AN: Sorry I haven't updated this for two weeks, the day I was about to update my laptop charger broke and nearly burnt down my house down so I had to wait for a new charger and I've mostly been busy. Well Aribelle isn't Damon's daughter and she isn't Bonnie's either, I wrote it that way because it just seemed better if Bonnie adopted her and it takes her out of the equation to why Bonnie left, This chapter is called distance because I can't stop listening to distance by Christina Perri and it just seemed right, this chapter is Mostly about Bonnie but Stefan is in this chapter and Damon is briefly in this chapter also but Bonnie's dad is not in this chapter but will make an appearance maybe in the next chapter. I edited the last chapter as well because there were parts of it that I didn't like. Thank for reading and review after if you liked it and I will be updating When Dreams turn into a reality next by the end of this week.
Disclaimer: I do not own the vampire diaries or where would I be without you.
Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive ALL OF YOU. After that, you learn better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you'll never forget and that night under the stars you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven WRONG"
-Unknown
First thought- Chapter 8
Distance
"Oh" was all Damon could say he was a little heart broken at the fact Aribelle was not his. He had always imagined what his and Bonnie's child would look like and if she had left because she was pregnant with his baby. She would look so graceful carrying his child.
"Maybe one day" Damon thought to himself as the vision of a pregnant Bonnie disappeared.
"Damon, I'm sorry" Bonnie admitted.
"For what bon" Damon questioned.
"For leaving you and not explaining why, for breaking your heart many times into a thousand pieces, for just telling you Aribelle isn't yours" Bonnie explained.
"Or mine" Bonnie Whispered.
You broke my heart, that day you didn't turn up at the Mystic Falls Grill, you never gave me an explanation. You knew my number, my address" Damon shouted.
"What about you, you never looked for me you dropped me pretty quickly you said I was the love of your life. You never tried to find out where I was" Bonnie snapped.
"I looked for you Bonnie I spent every waking moment looking for you"
"It broken my heart too by leaving you, you was my first love, I never stopped loving you" Bonnie confessed.
I'm so sorry, I really am, I never deserved you" Bonnie cried.
"Shh Bon, I understand I know you wouldn't have left me if it wasn't for a good reason and you will one day tell me why you left so until then lets get our relationship back on track. The wind whipped up around them and the waves became rougher. There was a long pause and they both withdrew a little gazing out over the horizon, their minds tormented by memories which were reopening old wounds.
"Is this the first time you have seen your father? Damon asked.
"Yes" Bonnie stated.
"What did he tell you?" Damon insisted.
"He wanted to explain why he abandoned me" Bonnie's face bathed in the sunlight. Her shining green hues were betraying the pain and emotion she was feeling.
"But I shut him down and denied him the chance to explain to me why" Bonnie explained.
Damon opened the rucksack he had brought with him that was lying next to him on the sand and handed her a FBI file Stefan had given to him on his way to met Bonnie.
"Stefan wanted me to give you this, so you could know the truth"
"I'm not sure I want to know the truth Damon" Bonnie feared.
"Bonnie your father has committed a lot of crimes but he is a good man" Damon emphasized.
"A good man" Bonnie snapped.
"He really loved your mother deeply with a rare passionate love like the way I love you"
"If he is such a good man why is Stefan here to arrest him?"
"That's something you need to ask Stefan"
They talked for a while; Bonnie left Damon knowing that they would talk again later. Bonnie didn't sleep that night, she had picked up Aribelle from the local day care after her meeting with Damon but it was now 2am and Aribelle was sound asleep. Bonnie made herself a mug of dream tea and went online to learn more about her father who abandoned her "Benjamin Wilson" who exploits she had vaguely heard about in the media before he revealed who he was. Then she plunged into the thick file Damon had given her.
"Here goes nothing". Over the course of reading the file, not only did she discover a father who was rarely mentioned in her childhood but she saw her mother in a new life, as a woman very much in love determined , at all cost to bring a child into the world at the risk of her own life. Bonnie wept until she had no more tears to shed; she was convinced that her birth had wreaked many lives including four important people. Her mother's and her father who she realised had been sent to prison unfairly. Then her own she had always been a orphan who had never found her place in the world and finally Damon's she had left him heart broken, she knew she would always have his heart just as he had hers but it would take time to fix the damage she did to his broken heart and he may never trust her again.
Two hours passed making it now 4am, Bonnie had swapped her Dream tea for the unusual bottle of Vodka she had found while rummaging through her cupboards, she wasn't a drinker but at that time she needed something stronger than tea. Bonnie when hunting through old photo albums looking at pictures of her mother Valentine the days she was at her happiest where her eyes sparkled with love for her father that had been cut with scissors not revealing the man on the other side her Mother. Her mind then when to her Grams unfortunately she didn't meet her grandfather but had heard from her Grams that he was a great man, who always stood for what he believed in but had died from a heart attack before she was born. But like all family secrets, the drama of her birth had probably been hung like a invisible lead cloak and suffocating her childhood and adolescence that she was no struggling to deal with.
By 5am Bonnie swapped her vodka for coffee, while reading Damon's old passionate love letters. The image of the Damon she was once in love with merged with that of the Damon she had left heartbroken. From one life to another, from one second to another, she went from joy to sadness. One moment a smile formed on her face the next minute her head was in her hands giving full vent to her misery.
