Never say never
I'm doing this. I'm doing this. Sorry for the very long pause, I'll apologize at the end and with this almost 3k words.
This chapter is for LostSoulsJB because if it wasn't for you, it would still be a archive on my computer.
Disclaimer: Someone read my tea leafs the other day, they spelled "Not Cassie"
Someone was baking pie at the kitchen's institute, and as Maryse had left the previous day, that could only mean that either Isabelle was about to burn the whole place or Clary and Simon decided to try their abilities in the kitchen, either choice would end in a mess. I dropped the knife I was about to throw. Why was I throwing stuff? Because if your parabatai slash ex something slash best friend, tells you to back off because he is having a romantic night with his fiancé, and you tell him there is no way you're just sitting through that silently and then he proceeds to yell at you about how you are just the other one and that what you two have its over, then the logic thing, and what I did was to lock myself for three days in the weapon's room throwing things to the wall.
But then I realised, I didn't care if the fucking place went on fire, Alexander "the purest and shiest of all" Lightwood had dumped me, Jace Herondale. I was hurt on my pride and more importantly on my feelings. I picked the knife again, aiming to the door this time, and continued like that until it opened and Alec stand was there with something in his hand, which I decided, was a gift from Raziel himself. I threw my last knife to his head, which he dodged unfortunately.
-By the angel, Jace, I know you are mad at me, but don't kill me, we are still parabatai -He left the thing he was carrying in the table next to me and stood awkwardly there- I made you pie.
-Well that explains the smell -I picked another set of blades and aimed at his head.
-Jace! -He dodged the first one- just stop throwing things at me and let me talk!
-That first one was for letting me get my hopes high -I threw the second to his arm and he barely had the time to dodge it- the second one was because you told me "maybe tomorrow" -the third blade got stuck a millimetre from his left toe- that one was for shouting me yesterday, who in the name of Raziel do you think you are? -The fourth one broke the elbow of his black tee, and made him bleed a little- that one, because I heard the two of you having sex, and let me tell you, I'm hurt and angry -I picked the last one and his face told me it was okay whatever I decided to do with it- and this one is for being a perfect and gorgeous idiot -I dropped it on my feet, and turned my back to him.
-I'm sorry for all the first three ones, the fourth is your fault and the fifth was just adorkable -I heard him walking towards me- here, give it a try. I didn't cook it so you could turn you back on me, you moron.
-Then why –he shoved the spoon into my mouth- did you made it? –I said chewing –It's delicious –he smiled and that made me almost forget why I was mad at him, almost.
-It is an "I'm sorry" pie, I shouldn't had yelled at you yesterday, I was just so out of my mind, and you were being a little bitch about the whole thing, and Maia was here, and she doesn't know about… us, if there is still an us? –He finished his rambling with a solid question.
-Maybe, the pie says yes, -I told him shoving more pie into my mouth –but all my splattered tears on the window say no.
-Really? Or are you just being a drama queen? –He asked biting his lip.
-Really, I spent the whooole night crying myself dry on that window –I said like I was exaggerating, half because I didn't want a chick flick and half because Alec was saying sorry, and I wanted him back.
-You drama queen –he rolled his eyes on me.
-Maybe, but I'm YOUR drama queen.
-Oh, yeah? –He intertwined his hands on my hair –so there is something.
-Depends, what do you have in mind? –I asked, holding him by the waist, it was definitely wider than a girl's but somehow knowing that it was Alec, made it better.
-Do you happen to remember a "maybe tomorrow"? –He asked joking.
-Oh yes, I do recall something like that –I answered kissing him.
Kissing Alec was something I could do forever, the feeling of his lips against mine, the feeling of his body pressed slightly to me, and over all this little things I could feel our parabatai bond getting stronger. I slipped my tongue into his mouth remembering where we had left our kiss the last time. His moan was shadowed by a vibration and not of the good kind, sounding between us.
-Damn it, Magnus is calling –he sighed.
-Don't answer – I commanded and his eyes fell on me leaving Magnus' call to fall into voicemail – You're mine right now –I grabbed him a little rougher than he had supposed, which resulted in a flinch.
-I'm yours –he responded in a breath, closing his eyes, letting me manhandle him to the wall, at which I pushed him.
