AN: Here is Chapter 10. Please don't judge. I'm not done with it yet as I've been saying for a quiet a while. I know where I'm going so please just keep reading there is only a few more chapters left. So ENJOY!

DISCLIMERS: I DON'T OWN VAMPIRE ACADEMY RICHELLE MEAD DOES. THIS JUST MY FANFICTION.

Chapter 10

Lunch was a lively affair. Everyone including myself were in a good mood, eating and laughing.

Eddie and Pat had long since finished their food and were now arm wrestling. Christian and I were betting on who would win. While Lissa and Tasha chatted away sending amused smiles our way every now and then.

Amidst all the chattering was Dimitri sitting in his seat quietly with Alexa on his lap. Who after the play where Dimitri was the Knight had taken a liking to him.

I could see why, wherever Dimitri went he made people smile. Wasn't that one of the reason why I fell in love with him all those years ago?

Soon enough lunch was over and everyone went there ways. I was about to leave since I was going to be on duty in less then 10 minutes. When I noticed that I didn't have my phone with me.

I jogged slowly down the hall glancing at ever room I passed, looking for any sign of my cellphone. I noticed my phone on the table when I got to the recreation room. Of course, I should have known. It must have fallen out out of my pocket when I was here earlier.

Shaking my head I walk inside and bend down over the table to pick up phone. When I heard sounds coming from behind me.

I turn around and to my absolute horror. There stood Tasha and Dimitri bound together in a fierce kiss. Her arms were wrapped around him tightly and he didn't seem to mind.

I felt something break inside me. All those times that Dimitri and I kissed ran in my memory. But that's exactly what they were. Memories never to happen again. Memories that I should have forgotten years ago.

I felt like I had been slapped. Which is stupid really. Everything that I was feeling at the moment was stupid because Dimitri and I were no longer together. Heck he was engaged.

My breathes were started to come in slow shudders. My chest had become so tight that I felt like my lungs were going to burst.

I wanted to leave I wanted to run. Run away from this life, these feeling and most of all I wanted to run away from him.

But I couldn't. My feet were planted to the ground. I stood frozen watching the love of my life make out with his fiance.

"Stop it Rose", I told my self. "Its non of your business. Get out of there."

Suddenly unfrozen, I turn to leave. But I was too late because at that moment Tasha noticed me. She quickly broke away from Dimitri, blushing she addressed me." Oh.. Rose?", She asked awkwardly.

Crap, closing my eyes I pulled myself together and made myself act like what I saw right now didn't affect me in any way. Slowly I turned towards them, a sheepish look on my face. "Sorry I was looking for my phone", I said while point at my phone with my hand.

"I'll be going now.. sorry." My eyes moved to Dimitri. Who's face was a mask of horror, shock and pain? I could see that he was trying to regain his composure. But couldn't.

I walked as fast as I could out of the room and out of the house. Not stopping to say bye to anyone.

That day I was late for work. The first time since I was 18 years old.

When I got there Hans was already there. " Your late Hathaway", he barked. Even after being the next Queens best friend and not to mention an established guardian. I still had Hans there to boss me around whenever I messed up.

However I didn't feel like arguing with him today so I apologized and started patrolling the perimeter of the court.

I pushed all my thoughts out of my head and focused on the task at hand. Knowing that thinking about anything else other then my duties wouldn't do me or anyone else any good.

Six hours later I walked out of the Guardian building after reporting to Hans and signing myself out.

The sky was starting to lighten as the sun rose. With out my duties to keep my thoughts at bay all my earlier feelings were coming back.

So I went to my little sanctuary. It's a small clearing in the very far end of Court. There sits a forgotten fountain, surrounded by tall evergreen trees.

Not many people knew about this place and I wanted to keep it that way. I quietly sat on the edge on the fountain and pulled out a cigarette.

I watched as the sun rose over the horizon. Letting myself be relished in the suns rays. It's been so long since I had seen the sun properly. And being Lissa's guardian didn't really help.

