adoore (Guest): yes Mamoru needs to suffer a bit, but Usagi has to. She truly wants to be with him but as much as she does she's also a growing woman whom is receiving attention from another seemingly sweet man. As for predicting how many chapters I had originally aimed for the amount the original R season was but I think I'll actually go past that. lol. I think R season was like 20 something and yeah, there's gonna be more than that…I think.
Mzmiami: Shingo will unknowingly and unwillingly to admit ably be her life saver for a bit of time. After all Mamoru can't be EVERYWHERE with her. Lol.
CaughtInAFantasy: Your 2/3rds correct in your assumption, question is which 23rds?
Mitsumeteiteyo: thank you, thank you!
Maeko11: you haven't read anything yet!
AimlesslyGera: no worries, Mamoru withdrawal doesn't last for long with me. and Usagi while clueless is just very trusting. After all, she's never truly encountered any male (human) that was truly trying to harm her. I'm not counting Beryl's generals since their human forms were barely disguised longer than an episode or a few a piece, nor was any of them trying to hook up with her.
xSapphirexRosesxFanx: that Luna one was one of my favorite ones to write. I thought it was hilarious. Plus Diamond recommending getting her front claws done was an added bonus to throw in.
silverfaerie91 (Guest): thank you so much, this idea has been sitting in my head for so long but I didn't have an ending in mind till just a few months ago so I finally had the courage to write it, though I am grateful for 'Shaydoe's' help.
moonxxprincessxx18: No its not ending soon, in fact were probably nearing the halfway point of it. The tension will continue for a little while but at least there's a bit of tension relief here and there…sorta.
regine.c: there's more to come with Chibi Usa, Shingo, and Diamonds creepy ways.
LoveInTheBattleField, devilsangels11287: here's your update, enjoy.
Please Read & Review my lovable, loyal fans!
Sailor Moon R 'Roses and Diamonds' ch.10
It was a pretty slow class day. The sun was once again beating against the windows. It's warmth enhanced by the wall of glass, falling like a comforting blanket of less than alert golden blonde girl. Who was absently twirling one of her long tails in a hand. Her mind wandering down strange day dream paths...
A simple room stood out, with plain white walls and square windows with the shade drawn on them. Several plastic chairs were set in a circle, she could see herself dressed as she was in her school Fuku. Her lightly slippered uwabaki whispering on the white lino as meekly crossed through the centre of the chairs, and found one to sit down upon. Nervously pressing her hands between her knees, she glanced around the once empty chairs to find five other women each dressed strangely sitting and waiting patiently.
Blinking in complete confusion, Usagi took in the girls right beside her. One had long brown hair woven up in a braided crown around her gentle head with small flowers dusting throughout her hair. Her hazel green eyes were wide and innocent, while she wore a simple medieval violet dress, with a pretty white cotton slip underneath. On her other side Usagi found a tall, raven haired beauty.
Her face painted alluring with blue around her dark almond eyes. A golden crown adorned her forehead with a striking snake protruding from the dead centre of the crown. Wearing a long white silk gown, with gold, silver and blue stones woven into the square collar of the dress, the gown itself was near see through, alluring and very seductive. As she glanced around the other chairs she soon released the other women were dressed in period gowns as well. Each wearing a sense of bitterness and sadness upon their faces.
"All right...ladies. This is our first meeting, of the wounded women support group. So I would like to know your names and little about yourself and why you are here." A tall woman, with long flowing black hair, and dull tan skin. Wearing no makeup, but a dull brown dress with several necklaces made of small shells and bones sat in the last seat.
"I shall start...I am Pocahontas..." The woman with long dark hair began, a bitter smile on her face. "I am the princess of my Native Indiana Tribe. I fell in love with a Man who could not, or would not love me. I ended up getting captured and exiled from the only home I have ever known. Sent to England, I settled for the love of another man and died still pinning for my soul mate." She sniffed, glancing to her left, ushering the next woman to speak.
Usagi sat stunned, her face twisting in horror at the depressing life this woman had led.
(Oh my goddess, how depressing. Settling for love doesn't always work I guess. But why couldn't he love her? She's a beautiful young woman. Seeing her state of dress maybe he was secretly betrothed to a more, wealthy woman and therefore couldn't return her love…maybe…I hope for her sake. At last that way she had no real control in the outcome.)
A strong faced older woman sat in a white lab coat, with short dark hair and sad eyes. "Marie Currie, my love and I discovered Polonium and Radium. He died early in our marriage. And I...I tried to live on...but in the end I too died of a broken heart." She bowed her head, silent tears falling down her cheeks.
Usagi bowed her head in defeat...the stories were only getting worse.
(Please let this be the worst. There can't be anything more painful then out living your destined love and forced to live on without them, already knowing there's nothing you can do but wait till something happens and you join them.)
Then came the young girl in the medieval violet gown. "Guinevere, I am betrothed to the King of Camelot. But I love his best friend and most loyal Knight...Lancelot. I betrayed my king, to run away with my love only to have the kingdom destroyed by my selfish actions." She broke down into tears. Bawling like a baby, hiccuping and wailing in her seat.
(Similar to myself and Mamo – chan…in our pasts our kingdoms weren't the friendliest of people but were at least on mutual grounds, to an extent. When Beryl had her jealous fit of rage she turned both kingdoms against each other and against Mamo – chan and mine's love for one another. That fight ended everything. But in a way we had had been selfish enough to ignore the futile warnings of our guardians and generals alike to continually seek each other out and be with one another.)
Usagi groaned in dread, she was next. Then it was her turn, the other strangely dressed women stared hopefully towards her. Usagi swallowed hard, unable to believe she was truly in this horribly embarrassing situation to have to bear her soul to a bunch of historical tragic woman...
"Ah...uhm...ok...sure...Ah. Tsukino...Usagi...I guess." She stumbled out. "I guess I used to be the Princess of the Moon...Serenity. I fell in love with a forbidden man…" She reached over unconsciously, holding Guin's hand and supporting her unable to handle listening to her whimper beside her. Guin gave her a small thankful smile. As Usagi continued to address her crazy support group.
