Chapter 10
Ste's point of view
As soon as we get in the door Brendan's got me pushed against the wall, his hot breath against my neck as he starts sucking on it. I pull his face up to look him in the eyes, I see the pure unashamed lust there. The passion on his face, every part of it matching how I feel. Our lips meet for a quick hurried kiss, his hands digging into my hips and I know there will be marks from them in the morning.
I smile to myself thinking of that, knowing I will have that mark on my skin for a few days. He must feel me smiling into the kiss because he pulls back and asks, "What ye smiling at?"
"Nothin'." I mutter with a shake of the head before putting my lips back onto his, I can feel the pressure of his tongue against mine, more demanding than usual. The empty flat is filled with his grunts and my moans as he starts to prepare me, his fingers hammering into me relentlessly, hitting my sweet spot every time, it gets to two fingers before I start to get impatient.
"Come on Bren." I whine between a kiss, my breathing heavy. He pulls his fingers out and pushes his full member into me, quickly and forcefully I don't expect it and he smirks at me that's when I see it must have been his plan. He managed to roll a condom on himself without me even noticing, just shows how distracted I can get when I'm with him.
It lasts much longer this time, every time one of us gets close we stop and just lay there kissing. I'm trying to tell myself that my attraction to Brendan is only physical. I have to admit though it's not, I realised that today. I'm falling for him and I don't even think he cares about it, so that's why I don't tell him. I've made a decision, this is the last time I'm going to see him so I might as well make it worth it.
The pace is quick and rough just the way I like it, I scrape my nails into his back hoping to leave marks of my own. Then something changes, the thrusts get slower. Brendan is looking into my eyes, frown on his face before he starts planting kisses over my chest.
He thrusts into me slowly but hard, as I rock back against him, it's only then I realise I'm practically screaming his name out. I can hear his breathing in my ear, leaving goosebumps on my skin.
"Come for me Steven" he whimpers and right then I come undone. Hot liquid all over mine and Brendan's chests.
After he comes, he wraps his legs around mine, I feel his heartbeat slowing back to normal and it carries me off to sleep, Brendan whispering something into my ear but I don't understand it. As if it's in another language, it's not really I'm just that out of it after that session that I don't even know what ways up and what's down.
Brendan's point of view
I'm lying on Stevens hall carpet, his body in my arms his shallow breathing relaxing me. He's been sleeping for an hour while I've just been lying here watching him, he murmurs my name a few times and nuzzles into me. I can't help the word that comes to mind adorable, adorable really?
Since when was that even in my vocabulary, what even happened earlier. It started off as the sex me and Steven normally have, it's amazing I don't think I could ever get sick of it but then it was different. It was more intimate and coupley than what I'm used to, I enjoyed it though and I would do it again.
I think and think of how to sort this mess out, but I don't know what I can do. One things for sure though, I can't go back to life without him, not when I know what this feels like. Whatever this is. I decide it's best to take him to bed when I feel a cold draft, I lift him in my arms and he subconsciously pulls himself closer to me and takes a deep breath as if inhaling me.
I smile as I lay him down on his bed before lying beside him, I wrap my arms around him and pull him into me, he flops his arm onto my chest and I smirk. I kiss his forehead as I feel myself drifting off to sleep.
I wake up to some high pitched noise and it takes me a few moments to get myself together before I open my eyes. Stevens still rested against my chest but there's a blonde haired woman with her eyes wide open looking at us.
Good thing there's covers then, I guess this must be Amy.
She stutters a bit "Eh.. Eh. I'm gonna go make tea." She says helplessly while looking a bit embarrassed, how does she think I feel? She shuts the door behind her thankfully.
I softly nudge Steven, he mumbles a bit before frowning, "How did we end up in ere?"
"I brought ye in, didn't want you sleepin on the floor." I smile at him speaking softly.
