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Chapter Ten

Undisclosed Desires

He just couldn't control himself. The feel of her insides squeezing and resisting at first, then the feeling of her pulling him in and taking all of him. He let out a groan and moved his hips faster. The sound of her moans and their flesh meeting was the only noises that were filling the large office room. He had Kagome bent over the desk and he was taking her from behind. He was enjoying himself thoroughly. He moved at a steady pace, making sure not to hurt her. This was the first time in such a long time that he has actually held back. He didn't want to release the beast that was inside of him, beckoning and growling and wanting more.
"Sesshomaru." Kagome moaned out as he moved in closer so he could be deeper inside of her.

He grunted and squeezed onto her creamy flesh and let out a moan himself and could feel the walls of her insides started to quiver and then clamp down on him as she screamed in relief and ecstasy. He grunted and moved harder and noticed that his movements were jerking the desk and the things on top of it. He didn't care. All he wanted was the relief himself as well.
With a few final thrusts his seed jutted out and she milked him with everything that he had. He thrust in deep and stayed there was his seed spilled and filled her. He panted and looked over the scene. She had her skirt up to her waist and her panties down to her ankles. Her legs were spread and her ass was red from all the slaps he gave it. She had her head down and she was breathing hard and still moaning in pleasure. The sun was peaking through the windows and his desk was a mess.

How did this happen?

How did it come to be this?
He remembered coming in at his usual time and Kagome was already there. The arousal swirling around her and coming to his nose. He breathed her in and took in the musky scent. It seemed everyday they were like this. At work. After work. Late at night. It come to where they were sleeping over at each other's homes. One day his house, the next hers.
He didn't know how she really felt, deep down. He didn't know how he felt either. All he knew was that he needed her. He wanted her. He desired her. He slowly pulled out his cock and watched as his seed slowly seep out and drip down her inner thighs. He groaned and knew his golden eyes hazed over. He could keep doing this. He could just live inside of her.

Kagome's head popped up and she jerked a little bit and went stiff. "Did you hear that?" She whispered.

"No."

"Someone might be coming." She quickly stood straight to where her back was pressed against him.

He couldn't resist. He wrapped his arms around her waist and leaned down and pressed his nose into her hair. She smelled so good. It wasn't just her shampoo but it was just her scent in general. He got lost in his own thoughts of days where he used to be the Lord of the West. He would have taken her in… just like he had taken Rin in. But Kagome would have been something more to him. He would be her Lord. He would be her lover.

Just like father.

Kagome's movements brought him out of his thoughts and he stepped back and watched as she lifted her panties and fixed her skirt, all the while he stood there with his pants half way down and his cock still hard and out. He could take her again. He could always take her again.

Kagome faced him and looked down then quickly looked away and blushed. "U-um sir…" She whispered.

Sesshomaru blinked and he snatched his hand out and grabbed Kagome by the arm and pulled her in. "Do not be ashamed." He whispered. He leaned down and kissed her softly. Almost as if he loved her. Did he love her? No, that couldn't be. It was lust. It all came down to that. Lust.
Kagome pulled away and looked over his shoulder to the door that was closed. "Maybe we should get to work." Her heart was beating fast. He could hear it. Everything about her was so easy to read. But was she ashamed of him? Did she still have suspicions of him?
"Kagome…"
Nervously she looked back at him and there was a blush on her cheeks and ears. "Sir, we really should be getting back to work."
Sesshomaru tilted his head and his silver white hair fell over his shoulder and spilled onto his arm that was holding her in place. "Sesshomaru."

She raised her eyebrows. "What?"
He opened his mouth to say something and a knock startled him. How had he not heard the elevator or the footsteps? He stood back and put everything away in his pants and he straightened his tie. He glanced at Kagome who was pushing hair behind her ear and she was fixing his desk.
"Enter." Sesshomaru finally said.

The door opened and revealed Zero from Human Resources. How is it he was never able to keep track of him? This Zero person was a mystery itself.

"I've come to discuss the holiday party." Zero said as he entered and glanced at Kagome then stared at Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru stared at him in silence and didn't let confusion cross his face.

Kagome cleared her throat and leaned into him and whispered, "We are having a holiday party for everyone here."

Sesshomaru turned and went to the windows and stared outside then turned and faced Zero. "Then I will let you take care of it."

Zero raised his thin eyebrows and he glanced at Kagome then back at him. "Sir, it should be discussed with you. You are the one hosting it after all."

Sesshomaru took his seat in his large cushioned swivel chair and it creaked under his weight and he pointed to the chair that was across from his desk. "Then we shall discuss it."

