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Chapter 10

Leaving the hospital was difficult with not being able to bring babe Abel home as well but the four of them made their way down the corridor and out the main exit. Annie held on to each of the boys hands while Jax was on the end holding onto Aiden's, and walked toward her SUV. "When can we see Abel again?" Aiden asked while Jax buckled him into his booster. "You can see him tomorrow after school." Jax said with a smile. Aiden and Ryder both shook their head "No" stating that they didn't want to go to school but would much rather spend the day with Abel. "You have to go to school guys… Abel's gonna look up to you guys… you want him to be proud of you right?" They both nodded their heads quickly "Alright, then you need to go to school." Both boys were quiet and thought about what Jax had said. "Are you proud of us Daddy?" Ryder asked while looking at him with blue eyes that matched Jax's almost identically. "Of course I am little man." Annie watched the three interact and couldn't help but feel butterflies in her stomach. The back doors were closed and Jax made his way over to the driver's side door while Annie leaned against the vehicle with her ankles crossed and her arms behind her.

Jax stopped right in front of her and gently placed his hands on her hips tugging her just a little bit closer; while still being aware of the little eyes watching them. Jax knew that even though Aiden and Ryder were calling him "daddy" it didn't mean they were used to mommy and daddy being affectionate. "I'll come by in the morning for our talk.." Annie nodded her head and looked at him. "You better be bringing breakfast Jackson." Jax smirked and leaned in a little closer "Darlin there's only one thing I wanna eat for breakfast" his voice low and husky, filled with promises only Jax Teller could keep. Annie playfully pushed him away. "You are so bad." She said with her eyebrows raised and a slightly shocked look on her face. "I'll follow you home and make sure everythings okay." He said while squeezing her hip harder and then made his way to his bike. Annie opened her door and got behind the wheel.

Jax had made sure the three of them made it home and inside safely before he headed to his house that Wendy had been living in for the past few months. When he pulled p he saw his mother's car parked in the front with the lights on throughout the home. "Ma!" Jas walked in and his nostrils were invaded with bleach and pinesol. He saw his mother coming down the hall with trash bags and went to help her. "Hey, baby. I just wanted to come by and get this place livable, junkie bitch left it a pigsty!" Jax shook his head "Cleaning was never her strong suit." Gemma picked up a piece of paper and playfully through it at him. "No shit smartass." Jax sat at the kitchen table after putting the bags at the curb for pick up in the morning. "It's late Ma, you really don't have to do this." Gemma put a cigarette between her lips and lit it up "Im you mother, this is my job until the day I die." Jax was quiet for a second before giving her a small smile and nodded his head in appreciation. Gemma eyed him warily "So… what's goin on with you and Annie?" She exhaled the smoke out of her nose while still looking at Jax. He let out a sigh and leaned back in his chair and ran both of his hands through his hair. Of course Gemma picked up on something, she knows everything about everything. "Ma… I just…" He tried to gather the words before continuing. This was his mother, the woman who he trusted and loved completely, the woman who always protected him, so why was it hard to explain to her what was happening? "I have loved…that girl…before I even knew what that meant. I loved her before the club, before the croweaters and sweetbutts, I loved her before Tara, its just… she was never…mine. She was always there and close enough for me to love from a distance but… she was Tommy's." Jax pulled a cigarette out and allowed the nicotine to do it's job. "I ain't delusional… I know if he were still here them two would be happily married and would probably have another kid or something by now… I just… I have fucked up everything… and I can't fuck this up. If I lose her… if I lose Annie… I lose my entire life. I lose my best friend, I lose the love of my life, I lose those boys, I… I'm… I'm scared." He said with a nod.

Gemma watched as her son let her see into his heart. She knew that Jackson loved Annie, she knew it when he was a kid and knew it every moment he saw him with her. She was always what he could never have and now that he has the chance he's terrified of messing it up. "Baby… You can't go into this thinking like that. If you think too much of about fuckin it up… you're gonna fuck it up. You love her, she loves you. Hold onto that. You're brother saw it… he knew that he was her first love but he also knew that you were her true love. And sweetheart, there is a major difference between the two." Jax looked at his mom with wide blue eyes and she could have sworn he looked like the little boy she remembers for a moment. "I'm gonna head home." She gather her things and started out toward the door with Jax following and walking her to her car. She turned before getting into her car, "You two got a lot to talk about baby, but make sure you don't hold back. Tell her all the shit goin on in that blonde head of yours. You can't expect it to work unless all of the baggage is laid out." Jax opened the car door for her and kissed her on the cheek. "What would I do without you?" He chuckled. "Probably would have drowned in pussy or your own vomit by this point." Gemma smirked back and closed the door. Jax watched her as she drove down the street and knew that his mother was right. Jackson had a lifetime of feelings and bullshit that he needed to lay out at Annie's feet. He headed for bed and prepared himself for what tomorrow would bring.