"Well, he was Endymion Prince of Earth and that didn't end very well...our love kinda – through actions we were unable to completely for see - destroyed both our kingdoms and we kinda killed ourselves in the end...so…yeah." Usagi cleared her throat uncertainly watching the expressions on the other women's faces.
Pocahontas, gave her a continue motion with her hands as she fell quite.
"Uh...yeah...so we both got reincarnated back on earth. My mother the Queen wanted us to have a second chance to fall in love and be happy...but that didn't work out so well. I only got like three months of loving bliss before he broke things off and broke my heart...now I'm just a mess." She began to cry, sobbing as painfully as Guinevere had. The medieval princess, embraced her allowing her to cry against her small shoulder. While Cleopatra began to her own story to the group.
"Well I was a great Queen of Egypt. I fell in love with a man who used me, made me think he loved me, heart body, mind and soul. But he only wanted my army just so he could gain power back in Rome. I tried everything, seduction, remorse even pretending to kill myself just have him back at my side. He never returned to me, and I couldn't live without him so I killed myself." Cleo finished bitterly.
Usagi groaned, her own tears fading away. Cleo's trauma trumped her's, so she felt she shouldn't feel so bad about her own lot.
By the end of the first session the five women stood in a circle holding hands. They bowed their heads and muttered out their oath, seeking support and strength from each other. "I am wounded, I am not dead, I will rise above. Please grant me the strength to change what I can, to let go of the things I cannot change and the wisdom to realize the difference."
Usagi shook her head, the motto made no sense since most of these women had in fact killed themselves...including her in a past life.
"Tsukino, Usagi!" Ms. Haruna's ranting voice snapped her out of her daydream. She wiped her head away from the windows in alarm, her belly aching from the strange...yet painful release of her heartache in her dreams.
Ms Haruna huffed, as she got her attention then returned back to the black board with her chalk. As the squeaking of the chalk commenced once more. Usagi shook her head ruefully...ok gotta stay away from the chicken curry rice at midnight...it must have gone bad. Uhghhh what a stupid daydream! Ah who the hell is Marie Currie?
Usagi refocused on her notes, casting a now nervous smiling Ami bitter looks.
Yep...must have picked up the name from one of Ami's long winded lectures.
(With a tired sigh, I began to jot down more notes. We were reviewing stuff needed for a final that I held no doubts Ami knew every word of. She was diligently writing down everything she felt would be of value to the final grade. Which meant nearly every word. Me…I wrote down what was on the black board which encompassed three pages to Ami's brooding five pages. I sighed, mind wandering off to how things were with Mamo – chan and his stupid demand and even more questionable actions.
To be so mean to Di when he was the one who was rude to begin with. What did Di ever do to him to make him so upset, because from my accounts it's been Mamo – chan to start all the trouble, and he never does. Plus his obvious demand makes wonder his motives. Fine you don't like him for whatever reason, but would being civil with him when around him really be all that bad? It's not like I'm asking them to become best friends, just civility.
Just as I pondered this my phone went off. Giggling, I was so glad I had figured out to put it on vibrate because once it went off only the few kids around me could hear it's soft buzz. Looking discretely I spotted only one person who also heard the phone. Ami. She looked over wondering where the weird vibrating noise was coming from only to see me lean over and slowly pull it out of my briefcase. She looked over. Her face obvious 'Ms. Haruna will give you detention. Put it down!' then her 'Where'd you get that?' face popped up.)
Usagi gave her a 'One second, I'll explain later' look. It was Di. Using her book as a prop to prevent Ms. Haruna from seeing it. Plus it made sure to keep her head a bit more leveled to prevent her sensei from seeing it buried downwards. Ms. Haruna would get to suspicious and come looking. 'Busy after school today love?' the text read. Usagi darted her head upwards to make sure. Ms. Haruna was still facing the black board and not towards the class. Looking back down she texted, 'No. Why?'
A minute later, 'There's a movie I wanted to see, if u would like to come along? It could be fun?' Usagi smiled happily at the prospect of a free movie, 'What's the movie?' she typed back. Just after she sent the response out, Ms. Haruna called upon her, "Usagi – san, can you give me a sentence with a verb in it?" Usagi's blue eyes widened in disbelief and humiliation.
Shoot! She was testing me again. I hated it when she puts me on the spot like this.
(As if matters couldn't have been worse my book slid down, nearly smacking my hands that still held my cell phone. Instead I shoved it between my legs to hide it within my skirt as she walked half way to my desk. Firmly hidden I looked in the book and read a ten word passage hoping it would be my salvation. Seeing the look on her face confirmed it as she started to walk back to the board. However Di's text came back right then to. The vibration of the phone startled me and had me nearly shooting out of my seat.
However it also caused sensations that I'd only ever felt with my 'egg' down there. My eyes widened in humiliation and slight pleasure. I darted my head around the room, no one noticed the sudden change in me. Which I was thankful for. Ami however looked at me strangely. Her brows quirked up in a 'you okay?' formation. I waved her off a little bit before pulling the phone from its hiding place before it could go off again.
That was so not right…shouldn't have happened in class. But felt kinda – NO NOT in class!
She looked at Di's response, 'It's called 'Safe'. Sounded romantic and thrilling, 'Sure! Can't wait!' she responded back, 'Me neither love.' The texts ended there the rest of the class periods. Lunch came and went, no one seemed to have much more than the same old to talk about, that and it almost felt like they were walking on egg shells whenever she mentioned Di. Well almost everyone. Rei didn't disguise her dislike of him. Usagi was so thankful that the bell rang because she was ready to throttle her.
Grateful that classes were ended she raced home to change into different clothes. Di didn't mention meeting there so she figured to call him once she was finished changing at home. She barely got into her room to think before. "Usagi!" Ikuko called up the stairs.
Usagi dashed out of her room and went to banister only to find Di already standing there, this time in something more casual. A pair of jean's and a black turtleneck, with a silver chain accenting his strong neck. He looked handsome, and regal. Usagi had to admit... "Movie starts in forty minutes. Enough time for you to get dressed before we leave." He told her. She smiled fondly down to him, then ran to her room again.
