Hi so bpov is back
So it's been a month since Edward turned up at the club, after that night I gave my notice in so now I no longer work there, I loved my job but I couldn't face going back.
My plans have changed and I'm leaving in a few days' times now as it's only me leaving now.
Rose has decided she will come to Europe but will be coming back to forks when I start uni, I was sad about this but I understand when she says its mine dream and not hers, I think there may be more to it but I'm not pushing her to tell me. I will stay in contact with her as she is my bbf.
Alice has been bugging me to have a going away party, which I said no too but then she had to do her puppy face and I caved on the spot, so not fair.
Emmett has been dating some mystery girl, I didn't take much notice to him when he was talking about her but I nearly choked on my bagel when he said he hadn't slept with her after 3 weeks of dating. I was really happy for him; he is bringing her to the party.
Carlisle and esme as they took some time off from work so they could spend time with me before I left. Carlisle took me fishing at Charlie's favourite fish spot down at la push. It was a nice quiet spot that Charlie used to take me every weekend till he died. Every time I go there i get upset as I miss him loads.
Carlisle and esme have been so good to me, but Charlie was not just my dad he was my best friend.
Esme took me shopping for new outfit and swim wear for the beaches, she has also been teaching me to cook. It was fun till Tanya turned up to join us.
Tanya seem a nice girl but she is a weird girl, her and Edward relationship is weird. They spend a lot of time together but they if you didn't know they were together you would think they were just good friend and not girlfriend and boyfriend, I never see them kiss or cuddle, they don't even share a room together.
As for Edward well he has been really distance from me, i thought we was starting to get close again but after that night when he walked off, he has hasn't really been saying much to me. A couple of times I have caught him watching me but as soon as I go to speak to him he just turn away. I just don't know what I can do to make things better before I leave.
I've spoken to Emmett about it and he says give him time and that he has a lot on his mind but I gave him years of time and I only have a couple of days till I never see him again.
I know they all expect me to come home for Christmas and birthdays but I can't do this anymore, I can't pretend I'm fine when I'm not.
That's why when I leave the Cullen's there will no going back, it will kill me but a clean break and a new start is what's best for everyone. I will email them once I arrive in Europe to let them know I arrived ok but after that there won't be any more contact.
I've brought a new i-phone and I've also set up new back account that no-one knows about, I've also talked to my bank so once I'm 21 they would transfer my money into the new account.
I'm all set know I only have to do is pack and wait for the September 1st then I'm off.
August 31st
Todays is party day and I'm not looking forward to it at all, as it's the end of my life with the Cullen, the last couple of nights I've been crying myself to sleep thinking of what my life will be like without them.
Empty, worthless, lonely were a few things that popped into my head but nothing are going to change my mind about leaving.
All I need to do finish my good bye letter then get dress to party.
I had my hair up loosely tried up into bun and wore a one-shoulder Valentino dress with a lace overlay bodice and a highly detailed embroidered skirt, paired off with Brian Atwood platform pumps, I felt sexy as hell and I was going to just forget about leaving and enjoy my family one last time, even Edward.
As I stepped into the Cullen hallway, the first thing I noticed was esme, she was welcoming my old school mates and people from around forks. She didn't notice me watching her. She looked stunning in a long deep blue dress. I was going to miss her so much. I knew I was hurting her by leaving but she had Edward back now so she doesn't really lose anything.
I saw Alice next as she had just joined esme, Alice said something to esme than looked up in my direction
"Bella you look stunning" Alice said as she left her mums side, heading my way
"What this old thing" I did a quick twirl
"That dress is so beautifully, I'm so jealous" I knew she would approve of this dress that way I had brought it, so she would have it after I left
"It's Valentino and guess what?"
"What"
"After tonight it's your"
"I can't take that" i smile at her as she was trying not to get excited about the dress but I could tell she wanted it
"Yes you can and you will," she smile and launched herself at me, giving me the biggest hug ever
"Thank you so much Bella"
I choked up as I was going to miss this little pixie
"You're welcome. I'm going to miss you so much" I said as I held her tighter to me
"Please don't go, stay" I was starting to well up but I managed to hold the tears in, I looked up to see esme watching us both with tears in her eyes
I pulled Alice back a little so I could see her face. Tears falling down her cheeks
"I have to go Alice but will you promise me something?" She nodded
"Promise me, you will look after your mum for me"
She nodded again
" stop crying ok, we are going to have a good night," I wiped under her eyes "go and wipe those tears away and we will go and get pissed" she gave me a weak smile, then headed to the bathroom still crying
Esme smiled and then walked off to follow Alice, I walked thought the rest of the house watching everyone smiling and dancing to the music that was being played loud in every room.
I was leaning in the doorway of the main living room when rose came up behind me tapping me on the shoulder,
"They don't know do they" she asked as I turned round to see her, she was wearing a red strapless dress that went down to her knee, with her hair down in lose curls, fucking stunning.
""Wow rose you look great" she ignored complement and repeated her question
"They don't know do they"
"Don't know what"
"That you're not coming back at all"
"No they don't"
"Are you sure you're doing the right thing"
"Yes it's for the best"
"It's the best for you or for them "
"Both"
"As long as you're sure"
"Yes I'm sure, so tonight I want to have fun. No more talk about it ok?"
"Ok"
"Let's dance"
"Hell yer but before we do I need to tell you something, so don't freak out ok
"Ok"
"I'm dating Emmett"
"YOU WHAT" I spat out as I just taking a swig of champagne
"Bella shh, look I meet him the night him and Edward was at the club and well since then we have been texting and gone out a couple of times. It's no big deal but I really like him, I've never felt like this with anyone. He treats me like a princess, always making sure I'm ok and picks me up from work. Please say you don't hate me" I wanted to be mad at her for keeping it from me but how could I when she looked so happy talking about him
"Wow rose, I'm happy for you I really am, Emmett wow"
"I know right"
"Do you trust him to be faithful while you are away" I asked her,
"Well I had my worries but he said he would wait and I trust him"
"Yer but he's the biggest player around, I don't want you to get hurt"
"I know but if I can't trust him now, when will I ever trust him. At least I will find out before we got to serious "
"True, so you wanna dance, and show them how it's done" I pointed to the two schools biggest sluts, Lauren and Jessica. They were trying be sexy by grinding on each other in the middle of the dance floor, while they were trying to get Emmett and his mate jasper attention but Emmett was too busy eye rose up to notice them hoes
"Hell yer" she grabbed my hand to head toward the dance floor
Alice joined us after she had freshened up her make-up, after that Tanya joined us. I wanted to hate her for having Edward but it wasn't her fault that he was in love with her and not me, she was a little off with me when she first arrived but the fast couple of weeks she has only been nice to me, so I laughed and danced around with her. She was a little touchy feely but who isn't when dancing.
2 hours later and a few glasses of champagne later, I was sitting in the garden getting some air from all the dancing, I was a little tipsy but having a good time.
I was miles away till someone clear there throat,
"You having a good time" before I even looked up I knew who it was, as soon as he said 'you' I knew it was him
Edward
I looked up to see him standing next to my chair, fuck me he looked hot in a black suit, I'm sure my jaw hit the ground
"Yer i 'am, you?"
"It's ok" I didn't know what to say to him, as he was just staring down at me.
I wanted to kiss him so bad but I needed to get away from him before I did
I stood up from my chair and I was inches away from him, I expected him to move back but he didn't,
"I should go back in before rose wonders where I am" I turned to walk away when he grabbed my wrist
"What you doing?" I turned to face him and froze as his face was inches away from mine
"Something I should have done years ago" then his lips were on mine.
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