"Bren?" he looks up at me nervous,
"Amy's here" I sigh rolling out the bed looking for my clothes, "And my clothes are in the hall"
His eyes widen, "Amy's ere? Oh god." he staggers out his bed grabbing random clothes and shoving them on before throwing a housecoat at me.
I slip it on and we walk out the room together, Amy's sitting in the kitchen three mugs in front of her. She gives me a secretive smile before looking at Steven, he walks up to her and gives her a peck on the cheek, "Alright Ames."
"Morning Ste," she smiles back at him and if I didn't know better I would think that they were still a couple.
"Daddy," I hear a soft squeal from behind me before seeing a small blonde girl running over to Steven followed by a smaller boy. I'm standing there feeling like a spare part while Steven takes his kids into the living room.
Amy clears her throat so I turn my attention to her, she nods her head to the seat across from her for me to sit which I do.
"So you must be.. Brendan?" she says quietly with a strange smile on her face.
"That's me" I sigh, I'm surprised that she knows my name but I'm happy because this must mean Steven's being talking about me. "And your Amy?"
She hums as a reply, "I didn't imagine you to look like you do," she says raising an eyebrow.
"Yeah? How's that?" I ask, generally curious.
"Well your not his usual type.." she explains with a smirk on her face, "Don't worry though, it's definitely an improvement" she says a bit lower winking at me.
I grin at her, maybe Amy and I could get along.
"Oi, I heard that" Steven says from behind me, "Ya tryin to say I've got bad taste?" I turn round and see his eyes shining playfully with a grin on his face.
"No, it's just different." Amy laughs back.
"Good cos I don't wanna bring up some of your ex's." Steven says, smirk creeping onto his face.
"Eh mine are alright.." Amy says back, but I can even see the doubt on her face.
"Yeah Lee Hunter, I can see what you saw in him." Steven says back giggling like a kid.
"Oh shut up" Amy says shoving at Steven but laughing again now.
"Right, I'll get breakfast on." Steven says standing up and moving over to the fridge. My phone buzzes on the table and it's a text from Cheryl.
From: Chez
I'm at the club. Come up when you can xx
I take another drink of my tea then say "I'm gonna head, just need to.. find my clothes.." I avoid looking at Amy and feel my cheeks heat up a bit while I clear my throat.
"They're in the living room on the couch, I found them in the hall.." Amy says before she bursts out laughing.
I go into the living room and pick up my clothes, they're neatly folded thanks to Amy. The little girl is beside me in a second clearing her throat as if to get my attention. This is Leah I'm guessing, I turn to look at her and she gives me a small smile.
"What's that on your face?" she says giggling.
I feel all over my face but I don't feel anything unordinary on it.
"What ye talkin about?" I ask speaking as softly as I can to the girl.
She puts her finger above her lip and wriggles it, she's talking about my tache.
"It's my moustache," I say running a finger along it.
She laughs, "Can I feel it?" she says stretching her finger as far up as she can, I bend down and she runs her finger along it like I had just done before grinning at me, "Spikey."
I stand back up smirking at the girl.
"Are you daddy's friend?" she asks,
"Yeah. Are you Leah?" I almost laugh at myself sitting talking to this girl.
She nods before Steven's voice fills the room, "Leah leave Brendan alone."
The girl huffs before getting distracted by whatever's on the tv.
"Sorry bout that, she talks to everyone" Steven says with a half hearted smile on his face.
"Its alright," I mutter before pressing a soft kiss onto his lips. He grins at me while I head to the bathroom to put my clothes back on. Steven walks me to the door and I would give the boy another kiss but we're getting watched like a hawk off Amy.
Its not a long walk to the club and on the way I buy a coffee to keep me awake, I walk up the stairs and the doors lying wide open. Cheryl's sitting at the bar talking to a group of people. When she sees me she excuses herself and comes over to me grinning.
"We're interviewing people, thought you might want to help" she says with a grin, "How exciting is this?!"
"Yeah course?" I say rubbing my hands together walking towards them while eyeing them all carefully.
