I loved Edward. I was married to Edward. But being this close to Jacob, being in his arms reminded me so much of when he was my sun, my only thing to look forward to when I woke up each morning.

"Please let me know when I start getting on your nerves. I don't want to be a pain."

"Okay." He laughed a throaty sound. "I wouldn't hold your breath for that though."

But it could never be like that again. That was what sent a heart-wrecking shudder through my body. Edward was my life but I also loved Jacob! Stop. Stop right there Bella. I had been down this road before. What was I doing, I was married now. I shouldn't be thinking about that.

So I cleared my head as best as I could and floated around the clearing in Jacob's arms. This was my last time with him…ever. There could be no reunions when I was a vampire. We would hate each other.

"He's going to change you into a filthy bloodsucker in just a few weeks!"

"What else can I do?"

"Anything. Anything else. You'd be better off dead. I'd rather you were."

The song drifted to a stop and I pulled back from his arms. I could tell his thoughts had been mirroring mine by the expression on his face.

"Jake, thanks for everything. I don't know how I would be here today if it weren't for you."

"Bella…this is goodbye for real this time right? After this you're going to be…one of them. I'm really going to miss you."

"I wish it didn't have to be like that Jake. But it is, we both have to move on with our lives. Remember, I'll always love you.

"And I you." His voice sounded similar to Edward's.

Before we had any more time to talk, Carlisle and Esme were on the stage, Esme handling the microphone. Emmett and Jasper were lifting an enormous white cake onto the platform in the middle of the clearing. I groaned.

A few people gathered around quickly in apprehension, my school friends Jessica, Mike and Angela being some of them. Edward was beside me in seconds.

"Hello Jacob."

"Hello Edward, Congratulations."

I could not believe how polite they both sounded. A few weeks ago they both wanted to kill each other.

"Bella, it's time to cut the cake." We both winced, but for different reasons.



"For better or for worse." I reminded him, taking his hand. I looked back toward Jacob. His smile was genuine but there was still that ache of sadness in his eyes. It tugged at my heart.

The cake was delicious, that couldn't be said for most wedding cakes but obviously Alice had made sure everything was perfect. Edward sat in front of me nipping at his cake.

"Throw it into the tree's, no one's looking "I hissed at him.

"Do you think I'm not even going to have a piece of my wedding cake Bella? Don't be ludicrous." He smiled, then grimaced as he took another bite.

Soon it was over. From Jasper had said about an hour ago it was around 2:00am, though nobody looked tired. Edward and I shared one last dance for tonight and so did the crowd. My head over his shoulder,

I watched the couples dancing. Mike and Jessica, Jasper and Alice, Renee and Phil, Sam and Emily all of them my friends and family, most of which I could never see again.

When it finally ended I was in a state of confusion. Edward dragged me around to say goodbye to all of my friends, a tearful Renee, then left me to send off the la Push Pack.

Emily was crying as we hugged, they were the only other's here who knew what this goodbye meant. Quil and Embry said very stiff and formal goodbyes, so I threw myself onto both of them in a hug, making them crack up. Billy shook my hand looking sad, but I could tell he was trying to hide it. I kissed him on the cheek softly and with a pang of sadness I realized I really was going to miss him. He had been like a second father to me my whole life, whether I had realized it or not. Jacob stood back until I was finished, crushing me in a hug. I hugged him back a little longer than needed, but he didn't seem to mind.

"Bye Bella."

"By Jacob."

As they started piling into a car, Sam walked up from behind. I wondered where he had been.

"Bella, you make sure the Cullen's treat you right, got that." He was smiling but there was concern under his expression. "If you ever need anything just call."

I was surprised at this, he knew what I would be in just a few short weeks, but I didn't want to bring it up on our last goodbye.

I hugged him smothering all my thoughts. "Thanks Sam, it's been…interesting."

He laughed "That's one way to phrase it."

Then they were off into the night, taking a part of my heart with them.