So much for calling…
Disappearing back into her room, she bustled about quickly gathering her casual clothes and changing out of her fuku, tossing it on her bed, she slipped on her casual clothes. It was one of the outfits she bought when out shopping with him, she had mixed it with some of her other clothes to make it more appropriate and less date like. She may have decided to 'think' about giving him a shot but still didn't want to give a false impression.
She donned on a long dark blue skirt, the twirled nicely around her knees, with white ballet flats and a very low cut beige princess blouse with puffy sleeves and small frills descending down the middle buttons. Putting a pearl white cami under the top, uncertain about how much breast the blouse truly revealed.
(It still was too low for me to wear out in public with comfort, so the cami hid the other three inches I needed to feel secure within my own skin. Though it was still low, even mama could be able to tell I was showing off more curves than before.)
Bouncing on her toes in barely contained excitement, she quickly smoothed out her long tails, before slipping a white clutch purse over her shoulder, and tucking her brooch inside the small flap. Then breezed out of her room, nearly skipping down the stairs to greet Di.
"Curfew is still at eight, school night. Be good." She warned before giving her a kiss on the cheek goodbye. Walking out, Usagi was greeted by a nice summer breeze. The hot wind played merrily with her hair, tossing her tails about her shoulders making them look like they were lightly dancing. The sky was sparkling and clear blue. "The air is so fresh out today." Usagi sighed with appreciation, turning in a circle out on the sidewalk past her front gate. Her skirt twirling about her hips in the care free way she liked.
Di admired the sweet beauty she made, taking a good inhale of the fresh air, "I agree." He smiled with genuine affection towards her.
Usagi gave him a trusting glance, wondering if she'd ever truly be able to tell him her secret as a sailor senshi.
(I wished on so many occasions that I could tell Naru, but in the end I knew that I wouldn't be able to. The pain that could befall her or anyone close to my heart like that if discovered was to much for me to chance it.)
I know I never would…not with her or him.
He escorted her to a dark blue sedan, with tinted windows. She stopped for a moment...feeling a strange de ja vu when confronted with the vehicle. Shrugging off the odd feeling, she slipped into the passenger side door as Di held it open. As she bent to slide in, she felt his fingers grazing her bum lightly. Sending shivers up her spine again, his touch created so many strange feelings in her now.
An uncertainty mixed with a sense of being desired...she was beginning to like his soft almost sly touches. The feelings of betrayal towards Mamoru, slowly fading away more and more. But they were still there, just beneath the surface.
Driving there she wondered on her time with him compared to Mamo – chan. Her gaze averted to the window, watching the traffic move beside them. They were both so sweet and good men, she glanced towards him. Observing his attention to the road, when he noticed her looking at him he cast her a warm smile, trailing his fingers briefly down her cheek. Causing her belly to flutter with sudden feelings of need.
Mamoru had been such an ass to her, over and over again. Making her feel so very wanted, desired and loved...then pulled his passions back so violently, it was giving her emotional whip lash! But Di made her feel wanted all the time…before she could think any further on it they arrived at the theatre. He had taken her deep into the high end area of Roppongi Hills, to the newest Theatre in Tokyo...Toho Cinema's.
It had the largest screen in all of Japan. As soon as she saw massive building, with large near wall sized windows rising up into the sky and out of view. Her jaw dropped in amazement. She had always wanted to come here, yet they had never gotten the chance. This was like a small dream come true for her. "Wow..." She breathed in awe, nearly plastering her face up against the passenger side window, like the small child she was trying to avoid looking like.
Di chuckled, at her innocent excitement. Enjoying her pure unrestrained emotions...she was so free. He was slightly jealous that he was unable to be himself more often...only with her did his true self show. A few minutes later he found parking on the street, paid the meter then guided her out of the car. Grasping her hand, as she eagerly pulled him down the street back to the shiny futuristic building.
He couldn't help but laugh and get caught up in her eagerness. Dashing down the street with as much abandon as she portrayed. Giggling and blushing in such a cute, endearing way as they weaved through the disgruntled crowds. Di's obsessive mind began to catalogue her expression's of pure happiness and excitement. Wanting to recall them always, how her blue eyes shone with just a pure light.
Her sweet full lips pulled back in such a wide grin, cheeks so flushed with life as they ran. How the fragments of sunlight filtering down from the flanking towers along the Dori, caught her golden hair just right. Making it glow as if an angelic light was shimmering beneath it's silky layers. This precious little creature made him feel so alive...He would never give her up. He needed her as much as he needed to breath.
Once inside the glass main doors, Usagi turned in wide circles taking in the back wall full of neon signs of the food vendors. The grand escalator set before the front glass windows of the building. That would lead them up to the screens. Di chuckled lovingly, making his way over to the row of ticket booths at the very front. The inside was so shiny with silver walls, looking like the inside of starship or something from the near future.
Usagi was so excited, all herself regulating towards acting mature fell away as her cute childish self bubbled to the surface without notice. Dashing over him she grasped his elbow, before he barely had the tickets bought. The man behind the glass booth, wearing the navy uniform of the theatre began to laugh softly as she dragged a very willing Di off towards the big glowing signs of the concessions.
Hopping and giggling at his elbow as they crossed the vast main floor, her eyes so wide with wonder as she took in the glass skylights sprawling over the roof high above them. The soft light the afternoon sun , sparkling upon the black marble floors at their feet.
"This place is Amaaaaazing...Di!" She swooned, unconsciously, her slender arms wrapped around his bicep. Hugging his arm affectionately. Di grinned from ear to ear, enjoying her tender yet cute affections.
"Anything for you, Love." He breathed, laying a hand over top hers. As they reached the long counter with tills. Usagi let go, squatting down to view the candies in the glass display case, while Di smiled adoringly upon her. She popped back up like the little bunny she was, surveying the combo's trying to find one that would fit them both.
"I am going to go find out which theatre our movie is in, love." Di handed her some yen. "Get anything you want." He finished taking his leave to go view the wall of movie listings near the Escalator. When he found the poster and screen number, he nodded approvingly before turning around. Finding to his own stunned enjoyment his little bunny. Standing behind him, with a giant tub of popcorn nearly the same size as her head.