There was a contradiction to his submissive phrase when I open his mouth to kiss him and our tongues battle for dominance. My hand wandered through his whole body, tracing all the runes I had painted on Alec's body. His hands locked up strands of my hair, pulling it in various directions, making me moan against his mouth. I left his mouth trailing soft kisses through his jaw line, stopping at his neck to leaving him a hickey, I so hoped Magnus would see that and know that this territory was marked. My hand trailed over the bulge on my parabatai's pants, it was something completely new, but somehow Alec made me want to try all of these new things.
-Isabelle could enter any time -he stutter between heated kisses.
-My room is closer -I took his hand and dragged him into my bedroom.
As soon as he was inside the room I slammed it shut with his body.
-Wait –he purred taking a break from the kiss –Jace wait.
-Why, by Raziel, will I wait? –I asked out of breath.
-Let me lock the room with a rune, just in case –he turned giving me a good look of his butt.
-Tease –I whispered seeing him smile in my direction.
His response was cut when I slammed my self into him, making him wince at the pain of hitting the wall. This time I was not going to let him back off, so I took his phone from his pocket and threw it to my nightstand.
My hand drew circles over his hipbones, slowly raising his black shirt, till our heated kisses made me confident enough to pull it out of him, pulling apart our lips just enough time to pass the fabric out of his head.
I let my hands return to his hipbones, tracing the stamina rune I had placed there long ago, and congratulating myself for the placing. His hands pulled my tee up quicker and more confidently than mine had.
-Do you top or bottom? -He asked after he tossed my tee on the ground.
-Do I... what? -Couldn't we just continue kissing?
-Sex, Jace. You do want to have sex, right?
-Yes I do -he pulled me apart breaking the mood slightly.
-All right, so, do you top or bottom? I don't know and it would be rude to just assume- I whined at his comment.
-On which one I do less work?
-Bottom, technically- he laughed.
-Then I choose that -I pulled him into a kiss again, but this time he was a little more dominant, more like he was controlling me, and I would be a liar if I didn't admit it turned me on.
-Not going to say no to the opportunity –He pushed me to the bed. I could feel my parabatai's excitement through our bond and his clothes.
He crawled in to me in a way that must be illegal; to kiss me hard on the mouth I couldn't do much a side from whimpering when he bit my lower lip. I could feel slick kisses all over my neck. Then Alec's hand caressed my nipple as his tongue licked the other… Wait what?
-What are you doing? –He raised his head.
-Uh, I'm doing you –I would have laughed if I weren't slightly freaking out.
-Yes, but I mean, playing with nipples is for girls –I stated.
-Jace, that's heteronormative, and you're about to have gay sex with your parabatai –he sighed- does it bother you?
-Not really, I guess I'm just not used to –I shrugged thinking I was about to have lots of things be done to me that I was not used to.
I heard him puffing and leaning back to continue a trace of kisses through my runes, avoiding completely my chest. As I felt his tongue on my bellybutton, his hand undid the zip from my trousers. His hands pulled my jeans lower and lower while his lips kissed and sucked every inch he uncovered, until I heard the jeans drop to the floor. Finally his hands toyed with the waistband of my boxers, all excitement.
-What? You don't know how to take them off? -I laughed at his hesitation.
-It's not that -he chuckled- I just... I have dreamt about this, having you, so much I can believe I finally got to take your boxers off -He leaned for a quick kiss before pulling them down, the mildly cold air striking the hot flesh of my erection.
His hand which so many times had hold a stele healing my wounds was now pumping slowly, almost reverently my dick, extracting long moans out of me. Suddenly Alec leaned to kiss and lick the shaft before taking the whole in a beat, making the both of us moan loudly. I hadn't the slightest idea of how Alec had learned to give amazing blowjobs, but I thanked Raziel for it. Then I remembered that the most viable option was that Magnus had taught him and I almost lost my excitement.
-Am I boring you here? -He asked after releasing my boner with an obscene pop.
-By no means, Alexander, my head just drifted to your blowjob teacher- he blushed, lips swelled with post blowjob redness.
-Shut up -his hand played with my balls making my cock twitch with interest- do you have lube and condoms or do I have to go to my room?
-We, straight people, use those two too you know? -I reached for the last drawer of my nightstand, pulling them out and tossing them at my parabatai, wondering what he was going to do with them.
-I didn't know -he said sassily before returning at his previous work sucking me off. His ministrations quickly turned me into a whining and needy mass beneath him. He was rolling his tongue around the head when I felt a lubed up finger making his way to my ass. Wait what?