Annie had woken extra early this morning in order for her and Jackson to have the time to talk properly. She was going to go into the office late and her mother was going to pick up the boys and bring them in for her. She didn't tell her mother everything that happened but her mother knew. She just knew! Annie decided to brush her teeth and her hair. She was wearing her pajamas which were a lilac camisole tank top that showed an inch of her stomach, paired with black sleep shorts and a light robe that came to her upper thigh. She decided to start coffee and was sitting in her kitchen breakfast bar waiting for Jax. It was just about 7:00 AM and he should be here any minute. Annie cracked her knuckles and thought of how this talk was gonna go. Was he going to start or should she? What was she supposed to start with? Where should they sit? How close should they sit? Should they eat food while talking or just have coffee? Was she dressed for a talk or should she change? Shit. What was she doing?

Annie heard the roar of a Harley coming down her street. The neighbors had grown accustomed to the sound over the years which was good. Annie heard the front door open and raised her eyes from her hands when he entered the kitchen. She was caught off guard when he suddenly appeared in front her and grabbed her face and gave her a lip searing kiss. "Mornin darling." Annie opened her eyes and was unable to speak. This always happened with Jax ever since she could remember the man standing before her had been able to leave her speechless. Her mind wandered…

Annie had just gotten her ice cream from the truck and was smiling bigger than any other eight year old, when she turned around and Billy Tolken grabbed the ice cream and threw it to the ground. Annie did not like him at all! He was mean to her all the time. Just when she was about to try and walk around him she saw the young boy pale as if he had seen a ghost. She turned to see what had the bully so frightened and she saw Jax standing with his arms crossed over his chest and his eyes set on the fat burly kid that had just knocked her ice cream to the ground. "Hi Jackson." Annie smiled sweetly at him and he turned his attention to her and his expression softened completely. "Hey babe, why don't you go get in line again." Annie saw his eyes and face go back to stone when he looked back at Billy. Annie knew even then what that look meant… Jackson Teller was PISSED. So she did as he said. She could see Jax exchange some heated words with Jackson poking him in his chest a few times and pointed at her a few times as well. Minutes later as she approached the front of the line, both Billy and Jax made their way over to her. Billy stuttered out an apology and promised to never ever ever bother her again. He looked at Jax and Jax gave him a curt nod. Billy then ran off and Jax put his arm around Annie and through her over his shoulder. "What kind of ice cream did you want Annie?" She couldn't even muster up an answer. He defended her against the bully and got said bully to apologize. She didn't know what he did but it must have been something major. Annie was speechless. Why did he do that? She thought to herself, but in her mind she smiled a little because she knew he defended and protected her.

Annie stopped her trip down memory lane and shook it out of her mind. "Uhh good.. good morning." She stuttered from the shock and force of the kiss. Jax walked over to the counter and prepared a cup of coffee for himself. He turned himself around and leaned into the counter with the steaming cup in his hand and watcher Annie intently. Annie started to feel flustered under his intense gaze and he just smirked. The signature Teller smirk that she knew all too well especially now that her boys had seemed to master it overnight. Jax finished off his cup of coffee and slid his arms around her waist pushing her hips into his own. Jax would be lying if he said he cared that she could feel that he wanted her at that exact moment because by the way her eyes grew dark he knew she felt the same way. They held eye contact for what seemed like hours as if everything that needed to be said the other could see reflecting in the other's eyes. Annie needed to taste him just a little bit she laced her fingers through his hair and rose to the tips of her toes and pushed his mouth towards her own. This kiss was gentle but was still full of passion and she allowed herself to get lost in him.