Zero smiled cheerfully and went to the chair and sat down and crossed a leg over the other. He magically pulled out a binder and set it on the desk and opened it. "So I figured we would celebrate ALL holidays. We have a few people here that celebrate Hanukah so I wanted us to incorporate that into the party…"

Meanwhile Kagome grabbed some things and headed to the door to leave but was stopped by Sesshomaru.

"You will stay, Kagome."
Zero stopped talking and looked over his shoulder to Kagome then to Sesshomaru. He smirked and it disappeared. But Sesshomaru didn't think anything of it. He just pointed to the other chair that was sitting in front of his desk.

"You will help Zero when I am unable to. I'm sure you can come up with a thing or two." Sesshomaru said softly.

Kagome blushed but nodded and looked over at Zero to give him her full attention. Sesshomaru watched her as Zero talked and pointed at a few things in the binder then would flip the page. He heard nothing. All his thoughts were consumed of Kagome. He just had her and yet his body was crying out for her. His member was stiff and pressing against his pants. He knew he couldn't stand and allow them to see his desire. So he sat there and pretended listen but really he was just planning for the next time he was going to take Kagome. And it would be soon.

"Happy holidays!" Someone cheered and everyone cheered with her and raised their glasses then took a sip of their drinks.
Kagome stood on the side by the wall and watched as everyone was having fun and enjoying their holiday party. It all came through great and it looked amazing. It was on the main floor of the building and Zero and herself had come together and decorated everything and had the help of a few others for food and drinks.

It was magical. Mistletoes everywhere and candles lit and music playing. All different types of religions coming together and celebrating. So why wasn't Kagome talking and enjoying herself?
She was dressed in a black backless dress and she didn't bother to put on a bra or even panties. She should have worn panties but she had a feeling that something was going to happen.

Her blue eyes went over the crowd looking for that one person. That one being. But he wasn't in sight. She lifted her glass to her lips and took a sip then brought it down and watched as everyone she used to work with have fun and tell stories and be full of cheer.

So why wasn't she full of cheer?
Could it be because she found cheer in him? Could it be that she felt empty without him? She smiled to herself and shook her head. She should be thankful for so many things and maybe having him in her life will be better. He has lived such a long life, had he ever celebrated during this time? He hasn't talked much about his past and she wanted to know more about him but how could she ask? That was such a personal thing.

"Everyone is full of cheer and yet you stand here with a long face." A deep voice said beside her.
Her heart picked up and she quickly looked over and saw that Sesshomaru was standing there in his suit and tie and held a drink in his hand. He had a long face. Nothing new there.

"Sesshomaru." She whispered.

He was looking over at the crowd of his employees. His eyes were steadily moving around the room and then they finally came and landed on her. His lips curled up in a small smile then disappeared. "Shouldn't you be enjoying yourself?"
Kagome blushed and looked away and took a sip of her drink and let out a little sigh as she lowered her glass. "Sesshomaru there is so much about you that I don't know."
She watched as he moved to stand in front of her and block her view of the people. He waited until she looked up at his face and he lifted his hand and brushed it through his hair and out. "Kagome…"

"I want to know more about you."
He stared at her perplexed. "There isn't much you need to know."

"But there is! Have you ever celebrated with someone? Have you always been alone? What were your parents like? There is so much." She said a little desperately.

Sesshomaru shook his head. "Watashinochichi wa ningen no josei o aishite imashita. Watashi no ototo no yukue wa wakaranai."

Kagome's eyes widened and she stared up at Sesshomaru's face shocked. "You don't know what happened to your brother?" She whispered.

Sesshomaru looked to his side when someone laughed really loud. He looked away when he saw that the person wasn't laughing at them. "My brother is half human." He said patiently and watched as she took that in. "I have no idea what the life lengths are for half demons." He said softly. "If he were alive, he would be old. But I have not gone out to search for him. We were not close."

Kagome looked down and she felt a sudden sadness for Sesshomaru. She had to find his brother. She had to find someone that could bring happiness in his life. She looked up at him and felt determined. "What's his name?"
"Inuyasha." He said softly.

She nodded and stepped closer to him. "And your mother?"
"She was killed."

Kagome felt a lump in her throat and she tried to clear her throat and felt tears in her eyes. "So this is the first time you've celebrated?"

Sesshomaru took a step back and nodded. "I've never celebrated. Not until now."
"Doesn't that make you lonely?"

Sesshomaru tilted his head slightly. "Lonely?" He whispered and shook his head. "No."

The tears were about to spill. Through all this time he had never celebrated or had someone. She sniffled and reached up and wiped away some tears. "I feel like you know more about me than I know about you." She whispered heart brokenly.

"The only thing that matters is that you know me now. Who I was back in the past does not matter."

Kagome looked at him and searched his face for certainty. She wanted to see if he meant it. But he was so hard to read. But finally, a little smile appeared on his lips and she smiled with him.

