Dreams always seem to be Illusions we wish for... that will never come true...

Kaito woke up, gasping for air.

He had been dreaming.

What happen with Cecil turning into Gakupo...was just a dream. The dream was always a repeat of the same day but Cecil never turned into Gakupo, that day.

Ever since the letter, his dreams have gotten weird.

This has caused him to only be able to fall asleep in Gakupo's bed. He couldn't sleep with his wife anymore.

Which to him felt like it was unfair to her.

He sighed... why had his dream tormented him?

He knew he deserved it. What more could scum like him ask for?

"Kaito..." Cecil walked in...he had a much more gentle tone in his voice, since he apologized.

"Yes..."

"Meiko called...she's worried about you... and frankly, I wouldn't blame her. You always come here and fall asleep in Gakupo's room," Cecil sat down next to Kaito.

The blue head was silent. He waited for an answer but his hope wasn't that big.

He was about to give up and leave when Kaito suddenly said, "I still love him you know."

"...Kaito...I-why-"

"I should have told him. I never should have chosen Meiko," he cried. The tears felt like acid to him, making him feel like a bastard, "Gakupo would still be alive if it weren't for me."

Cecil grabbed the blue head's shoulders and shook him yelling, "Kaito, get a hold of yourself."

The bluehead stared wide-eyed, as the other stopped gripping him.

"Sorry...I-"

"Thanks, Cecil...you really are a good friend," Kaito smiled, causing Cecil to smile himself.

"Are you actually smiling? That's so cute."

Cecil flushed quickly and stated, "no, I-stop being an idiot."

Kaito sat up, "hm...did you and Gakupo ever talk-"

"I told him to forget about you to move on since you would never chose him...since you seemed more interested in what society thought of you than what Gakupo meant to you."

Kaito lowered his head...Was he right? Was i-

"But I was wrong you would only chose him after he was gone and you were more interested in what your friends thought of you than-"

"Shut up," Kaito had punched the onyx head and had immediately regretted it, "I'm sorry."

"No, I desired that...I have no right to judge you, only you have that right."

Cecil turned away and walked out of the room, leaving Kaito to think.

Kaito held his head what was he going to do now.

"Idiot...Cecil's...a friend...not...your enemy...right?"

Kaito looked up to find Meiko standing in the doorway.

"Kaito...is everything alright?"

She walked toward him.

"Meiko...I..."

"You feel so much guilt over your best friend's suicide..."

It was my fault...I rejected him, Kaito thought looking away.

"But I don't think anyone could have done anything..."

She patted his shoulder for support.

But something snapped because hearing that caused him to yell,"I could have done something."

Kaito felt empty...as he looked at Meiko's distraught eyes.

He didn't feel sorry but he did say," I'm sorry..."

"Meiko...Kaito... is everything okay?"

Luka walked into the room. She was shaking but managed to keep her cool.

She was slightly mad that Meiko was in the room...they had only allowed Kaito because Gakupo would love it. It was his final gift from them.

"Nothing, Kai-"

"Luka, tomorrow's the funeral right..."

Kaito had interrupted the brunette, holding her hand.

Luka nodded her head.

"We have to go then..."

"Kaito!" Meiko yelled but the bluehead ignored her.

Kaito sat in the car, patiently waiting for Meiko to finish getting ready.

Kiyoteru was also tagging along. She wanted him to go so she could talk to someone, since Kaito hadn't spoken a word since they left Gakupo's house.

He could only think that it was his fault Gakupo was even being buried.

Walking into the Chapel, unfortunately, insured Kaito that this was really happening. He could see Len and Yuma sitting next to each other with the women they married. Kaito struggled to make a decision.

Sit with the friends who helped his bad decision or sit with Yui, Luka, and Cecil?

"Kaito..." Cecil said after having bumped into him.

"Cecil...you..."

"Are you alright?"

Cecil looked at Meiko and slightly smiled. He didn't really like her. There was just something that told him not to trust her.

"Yes... Meiko, why don't you and Kiyo sit together? I'm sitting with Cecil, okay?"