"Mommy!" Annie and Jax broke apart, each letting out a small. Jax touched his forehead to hers and smiled as he watched her turn back into mommy mode. "What is Aiden?" She yelled softly back to him. The both heard the sound of little feet barreling towards the kitchen and separated just a little. "DADDY!" Both boys screamed and jumped up and down while clapping their hands. "Hey there are my favorite people in the world." "Are you here for breakfast?" Aiden asked happily. "Only if you guys want me to stay." "Yes! Yes! Yes!" Aiden yelled. "You can stay here forever daddy." Ryder said with a smile. Annie made eye contact with Jax and he saw the hope flash in them mixed with something else he couldn't quite place. Maybe it was fear. Because he felt it too.

Jax brought the boys to their rooms and started to get them ready for the day while Annie started to make breakfast for them. The three of them coming down the hall was quite a sight. Jax was walking in between the two boys wearing his signature white sneakers, dark jeans that hung low on hip hips, his knife was strapped in it's holder against his thigh, with a white long sleeve shirt under a black shirt that said SAMCRO across the front, with his kutte on top of it. Aiden walked at his left side dressed in white sneakers, dark jeans, a white undershirt, and a blue plaid button up on top with his sleeves rolled up a little, and his hair in a Mohawk. To Jax's right was Ryder who too was wearing white sneakers and dark jeans, but he wore a long sleeve black shirt with the sleeves bunched up and his hair also in a Mohawk. Annie had to snap a photo quickly in order to save this moment in time. The three made it to the kitchen "Mornin Darlin." Jax said and kissed her cheek. Both boys walked in behind him "Mornin Darlin." They both said and tried to walk past her. Annie put her arm up to block them and raised her eyebrows. Both of their eyes got bigger "Morning Mommy!" They both hugged her waist tightly and looked up at her. "Much better!" She bent down and kissed both of them all over their faces and they giggled. They went to sit next to Jax at the breakfast bar and he laughed at the entire exchange. "What are you teaching them?" Annie asked jokingly. Jax rose his hands in surrender and shook his head as if he had no idea what she meant.

The three of them ate their breakfast and talked while Annie cleaned up. The door opened and Hazel's voice came through the house "Where are my boys?" She yelled happily. "In here gran, in here!" Ryder yelled back. Hazel walked toward the voice and couldn't help but smile at what she saw. Jax and the boys were sitting together and they were talking his ear off about school, motorcycle, and Abel and he made sure to listen and answer when needed. Hazel saw her daughter put the last of the dirty dishes away. "Hey mom!" Annie smiled at her mother and gave her a big hug. "Hi babygirl, how are you this morning?" Annie stole a glance at the three men in her life and a small smile came to her lips "I'm doing really…really good." Hazel smiled back and walked towards her grandsons "Are you two ready for school?" The boys heads turned towards her and they both jumped down off the stool to get their bags by the door before turning back to her "Yes!". Hazel laughed "Alright lets go, say bye for the day." The boys went to Annie and hugged her tightly "Love you Mommy!" both of them said while looking up at her. "Are we going to see Abel today?" Annie nodded her head "of course we are babies." They then turned toward Jax and ran to him and he opened his arms and scooped them up "Bye Daddy!" each of them kissed one of his cheeks. Hazel's heart filled with joy and she looked towards her daughter who had the same expression. Jax headed out the door to get both boys into Hazel's car.

""Alright, you two be good today aight?" He said while closing the door and leaned in through the window. The both nodded their heads and started talking to one another. Jax turned toward the house to see Hazel walking toward the car. "You're really good for them, all of them." She said while standing before Jax. He nodded his head and looked around, not knowing what to say "I'm gonna do my best." He finally said. Hazel just smiled and gave him a hug before getting in her car and backing out of the driveway. Jax made his way back to the front door and took a deep breath. Here it goes.

Annie had made her way to the couch while they were all outside. She heard the door close and Jax made his way toward her and sat at the couch across from her. She was nervous again, she could hear him settling in to the couch and saw him fold his hands in front of him leaning his elbows on the tops of his knees. "Annie." She heard his voice and it sent a feeling through her body just like it always had. She made eye contact with him. It was now or never.