Her tiny arm wrapped around it protectively. Her cute face hidden just behind a mountain of kernels. A soft drink grasped in her other hand, with a bag of chocolate covered toffee tucked under her arm, all of the same ungodly proportions. Di swallowed back his laughter, taking the giant soft drink from her. Leaving her to carry the bag of candy with one hand and the popcorn bucket braced against her side with her other arm.
Usagi walked silently behind Di, as they came to the top of the escalator. He was too busy looking about for the right number screen so she took her opportunity. With both hands full and feeling hungry she looked around making sure, no one else milling around the outer hall was looking at her. Before she slyly bent her head over to the popcorn and darted her tongue out, hoping to grab a kernel with it. With her pink tongues very first dart she nailed one and munched happily on it.
Success!
Looking up sweetly, to see Di spotting her with this weird look on his face. It looked stuck on shock, amused, and lust. Blushing once she recognized the last one.
"Which way?" she inquired, needing to mentally change course for him and herself. She still felt hungry and wanted more, just not with an audience. She wanted to hide in the darkness of the theatre so she could gorge in contentment. Di led her down the brightly lit hall, and into the shadows of a small doorway. Up a long ramp that bent inwards as it traveled upwards, he ushered them gently into a vast amphitheatre style sitting area, with large red velvet chairs with high backs.
He escorted her up a set of stairs, helping he watch her step in the darkened arena of chairs by grasping her hand which held the toffee. He found them seats towards the back since most of the seats up front were taken. Usagi was kind of glad, sometimes the speakers were just too loud for her sensitive ears. The booming of the special effects was took similar to that of thunder and make her jump, and feel jittery. Making all her nerve raw and on edge, it wasn't a pleasant time for her. Usually leaving the theatre in a state of nervous unease and not joy.
Di set the large soft drink in it's holder in the arm between their seats, then turned and took the popcorn from her. As she moved demurely past him to settle into a chair beside him. Quickly putting her purse on her lap, she pulled the drink over and took a small sip needing to sate the amount of salt in her mouth. As Di got comfortable, he had never been to a movie before and had to admit he was very excited.
His family had been banished to Nemesis when he had been quite young so he missed out on a lot of fun childhood things that only could be had on earth. Taking a deep breath to settle his nerves, not liking being in the dark. His senses primed for attack, the dark always made him nervous. Needing a distraction he noticed he was holding onto the popcorn in his own lap. With a curious air he crumpled a hand full of the crunchy confection within his stretching fingers, then gingerly almost daintily popped the kernels into his mouth one at a time.
Usagi giggled beside her, shaking her head as how silly he was eating. "Mwhat..." Di mumbled, not understanding her good humor.
"Di...it's popcorn. Not tea time! Stop being so polite." She sighed, raising her eyebrows knowingly then dove her hand into the bucket, taking a hand full. The promptly crammed the kernel into mouth all at once. Munching away with her cheeks puffed out like a chipmunk. The butter smearing over her lips and cheeks. Di moaned at the invite that sweet oil around her waiting lips provided.
With an innocent smile, Usagi leaned towards him diving her hand back into the bucket. Di leaned forward as well, meeting her halfway. Usagi froze with her hand trapped in the popcorn, her soft blue eyes wide in both anticipation and fear. As his cool ice blue eyes locked with hers, his warm breath mingling with hers as he was mere inches away. Usagi swallowed nervously, then his fingers brushed the corners of her mouth.
The dull whispers of the other patrons around then feel silent as was memorized by his eyes. His voice vibrating through her mind, her body tingling as if a cold breeze was tickling her tender flesh. Then the sound system's check blasted them both back to reality once more. Both Di and Usagi bolted away from each other back into their seats, as the screen came alive with visual of the upcoming scene.
The new releases went by first, quickly losing her interest so she focused on the popcorn in his lap. Di was lost to the screen, his heart beating with excitement as the action sequences, strobbed and flashed. Both absently eating the buttery substance it was already depleting fast. A couple times their finger's met in an almost embrace, causing Usagi to blush. Di was to enthralled by the plot of the movie to notice.
Thirty minutes into it and Usagi was bored and nearly ready for sleep. This movie wasn't in her taste, an action film with a male protagonist...who was quick hot she had to admit. But the protecting of a young girl from the bad guys was hitting a little too close to reality for her. She cringed a few times thinking of how she had had to protect and save Chibi Usa on a few occasions already.
The romance in it was barely there, mostly aimed for the testosterone driven young males need for pointless violence. The movie had love interest but she was so over the top sexy, she looked more like a porn star. Usagi ended up lounging back against the cushion, her eyes beginning to droop, when the sound of heavy breathing and moans got her attention fast. Instantly sitting up straighter, her eyes refocusing on the screen. Unable to blink or breath, she watched stunned, as if an observer to a tragic car accident.
As the brooding protagonist, with action hero short cropped hair and unshaved squared jaw, wearing little more a pair of black boxers, prowled across his hotel room, he found that his love interest and betrayer had snuck into his room while he was taking a shower. She had been seeking his forgiveness, a blonde beauty with big breasts and innocent blue eyes, while wearing a white suit jacket, and conservative skirt with a black silk blouse.
With a growl the action hero had her trapped against the window, a thick powerful hand gripped into her long blonde hair. His other hand, which once had a gun, was now discarded to the carpet. Gripped her other hand, holding it against her hip while he ravaged her lips with his it didn't take long at all for the scene to turn steamy, her cheeks flaring up in heat as the two lovers on the screen were becoming hot and heavy with their passions, each undressing the other with a reckless need.
Hoping to divert her flushed attention, Usagi dug a little harder than necessary into the popcorn on Di's lap. Her fingers coming into contact with the bottom, making soft scratching sounds. Di shot his head in her direction, becoming just as aroused by the scene. Usagi whispered, "Gomen." Before he could utter a response. She kept her gaze averted to her shoes, hearing him put what was left of the popcorn away on the floor.
He settled himself in more, steeling his resolve. Even taking the arm rest and folding it back for more room. The movie was re - enforcing his boldness. He took a deep breath hoping she would not rebuke his touch. His pride was feeling quite bruised, with all her reluctant affections. But he never gave up...he wanted her more than ever. She was becoming more then an obsession to him now...the more time he spent with her the more of her he needed to remain human.