She had loved him so much, she never stopped loving him. Ever since that first kiss no, the first letter. The one that began with I wanted to tell you...
At 6am Aribelle was still not awake so Bonnie decided to have a long shower. She felt lighter, as if she was free from some sort of burden. Though she had all those feelings a few hours ago including the tragic circumstances surrounding her life which kept her thinking she was one of those people destined to unhappiness for the rest of her life. She now had a new sense of determination ragging through her veins. For the third time in her life she felt happy.
At 7am Bonnie when into her room and saw an awake open eyed Aribelle, so she opened the blinds letting the pink rays from the sunset bath her room. It was a new day a new promise. Two nights before by some curious combination or circumstance, the two most important men in her life had reappeared, both at the same time. Now she was determined not to let them go and she hoped that she would never be forced to choose between both of them.
Perched on a stool at Joey's dinner was Stefan he has left his apartment, with his brother Damon still asleep, he was never an early riser like Stefan. Stefan had come to Joey's dinner to get some breakfast. Stefan nibbled his way through an organic breakfast consisting of wholemeal bread, pancakes and a mug of coffee. While eating Stefan glazed through the diner window yawning as the crowds filled the streets.
"Hey, what's this, you can't be eating this much by yourself"
The voice shock him as if he was awaking up from a sweet slumber.
Bonnie smiled looking at him. She has changed into a pair of grey jeans, a white shirt and the leather jacket Damon had given to her, Aribelle was with her also wearing the same thing matching Bonnie's look.
"So..." Bonnie said taking a seat infront of him.
"Pass me the menu so I can order something" Bonnie asked after a moment's silence.
"How did you know I was here?" Stefan asked.
"I come here when I'm not bothered to make breakfast and Aribelle likes it here" Bonnie replied. There was a pause as Bonnie looked at the menu picking something different for her and Aribelle to order.
"I wanted to say thank you Stefan, Damon gave me the file yesterday" Bonnie handed him back the file Damon had given had given her the night before. Bonnie saw the waitress coming towards their table, allowing her to order pancakes for Aribelle followed by a chocolate milkshake and for herself she ordered vanilla French toast with a bowl of mixed red berries and a glass of some cold ice tea.
"I read a lot about my father last night"
"How long have you known" Bonnie asked Stefan.
"For a few weeks now"
"He's my father and you tried to kill him" Bonnie pointed out.
"That's my job Bonnie" Stefan shrugged.
"Your job is to kill people" Bonnie observed stating what she thought.
"I've never actually killed any one Bonnie"
"Don't you find it a bit strange that the person you have been tracking all these years is my father?"
Stefan frowned. This very question that had kept him awake all night. It was true and it was hard to put down what happened to chance. Bonnie's and Aribelle's orders finally arrived allowing the question Bonnie just asked Stefan to slide. Just like when they were teenagers and would go out for breakfast Bonnie cut her French toast into two equal portions as Stefan watched her.
"What was your interest in my father?"
Stefan shrugged. "I specialise in art theft and he's stolen more painting than anyone ever has. That should motivate you enough don't you think". Stefan took a slip of his coffee.
"But what fascinated you"
"I was angry that's all, Remember when you told me one of you favourite painting was the kiss by Gustav Klimt"
"Yeah me and Damon's favourite painting by the way where are you going with this?"
"When I hear he stole that painting it made me angry and reminded me of you and I was angry that you left without a word or calling me it was like you didn't miss me"
"I missed you Stef" Bonnie revealed. Leaving her love had been hard just as hard as leaving her best friend behind.
"I missed you to Bon" Taking her caramel hands and holding them in his own.
"I thought we were friends that you could tell me anything, why didn't you tell me you were leaving?" Stefan demanded.
"We still are Stefan, I love you like a brother to me you was always my best friend and you haven't stopped being my best friend"
"I love you too Bon but why did you leave me? Leave Damon"
"I can't tell you yet I'm just not ready. But when I do I have to tell Damon first I owe it to him"
"I understand"
"He never stopped loving you, you know. Damon would never shut up about you, he spend every waking minute looking for you"
"I know and I never stopped loving him neither"
They both talked about what had happened in their lives in the last three years. Stefan told Bonnie about his marriage to Elena and how they both wished Bonnie was there and how Elena had wanted her to be a bridesmaid alone side Caroline in their wedding. And Bonnie spoke about Aribelle how it had been love at first sight when she found her. A mother's love and what she had been getting up to in the last three years. As their conversation died down, they both got up, Aribelle smiling in Bonnie's arms while Stefan made funny faces at her. Stefan left three 10 dollar bills on the table paying for what they ordered "This is on me Bonnie" Stefan grinned.
"Stefan really you don't have to pay" Bonnie was an Independent woman and she could pay her own way.
"You can make it up to me Bonnie, I can think of many ways you can" Stefan replied winking and giving her a cheeky grin.
"Sure Stef " Bonnie replied rolling her eyes this was the Stefan she knew, loved and missed and that annoyed the hell out of her "Can you tell Damon I will meet him at the Café Rouge for lunch later"
"Anything for you Bon, Anything" Stefan Responded whispered the last part.