HELLO MY LOVELY READERS WELCOME TO CHAPTER 10. HOPE YOU ENJOY.
Takahiro was pacing in the apartment that he and his brother shared. He looked back on his life with Misaki thinking about how he missed it. What where the signs. The nightmares that kept him awake. The quietness. The pain that he always saw on his brothers face. How? How could he have missed such obvious signs?
He needed to speak to Misaki. See if he was okay. He just wanted to see him again. He wanted him to know that no matter what his big brother was always there. It had been 2 weeks since Misaki told him the truth, but whenever he called it was always Akihiko who picked up. Making excuses to why Misaki couldn't answer the phone.
Misaki had never been this distant before. He felt so guilty and all he wanted to do was tell Misaki that he was sorry. Every day felt the same now. Go to work. Go home. Sleep. He had spoken to his girlfriend over the phone but he didn't want to see her. He didn't want to burst out in tears in front of her and tell her what happened, not if Misaki didn't want anyone to know.
Takahiro came up with a plan to see his brother. He decided that today he was going to Akihiko's after work and see him. Talk to him. Let his baby brother know he was on his side. He realised that his first reaction wasn't the best but he wanted to apologise properly.
Takahiro stood outside the apartment complex around 5:30 in the afternoon waiting for the right moment to buzz the intercom. Just as he walked up towards the door it was opened by none other than his baby brother.
"Misaki?" Takahiro said surprised.
"Nii-Chan. I was just going to see you."
"Really?" Takahiro was almost in tears just by one comment. "I really wanted to speak to you too."
"Do you want to come up? Usagi-san is writing in his office right now so we ha e time to talk."
"YES- yes please."
Both brothers made their way up to the apartment. Misaki was feeling a bit nervous and guilty for avoiding him for so long.
"So how have you been?" Takahiro started
"Yah I guess."
"How about school?"
"Mr. Alyagi has sent the curriculum to Usagi-san and he's been teaching me. I've only gone to school for exams."
"And-um, what about your friends?"
Misaki looked to the ground. "Nii-Chan. I don't have any friends at school."
"O-oh um. Well um I'm sure one day that'll chance. You've got your whole life ahead of you."
Now both feeling very uncomfortable they finally reached the privacy of the apartment.
"Would you like some tea?" Misaki offered
"Yah, that would be great." Takahiro sat on the sofa while Misaki made the tea. With this time apart both brothers took time to gather their thoughts. Misaki came back with the tea's and both men looked at each other. "Misaki-" Takahiro started crying. "I'm so sorry." He put his head in his hands. "I'm so sorry."
Misaki started tearing up also. "Nii-Chan. So am I. I should have told you earlier." He sat down next to his brother and hugged him as tightly as he could. "I'm sorry for ignoring you too."
"Misaki, I love you so much." Takahiro hugged back. No more words had to be said. They just hugged each other. Takahiro feeling the trust being rebuilt, while Misaki felt the protection his big brother gave him. Both grown men crying as if they where babies again.
"Misaki. You don't need to tell me what happened but I'm always here if you need me. I just prey that your okay" Takahiro said after 10 minutes of hugging.
"I'm okay Nii-Chan. Really. Usagi-san he's been helping me cope with things and get through this whole ordeal."
FLASH BACK WEEK AGO:
"Usagi. How are you so good at this?" Misaki asked
"Good at what?" Akihiko smirked thinking his dirty thoughts.
Misaki gave him a stern look. "Not that you pervert. I mean this. Like it feels like you know what I mean when I talk to you about my past. It's like your the only one who understands."
"Well- I guess you can say I've been through something similar." Akihiko looked down slightly.
"Similar? You mean y-"
"No! I wasn't raped. But the things like the mind games, the threats, the abuse. I've been through all that with my farther. He used to play all these horrible mind games and he'll give me a sliver of hope and then take it away, then rub it in by telling me I wasn't good enough."
"I'm so sorry. I didn't know."
"That's because I didn't tell you. In fact your the first person too know this outside of my family. But my story has a happy ending."
"How's that?"
"Because it ends with you coming into my life." He said with a bright smile.
END OF FLASH BACK.
Misaki and Takahiro stayed in silence as they let their apologise sink in. This silence was only broken when Akihiko slammed open his office door. "It's done." He announced in a low very exhausted voice.
"Oh My God. Really. I'll ring Aikawa right away." Misaki bounced up from his brothers embrace and headed strait to the phone.
"Misaki, don't worry about it. I'll message her. Oh, hello Taka." Akihiko said noticing his friend.
"Hello Usagi. So Misaki, when are you coming home?"
The room fell silent for a moment
"Home? I-I don't know." Misaki replied. What he really wanted to say was 'never'. He loved his brother but be still felt the distance that he set between them and he really wanted to stay with Akihiko for a while longer. He loved that he could be around his lover all the time. He loved the bubble that they had created together but his brother was right. He couldn't stay with him forever. They had only been together a few weeks and most couples don't move in that quickly. He wanted to ask his lover but with Takahiro right there he couldn't. "Can you give me a few days to think about things?"