When he wasn't within her presence, it was like he was in with drawl. Becoming even more brooding, moody and easy to upset and get riled up over simple business matters. His temper flaring, and lashing out unexpectedly against his minions. It made his brother wonder and even Wise Man curbed his words around him now.
Usagi wasn't surprised to feel his arm wrap around her small shoulder. She could anticipate that this would happen. The more time he spent with her, the more bold his intentions. She felt a small draft and cuddled closer to him for warmth, not taking it as an innocent intention any longer. She was too confused to spurn him, to lonely, confused and heart worn not to enjoy his obvious affections.
He wrapped his arm tighter around her, his fingers dangling close to the cusp of her breast, never taking his eyes from the screen. Usagi cast his invading finger's a nervous look, unsure if she wanted this kind of attention from him. It was the loud moan coming from the actress that caught her attention. Her gaze flew back to the screen.
Oh my…
(I brought my hand up to close over my mouth, preventing me from saying anything. As he took her against the wall of the hotel room, her legs rocking against either side of his hips. Then flipped her onto the bed with a cry of pleasure, his arms wrapping tightly around her waist to hold her steady as he thrust into her roughly from behind. The positioned pulled out more throaty calls and moans.
My cheeks flared up red at the scene. The darkness of the room though kept Di from noticing how green I was when it came to matters like this. I maybe learning but I haven't done ANY of that! Well not in the sense of having had sex. Up against a wall with Mamo – chan yes.)
"I…" Usagi stammered turning to ask Di a question. Startled to find he was already looking at her. The words died in her throat. She could hear a murmuring sound from him but couldn't distinguish the words at all.
Before she could ask 'what are you saying' he was lowering his head down toward her lips, and for whatever reason she didn't move. Her heart was beating erratically, her mind hazy.
(Maybe it was from all the times where he'd made it known that he liked me as more than a friend, maybe it was because he was a pretty attractive looking guy, or maybe it was because he wasn't playing a 'hot cold game' with me and he seemed to genuinely like me and not want to play with my emotions or my heart. Whatever the reason right there was I didn't know, but it made me want to have a moment to just see.)
Could I fit Di into my heart? Would I like him more than as a friend?
Usagi didn't know but once his lips brushed her, softly at first. His own mouth lightly testing her own willingness to give into the passion he had for her. She felt a sense of a calming balm mixed with a touch of panic, her eyes drifted closed. As his lips pressed harder against hers, seeking more from her. She knew the panic was from the fact that she truly believed only Mamo – chan would ever kiss her.
But here she was kissing another man, not shying away from his affections, yet not stopping them either. The gentle brushing went deeper, lingering almost bruising if his intensity. His lips slowly claiming hers in a small battle of wills.
(I didn't fight it as my instincts and heart urged me to do. I went with seeing if maybe I could care for him the way I did for Mamo – chan.)
She felt his hand slowly brushing through a long golden tail, draping it lovingly over her shoulder. Before caressing her cheek with tender, sensual fingers, as he slowly cupped the side of her jaw keeping her steady. As she felt his lips parting just slightly, trying to slip his tongue through. Her eyes started to open.
(I was still fairly new to the art of French kissing. Having only ever done it with Mamo – chan. I wasn't sure about it now, not with someone I wasn't familiar with like this.)
She kissed him back a tiny bit more aggressively hoping he would leave the tongue business alone. He moaned in pleasure responding to, in ways she never expected. His hand leaving her jaw and trailing down her arm, ever so lightly. Leaving her body tingling, her breath hitching when he spread out his fingers and brushed the side of her breast. Usagi gasped in shock and he used it to his advantage and dipped his tongue inside tangling it against hers.
She tried valiantly to push it out, with her own. Things going out of control faster then she would have liked, and beginning to flounder as to how gain back her control. But it only seemed to do more harm than good. It wasn't till his hand dropped down and started to lift her skirt up her thigh that she breathlessly managed pulled away, leaving her body feeling different and slightly more confused but also strangely energetic as well.
(My heart was racing but I wasn't sure if it was a good 'racing because I really liked it' or bad 'something felt wrong in that'. He smiled playfully, before giving me a peck on the lips and returned to the movie. His arm firmly holding me tightly as we continued on with the movie, though I was doing anything but watching it now.
My mind was in confusion and turmoil over this. I had willingly kissed Di and I felt guilty over it. A heart crushing guilt that was slowly consuming me, when the images of Mamo – chan acting so friendly with the waitress came to mind. The fact that he wanted nothing to do with me now...all I seemed to bring out in him is anger and frustration.
He must have already moved on with someone else and here I was feeling guilty over my one kiss with Di. Then I started to wonder.
Was it just like that cause he kissed me or would I still feel this way if I kissed him? I am so confused.
She returned her questioning gaze up seeing his interest in the film. Standing firm in her thinking, she reached shaking, nervous hands up, grabbed his face and pulled him down for a quick kiss to confirm her theory. No argument came from him as he tried to deepen it almost instantly.
I didn't kiss you for that!
Letting go, just as fast. She pulled away and pretended to go back to the movie noting that it felt the same as before. Only difference was this one was much shorter. She felt bad...still felt like she betrayed her one and only true love...her insides were twisting. Though now she had compounded the guilty feeling for kissing him just to prove a theory, and abusing his affection towards her that way.
(I am my own woman now...Mamo-chan has no hold on me anymore. I am not going to let this, these feeling burden me...I was lying to myself. But I was tired of feeling unloved, undesired and truly unfulfilled. Perhaps becoming a stronger, more sensual woman I needed to explore more than just one man. I was going to try this out maybe there was no reason for guilt. I snuggled into his warmth as I tried to figure out my own inner issues. It was nearly an hour and a half later when the movie ended and we left.)
"Want to grab some real food?" Di asked, arm around her waist as everyone was leaving out the doors, grateful, that he wasn't playing around, by guiding her in several different directions all over the foyer. She smiled at him in thanks, as they crossed through the glass main doors. He smiled warmly back, squeezing her hips with his strong hand, as they merged into the moving crowds out on the street.
Evening had fallen while they were at the movies, the night was warm the city lights glowing upon the new couple as they made their way back to dark sedan. Usagi had him go to the parlour feeling in the mood for a chocolate shake. He parked down the street and we walked leisurely back to the parlour. With him just behind her, his hand at the small of her back.
