Authors Note: WARNING: This chapter is hella mooshy and the F-Bomb is dropped a lot. Happy reading. Please review!
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Chapter Ten
Lily crossed to the other side of the room where James' cot was hidden from view with draperies. She stopped and stared at the white almost see through curtains and took a deep breathe before pulling them aside and peeking through, finding James sleeping, snoring.
She smiled and closed the curtains behind her, then tip toed towards the left side of his cot, pulling the metal railing down and running her hand through his wildly unruly hair and kissed his forehead. She took a seat on a tall chair and watched him sleep for a couple minutes.
James was so peaceful in his sleep. He stirred once or twice in his sleep, most likely dreaming, but then returned to a relaxed face. Once or twice he muttered Lily's name, which caused her concern. She wished that she could know what he was dreaming about when he started to smack his lips, his eyes fluttering open.
Startled when he saw a blurry vision of someone starring at him, he reached for his glasses on the nightstand next to the bed, but when he couldn't reach them he grumbled, "Blurry vision of someone can you please grab my glasses for me?"
Lily smiled, picking them up and gently setting them on his face, "Hello."
A slow smile appeared on his face as Lily came into view, "Hi"
Lily's emerald eyes glassed over as tears formed at their bottoms, an awkward silence started as she looked at her fingers in her lap that were fiddling with a loose string in her jeans.
James forced himself to sit up on the bed forcing himself not to make any bodily recognition to the pain that shot through his chest as he did so, "Lily…please…let me explain what happened…"
Lily shook her head, "I know what happened, Severus told Albus…"
"No I'm not talking about last night I'm-WHAT?"
Lily nodded but sensing his anger hushed him, "No-James it's okay- we fixed everything, it's alright!" she whispered, "You guys aren't and trouble and Remus is staying here. Severus is forced into secrecy and the Ministry isn't being informed" she rushed as she saw James' hands curl into fists.
James slowly started to relax, "Are you sure?" his jaw was tight and his lips barely moved.
"Yes, I'm sure." Lily whispered, "please calm down…you don't have enough blood in your system to raise your blood pressure like that…"
James rolled his eyes, obviously still angry, but he did his best to calm down, "Lily…" he started but stopped, looking towards the draperies.
"What?" Lily asked earnestly.
"I" James sighed, "Lily I love you. I would never, ever, cheat on you when I've waited so long to be with you. You have to believe me- Sirius played a prank on Becky. She's wanted to be with me since she's grown boobs" he growled once more and he continued on, "Furthermore, I told her to back off. From what I heard, she got the point. She's moved on. Lily-you have to believe me…" he whispered, leaning towards her, "Please."
Lily bit her lip, "James…I believe you, but I-I can't go out with you…"
"Why the hell not?" James asked desperately, "Lily-I-I thought you loved me…"
Tears stung at her eyes, "I do! But…I'm not…I'm not in love you…"
James stared at her, his heart felt like it was going to implode in his chest, "But Lily-I don't understand…"
The tears that had flown freely earlier, were now gushing down like rain, "I can't- I can't love you James…I'm scared. I'm scared that more things with Becky will happen and we're get into more fights. I'm just too jealous to be with someone like you. You're so charismatic and handsome and I can't. I just can't. I love you James but I can't be in love with you…" she whispered, sobs started to wrack her body, "I'm so sorry…" Lily got up to leave but James grabbed her arm just in time.
"Lily please stay with me" he croaked, "please…"
She stared at him, mascara blackened tears falling down her cheeks, and then nodded, "Fine" she took her seat once more, "James….you have no idea how much it hurts me.."
James glared at her, "Hurts you?" he croaked, "Lily I've loved you since fourth year. I know you from the inside out. I know when you're hurting, even when you don't say so. I can see it in your eyes. I can feel it, like you're a part of me. Because you ARE Lily! And when you gave me a chance I couldn't believe it…After you had dealt with….Manson…" he hissed, "You gave me a chance and put my heart and soul into you…Lily you can't leave me now…You have me. Hook line and sinker" whispered, looking straight into her glossy emerald eyes.
Lily said nothing but let her head fall into her hands and cry even harder.
"DAMNIT LILY!" he yelled and tore his glasses off of his head and threw them on the ground, needing something to throw.
Lily watched them shatter on the ground, "Why did you do that?" she sniffled, "Now you can't see anything…you're blind as a bat without those."
"I don't want to see anything right now, Evans." He hissed.
Lily froze, "Excuse me?" suddenly anger started to raise in her, since when was she Evans again?
"I SAID, EVANS, that I don't want to see anything right now, EVANS!" James yelled.
Lily stood, angry tears rolled down her eyes, "Don't want to see anything, huh? But can you feel this?" she asked and slapped him, "I CAN'T BELIEVE I LOVE YOU!" she cried and walked out of the draperies.
"What the fuck did you do, Prongs?" Sirius roared, "YOU JUST LOST YOUR FUTURE WIFE!"
"FUCK OFF SIRIUS!" James yelled back, "I'm not in the mood."