"Shit Annie, I don't know where to start with this shit so I'm just gonna lay it out there. Annie nodded her head and waited for him to continue. Jax took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. "I've loved you since I was ten years old. I loved you even before I knew what love was or what it meant. I always had this need inside of me to protect you and to be there for you. Shit, I remember saying all the time that I was gonna marry you one day and even back then I was so jealous of Tommy. Whenever I heard you come over I would go to the top of the stairs and every single time you would ask my mom "Is Thomas home? I wanna play." And eeeevery single time I would just… stand there. I'd get mad and storm back to my room. Then as we all got older I figured my feeling toward you would change. Thought they'd be more brother/sister shit ya know." Jax bit his lip and shook his head to himself. "But it didn't matter what I did. Didn't matter how weird it seemed I still.. I still loved you." He shot his head up and started waving his hands "It aint like I was wanting to fuck you or anything back then I just… you know what I mean." He smiled slightly and so did she. "I wanted to find someone else, someone who made me feel the way you did, someone who brought out those feelings of need and protection and wanting to do anything for them. When I got with Tara… I held on to her so tightly because I was scared. I was scared that if I didn't have someone then… then… I wouldn't be able to sort through the noise about you. Then all of a sudden you and Tommy are growing up and then you two are dating and Tara leaves and I was just… alone. I buried myself in any girl I could and drank until every thought about you and those fucking feeling were gone…I was alone with all of these thoughts in my head and… I couldn't deal. Then, you and I started talking more and hanging out more and you were confiding in me and…" He took a deep breath and slicked his hair back. He looked her dead in the eyes "and I was in love with you all over again. I mean how fucked up is that? Not only were you a kid but you were the girl that my brother was completely in love with… and the entire time… I. Loved. You." He paused and whispered "he knew it too." Annie had been taking in everything he had said. She knew she had always had feelings for Jax but she never knew how deep those feeling ran in him. She never knew that he acted out the way he did because of her. Annie's head shot up at the revelation of Thomas. "How do you know that?" She asked him and held her breath for the answer. "That night… at the hospital right before he died. He told me that he needed me to take care of you. That he was worried about you and I and that we were going to need each other. Told me to promise that I would love you one day the way you deserved… the way he knew I already loved you." Annie couldn't believe what she was hearing. "He told me he could see it, in the way I looked at you. Said he knew you loved me too. Knew that he was your first love but that I was your true love." Jax watched as Annie processed everything he had just said. He saw her trying to fight back tears and made his way closer to her. He sat on the coffee table that was between them and reached for her hand. He held her delicate fingers inside of his larger ones and waited for her to finish what she her brain was working through.

She looked at him with full eyes and Jax felt his heart tighten. He could handle a lot of shit, with the life he lived he had to. He would rather stand blindfolded in a field with Mayans shooting at him than to see Annie Sanders cry. Annie closed her eyes and nodded her head. She used her free hand to wipe at her face and move her hair back "He said something like that to me too." She tightened her grip on Jax's hand and continued "He told me that… that he loved me. That I would always have him with me…" She started to shed silent tears "that no matter what, a part of me will always be his. But he said that…" She paused for a few moments as tears ran down her cheeks and she swiped at them. "he said that the rest of me would be yours. He told me that… he could see something between us…and that… we would both see it one day. He told me it wouldn't be fair to either of us if we were never honest with the other. Told me that even if… even if… he wasn't dying…one day he was going to have to let me go. Let me be yours." Annie broke down in sobs and Jax held her to his chest.

After a long while the two of them separated and looked at one another. Jackson stood and moved to the kitchen silently, Annie followed behind him. Jax ran a paper towel under warm water and walked over to Annie, he placed his hands gently on her hips and picked her up to place her on the counter. He stepped between her legs and rand the cloth across her cheeks to erase the stains left by her tears. He threw the clothe aside and placed his hands on each side of neck. Their eyes met, "Jackson.." He pressed his lips against hers and she held on to his shirt that she had bunched unto her tiny fists. She wrapped her legs around his waist and the two were lost in lips, tongue, and teeth. A moan escaped her lips and an animalistic growl rumbled deep in Jax's chest. She brought her hands to the top of his shoulders and slid his kutte onto the floor. Jackson reached and pulled his shirt over his head from behind his neck. Annie ran her fingertips along the reaper that covered his back. Jax ran his hands up to massage her chest and took the tiny tank top off of her body. He moved his lips to her neck and collar bone while teasing her nipples with his fingers. He moved his mouth lower and took a nipple into his mouth and then the other. Annie moaned again and again. "Jackson.." She whined. His head snapped up and he roughly (not too roughly) grabbed her behind the neck and forced her face in front of his own. "Are we doing this?" She looked at him slightly confused and delirious from moments ago. "I mean… Are we doing this… you, me, Aiden, Ryder, Abel. Are we doing this? Because there aint no coming back after.." Annie nodded her head before the words were even out of his mouth. "I want to do this Jackson. The whole thing. Relationship, kids, the house, the club, the whole thing.. I love you."