"This is the co owner, Brendan. He'll be interviewing with me" Cheryl explains to the group.
We make our way to the office and each person comes in one by one. Nobody really sticks out but then again it's not exactly rocket science to work in a club.
After the last person leaves we sit with a list, Cheryl reading out her notes.
"How many staff you thinkin we should be hiring Bren?" Cheryl asks looking at her list.
"Well we will be opening every night of the week, we'll need staff to come in for cleaning durning the day and we'll open during the day on weekdays." I say to her, she nods along with my words "Three or four bar staff, two cleaners?" I suggest.
"Yeah sure, so we've just spoke to fifteen people and were going to hire six of them?" she asks,
"Yeah" I flip over to the list of names. "I say for bar staff we hire. Ash Kane, she seemed to know what she was on about and shes a student will be happy with the wages."
"Yeah good idea. Rhys and Jackie, they've already worked in here so they know the surroundings and type of people that come in." She grins,
They aren't the two I would've picked but it's not really a big deal picking bar staff. "Yeah cool, Sinead O'Connor aswell. That will be all the bar staff now just the cleaners."
"How about I check through all their CV's and you can order the stock that we'll be needing?" Cheryl says to me putting on her best business like voice but she ends up smirking.
"Yes boss." I say, smirking back at her before heading to the bar and sorting out space, jotting down a list of bottles to get. I head down to the cellar, it's spacious so there will be plenty of space for extra stock and barrels.
I get on the phone to a place in Chester that I know does stock deliveries and manage to get an okay deal that will be getting delivered tomorrow.
I go back to the office where Cheryl's sat on the phone.
"Yeah okay love, see ye then bye." She says while finishing off her conversation.
She lets out a deep breath then smiles to me, "That's me just finished phoning back the interviewees to let them know," she tells me.
"Good, delivery is coming tomorrow, should be here about half nine in the morning" I tell her.
"Okay, we'll both come round in the morning for it." she says,
"Yeah, we need a dj." I tell her,
"We don't need it straight away do we?" she says, "This is costing a fortune just to open."
"Yeah that's what ye need to do Chez, just need to hope that it pays off" I sigh.
"So we do need to get a dj straight away" she huffs,
"No, I'll sort something out, when ye hoping to be opened for?" I ask.
"By the end of this week?" she grins up at me,
"Make it Saturday night that'll give us a few days, we'll get flyers printed, put a poster up." I say to her, she nods back at me writing everything down and I resist rolling my eyes at her, "Ye don't need to write everythin ye know. If there's anything not done we'll notice." I laugh at her.
She frowns at me, "I'm just making sure we've got it all covered," then she cracks into a smile "Plus writing things down makes me feel a bit smart. Ye know professional."
"Professional, with a face like yours? No chance" I say grinning at her. "Right what we naming this place" I say spreading my arms out.
She looks undecided before saying, "Chez Chez?" with a grin on her face.
"Chez Chez" I repeat letting it roll off my tongue "Yeah I like it".
"Well glad we can agree, how about we go grab something for dinner then shove on a movie?" she grins at me.
"Yeah sure, early night though." I sigh, I really do need to catch up on my sleep.
We walk out together looking up and double checking that all the electricity is shut down. I didn't realise it was so cold outside, "So chippy?" I say pulling Cheryl closer to me.
"Course whatever love," she shrugs.
And with that we make our way to the chip shop and home.
Ste's point of view
I wouldn't say I wanted Amy and the kids to leave but when they were leaving I wasn't as sad as I usually get, partly because I was practically getting interviewed off Amy.
As soon as Brendan was out of the door Amy was firing question after question, She claimed a few times though that she 'liked him' and about how it wouldn't be a bad thing if me and Brendan became 'official'.
It's added more to my head for me to think about, I had already planned on telling Brendan I wanted to stop seeing him but I didn't even get the chance to plus now he's met Amy and the kids it's a different ball game. No matter how much of a head fuck he is and whatever issues he has, he still makes me happy.
