Hi guys I know I have been in one of the longest hiatus since ever, but I will try now to focus on the fic, I was really engrossed in my book and on getting it up to date and well I totally got like super delay on this but I really enjoy writing fics so I will try to update as soon as I can. Thank you for keeping up with the reading, and well if you're lost with the story just going back 2 chapters which are really short will get you on back with it. Because even I had been lost for a while here. I was like omg were the (fill in the blanks) did I left this story at.

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The Black Halo

As time passed I kept on absorbing the energy of different people, every time I regained conscience because of the energy I stole a desperate feeling tagged its way with it, at night I could wait for Hirato to come as a desperate lover would. For one moment I was alive, and the next I was back again with the dead. It was dying several times in the same life. It was dying everyday. I was getting to my limit. I wanted to die, for once and for all. I resigning to emptiness of the limbo, because I can no longer live like this, in a dependance, a slave.

It was winter again, the seasons passed over me almost meaninglessly, in those swift moments in which my senses were awake, I was able to feel the warmth of the sun, the hit of the wind, smell the delicious fumes of a flower. Feel happines at the floating feeling I had when my feet crushed the autumn leaves beneath them. These exhilarating moments were limited, and so. "Hirato!" I pushed him furiously away from me.

"What is it that makes you waste your energy exhibiting such an emotion." he cups my chin. "Remember I am the one that gives you life, you live because I decide." he says. "I don't fear you anymore!" I said hitting his hand. "You rotting piece of fiend." he says, despise in his voice, "You don't fear me you say?" He grabbed my collar and lifted me. I was about thirty centimeter from the floor. He took me to one of the windows. Death.

"Fear!" he shouted. I heard his voice echo like a howl through the forest. "And let it be the last thing you remember as you root with the damned." He said releasing me from his grasp. I felt an invisible hand pushing me to downwards. While the winds took pity on me trying to take life away, before I fell into the waters. All my energy left me with the feeling of fear and now, as I fell, I knew I wouldn't feel anything, as I now can't feel the wind.

I fall in the murky depths around Hirato's castle, I that which was once water consumes my body. I was rotting along with everything that was already in there. I knew soon my physical body will leave this world and I will be left here to wander forever. It was nice being human, and now I regret having it all and never appreciating it. Maybe, I had to learn the hard way, I was given lots of opportunities, yet it was never enough for my greedy self.

If I could live again, I would live life differently, I would enjoy the colors penetraring my eyes everyday, the warmth of the sun. I will embrace the fact that this is not another day. This is a new day. The one that I had been given and I would take to my heart all the smiling faces and all the stories of the people I had meet. Seeking the truth. I would have lived differently, maybe I wouldn't have ceased to seek for the "truth".

But I definitely will have searched for that truth in a different manner, with the things that fulfilled me, with the person I love. Love, it's been long since I last felt that. Maybe God has taken pity on me and let this damnable being I have become feel that for the last time. I always knew he was generous in a twisted way. But then when was being "good" not twisted. The act of not being selfish, of defying our instincsts and helping others even though they might be our enemies.

Isn't this an act against nature? I lived for the righteousness of some, the wrongs of others, for my selfishness, and never for love. Maybe the greater good I have been searching for all this time was there. And this thought was a ray that penetrated the limbo in which I have fallen in the depths of this lake. I was locked here in this darkness, no feelings. My mind racing with thoughts of the life I had lived before.

Redemption, I said extending my hand over me as if to reach for the rays of lights barely making it through the obscure and dirty depths that sorrounded the castle. Am I to try to reach for this desperatly for the rest of my life, or reflect about my mistakes? On my lies. I lied to myself, to the world and to my love. Which in reality if I had really loved him I wouldn't have lied at all. But who can love if it can't even love itself?

This must be the end of my journey, of all my live's journey until something outstanding happens. There's no hope now, not even for suicidal, now that I contemplate it, even suicidal seems like a better option compared to this. It's a luxury, the luxury of ending one's life when one decides. A gift from God taken by oneself. I had my opportunity, but I decided to listen to a demon, who came to me in the most beautiful attire.

I almost believed he was an angel. A righteous Angel. He smiled at me in a cynical manner I will learn to recognize for the rest of my life and my life would be bound to his forever. Perhaps. I won't be able to live as a human or anything else again. But if I have to be here at the limbo I will figure out how to live this only condition I have been given as an opportunity.

Well guys this is all for this chapter I hope you like it. Hugs and thank you very much for reading you're the best =)