Sam stood up and followed the nurse ….

Sam's POV

I was never so scared in my life to enter a room as I was to go into Andy's room, when opening the door I could hear all the machines helping the love of my life staying alive, I blocked out the sound of the heart monitor and the life support and just focus on the other heartbeat I could hear, my baby's heartbeat …. Before I entered the room I decided for once in my life I will back Andy up whatever she needs and she needs me to be there for the baby, she needs me to respect her wishes and although this is killing me I would do as Ollie asked me to do – to put Andy's wishes before mine! I walked over to Andy's bed and gave her a kiss on the forehead as that was the only place where there was no tube or line sticking out. It felt silly to talk to her while she was clearly unable to hear me until the nurse with the name Lizzy came and stand next to me. "You know it is good if you talked to her, some people swore that they could hear when they were spoken to while they were in a coma." I will leave you alone with her for a bit, I will just be around the glass screen as she needs to be monitored 24/7". As Lizzy left I pulled a chair closer and sat next to her, holding her hand as it was my lifeline. I was rubbing her hand with my thumb wishing that I could trade places with her, I would in a heartbeat if I could. I wish I could rub the life back into her. I whispered in her ear the words I should have said long ago. "I love you babe". I knew if I got a chance I will be saying those 3 words to her every moment for the rest of our life. "I love you, and I will love this little baby of ours that we made out of love". As I say those words I pulled the sheet down a bit and I could see her little baby bump, it was already showing and I could not believe that I never saw it before, but I knew that she always wore her big wind breaker with her uniform and the few times I saw her in her civilian clothes she was wearing loose fitting tank tops. I slowly very gently rub my hand over her baby bump. I wished that I could tell my baby that he/she would be ok, and that his/her mommy would be ok too. But I promised myself that I will no matter what if I make a promise to this baby I will keep it. He could not believe that he was such a jerk, now looking back he knew that she wanted to tell him about the baby so many times, but he always had a smartass remark ready for her. I whispered to her that I am sorry that I was such an idiot.

I told her that she has touched so many lives and that all her friends is praying for her right now, that I was praying and I am not even very religious. I had tried to bargain with the Man Upstairs tonight telling Him that I would trade places with her in a heartbeat. I told her that Sarah was outside there as well ready to hand me over to Collins on a silver plate if I hurt her again. I told her that I went to Oliver's cabin and he tricked me by saying that I think that you and me are perfect for each other and I told him that I wanted kids in the park on Sundays with you! Please Andy you need to fight for you, me for our little baby inside of you, I need you to fight for our Sundays in the park. I kept on talking until I could no longer think of anything more to say. Wondering if I should start telling her some jokes, she was the only one that ever laughed at my jokes. I should have followed Ollie's advice he said if I ever found a girl who laughed at my jokes I should throw her over my shoulder, elope and marries her. Later I just sat thinking and automatically I start calculating when our baby was conceived….

Sam Swarek sat next to Andy's hospital bed, thinking and calculating back to when he suspected the baby was conceived. He also just as Andy came to the conclusion that it must have happened the night of the sting at the hotel…

He can remember that she was dressed in that sexy black outfit with her high heel boots and after picking her up from the hotel he could not keep his hands off her, he had to resist her the whole evening as she was playing Collins girlfriend, he almost took Collins out that evening every time he was whispering in Andy's ear or touching her hand. He was dying of jealousy! She insisted that she wanted to go home and be with Gail but he found a secluded area and made mad passionate love to her, right there in his truck, they were usually very careful but that night their lust for each other blinded their sense of responsibility. He should have trusted his gut, he felt something was off, he could not explain it but he did not wanted to let Andy go. The last words she said to him when he dropped her off at her apartment as she climbed out of his truck was "I love you Sammy". And for so many times before he cursed himself that he did not go up with her to her apartment, if he did he could have prevented her being attacked, Gail being taken, Jerry being killed, them breaking up, she going undercover, her coming back and got shot again. Then he remembered the letter in his pocket. He pulled it out, smelling Andy's favorite perfume on the letter….

**** Another chapter done & dusted. Please R & R and coming next the letter from Andy to Sam (I promise!)