I was on the verge of telling Amy what I was going to do but she seemed happy about meeting Brendan, and she would have only tried to talk me out of it.
Which means I need to speak to someone that's a complete outsider, that isn't involved in it someway.
At first I think Doug but I have a feeling he would want me to be alone for the rest of my life if it were up to him. I think Sinead, but I don't know. She would probably go off on one because I hadn't told her about it straight away.
My mind goes back to my conversation with Amy.
"He's not your normal type though is he? I mean, there isn't anything wrong with him, at all." Amy said with a serious look on her face. "I mean Doug, he was like someone that would do anything for you, he was too easy going. But he was sweet, smart and great with the kids. Unlike Noah, he hated the kids but he was all muscle and no brain." She had been talking away to herself basically because I wasn't paying much attention.
"I suppose none of your ex's are really similar.. Maybe you don't have a type" she sighed, rubbing her chin as if she was deep in thought.
"Yeah well I just like who I like. I don't have fetishes or a favourite hair colour on a potential parter ." I murmured.
"Hmm, Brendan seems like the happy medium between Doug and Noah. Maybe this one will work out right." she said while nodding her head at me, although I wouldn't put Brendan anywhere near either of them they're all like polar opposites to each other.
"I didn't even ask about it, you've just brought it up. If I knew any better I'd think you had a thing for Brendan." I said to which she shook her head.
"Nah your alright he's all yours Ste." She said smile on her face while raising an eyebrow.
I think to myself though that Brendan isn't really mine. He's proved that and although he said he wouldn't see other people, he's said it before.
I've been let down by him already in such a short amount of time. This is just going to be a huge waste of time, Amy might have been right he's not like Noah or Doug. If Brendan did go off with someone else, not now but maybe a month or two down the line, I'd be properly upset.
I'd maybe go as far as heartbroken but I'm not sure of that yet. I know we've got a date planned for tomorrow and I do think I should go to it, but then I'll just be putting this off but at the same time I can't exactly phone him and say I don't want to see him again plus I don't really want to stop seeing him.
I think to myself, what is the worst that could happen? I can handle pain, if Brendan hurts me I'll deal with it, physically or emotionally. I can't live my life wondering what would've happened if I had went for it. So I'll put my doubts to the back of my mind until they doubts are actually reality.
I take out my phone and ring Sinead.
"Alright fancy coming over to the flat? Ya know your home that you've not been at for days." I say when she answers.
"Yeah I'll come over, went for an interview earlier today I'm still waiting to hear back."
"Oh how'd it go, in fact don't tell me. Wait till ya get ere, we've got proper goss to discuss" I tell her,
"Oh we do? Why didn't you say I'd be around sooner" She says and I can hear the smile in her tone.
"Yeah very funny, I'll see ya when your here." I say hanging up before she gets the chance to say anything else, I only ever do it because I know it annoys her.
Ten minutes later she's breezing in the door, bottle of coke in one hand and bag of sweets in the other.
We sit on the couch and I shove on the tv, we don't watch it, just to give some noise to the place.
"So..?" she says patiently waiting for this 'gossip'.
I tell her, everything. She's the only one of me mates I've talked to completely about Brendan. Amy and Doug know bits but not it all.
"Ste what are you doin? He's obviously no good if he's pinning you against a wall!" she says, sounding agitated, "I can't believe you've not told him where to go."
"Yeah but.." I start,
"No buts Ste, seriously! I know you don't take crap of anyone" she says frowning at me.
"Well if you'll just let me explain" I sigh,
"Explain?!" she scoffs "What's there to explain? He'll think he can do it again"
"Listen Sinead, this ain't anything big. It were a tiny mistake, everything else that's happened has been great. He's amazing, he makes me happy" I sigh, "Normally yeah I would send them packin but this is different, I dunno how, I just know it is."
She seems semi convinced and manages to give a half hearted smile. "Okay but if it happens again.."
"I'll never speak to him again." I tell her, "Promise."
