--Lindsey's POV--

--2 Years Ago, The "Morning (Day) After"--

"...251...52...54!" I make my way down the hall of the hotel not too far from me, where Tegan and Sara are staying. I'm almost sure I'm making a mistake but the only person I know who might be able to help me understand what I'm feeling isSara.

*knock* *knock*

"Sara? It's...It's Lindsey" Just as I release the last syllable of my name the door opens quickly and a blonde woman greets me at the door, and by "greets" I mean nearly knocks me to the floor on her way out.

"Hi aaa um, is this Sara Quin's room?" oh who am I kidding I'm more sure now than ever that this is Sara Quin's room.

"Yes! Yes, it is she's just inside! Well sorry for almost knocking you down. I'm always rushing, so sorry" she says slightly embarrassed and continues down the hall.

I step in hesitating a bit, not sure what to expect. Sara steps out of the bedroom in a robe humming oblivious to my presence. Her robe is much too big and all kinds of loose with the "v' threatening to turn into a capital "U" along the tie. Well, I suppose that's about what I was expecting.

"Sar-"

"Shit!"

"Yeah...sorry I knocked I swear!"

"Oh, I was busy"

"Yeah I saw, I mean no I didn't see! I mean she...a woman ran into me on her way out"

"She was from Curve"

"Sara seriously, I don't need to know. I'm sorry I didn't mean to interrupt. I should've called or-"

"Curve Magazine...it was an interview"

"Of course! Right, the magazine!...sorry! I'm so not even all here right now"

"Yeah I can tell, no worries. I did get her number though and if you barge in at the same time tomorrow I promise you'll be interrupting" and que the sexy smirk. The only response I can seem to form is a nervous laugh.

"Well, what's going on? Finally come to your senses? I'm telling you we should go out. I'm far less complicated than Tegan, plus I'm only after one thing anyway and unlike a guy, I'm very up front about it"

"Sara!"

"What? I'm sorry. Sex and sarcasm; It's all I've got"

"I did something...last night...I...I" I can't helpt it. I can't stop the tears. I'm so confused and emotional. Sara's not very emotional I'm trying not to freak her out.

"Oh geez. Who did you sleep with? I've been there. Talk to Sara. What happened? Was he married? Engaged? Baby on the way? Oh no, STD? Are you pregnant! Would you even know this soon? I don't know how the hetero thing works really-"

"Tegan!"

"Are you kidding me? Sara, dude. I'm Sara"

"No...no my mistake...who I slept with...it was your sister."

"Whoa!" She looks as though she could be knocked over with a feather. I watch as the news starts to sink in and she begins processing. "Part of the fun of this thing here is I was certain that would never happen. All the stuff I say to you about being in love with her was just to fuck with you. So I thought...this was some unspoken competition between me and Tegan. But seeing as how you're crying...it's obviously about more than sex. Wow"

"How did you feel after your first time with a girl?"

"Um...I felt amazing. It felt right. I mean it felt kind of wrong but only because of the circumstance. When it was over Tegan just held me close and kissed my forehead and I felt safe. It was the most liberating experience of my life!"

"Tegan!"

"Oh um...did I say Tegan i meant...shit..oh God I mean to say um..."

"It's okay! I already knew, I'm relieved I'm so glad we don't have to tip toe around it. Clearly I'm not in the right head space to be tip toeing around secrets. I was just surprised by the whole her being your first thing is all"

"How did you know? We're pretty careful about it, had some close calls on the bus, unavoidable really."

"That first photo shoot. I um...overheard you guys"

"Really? Wow! Were you grossed out?"

"No, I was just overwhelmed to be honest. I come from a small town. Having it in the back of my mind every time I was around you guys was a lot to deal with for a while."

We made our way to the bed, you know, they should really offer more seating options in this place. As soon as Sara sits down the poor tie on her robe just gives up on it's mission completely and comes undone. I can't help but stare at her large breasts as she fails to grab the sides closed in time and I get a full view. Dammit Lindsey what is going on with you! The question pulls at waiting tears and I begin crying...again. Sara comes around to my side of the bed still holding her robe closed with one hand. She pulls me in and hugs me.

"What's wrong? Okay, you slept with Tegan...and now you're crying. I have to say even though I'm keeping up with what's happening I'm still a bit lost"

"It's just...that I..." I try to explain through my sobs why I'm crying which is really hard since I'm not sure why I'm crying. "I've been one way and now this happened and I'm confused and I mean what the fuck you know?" No, she doesn't, neither do I. She pulls me in tighter letting go of her robe the only thing holding it in place is my body. I reach up to hug her tighter around her neck relieving some of my pressure on her chest causing her breasts to reveal themselves once more. And suddenly my breathing is getting faster as is her's. I lift my head up slightly from it's burial place in her neck and let my lips graze it slightly and I immediately feel her nipples harden. I have no idea why I'm doing the things I'm doing. With Tegan there's all these feelings and all this other confusing shit wrapped up in our attraction. But here, now, with Sara it's purely sexual. It's basically confirmation. I, Lindsey, am gay. Not exactly the answer I came here for, not that I'm homophobic it's just I thought I'd dealt with all the "finding myself" shit long ago, I'm 32 do I really have to be gay now?