Soon Pat appeared. He was one of the only people who actually knew of this place. I guess he knew I'd be here, when he saw that my shift had finished and I still didn't return.

When he saw me he didn't' hesitate. He just came sat beside me and took me in his arms. But I didn't cry. I don't think I had any more tear left. So I stayed there in his arms letting the sun wash over us.

"You know I was in love once", Pat said after a while.

"I know", I replied.

"She was my brother, Aurthur's student. Back when we were still in school." He looked over my head towards the horizon as he recalled everything. I could tell that it was hard for him.

"It's okay, you don't have to." I said quietly hugging him closer. He looked at me for a few seconds then kissed the top of my head and continued.

"Savannah, she was wonderful. So full of life. She was brilliant and loved to fight. We first met in grade 7, when she beat me in sparing." He smiled. "And after that we were inseparable. We did everything together.

"Soon enough around grade 9 we started developing feelings for each other. It took me a whole year to work up the courage to ask her out. It was during the Homecoming Dance and I felt so bad because I had been too scared to ask her. So she came to the dance with someone else. I was mopping around when she came to sit beside me. And we just clicked." He continued.

"All through out High School we were together, even got crowned Homecoming King and Queen a few time." He chuckled at the memory, making me smile.

"But after graduation she got assigned to the same Budica family as Aurthur."

Suddenly my back went stiff. Oh g-d. Aurthur's charges. 4 years ago, Arthur Schoenberg and his charges, the Budica family. Were the victims of a Strigoi attack in which no one survived. No moroi and no guardian.

He shook his head at me with a sad smile. "I got assigned to an Ivashkov who lived in Austria. We continued our relationship though. Keeping in touch by sending letter and weekly phone calls."

His face hardened, "And then I heard about the attack. I rushed over here only to find the entire family and guardian team dead. But she was missing.

"I beat myself up over it for weeks and then news came that Savannah was alive and in the hospital. Apparently my brother had used the last of his strength to protect her." My eyes were starting to water. I always knew that there was a tragic story hidden inside of him.

A single tear fell from his eyes as he continued,''The Strigoi had taken her hostage. But somehow managed to escape. I was overjoyed at the news. When I got to the hospital she was there. Wrapped in her bed. Her whole body was bruised and there were signs of fangs on her neck."

He started to shudder under the weight of his memories. As his tears fell down his face freely. I had never seen Patrick so upset.

"But when she woke up, she wouldn't talk to me, wouldn't even look at me. I kept wondering what I did to make her not want to have anything to do with me. Then one day I came to visit her only to find an empty room with no signs of Savannah ever being there. Except for the note on the bed side table. I must have read the note a thousand times because I still remember every word in it.

"She didn't love me, in fact she said that she hated me and wanted me to stay away from her." He continued, wiping his arm over his face trying to get rid of the tears.

My own eyes were full of them. I felt so horrible, all this time he comforted me and was always there for me. He knew exactly when I needed him but I was never there for him.

"So that's what I did, that's what I'm doing." He finished.

"Where is she now Patty?" I asked determined to find her and talk some sense into her.

He gave me a little smile, ''I don't know." And I could see that he knew exactly what I wanted to do and didn't want me to do it. "I sometimes think about maybe moving on. But every time I try, I can't."

I knew what he meant. After all I had tried so hard to get over Dimitri. I dated Adrian about an year until I finally understood that it was useless and I was just hurting him.

"But Rosie, maybe it is time to move on." His eyes were bright with determination. "I waited for her, like you waited for him. Maybe we should finally accept our fate and move on... Lets move on.. together." He finished.

I looked up into his beautiful blue eyes. I had nothing to say. I knew that he loved me the same way that I loved him. Like a brother and sister.

But I also understood what he meant. We had both lost the only person that we could truly ever love with our whole heart.

I nod as a single tear falls from eyes and onto our laps. He slowly pulls me towards him and our lips meet.

AN: OK SO REMEMBER WHAT I SAID B4 IM NOT DONE JUST HOLD ON. R&R. THNX FOR READING!