Meiko wanted to argue but Cecil shook his head. Kiyo grabbed her arm pulling her away.

"Thanks, Cecil..."

"You'r- H-hey..."

Kaito sank his head into Cecil's shirt crying, but not loud enough for anyone to hear.

"Hey, Kaito, are you okay?" Haku asked, patting the back of his head.

"Are you his mom?"

Haku nodded.

Huh...I had assumed she was a friend but the way she's trying to comfort him...

"He'll be fine... he's just tired...I'll sit with him to make sure for you," he reassured her.

"Thank you,sir..."

"Um...Cecil's my name, ma'am."

"Nice to meet you...my name is Haku. Please, take good care of my son, while we're here," Haku sat next to Meiko.

After sitting down, Kaito lowered his head and spoke.

"Did she see?"

"You cry? No...I doubt anyone cared."

"...This is real, isn't it?"

"...Yes...Gakupo is about to be buried."

Kaito lifted his head and collapsed into Cecil's shoulders. He fainted, lucky for Cecil no one noticed.

Kaito woke up to Cecil lightly shaking him.

"Wha-"

"Good, I thought you entered a coma."

Kaito watched as the coffin was carried to the grave.

"Time for the final good-bye..."

As soon as Cecil said this, Kaito lost his balance, taking hold of his arm to keep from falling on his face.

The talked softly as they followed the others.

"You okay?"

"Yeah, just...dizzy..."

"Haven't been eating right, have you?"

"No...not really...don't tell anyone..."

"I don't know..."

"Hey, doctor-patient confidentiality..."

"Doctor?"

"Shh...it's starting..."

The priest said some words and then the coffin was lowered into the grave. Luka and Yui both grabbed Kaito's arm. He turned to them. It was clear that they knew he was about to burst to tears. It was to say he wasn't alone but it didn't help.

The flowers were thrown into the grave. Kaito hugged both Luka and Yui, surprising both of them.

"Kaito..."

"I don't want them to see...I don't want them...I don't..."

Yui patted his head saying, "it's okay we won't let them now."

Luka sighed.

Kaito has the most innocent personality...he'd be easy to break...no wonder you liked him so much, right brother?

Kaito walked to Meiko and handed her the keys.

"You take the car I'm going with Cecil."

Meiko looked at the bluehead, worry written all over her face. Kiyoteru just looked at him unsure whether not to tell Meiko, he didn't need her, at the moment. Especially since...

"That's okay I guess... will you be coming home later tonight?"

"We'll see..."

That response didn't settle right with Meiko, but would she do. Kaito had been drifting away from her ever since he visited Gakupo's home. She nodded her head and pulled Kiyoteru with her. She was almost to the car when she stopped to stare at Luka.

Could it be...could Kaito really be...

"Meiko, is everything alright?"

"Yes... let's go..."

"Kaito, you really should have gone with your wife."

Kaito turned to his mother.

"I wanted to stay with yui."

"...Kaito is something going on? Something I should know about?"

Haku said crossing her arms.

She would be damned if she allow Kaito to cheat on his wife...but she wasn't sure that was actually the problem.

Kaito was silent...what did she want him to say?

Cecil walked up to Kaito only to stopped by the fact that he was talking to his mother.

Kaito had seen this and quickly grabbed his arm.

"H-hello...Haku..." he said nervously, hoping she didn't misunderstand.

However, that was shattered when her arms went to her side.

"Um...wait this isn't-"

"Kaito, how long have you been gay?" She asked, grabbed his arm.

"I-"

"Ma'am we're not-"

"Kaito, please answer..."

"Since me and Gakupo dated..."

"You and gakupo..."

Kaito felt like he was going to get hit but instead Haku hugged him.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Wha-"

"I would have loved to hear you and him were together."

Kaito looked up, stunned, "what...you mean..."

"Kaito, before I was a nurse at the school, I lived with my girlfriend, Neru. We were in love but... anyway, I would have been fine with you both."

Kaito never told his mom out of fear and it turned out he had nothing to fear.

Sorry for the lack of updates...

The plot is mine and so is Cecil...