Seeing Motoki waiting on the girls, they were all still dressed in their school fuku's finishing up their drinks and various combo platers.
Usagi figured they could join them. "Hey girls!" she called cheerfully.
The girls looked to her happily then soured as they saw Di. It was a mixed range of cold, dislike, calculating, and cautiousness. "Well don't look so happy to see us." Usagi remarked sarcastically.
Since when do they ALL dislike Di? I though only Rei held reservations about him?
Ami stood up, "We were just wondering where you were. Usually we all meet here after school, but your mother told us you went to a movie with your new boyfriend." She said the last word so testily like it wouldn't be like that for long.
Wait! Was Di now my boyfriend? I guess with him kissing me he was. Did I want that? Should I agree? Wait…mama said my new boyfriend? I thought she was all 'let's have your friend over' not boyfriend! Maybe she misspoke.
"Well yeah we went to see 'Safe'. It was different than what I was expecting but still had its moments." Usagi shrugged, not committing to an opinion.
"I heard it has a raunchy sex scene in it." Minako commented lightly, a sly smile crossing her lips. Usagi's face heated up but before she could respond Di came in for the assumed rescue, "We were a little distracted to see the full thing." He commented meaningfully, with a wide satisfied grin. All the girls looked to him in shock and anger, "We were eating popcorn!" Usagi blurted out, needing to clarify and lead her most trusted friends astray before they flayed him alive with their senshi powers. The instant fury and protectiveness a palatable thing.
Okay half truth there.
We were eating popcorn it was just not during THAT scene. To her regret not all the girls bought it. "Usagi you have never been able to wait even half way through a movie before you polish off anything food wise." Rei's stated sarcastically, crossing her arms over her grey fuku, shooting her a reproachful glare that had Usagi pursing her lips in anger.
Usagi tried to stay calm but her words recently, had her wanting to hit the boiling point, "Listen here Pyro!" she started, to angry to care nor notice that she was starting up one of their tried and true arguments.
Di sought to calm her, by seeking her hand in his. His future queen did not need to dirty her pretty hands with uncouth filth such as this Miko. He pulled her back behind himself none to subtly. Shocked at the action Usagi didn't bother to question it, merely stood meekly behind her new prince.
"I don't like how every time you seem to be around her you insult and belittle her as if she's beneath you. You should start treating someone who considers you a friend with more respect than to make such snide remarks." Di's tone alone had them in shock. Usagi sighed, as he saw the fire raging in Rei's violet eyes. Once again going she would have to pull him away from Rei before she lost it. Having vision's of Di turned into a living roman candle, while Rei roared with manic laughter didn't suite well with her.
Another fire to prevent from my flaming senshi. Its bad enough she can't control 'Mars Fire Explode' very well but to now want to cause Di damage, not gonna happen.
"Why you…" Rei started to seethe. "I'll talk to the Odango however I want to! You don't know our friendship, or us! We are her friends, her most trusted people!" She bellowed out pointing to all the girls who angled themselves to showcase who they were. He looked over to them all, distain dripping from his demeanor. "Yet you talk down to her as if she was the class clown when she is anything but."
He got up into Rei's face making Makoto stand up in defense. The brunette began to crack her knuckles in anticipation of a fight. Glaring threateningly at near eye level, with the silver haired man.
I swear I think I saw a crackle of spark coming from Makoto, I need to gain control and fast!
Usagi knew she had to draw the line. Stepping out purposefully from behind him, she pushed herself in the middle before things could escalate, "Usagi…" Rei growled out truly angered and upset. The tiny golden blonde, with the courage of a lion, looked at her sternly, "What he means is you're taking your insults to far so just tone it down a bit." Usagi tried to pacify her a little. "You're taking his side?" Rei demanded, her voice hurt.
"I'm not taking any sides. All I'm saying is you can sometimes be a little edgy with your taunts." She tried to ease her back down, her hands moving in a pacifying gesture for Mako and Rei to sit back down.
"Love, let's go grab a booth of our own. Maybe she wants some time to think about how she's acting as your friend." Di suggested guiding her away, his arm possessively around her waist. Being used to his touches now she didn't bother to correct his placement, accepting him fully.
The girls remained watchful, as they sat down on the same bench at a booth nearby. Whispering and planning with each other as their princess's life took a turn for the worst. In time Motoki came over for their orders, "Chocolate shake for you Usa-chan?" he smiled in a friendly manner.
(At least now I wasn't nearly naked hiding mostly behind a door. Though now it would be funny to tease him with it…when I felt comfortable with it that is. I gave him a small smile as I nodded, "You know me so well Toki-san." He smiled obliviously back as he got his note pad out. I giggled, realizing mild mannered Motoki didn't get my subtle joke. He happily took my order, then his face sobering as glanced to Di.
I could have sworn I saw a dark look towards Motoki, on Di face before he shifted it and placed his own order politely.)
Once Motoki left he asked, "Friend of yours?" his voice laced with a distrust.
(I smiled softly, not letting on that his look towards my beloved Toki had unnerved me. "Yeah Toki's been working here since I first met him." it didn't seem to be enough information.
"He's a good guy, sweet, kind, always helping others." Usagi was proud of her long time friend and mentor to different things of sorts.
"He seemed a little extra friendly to you." He suggested, cooly. Slyly digging for more information.)
Usagi laughed at the pure lunacy of his sudden jealousy, "No Toki is in a long time relationship with his girlfriend Reika. Their so sweet and cutie together." Usagi mused.
His conflicting features faded as he nodded in response. "Guess I over thought that one." He admitted.
Usagi smiled in understanding, "No worries. I won't hold it against you." Di smiled back hopefully, before scooting on his half of the booth.
Curious as to what he was doing, her heart quickening. She felt his leg slid seductively along her own. Blushing anew, she resisted the urge to inch away. "Are you…?" She tried to ask when his hand slipped under the table and tried to reach softly for her leg.
(However it was too far away…unless I moved it closer. That would be my move. I looked out and wondered if I should really do this. Encourage this. I shifted my legs just a little bit. It was just enough as I felt his finger tips touch the side of my leg. He smiled approvingly before shifting away seeing our orders come up.)
