I don`t own twilight
so, this is the new chapter, it went different than expected
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Bella sat on the couch alone thinking about the event of the days.
"Why does it always have to be me? What have I done in my past life that theses things follow me every step?"
Jacobs words before he went home again still echoed in her mind.
"Bella, I really don't know what to make out off all of this! You have to understand that, like I said before, wolfs and vampires don't hang out! We are mortal enemies, this is in our gene pool! And I have to admit, it surprises me that we actually were able to spend as much time together as we did tonight without ripping us to pieces!" He had stopped at that point thinking about his next words before he continued.
"Look, I am really sorry, I guess no one of us wants to hurt you and it pains me how things turned out to be, but this is not only me we are talking here about! I am part of a pack and I told you how Sam reacts to them and believe me, he is not the only one! Even if, which still is much unlikely, I could come around, this is not really possible! And I am not really comfortable thinking about you spending time with him, alone on top of it!"
For that he had earned another glare from her.
"I know, stubbornness is one of your virtues! But...I don't know, Bella! This is your decision, and I cant keep guard on you the whole time and I don't want to rip you in two either but, this is a lot to think about here! And I really don't see a way! The others will treat me as a traitor and to be honest, I would feel like one, too! Either way people I like and love will get hurt and what are you expecting? I need them, I am a young wolf, I am part of the pack, I cant turn my back on our roots and our rules! But I don't want to turn my back on you either! Especially considering what you been through! I guess, I have to think about it! And maybe time, I don't know, I hope you understand!"
She had told Jacob more or less everything that really happened since she moved to Forks and met Edward and the Cullen's. Of course she neglected to mention certain things like her birthday. She was pretty sure that wouldn't have helped in any way. When she had told him about the encounter with James, Jacob had been furious. Funny thing was, he had been furious with her about her stupid move to meet James alone and actually expressed his thanks to Jasper for saving her at least in some way. Jasper had nodded in response. Come to think about, Jasper hadn't said much at all even after Jacob was gone. He had felt her need to be alone for a moment and went upstairs in her room leaving her to her thoughts.
What was he thinking about all of this?
With that question she finally went and opened the door to find Jasper sitting on her bed drifting in his own thoughts. His face was stiff and she could see a little anger in it. He didn't look at her so she just stood at her door. And suddenly the thought hit her that he hadn't left her alone because she needed to think but because he needed to alone.
"You're angry with me!" She finally pointed out.
"No, I am angry at myself!" He corrected and confused her.
"Why are you angry at yourself?"
He turned his head towards her and looked at her for a moment before he turned his gaze away again.
"Because I should have known!" He pointed out.
"What? That only me could have another mystical creature in her inner circle?"
"That too, but that's not what I am talking about! I am angry because he took me by surprise, Bella! I am angry because apparently a century of," he stopped obviously changing the word he was about to say first, "my experience just flew out of the window! I am angry because this should never have happened!"
His anger rose in his voice and caught her off guard but it made her only angry, too. OK, to be honest, his last words had hurt her but she didn't want to be hurt right now and anger covered it pretty good. So she snapped at him.
"Look, I am sorry for bringing you in this position! No one is forcing you to endure this! If it was so hard for you, you could have just gone!" She yelled at him.
"And leave you alone with him? Without any protection? I don't think so!"
"Well, if that is all that you're doing here, than yes! I don't need another protector! I would like to have a real friend for a change! I thought that's what we were, but again I was taught better! I wonder how often I have to stumble into situations like this before I finally realize that apparently this would be to good to be true!" She had failed miserable in hiding her hurt behind her anger and it was brought out full force over her last words. She turned around and was about to run to the bathroom in a desperate attempt to at least not let him see her cry if he couldn't feel it already.
But she only made it two steps before she felt strong arms gripping her and pressing her to his chest.
"I am sorry!"
His now tender voice whispered to her while he tried to smooth her.
"I am really sorry! I never meant it that way! Please don't cry, love!"
"No!" She tried to free herself of his grip getting hysterical but he just hold her tighter.
She felt his scent luring her towards him and she knew he had used his predator powers to draw her in for the first time.
"Let me go!" She tried for a last time.
"Never going to happen!" With his words a wave of calm, peace, warmth, security and love flooded through her and she stopped. It felt like home, he felt like home and she wasn't ready to leave it. Her body reacted instinctively and leaned into him. Her sobs calmed down but there were still a few tears rolling down her cheek.
"Shh, love! Please don't feel this way! I wish you would just stop feeling so insecure!" With another move he had pulled her in his arms and carried her to her bed and sat down. He continued stroking her back while she calmed down more and more.
"Why did you say those things?" Her voice whispered.
"I meant them in a complete different context!"
"How?"
"What I meant never had anything to do with you! Not really! I was angry, because I told you, I've met his kind before, and not just once! I should have recognized the scent days or more weeks before! I did come across it when I was hunting! When I said this should never have happened, I meant I never should have let you and me just walk into it like this! Do you have any idea how close I came to ripping him apart?"
