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I really don't know what is going through my head now. I guess I am just so screwed up in the mind, that I don't know what to think anymore. I found myself actually kind of liking Jacob. I liked Jacob Black. Saying that over and over in my head made me flinch. For some reason I was scared as hell of liking him. Of course I knew the reasons why I was afraid to like Jacob. First of all, he had an imprint. Second of all, he had an imprint. Third of all, he had an imprint. Did I say he had an imprint? I am a dumb ass for even letting myself like him, I kept flirting, and I even kissed him. It's not like a am naïve to the fact that he has an imprint, so why the hell did I like him? Ugh, life is so complicated and we have so many limited choices. You can't really stop yourself from liking someone, that's not a choice that you can make for yourself. Why must everything be so complicated right now?

Here I was sitting in Jacob Black's living room, laying on his lap. This was just not in my character. I should be cussing him out and throwing punches to his perfectly sculpted body. Damn it Leah stop thinking about his body. I sat up and pulled my knees to my chest. Billy was rolling into the living room, I didn't want him to freak out.

" You have nothing to hide Clearwater," Billy laughed. Jacob glanced at him and went back to watching TV. My face turned bright red and I tucked it into my arms.

"Dad you made her blush," Jacob sighed and attempted to pull me out of my self built cocoon.

" Oh she will be okay. Watch yourself Jake, she's a tough cookie," Billy replied obviously amused by Jake and I.

" Dad," Jacob exclaimed covering his own face.

"Just keeping it real son," Billy rolled back into his room and shut the door. I slowly lifted my head from my arms and looked at a red Jacob Black. We both just busted out laughing. It felt weird to actually laugh out loud at something comical, instead of laughing to be a sarcastic bitch.

" My dad is something isn't he," Jacob held his stomach and his breath hitched in his throat.

"Yea he is. Did you notice him trying to be cool and what not," I replied making Jacob laugh more.

"Hey I heard that," Billy yelled from his room. His reply only made us laugh louder and harder. My stomach felt like I had done 100 crunches; laughing was really an exercise.

" It's good to see you happy Lee," Jacob said touching my knee. All this touching was making me horny as hell. Oh crap did I just think that?

" I already told you I was not always a compassionless shrew. I do laugh when things are funny." Jacob nodded his head and his hand rubbed my thigh. Was he trying to turn me on? Did he really know what I wanted to do to him right now? I really wish I did not talk to myself inside my head.

" Why do you zone out so much? What is going on in here," Jacob tapped the top of my head with his free hand.

" I don't know. I just ask myself questions inside my head. I'm not crazy-"

"Yea you do go bonkers a lot," Jacob cut me off. He dodged my fist that was aiming towards his face. "Hey watch the punches."

" You can not call me crazy Black. Your mood changes as much as the weather. I don't know why I have not beat your ass yet."

"First of all, the weather here does not change that often and you have not beat my ass yet because you love you some Jacob Black," Jacob pinched my cheeks. I slapped his hands away and punched him in the face.

" Say something else smart and my foot will be going somewhere." I punched him in the chest. " That's for yelling at me." I punched him again. "That's for ahh!" Before I knew it Jacob had me pinned down on the couch. He began to tickle me which made me snort with laughter.

" I hope you two are using protection," Billy yelled from his room. I covered my mouth and my face turned red once again. Jacob let go of me and sat back up on the couch.

" What little Jakey can't take a joke," I taunted him and started to poke him.

" I am far from little Clearwater," he stated. I didn't know how to take that remark. Was he talking about his body or the size of something else? Leah get your mind out of the gutter.

"There is the zoning out thing again. What's on your mind?" Jacob tapped my shoulder. I could not tell him everything that was on my mind.

" Just stuff." I automatically closed up on him. Besides thinking about him, I was thinking about my dad, the situation with Sam, and my epic fight with my mom.

" What kind of stuff," Jacob's tone had changed from playful douche bag to someone who cared.

"Like this stuff with Sam and I think about my dad a lot. I miss him, my dad that is," I always played with my hands when I talked about touchy subjects.

" He would be really proud of you. I mean just a minute you were laughing your ass off. You have not done that in a long time and I think it made you feel a little better. Harry would want you to be happy Leah, so don't block happiness." I never knew Jacob could be as nice as he had been lately. Although he was so young, Jacob was really wise. Being wise was one thing he had inherited from Billy.

"Thanks." A small smile formed on my face.

"Anytime." Here we go staring at each other again. He was hypnotizing me and-

My thoughts were cut off by my ringing phone.