She was feeling weird with the new boundaries that she didn't even know were in place. This night was just stumbling, fumbling knot of confused feelings. She couldn't stop the heated blush as Motoki put their plate and glasses down. Now feeling more hungry than before Usagi asked, "Toki-san can I get a double cheese burger with fries to. I'm suddenly feeling so hungry." He smiled brotherly, "Anything for you Usa-chan."
Turning to see Di, with slight confusion. Something must have been exchanged in their eyes cause Motoki asked him kindly, "Your Di?"
He nodded yes, working through a bite of his burger before responding. "Nice to meet you. Sorry I couldn't say hi earlier I was a bit busy." Motoki offered his hand as a peace offering.
Di took it with a friendly manner. "She mentioned you've worked since she's met you."
Motoki responded to the information given, "Yeah my family owns this place so I've been working here since high school."
Di nodded with tired understanding, "I know the feeling. With my business it was something that was within my family to." He past him a small bitter smile.
Motoki nodded his head in understanding, "And now you're running it I bet." Motoki responded with admiration.
Di nodded, "It gives me more chances to spend time with those I love…" his eyes graced her surprised face for a second before returning to Motoki, "Care about and trust." Di finished, his voice full of passion.
Usagi knew Motoki would wonder about Di words, but for now she kept her peace.
"You'd think with running it you'd be really busy." Motoki asked innocently.
"No. I manage my time right so I can enjoy life and the wonderful people in it. Like you with your job. You enjoy it and the people you met." Di stated humbly. Motoki smiled in agreement.
"That's true. You should come around more often." He offered Di.
Usagi saw Di nod himself before Motoki left off with her order.
"Nice guy." He commented thoughtfully.
"The best." Usagi cocked her head to the side like it was obvious.
"Poor timing though." He finished, his hand slithered under the table again for her bent leg, shocking her a little bit. Feeling like she needed a break, "I'll be right back. Wash room." Taking a deep breath she dashed away, not giving him a chance to respond.
(Ducking into the women's restroom I wondered if this was the right course of action. Pacing in agitation, my gut was a ball of mixed feelings. Di certainly felt favorable with me in his arms like a lover but I was still very new to the idea and he just kept testing whatever boundaries were there. Boundaries I don't know the limits to. Mamo – chan kept himself so closed off from anything other than a hug or kiss when we were together that I don't know how to be closer with a man.
Plus my time spent with Mamo – chan in the hallway and in the office was already an erotic place I was not going to with Di...If ever...Oh Kami...what is wrong with me.
My heart was becoming conflicted with my emotions. First I felt nothing for Di like that and now I wasn't so sure. Then we kissed and it was really nice, not the fiery passion that Mamo – chan's held but there was still a lingering sensation that still drove me nuts and made me remember it. It was either that or I couldn't get past the fact that we kissed. Twice.)
Usagi was tempted to touch her lips, to linger on the sensations of feeling desired by Di. A few minutes later, still fight within her own mind over her conflicting emotions, she ducked her head out of the bathroom to check on Di, not wanting him to come after her. With tears of remorse still threatening she disappeared back into the sanctuary of the bathroom to reign herself in and under control.
Finally coming out she sat down almost heavily, her mood still dampened by her mental torture she realized with a grateful smile that her food was there.
(Telling my brain to put complications on pause I ate eagerly.)
After five minutes she saw Di sipping his drink as he watched her with avid curiosity. Stopping for a minute she asked incredulously, "What's wrong? Eat." He smiled mildly, "Your appetite is insatiable. How do you burn it off?" he then widened his eyes wondering if maybe he had offended her. Usagi smiled, "Relax, I work out regularly."
He took it a face value and nodded.
"I was just curious since you've been putting that burger away pretty fast." He commented dryly.
Catching Usagi mid bite, her mouth wider for the medium part of the double stacker burger, his eyes widened a bit seeing that and she had to giggle a bit.
(I was so used to people getting shocked by my food intake that it made me smile and giggle rather than get offended by it. I have never ceased to amaze anyone that sees it or me.)
However what she failed to see after she bit down was the look of lust as well. Imaging her opening her mouth up wide for another none food related piece of meat. One that he was having a hard time controlling under the table. Adjusting himself as he watched her eat the big burger and being filled with images of her taking something of that size of his into her mouth, he nearly groaned out loud when she bit deep and hard into the meat.
It helped kill off his arousal though, something he was grateful for as well as disappointed by. As far as he saw it, she would be his soon enough. He'd been little by little testing their new boundaries even more. Seeing what else he could get away with. As far as he was concerned the more she let him in the further into her heart he was as well. The kiss they shared was blissful, encouraging and filled him with hope for more lewd encounters in the near future. It was harder than ever not to fully grab her breasts or stroke her thighs.
It was enough for right now though to graze them both, to feel what lay beneath. He was getting closer than ever now that he was able to sink more of his ancient language towards her. The darkness of the theatre provided ample amount of space to let go of his own dark magic and seduce his golden haired goddess even more with it. And for him it worked, they had such a wonderful kiss.
He had already memorized the taste of her on his tongue and planned to get as much as possible from her as well. He'd been about to start kissing her neck but got distracted. Besides, having her tongue fight and mate with his was too good to give up for a mere graze. He loved that she started to kiss him more passionately, more fiercely. It encouraged his own domination instincts for her. Not to mention the feel of her soft supple lips on his own. The more he thought about it the more he wanted to kiss her again.
He looked to her, burger now gone she grabbed her purse to leave some yen on the table. Di stopped her and pulled out his own wallet. She went to protest when he said, "Calm down love. I want to pay for it." He went to stand up after leaving a decent tip, "After all its what a man does on a date. Right?" he surmised to her. She was a little stunned to argue over what he said. Only a few hours ago they were friends, now she was more.
Am I his girlfriend now? I must be. Is this good or bad? I feel like I'm cheating on Mamo- chan but I know I'm not.
Di saw the bitterness in how the girls were looking at them and saw out of the corner of his eye Mamoru coming in. Taking this as a blessing in disguise he took her jaw in his hand and leaned in, capturing her lips in another kiss. Mamoru saw this and went into shock. He clearly saw his beloved kissing that bastard. Blinking he hoped the image would go away to but to his disappointment it didn't.