"But why?"
"Because when I say I've met his kind, what I really meant was I fought his kind! And they fought us! People I liked and cared for died in these fights, were hunted down by them. Vampires are very revenging creatures, Bella. Not just when it comes to our mates! And when he stepped through this door, something inside me screamed for revenge. And when you let him inside, when you made me sit down with him to talk, lets just say I was a little busy keeping myself calm while calming him and you at the same time!"
"I am sorry! I just missed him so much! I don't want to lose either one of you!"
"I know! And I am actually proud of you!"
"Why?"
"Because only you Bella would be able to bring a vampire and a werewolf together and talk! Maybe you should go into politics! They do need people like that in the middle east!" He chuckled
"Good idea, Jasper, sending me in a war region surly would complete my danger magnet! And you say I am the one asking for it by riding bikes!" She answered sarcasticly but her mood lightened.
"I am just saying, besides the whole ripping in pieces thing, this was quite interesting!"
"So, there really is no chance of you two getting along?"
He sighted deeply before he answered.
"I don't know! I know I can't blame him for the things that have happened in my past, but he is right, it is in our gene pool! And he is so young! If he was at least old enough to control himself! I know he wouldn't want to hurt you, but I also know, maybe better than anyone, how easy those intentions can fly out of the window when something else takes over!"
He stopped again and stiffened for a second before he continued.
"You have to understand that I know how important he is to you, and I will try to keep that in mind but just like him I need time to do so! You are a strong link between us, we both want you to be happy and safe, it's going to be funny to see how we work this out!" He chuckled again and his words sent a shiver down her spine. A warm one. She could feel her stomach twisting over it and her head went up to look at him.
"Thank you, Jasper!"
Suddenly she realized how close they were to each other. She was still laying in his lap and his arms secured her to him holding her close. Looking up had brought their faces only inches from the others and she looked in his eyes. Jasper held her gaze in his and suddenly she felt a pull towards him. Like she would loose herself in their depth. She could feel the air around them tensing and her gaze dropped down to his lips.
She never realized how beautiful he really was and those lips mesmerized her. Without realizing her tongue licked over her own lips and suddenly both of them leaned closer towards each other. Her eyes darted up to his again and the tension between them grew. Their lips were only a breath away from each other now and she could feel his breath on her skin.
Then a loud bang brought them back to reality.
"Bella, I'm home!"
The voice of her father echoed trough the house and both darted away in different corners of her bed.
"Uh!" Jasper stumbled clearly uncomfortable and irritated by what just happened " I think I should go! Your father is coming upstairs!"
"OK!" Was all she could reply.
`What was that????`
"Yeah, I need to go to the bathroom, anyway!"
`Wow, I managed to built a sentence!`She congratulated herself.
"OK, and um, I need to hunt!" He had jumped off the bed by now and stood next to the window.
"Yeah, OK!" She stumbled again.
"I guess, I'll see you around!" Jasper tried again still uncomfortable.
"Yep!" What was it with the monosyllabic?
"Yeah, so!" He started again.
"See you!" She tried to put in her two cents and with that he nearly flew outside and was gone. She couldn`t even think about what happened before she heard a knock on her door.
"Bella? Are you in there?"
"Uhh, yes, Dad!" She answered. "I uh, I am changing, I was about to go in the bathroom!" She tried.
"Oh, ok! I will be downstairs!"
"Thanks, dad!"
And with that her inner monologue or better dialogue started.
`OK, what did just happen?`
She let the last minutes repeat through her mind. Ok, they had been fighting, even a bit yelling and then he had apologized and..
`AND?! Come on girl, say it! You nearly kissed!`
`NO!`
`Please, you fight, you make up again! How more obvious could it get?`
`Making up? We are not a couple!`
`well, you sure act like one!`
`Do not!`
`Uhu! Sure! Let`s try a different approach here, do you honestly want to say you didn`t want to kiss him?`
`Uh, well..`
`Bella, I am you!! I have a inside look!`
`Yeah, well, the view can change and be misinterpreted!`
`Oh, girl , you got it bad!`
`No, I don`t! I love Edward, remember!`
`Do you realize?`
`realize what?`
`You just said his name!`
`So?! I said his name before!`
`Yeah? When was the last time? And especially when was the last time without dripping over in pain?!`
`That has nothing to do with this!`
`Doesn`t it?! Who do you think has brought you to this point?`
`Oh, just stop it! There is nothing going on! We are friends and that`s it! Even if, as if he would have any interest!`
`You were here just minutes ago, right?`
`I am not talking or thinking about this anymore!`
And with that she shut herself up and went to have a shower.
So, i hope you guys liked it, it might take a few more days before i can update again but i try to do it asap, if you have any ideas/ suggestions, please let me know, help is always appreciated