And with that Jackson picked her and moved her to the kitchen table, knocking over the center piece that was there. Just as he was about to continue his assault on her the little vixen beneath him was able to jump down from the table and turn them around. She kissed his lips and started to undo his belt. She bit his lip and tugged on it while allowing his jeans to fall to the floor. She went back to his mouth while her hand grabbed his stiff cock and pumped her fist against him. She smirked against his lips when he sucked in a quick breath. She dropped to her knees and quickly ran her tongue up his entire length. Before Jax could even registered what had just happened his mind cleared and he looked down in time to see Annie take him into her mouth. "Jesus Christ…" He threw his head back and threaded his fingers in her long hair. He couldn't take his eyes off her mouth while she got him off. She looked up at him and he almost came at that very second. "Annie…" He tried to push her off but she slapped his hand away. "Annie.. Im gonna cum.." He held his breath trying to put off the inevitable. She put him deep in her throat and swallowed around him. Jax lost control of all of his senses as he shot his load deep in her throat. She sucked him a couple more times and his body twitched from the aftershocks. Jax breathed heavily and tried to catch his breath.

He felt her slither her way back up his body and he spun her around quickly, her back hitting the kitchen table with a thud. Jax hovered above her and she smirked the sexiest little smirk he had ever seen. "Youre gonna kill me one day." Annie giggled and turned her head and looked at him with innocent eyes. "I have no idea what youre talking about Jackson." He smirked back "Oh really?" He slid his hand down her side and goosebumps covered her body. He felt her shiver as he slid his hands down her ribs and saw her hold her breath when he moved his hands underneath her panties. He ran his hand down her slit and could feel how wet she was. "You sure you don't know what im talking about babe?" he teased as he entered his fingers inside of her. "Oh god…" She moaned quietly. "Tell me what you want Annie." She shuddered and shook "Please Jackson.." She knew she sounded desperate but she didn't care. "Please what?" He said with a little aggression as he pumped his fingers in her roughly. "Uuggghh… please fuck me Jackson." Jax pulled his fingers out of her and slid her panties down her legs and they hit the floor. "With pleasure Annie." He husked into her ear ad he slid into her in one swift motion. She scratched her nails into his back and wrapped her legs around him while he pounded into her.

When they were both spent after a couple more rounds they were lying in the hallway of the house, only feet from the bedroom. Annie laid her head on his chest while they laid completely naked and his arm pulled her closer and wrapped around her waist. He ran his fingers down her back gently and she closed her eyes. His heart beat always did something to her and she just wanted to listen to it inside his chest for a while longer. "You ready for us to be an us?" Jax asked quietly. Annie rose her head and laid her chin on his chest looking at his face expectantly. Jax had to lift his head to meet her eyes. "Are you ready? Because…I was thinking long haul for this shit." He smiled big at her and wrapped both arms tightly around her and moved her so she was lying completely on top of him. Jax tilted his head at her "Promise?" He said and raised his pinkty to her just like Aiden and Ryder do, she smiled and met his pinky with her own. "Promise."

Authors note:

Apologize for any mistakes...

OKAY! so we finally have had the talk that we had been waiting for. I wanted to focus more on Jax in that part because I think he had the most difficult position and Annie has said before that she loved Jax but never really understood, whereas Jax had been in love with her his whole life. Next chapter will be more in line with the show but I wanna give everyone a heads up that I am NOT following the plot from the show. Some club business aspects I will but that's it. This is my universe and I hope you will all give it a chance. Let me know what you think. I will also be moving the story along a bit and do some time jumps as well. Nothing major just a week or so here and there just so we can get this going. I also want to let you know that this isn't going to be an easy thing for Jax or for Annie and their will be some ups and downs for them. Just remember that their love is supposed to be the "Real" thing and so you may get irritated with future chapters but we shall see. I post as I write so I don't know where the next xhapter will lead until I sit down to type. Let me know what you think and what you wanna see happen! Thanks for the support! With love, xoxoxo