"Seth, I am glad-"

" I need to talk to you. Can I come over there?" Seth's voice sounded drained.

"Yea sure. Come right-" I was talking to a dial tone. That was really weird, he never hung up on me, he was never that harsh. Except that time I told that girl he had herpes, it was for his own good though; turns out she really had herpes. "Seth is on his way over here. He didn't sound happy."

" It's understandable why he is upset Lee. You two are very close and he misses you," Jacob replied. His hand had made its way back to my thigh. He was going to be the death of me.

" Hey Seth come on in," Jacob opened the door and let Seth inside. Seth looked like he had barely been sleeping.

" I will leave you two alone," Jacob went into his bedroom and closed the door. Seth sat next to me on the couch. He was not the happy go lucky Seth that we were all used to.

" Um I just came to tell you that mom is in the hospital. She has been abusing pain pills," Seth said looking at the floor.

" Is she ok," I asked frantically.

"Why would you care?"

" Seth look I'm sorry. I just snapped and I couldn't be there. I didn't mean to hurt you," I put my hand on top of his. He moved his hand quickly and stood up.

" You're not sorry! You left us there Leah! Why are you so selfish, its always about you. I was the one there for you when Sam left but you betrayed me. What did I ever do to make you betray me," Seth said tears gushing from his eyes. I hated to see him cry, it just broke my heart.

"Seth please just listen., I'm so sorry," I attempted to hug him and he pushed me away.

"Don't touch me Leah! Just stay away from me and mom! If you don't want to be around just stay away," Seth yelled and stormed out of the house. I sank to the floor and let out sobs. I heard a door open and then warm arms went around my body.

"It's going to be ok Lee," Jacob's husky voice filled my ears.

'He hates me! It's all my fault that she is in the hospital. All my fault," I cried out.

" Leah don't blame yourself," I heard Billy say. I felt his hand on my shoulder and then I felt Jacob's arms tighten around me. They sat there with me the whole time I cried.

It had been an hour since Seth had told me the news. I sat on the couch staring into space. If I didn't leave she would not have been abusing pills. Why do I cause so much trouble?

" Leah do you want to go see your mother," Jacob asked me handing my a bowl of soup. I pushed it away, I didn't have an appetite. Maybe I would wither away if I stopped eating.

" I can't see her like that. Not while I know that I caused her to take those pills."

" It's not your fault. She is just under a lot of stress," Jacob rubbed my shoulder.

" But I made it worse," tears began to leak from my eyes. Jacob pulled me into his chest and just…held me. The phone began to ring and Jacob reached over to answer it.

" Hello… no she is not taking it well…I don't think she will talk to you Sam…Sam please don't start that right now, Leah does not need that… you know what Sam, fuck you!" Jacob slammed the phone down. I could feel him shaking; he took a deep breath and the shaking stopped.

"What did he want," I whispered.

" He wanted to see if you were ok and then he started going off about us. He doesn't like that you are here, but who cares what he likes." Jacob rubbed his hand up and down my arm. If I was not under this stress right now, that friction would have ignited that fire inside me again.

"Oh."

Later that night I tried to sleep, but it seemed utterly impossible. Every time I closed my eyes, I could see my mother in the hospital. I got up from the bed I made on the couch and walked to Jacob's door. I slowly opened it and stepped inside. I shut the door back and walked over to Jacob's bed. He was sprawled out and one of his arms were hanging off the bed.

"Jake," I gently shook him.

" Mom five more minutes," he said with a smile creeping across his face. I smiled weakly. He was dreaming about his mother, and she was not here to see the smile she put on his face. I shook him again, this time he opened his eyes.

" Lee," he sat up in his bed.

"I can't sleep Jake. I tried I just can't."

"It's ok, climb in." he pulled back his cover and I climbed in. Jacob put his arm around my waist and pulled me in close to him. " I don't think we need this, we have enough heat." he pushed the covers off the bed.

" I really messed up," I whispered into his chest.

" No you didn't, stop blaming yourself." He said putting his finger under chin. He raised my face to look at him. He gently pecked my lips.

I just had to post this chapter tonight. I was in the writing mood, it made me feel a little better. I am kind of sad right now because of the disaster in Haiti. Even though I don't have any family there, it still hit me hard and I know it is affecting others too. Anything anybody can do to help, do it. Even if it is just donating five dollars do it. We all need to come together and help in this time of need.

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. Leah and Jacob are starting to heat up some more. I think I am going to write the next chapter in Jake's POV. Reviews equal love. Thanks for reading.