"Apparent-fuckin-ly you dipshit because you just screwed up the best woman you'll ever be with in your entire life" Sirius replied and he forced himself to stand ignoring the pain that seared through his chest, "Were you dropped on your head as runt James? You've waited for her for years and you're letting her just walk out of your life like a bogey-faced banshee? Maybe she doesn't deserve you. I thought you were better than that. Actually, you know what. I want her. I'll fix her. She's better than a sister to me. She's now MY GIRLFRIEND!" Sirius roared, knowing full well what he was doing. He was going to force James into being possessive of Lily. Force him into caring about her again.
James launched out of bed and punched Sirius in the face, "STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY GIRLFRIEND YOU MANGY MUTT!"
Sirius touched his face, licking his lip that was now split and swollen, "You going to go get her back?" he growled.
James nodded, "FUCK YEAH I AM. STAY AWAY FROM HER!"
Sirius nodded, "Good. Go get'er tiger" he replied and went to sit back down on his best, taking a large gulp of his pain potion, "Damn wanker."
James pulled the transfusion needles from his arms and ran out the door after Lily, knowing that she was going to be even more pissed at him for coming after her in such a state but didn't care.
"LILY!" he yelled, feeling the energy ebb away from him, "LILLIAN KIANA EVANS!" he screamed, and he heard something drop around the corner and down the hall, and then the clicks of her favorite black suede boots.
"JAMES HARRY POTTER!" She screamed back, tears rolling down her eyes, "GET BACK IN THE HOSPITAL WING BEFORE YOU PASS OUT AGAIN!"
James shook his head and when she reached him, pulled her to his chest, "Lily I don't care if you're my wife, my fiancée, my girlfriend or best friend. I want- need you in my life. Please- don't leave me hanging. I love you too much to let you go. If you can tell me, looking me in the eye, that you don't have the same feeling for me, or at least aren't beginning to, I won't ever tell you I love you again. Please…"
Lily stared, mouth agape as he held on to her wrists staring into her eyes, "I-" she was overwhelmed, she did love him, she was falling in love with him, but she can't handle this. She needed time to recuperate. She almost lost him. She can't go through this again, "James…" she started and watched as she said nothing, the color draining from his face, "I do love you…I'm-I'm falling in love you but…but I'm scared."
James heart was slowly putting itself back together, "Please Lily- I just punched my best mate for saying he was going to take you from me. Please- I can't lose two people in one hour. I'm begging you. One more chance."
"I don't know if I can" Lily sniffled, "I almost lost you…I can't go through that again" her knees started to crumble and she let her head fall against James' chest, "I can't go through that…I was so scared."
James wrapped his arms around her, kissing the top of her head, "Lily I promise you that I will never, ever make you go through that again. Reconsider, Lily. Once more chance" he was beginning to feel the dizzy feeling again, and he was starting to wonder how he made it out here without bumping into something with his glasses broken and on the floor.
Lily bit her lip, "How did you even make it out here anyway?" she said, as if she were reading his mind.
James choked out a laugh, "I followed my heart…"
A small smile played on her dried lips and she licked them, "You promise?" she choked finally.
James nodded, "I promise Lily. I'll never make you feel like that again."
Lily nodded back, looking down and then putting his hands on his cheeks and forcing his lips to his, causing him to groan outwardly. She kissed him passionately, "then you better not screw up your last chance, James Potter." She whispered.
With the last bit of his energy, James picked her up and flung her around and kissed her again, "I love you so much."
"I love you too…" Lily whispered and then she stared at him, "James- James are you okay?" she looked behind him, "MERLIN! You aren't attached to your transfusion machines! Damn it James are you trying to kill yourself?"
"It was my back up plan if you told me no one more time" James replied dizzily, "can we go back to my cot now?"
Lily didn't laugh; she shoved him back into the infirmary and onto his cot, calling Madam Pomfrey to shove the needles back into his arms. She then watched as the color returned back into his arms, then slowly back into his face.
Lily sighed, "You'll be the death of me"
James stared at her, a scared look on his face, "I hope not" he replied.
"Why not?" A smile snaked its way onto her lips.
"Because then I'll be sleeping alone…" he whispered, a pout appearing.
Lily shook her head and then felt herself being pulled onto the cot by James who wrapped his arms around her while he lay down, "Nappy time"
"James I don't think there's enough ro-" Lily started and then started to tip when the metal railings flipped themselves upward, almost hitting her in the face.
James chuckled, "That scared me the first time…"
Then out of no where, the draperies were pulled back, and the full, pissed off view of a black and bruise lipped Sirius Black was in view, "Lily Kiana Evans and James Harry Potter if you two EVER have ANOTHER FIGHT LIKE THAT in which I HAVE to take a punch to my BEAUTIFUL face for the 'team'" he made air quotations, "Both of you will be hexed as each other for a week" he hissed, "Happy Marriage. I better be the Godfather" then he proceeded to flipping them both off before turning on his heel, "And James, she's just a sister. I'm not taking Lilykins from you. Sorry, Lily. I'm not sexually attracted to you like James is" he said as he walked away.
"I'm hurt Sirius" Lily replied as she stared James in the eyes, watching his lids start to droop.
"I know" Sirius replied, getting into this cot, "but we're not meant to be" he laughed, "good night, Lilykins."
"Goodnight Siriuskins." Lily replied, yawning before they all fell asleep.
A/N: This chapter is very gooshy-mooshy but I feel it was important to James and Lily's relationship. From here, only more drama can occur, even if the ending to this chapter was peaceful.