It burned itself behind his eyes, festered in his heart like a slow disease. He looked all around in a panic seeking salvation from the now shattering remains of his heart. The girls gasped in pure shocked as well.
To make it worse he could see Usa, responding to the small kiss. Her hands clenching the other man's wrists, as he held her face. The way her hips twisted to be just a little closer to him. He knew cause he had felt her do the very same things to himself so many times before. His heart was in his throat, a cold chill had fallen over him. There was no way on earth his Usako was kissing that snake Di. But it was right there.
Motoki was at the till, looking a bit shocked, his featured twisting to sympathy as he saw Mamoru in the open doorway. Mamoru…well he was more hurt and upset than anything. This is what he feared most. She went to Di for comfort to be with him. And Di had her now. The last of his light was gone from his soul...
Mamoru couldn't breathe, couldn't think. His world was crashing around him, shattering into small fragments of regret, loathing and loss. In less than three seconds, once he affirmed that it was real and not a figment of his nightmares come to life, his world as he knew it where Usako would forgive him for anything, would tell him how much she loved him, would do anything for him, was in the arms of not just ANY other man but him. He couldn't move, frozen with his hand gripping the iron handle with white knuckled strain.
Di drew away from her, giving her a proud smile while she blushed with new found humiliation and slight shock that she'd willing kissed him so deeply in a public place. Catching everyone staring at her once more, as if she was the new dirty girl on the block. She saw several couples that were whispering about her, some with distain, and some approvingly over her public display of passion.
Her girls were avoiding looking at her, attempting to look busy at the table. Then she turned towards the door and her heart dropped into her feet. Usagi looked stunned and horrified to see Mamoru standing there. What she knew he just saw, judging by the very hurt and angry glare he was sending her told her all she needed to know. To enraged to act or think straight, he barreled out of the front door.
What have I done? I'm so confused he broke it off with me yet he's the one acting like I killed a part of him. And for the love of kami doesn't he have his own coffee waitress girl?! Why is he so upset if he doesn't love me?!
A part of her heart wanted to have her run after him, seek his forgiveness, try and explain her actions. Yet her feet remained planted, her heart thundering in her chest with anxiety and pain of her own. Her mind slowing resurfacing from the drowning fog, Di seemed to place upon her when he kissed her. He reached for her hand, jerking her forward. Usagi followed him blindly, her whole body was aching now.
"Excuse us."Di passed the girls a pompous smile. Makoto growled, while Rei seethed, and Mina merely sized him up one last time her mind made up...he had noticed Mamoru and wanted to use Usagi to hurt him. He was just as she had assumed, a devious, cold hearted man. Ami swallowed her protests over what Di had done. She would deal with him in private.
As soon as they were outside of the Parlour Usagi rounded on Di. Appalled at what he had done, knowing full well and not being blind to it. He knew how self conscious she was about affection in public ESPECIALLY after what Mamoru had done. Now she looked like an easy girl again to all her peers in Juban!
"What were you thinking!" She wailed, rushing down the stairs ahead of him.
"What are you talking about love?" Di answered innocently.
"How could you just kiss me...in there...in front of everybody!" She cried out in anguish, tears forming in her blue eyes.
"I just felt like kissing you...that's all. I never thought you would mind. After the wonderful afternoon we had. I just figured my girlfriend would..." He began.
"I am not your girlfriend...Di. Just cause we kissed, does not give you the right to lay claim to me." Usagi roared back, fist clenched at her sides.
See the hurt in Mamoru's face gave her a sense of clarity, her time with Di was starting to become obscure.
"Usa...Love. I am sorry for upsetting you..." Di moved to reach for, to reconnect his control over her. She shook her head, raising her hands in a warding gesture.
"I need some time...Di…I just give me a…just some time. Gomen." She sighed furious with him and with herself. Then turned on her heel and raced off down the street. The soft light of the lamps, following her retreating figure as she disappeared into Juban. Leaving Di fuming and frustrated at the foot of the stairs to Crown Fruits. She had been so close to being under his complete control.
His need to gain her fully was shot. He realized belatedly that it could have something to do with how things happened during her last public encounter with Mamoru. He cursed himself realizing it was just embarrassing for her to have that happen again after the last time. She now had an issue with it and he unknowingly took advantage of it. He cursed mildly as he rounded the establishment and vanished.
She wandered aimlessly down the shadowed paths of Juban park. Her eyes unseeing, lost to her bitterness, her confusion and despair. The wind which howled about her had an eerie haunting quality. The moon which usually filled her with hope, shone silent high above. She held herself tightly, unable to warm herself from the inner chill that had slowly consumed her once she left the parlour.
Traveling deeper into the park, moving within the edge of a small garden. The well manicured trees and shrubs soon enshrouded her as came across the very familiar once comforting respite amid the trail. A well worn bench, which faced an elaborate stone fountain. The whisper of the water drew her attention to where she ended up, her hurt and confusion compounding when she noticed the dark brooding figure hunched over the their bench.
He looked so lost...so very broken. His hands clasped over his lips, elbows pressed deeply against his knees as he leaned forward in dark contemplations.
Usagi moved into the heavy shadow's of the elm tree lining the path, still holding herself tightly. Seeking to comfort herself, as best she could at seeing her love so very much in pain.
"I can sense you...Usagi-chan." Mamoru muttered, not even turning to her. Keeping his eyes focused on the cobble stone before the fountain.
"Our bond is still quite strong." She smiled bitter humor, the bond strength would always be a measure in which to gauge his love for her. Moving to sit on the bench. Keeping out his personal space, yet close enough that if he sought to he could reach over easily and draw her to him. To embrace her with all his strength, hold her close and never let her go again. Yet he remained stoic, and silent on his side of the bench refusing to give into his heart's desire.
Usagi remained silent herself, merely existing beside him unwilling to break the spell of melancholy that hung around them.
"Want to go get a coffee..." Mamoru inquired, his voice nearly a whisper. Turning his head upon his bracing finger's to stare at her almost pleadingly. Usagi merely nodded mutely...they had a lot to talk about.