"I must do my rounds and greet each employee. You will not leave will you?" He asked.

She shook her head. "No I think I will do the same. I have a few friends here…"

He nodded and the smile was gone. It was as if the smile were meant only for her and no one else. "Do not leave without me." He said gently.

Kagome smiled and nodded. "Okay."
They separated their ways and Kagome made her way around and greeted and talked with a few people. She found Zero laughing with a few women and she smiled and approached them.
"Zero it looks great!" Kagome said happily.

Zero smiled and pulled her in and hugged her. "Aw thank you sweetie. It was all with your help. Everyone loves it." He released her and looked down at her with a bright smile. "I saw you over there talking to the big boss." He whispered.

Kagome's smile faded and she looked over her shoulder and glanced at Sesshomaru who was across the room talking to some men. She looked back at Zero and smiled half heartedly. "Yeah. He likes what we've done."

"Is that so?" He asked with a little smirk. "How has it been going? I haven't been able to talk to you much lately. It's been a couple months since you've been working for him. How has it been going?"
Kagome nodded and looked down at her drink and tried not to think of her and Sesshomaru having sex. "It's been great. Very tiring but great."

"I think he likes you."

Kagome snapped her head up and stared at Zero shocked. "What?"
"Mmhm." Zero smirked and nudged her gently. "Normally his assistants don't last long but you have been there the longest."

"Really?"
"Oh yes. So I think he is very pleased with you."

Kagome nodded and laughed nervously. "Yeah."

"Do you like him?"
Kagome looked back at him and shook her head then stopped and nodded her head. "Yeah um.. no. I mean…"
Zero laughed.

Kagome flushed and stared down at her half empty cup and tried to think of something good to say. No one must know about their affair. That's what it is. Affair. And here she was thinking that they had something more and that she wanted to get to know him more. She looked up at Zero and smiled. "He's a nice guy." Was all she could come up with.

"That's something I wouldn't have said to describe Mr. Taisho." He laughed flamboyantly.

"Well…um…"

"Oh there's Lisa! I've got to go. Nice talking with you." Zero blew her a kiss and made a b-line to this Lisa.

Kagome let out a sigh of relief and she stood there and looked around and tried to act cheerful. She had to be cheerful. So why was it that she had this ache in her chest?

"I want to thank everyone and I wish you all a happy holiday and a new year. Please take this time of vacation to celebrate with your friends and family and I will see you next year." Sesshomaru toasted.

"Cheers!" Everyone replied and they all took a drink of their drink.

Kagome chugged hers down and she placed her cup down and made her way out of the open room where everyone was celebrating and decided that it was late enough for her to leave and go home. She just needed some air.

She grabbed her heavy coat and put it on and grabbed her car keys from her pocket and walked to the entrance.
"You said you weren't going to leave." Sesshomaru's voice came from behind her.

Kagome stopped and looked over and saw Sesshomaru had left the party and was walking towards her. She let out a nervous laugh. "Yeah I'm sorry sir…I just don't feel well."
He raised his eyebrows and reached out and grabbed her keys. "Then how about you let me take you home."

Kagome swallowed hard and shook her head and laughed nervously. "I think I'll be fine. I just… I just need to go home."
Sesshomaru held her keys and he stepped closer to her and reached out and lifted her chin with a finger. "Kagome."

Kagome blushed and stared up at him. "Sesshomaru I…"
He leaned down and kissed her softly on the lips. "Come home with me."

Kagome pulled away and stared up at him shocked. She knew that if she were to go home with him that all they would do was sleep together. She had something to do. She had to do some research. She felt this ache. This horrible ache. "Sesshomaru no."

He tilted his head and straightened and with his free hand he buried his hand in her dark wavy hair. "Do not refuse me." He said gently.

Kagome bit down on her lip and she stared up at him and felt the ache spread further in her chest. She could go home with him and give herself freely to him and make him have the best ending of the year or she could go home…

"What about my car?" she whispered.

"Then you go home and I will pick you up."

Kagome laughed and shook her head. "No way."

"Then what do you want to do?" Sesshomaru asked evenly.

Kagome looked up at him and sighed and leaned her head into his hand that was still in her hair and cupping the side of her face. She backed away and watched as his hand fell to his side. "Maybe we should just go home separately. I need to do a few things."

Sesshomaru stared at her and slowly nodded his head. "I see." He said softly. "Well then... I shall give you a call tomorrow and see how you are."

Kagome nodded and smiled. "Good night Sesshomaru."

"Good night Kagome."

Kagome turned around left the building and went into the cold and the wind blew in her face and made her flush red. She quickly made her way to her car and made her way home. She had to do a few things and she knew she had to do it in secret. She had to find Inuyasha. She had to at least see what she can do to bring the two brothers together.