Thinking, processing, and speaking have all become impossible tasks as the temperature in the room kept rising. I moved my arm down around Sara's waist. With little effort I moved her tiny frame on my lap to this she let out a gasp. A small half smile played across my face when I saw how shocked she was at my bold move. She let her robe slide completely off and my eyes studied the sight in front of me she seemed nervous. "Yeah...like Tegan only...smaller"

"I'm not looking at Tegan, I'm seeing...you."

"I've never been with someone who's been with my sister"

"I've never been with someone who's been with their sister, whom I've also been with. I think I need to do this. Nothing has been clear to me in weeks except this moment. Right now I know I want you, I want to do this"

And with all the confirmation she needed she pulls me into a deep kiss. "mmm umph" I have to moan or explode when she pushes her whole tongue pass my lips. I put my right hand on her left breast and my left hand in her silky short hair. As we continue to kiss I feel her start to grind on top of me. I take this as my signal to take my clothes off. She beats me to it quickly snatching my jacket off and tossing it to the floor. I pull my shirt over my head and I pick her up with my right arm and roll her over on the bed. She lets out that signature smirk as she's again surprised by yet another bold move. I push my jeans down and off and kick my shoes across the floor. By time I turn to the bed Sara's already touching herself, playing with her clit. I'm instantly aroused by the sight. I climb on top of her. She locks me in place between her hips by putting her legs around the back of my thighs. Picking up on all her ques I begin gently pushing my groin into her's. When she puts her hands on my lower back and scratches me I feel my whole body start to burn and I'm thrown into a frenzy and I move into her faster and harder. I can't see I can only feel as she moves her right hand up and lifts my head and kisses me. She readjust my body so that my right thigh is between her legs and her's between mine. I start to move again "Oh my god! mmm! umph....oh" I wasn't prepared for this I can't possibly control myself right now. Another frenzy makes my movement more aggressive. "Can I...can I go down on you?" I say to Sara' surprise, as well as my own. "Yes...that would be...just fine" she says through her labored breathing.

I don't hesitate to make a few stops along the way down at her breasts. How have I never noticed how awesome breasts were before now? I think to myself as I suck on her right nipple and massage the other. "Oh Lindsey...fuck ...so good" With that sudden boost of confidence I make my way down. I enter with two fingers slowly "Oh!" I can't tell if that's good or bad right away so I continue to go slowly. "Is this okay?" "Yes...god yes! Faster"

I move my fingers faster, in...out in then suddenly "Lindsey...please...please" please what? Oh! Okay, it's now or never I nervously start to lick her clit. "oh that's really good but just...can you move around more like not directly on it cause--oh...yes just like that...yeah!" Before she finished her sentence I remember I have that same preference, direct contact is too intense for me too. So I start to lick just above...just below...circles around it and briefly coming back to the spot for a couple seconds at a time. "Yes! Oh ...mmmm fuck I'm gonna come...right now." And with that she releases around my fingers. I crawl back up the length of her body to find her with her arms thrown back behind her head as she tries to regulate her breathing. She gestures for me to kiss her and I do. After a few seconds of kissing I feel Sara's hand slowly make it's way down my chest, then my stomach and finally rest between my legs. Never breaking from the kiss she begins to rub the burning spot between my legs. I kiss her until I can't take it anymore. I bury my face in the crook of her neck her fingers don't let up they get faster and my hips seem to move all on their own out of my control into her hand wanting more of her. I feel myself about to come the powerful jolt forming in the pit of my stomach tells me to brace myself. With limited options to "brace myself" out of desperation I bite down on Sara's neck, quite aggressively to which she lets out a moan and rubs me one last time with equal aggression "jesus! oh, fuck!" I feel myself come on Sara's hand and on her thigh. I collapse on top of Sara and roll onto the bed. And after yet again having one of the best sexual episodes of my life...I'm wrecked with racing thoughts.

"Wow! That was...you are...wow!" Sara says lazily reaching for my hand as if out of moral support of some sort.

"Really? See, inherently gay! I guarantee I've had no practice" We both laugh and I start to drift off to sleep. If only for a short while Sara has provided me with some much needed comfort. I still don't even know how to approach Tegan about...any of this. At least now I can enjoy the afterglow of my unexpected morning encounter.