"Of course. Whatever you need." Takahiro left feeling a little deflated but happy that he was on talking terms with his baby brother.
Misaki and Akihiko looked at each other.
"So," Akihiko started, "What do you want to do?"
"I really don't know. I want to stay here but ... It's for selfish reasons. It's not that I don't want to work things out with Nii-Chan. But being here, with you, it's like for years I've been holding my breath, expecting nothing to change. You changed everything and I don't want to go back to how I was before." Misaki felt like he was being crushed under this decision.
"Misaki." Akihiko leaned forward and kissed his small lover. "It doesn't matter where you go. Weather you live here or there, I'm always going to be here for you. So if you really want to sort things out with your brother you should and then you can always come back."
"Thank you. You always know the best things to say. How do you do that?"
Akihiko smiled "Well Misaki, not to tutee my own horn or anything but I am a world renowned writer."
"Well that explains it. Well we have a few days still before I have to decide anything."
Akihiko smiled. "Well then my little Misaki. Lets make them count."
After 2 days just staying in the bedroom Misaki was exhausted. His body felt like it was falling to peace's. He was going to miss his lover but it wasn't like he'll never see him again.
Misaki finally reached his brothers apartment, he was going to tell Takahiro everything, down to the last gory detail. Once he reached the door he was surprised to find it was locked. Well it wasn't like Misaki had warned him of his arrival, so he just used his key. He hadn't exactly planned on walking in on Takahiro and his girlfriend half naked on the sofa.
"Sorry, sorry, sorry." Misaki said as he backed away to the door.
"Misaki!" Takahiro yelled just managing to pull his trousers up in time to see his little brother. "Misaki, this um..."
"Sorry, bad timing. I wanted to for some shopping anyway. I'll be back in 3 hours or something um ... bye." And Misaki left in quite the hurry. He didn't have anything about Takahiro having a girlfriend he just remembered how embracing it is. It happened to Misaki and Akihiko when the authors lovely editor dropped by.
Now once again he was back outside. He thought about calling Akihiko, he didn't want to disturb him so soon but he thought maybe they could go shopping together. 'Like a date. As soon as Misaki thought the word date he whipped out his phone and started dialling. "Hey. It's me."
"Hello Misaki, calling me after so long. Haha, what can I do for you?"
"Well I just walked in on Nii-Chan and his girlfriend ... You know ... Together. So I was going to go shopping for a few hour it's just I don't really want anything and I'm lonely."
"Misaki stay right where you are I'll be there in 5 minutes." Akihiko said before hanging up the phone.
True to his word Akihiko did only take 5 minutes to get the Misaki. He walked up to his little lover and grabbed his hand. "Misaki. I missed you."
"I haven't even been gone a day."
"Weren't you the one who just called and said you where lonely." Misaki turned bright red. Did he really say that. "So, What do you want to do?"
"I don't know?" Misaki answered
"Well it's a good thing that I do. Get in." He said as he opened the car door to let his little lover in. Akihiko walked around to the other side and drove off at speed. When they stopped Misaki saw that his lover had taken them to the amusement park.
"Really?" Misaki beamed
"Let's go." Akihiko said as he held Misaki's hand.
They had a great time. Misaki tried one of the big rides even though he was terrified but with Akihiko holding his hand he wasn't that scared. They played shooting games and Akihiko won Misaki a big rabbit. They had candyfloss, road the tea cups, won more games and the best part of it all was that Akihiko didn't let go of Misaki's hand.
Without realising it they had spent the whole day together and it felt like a real date. "Woh, it's already that late." Misaki exclaimed. "I told Nii-Chan that I'll only be a few hours and it's already 6 o'clock."
"I'll take you home. We'll grab something and take it to yours." It didn't take them long to get back to Takahiro's apartment. They had grabbed a takeaway on the way back and they bought it up. There was enough for all 4 of them.
Once inside the apartment Misaki was greeted with apologises from both Takahiro and Manami. Misaki really didn't mind that he got kicked out for a few hours because he ended up having a great day.
Both pairs sat at the table and ate the food Akihiko had bought. "So Misaki what did you buy." Manami asked
"Oh. No I ended up going to the amusement park instead. It was really quite fun." Misaki said as he grabbed Akihiko hand under the table.
"Ah. That's why you where so late. But I'm glad you had fun. You didn't go on your own did you?" Takahiro joined.
"No, he went with me." Akihiko answered. "And it was rather fun."
Manami smiled picking up on the fact the two may be together. "So how long have you two been together?" Manami asked.
"No no, Usagi is Misaki's tutor." Takahiro answered. Misaki sipped his tea trying to avert his eyes.
"For about a month now." Akihiko announced. Misaki choked on his drink.
"WHAT!?" Takahiro shouted.
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