whatever strange food I'm craving in the middle of the night. Whatever happens, boy or girl, I want you there with me. I want us to be a family, the four of us." By the time she finished they were both in tears.
"I want that too." Ryan said, sniffling lightly. "I want to be there for you all the way." Amanda pulled her into a much needed hug then and they just held each other.
"Emmy id going to be so excited." Ryan said when they pulled away from each other. The thought of the little girl pulled a smile to the blonde's lips. She really loved that kid.
"I know I ask you this a lot, but are you sure?" Ryan said, turning serious again. "This is a big step and we've only been together for a few weeks. I need you to be sure." Amanda smiled at her again.
"Are you unsure?" She asked. Ryan shook her head no. "Then shut and hold me already."
Later that night Alex and Olivia were sitting on their couch watching TV when the sound of tiny footsteps echoed through the hall. Liv paused the show in time for Emmy to appear next to them, crawling up in Alex's lap. "Everything okay, sweetie?" The blonde asked.
"Can't sleep, Nana." The said, burrowing further into Alex.
"Well, why not?" Liv asked, running a hand through the brown curls.
"Worried 'bout 'Manda." Was the reply. Alex pressed a kiss to the girl's forehead.
"Sweetheart, Amanda will be fine. Mommy called earlier and told you the doctor said she would be able to come home tomorrow, remember?" The little girl nodded. "You know, when your mommy couldn't sleep I used to sing to her, would you like me to do that?" Emmy nodded.
Olivia was amazed. Alex had a beautiful voice. She listened closely as the blonde sang softly to the Emmy, the child's eyes drooping closed. It only took a few minutes before the girl was out like a light. Liv leaned over and placed a gently kiss to Alex's lips. "You have a wonderful voice." She said, causing Alex to blush.
"Thank you."
"Have you heard from Scotty since she called?" Olivia asked. Ryan had originally sent a text to Alex saying 'We're having a baby!' to which Alex said 'and she called us cliché', but then had called later to speak to Emily and tell them that they would be home the next day.
"Yea, she's kept me updated." Alex told her. "You really think they'll be okay?" She asked. Olivia smiled at her.
"I really do." Liv said. "They're good for each other. Rollin's hasn't been the same since the Holden incident, but Ryan seems to make her more like her old self. They won't let this get in the way of what they have."
"Good." Alex answered. "I don't know what you said to her in the waiting room, but it seemed to work, so good job." Liv laughed.
"I just told her to woman-up and handle her shit." She joked, causing Alex to smack her lightly in the arm.
"Oh, you did not!"
"Well, maybe not in those exact words." Olivia said, leaning over to kiss her love again. "They'll be okay. It's gonna be difficult, but they'll figure it out."
When Alex arrived at the hospital the next morning Amanda was already dressed in the clothes she had worn the day before. After pressing a kiss to her girlfriend's forehead and exchanging a quick 'thanks mom' for the bag Alex brought Ryan soon left the two blondes alone. "Are you okay?" She asked Amanda.
"Yea." The detective said, smiling brightly. "We decided that whatever happens from here, we want to go through it together. As a family." Alex smiled at her.
"You're having a baby!" She said, causing Amanda to take a deep breath.
"We are…I can't believe it." She said. "It's soon…really soon in our relationship, but…it's good. We're happy." Alex smiled wider and pulled the younger woman to her in a hug.
When Ryan left the bathroom a few minutes later, now in jeans and a dark blue tee, she saw her mother and girlfriend holding each other. She took a moment to smile softly at the picture before she spoke. "Hey!" She said, forcing them to pull apart. "Get your own incubator."
"My girlfriend, ladies and gentlemen, the charmer." Amanda deadpanned.
"Hush you!" Alex said to her daughter. "Are you guys ready?"
"Yea, they signed my discharge papers already. We were just waiting for you." Amanda told her.
"And we don't want to know what was going on this morning that caused you to get here so late." Ryan laughed, helping Amanda out of the bed. Alex swatted her shoulder lightly before leading her to the car where Liv and the kids were waiting.
After they arrived back at Ryan's apartment Liv told them to take the next three days off before leaving with Alex for work. The women decided it best to get telling Emily out of the way. They sat her down on the couch while Amanda took a seat next to her and Ryan sat on the coffee table. "Baby, we have something to tell you." Amanda started.
"What?" The girl asked innocently. Here goes nothing.
"Well you know hoe Mommy and Amanda have been spending a lot of time together?" Ryan asked. Emmy nodded.
"Well, we've decided that we want to be a family. All of us." Amanda told her, her hand reaching for Ryan's. The girl looked confused.
"Baby, like Nana and Liv. They love each other and are a family with Noah." Ryan said, not realizing her mistake until it was too late.
"So…you love 'Manda?" Emily asked her mother. Ryan's widened like saucers as she looked to the blonde who seemed to too interested in her answer to help.
"Uh…" Did she love her? It was too soon wasn't it? They agreed to have a child together though, so didn't that already establish that there were strong feelings? Why was she the only one getting asked the hard questions? Ah, what the hell! "Yes. Yes, I do." She said, looking to a smiling Amanda.
"Do you love Mommy?" Emmy asked, directing her question to the blonde.
"Yes, baby." Was her answer. The two women smiled at each other before focusing back on the task at hand. "There is more, though." Amanda said.
"Amanda is going to have a baby." Ryan told her daughter. "And that baby will be your little brother or sister." She finished, causing Emily to bounce in her seat and clap her hands together, causing both women to laugh.
"Imma be a big sister?!" She yelled.
"Yes, baby, you are." Amanda said, trying to hold the child in place so she wouldn't fall. Emily's face contorted to a confused expression again and she looked to her mother.
"If you're the baby's mommy, then what will you be?" Emmy asked, looking at Amanda.
"I'll be the baby's mama." She answered. Emily still looked confused.
"What's on your mind, Bug?" Ryan asked.
"Does that make 'Manda my mama too?" She asked her mother in a small voice. Amanda looked to her for help but Ryan just shrugged, as if to say 'up to you'. The blonde thought for a minute before picking the small girl up and placing her on her lap.
"I would love to be your mama." She told the child. Emmy hugged her tight before jumping to the floor.
"Okay!" She said before tearing off to her room to play. Amanda looked to Ryan, who was trying to hold in her laugh.
"That's it?" Amanda asked. "After all the questions, that's it?"
"Kids." Ryan laughed, shrugging again, before taking the vacated seat next to the blonde.
"You love me, huh?" Amanda said as she turned to face the brunet. Ryan looked at her, trying to gage her reaction, but the blonde's face was blank.
"Too soon?" She asked. Amanda shook her head no.
"I love you too." She replied, pulling Ryan to her and kissing her soundly.
"Gross!" A voiced yelled behind them. Ryan pulled back and looked at Emmy with a spark in her eye.
"Get over here you little rascal!" Ryan yelled, jumping off the couch and chasing the child around the room. 'What have I gotten myself into?' Amanda thought, the sound of Emmy's laughter causing her to smile.
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