"Pinky promise?" She offers me her pinky and I loop mine around it while shaking my head and her,
"You'll tell me if he does it again though yeah?" she says grinning "Then well kick him up and down the village."
She seems to have that lightness about her again as we move onto the next subject, her interview.
"So where was it then?" I ask,
"The loft, its been taken over by some new people, Brendan and Cheryl." she says then her eyes widen "Wait a minute.."
"Yeah it's the same people" I say laughing. Brilliant.
"You mean you've been sleeping with that Brendan" she says screwing up her face but I can see a smirk there. "Even though he has a porno tache?" She says but she starts laughing.
"I never thought I liked taches before but he suits it and Sinead you have not seen his body it's so.." I say but she interrupts me,
"Yeah I get it, you want to jump his bones." she says smirking.
I laugh at that, and think to myself yes I do.
We fall into random chit chat while watching come dine with me.
"If you tried to feed me that Ste I think I'd probably paint the walls with it, I mean why would anyone want to eat that?" she scoffs as some mid fourties woman starts to cook squid.
"Dunno, it might taste nice." I reply back to her not taking my eyes off the screen, trying to remember exactly how it's made so that one time I can make Sinead it.
We carry on watching how the woman, who's name is Jenna, cooks her squid. She then starts to make chips.
"Why would you make squid and chips?" I huff, generally confused.
"Don't know, what would you make it with?" Sinead says shrugging her shoulders.
"Hmm I have no clue" I say back, generally confused about what you would cook with squid.
Sineads phone starts ringing, and she darts for it answering it while she walks out the room.
The guests surprisingly didn't like the squid and chips, apart from one of them which was a young acne covered teen by the looks of it.
Sinead comes in smiling. "I got the job?" she says in disbelief,
I pull her in for a tight hug "That's brilliant!" I say to her.
"I know I can't believe it! We'll need to go out drinking tonight!" she says.
I should say no, I've got work tomorrow but instead I grin and nod.
I warn myself though, I'm not getting drunk, and if I do then in the morning when I'm hungover and needing to go to work ill have nobody to blame but myself.
Sinead rushes off saying she's away to tell her mum and brother that she got a job. I try not to think of how this might be awkward, the guy I'm sleeping with is gonna be one of my best mates boss.
I'm sure it'll be fine.
I text Brendan can't stop myself.
To: Brendan
Alright? What ya doin? Ste x
I wait a good while on a reply but I tell myself he isn't ignoring me just isn't replying because he's busy. Organising a club, which would take a lot of planning to be fair.
It still doesn't stop me from waiting on a reply though and when it comes I get a grin before even reading it.
From: Brendan
Hey, just watching a movie with Chez. You? BB x
I feel special when I get a x in a text from Brendan, for the simple fact he doesn't always send me one and he doesn't look like the type of guy that would.
To: Brendan
Just about to make me dinna :) Ste x
From: Brendan
Sounds exciting, what ye havin? BB
I check in the cupboards, tuna pasta it looks like.
To: Brendan
Tuna pasta I think xx
From: Brendan
Nicee. I just had a sausage supper BB x
To: Brendan
Oh really? Sausage? xx
From: Brendan
Behave Steven, yes sausage BB x
To: Brendan
Me behave? I'm an angel xx
From: Brendan
The devil more like.. I gotta go, Chez is wondering why I keep looking at my phone. She knows why it is though, I'll phone ye later BB x
To: Brendan
Yeah enjoy your movie old man;)! Xx
From: Brendan
Don't make me come over and show ye how much of an old man I am. BB x
To: Brendan
Wouldn't want that now would I? Xx
From: Brendan
No ye wouldn't. I'll phone ye Steven. BB
I take that as him telling me to piss off and sort out my dinner. Its delicious, I can even admit that I can cook, modesty is something I don't have when it comes to cooking. It's probably the only thing in my life I've been confident with.
I can't stop the smile when I see Brendan's text me again.