-By the angel! What are you doing? -I pulled myself into a curled up position, getting my ass as far of him as possible.
-This is going to get quite repetitive, but I was doing you -He looked at me confused, his right fingers covered with lube.
-So funny -I was freaking out and he looked so innocent- why were you putting your fingers down there?
-Because that's how gay sex kind of works, you know one guy's dick has to go somewhere, where did you thought it go? -He laughed.
-So... You are going to put... On my... By the angel -Okay, now I was definitely panicking.
-Jace, by the angel -he passed his non lubed hand through his bed hair- you're clearly not ready to have sex, at least not with me, or any guy. You don't know how it works and you're freaking out.
He stood up, cleaning his fingers against his boxers.
-Wait, don't leave -I breathed -Just... yes I don't have an idea of how it works, but I trust you, it just took me by surprise. Do me, please? -I pulled the puppy eyes; there was no way I was going to lose this chance just because it seemed weird.
-Jace... do you trust me that much after I have see you freak out like this? -He sat up again.
-Hey, I trust you with my life -I didn't want him to feel rejected just because I had panicked- there's a reason I asked you to be my parabatai, and it is because I trust you completely. I'm still wrapping my head on the fact that I'm a little gay for you, but I want to have everything with you, even if it seems weird to me. So if you say that your dick goes in my ass, I say in what position you want my sexy body- I finished my speech smirking at him.
-Well -he laughed- for the first time is always better if you're in all fours.
-Then I'm on that, baby boy -His laugh made me feel as confident as I sounded. Getting in four was easy, that hard part was turning my back at Alec knowing what he was planning on doing, but I keep breathing, making me go calmer as the sounds of preparation happened.
-Just breath, trust me, it gets better -he said jacking me off from behind making me forget about everything else. That was it, until his finger circled my entrance again- Are you sure?
-Alexander Gideon Lightwood, just do it -I knew that if he took any longer I was going to over think it.
His long finger entered slowly through me, making me bite the pillow to avoid crying out loud in pain. During the first thrusts I could have sworn this was going to be the worst idea ever, and that was saying much.
-By the angel, do that again - I shouted when he touched lightly a spot during a thrust, it had just felt magical -I can live if you do that again -after two more touches on that spot I felt myself enjoying Alec's fingers inside me.
-Meet your prostate -he laughed, getting a second finger into me, scissoring my hole open.
-By the angel, Alec! -I cried out loud when he settled a rhythm using three fingers - are you just going to do that till I come? I'm okay, by all means, but -I whimpered when he took his fingers out.
-Turn around -he commanded ripping the condom open. I did as I was told to find that he had already taken his trousers and boxers off, spotting a very hard erection- are you sure?
-Alec, just do it, please -He placed a pillow beneath my back before lining up.
I could be brave and said it didn't hurt, but I'm not a liar and there is no comparison on having three fingers inside you butt and having a dick. Although soon enough Alec found that awesome spot again and the pleasure exceeded the pain by far. I would love to say I lasted longer than my parabatai, but after a few hard, arrhythmic and lust full thrusts I was coming all over our stomachs.
I came shouting Alec's name, which combined with the tightness of my muscles around him, made him come after me.
-Jace -the word sounded more like a prayer, and while he went out of me, I felt adored in ways I can't even comprehend. It felt like even if the world started crumbling, Alec would be there to steady me.
-Well that was better than I had expected -I laughed after a few minutes of post-orgasm bliss.
-You're amazing -he said sarcastically letting me cuddle next to him.
-I know that, now, let me ask you something -I purred mixing my limbs with him.
-Please tell.
-Do you usually have this done to you or you do this?
-Both, but mostly done to me -his voice sounded distant as I drifted to sleep, surprisingly tired.
-Then I see now why you became gay -he laughed at me while burying his face on my hair.
-I love you -that was the last thing I heard, and I would have loved to answer him, but the darkness had already taken me.
AN: Okay, so long due apology, sorry, I promise it won't happen again, I have a thing against abandoning stories, so I'm never doing that, I just had a very weird Christmas/New year/Valentine period, sorry again.
Anyway, here we had finally our Jalec smut, I must say, I enjoyed it deeply, the chapter is based in Never say Never by the Fray (no Justin Bieber, THE FRAY) for a better experience listen to the song, I've always thought it as a Jalec song.
If you liked it, please tell me so, next chapter little angst, I promise it will be little time before it is up