Dear Angel - Chapter 10
A/N: Finally! These two idiots are going to talking! It's about time! This is just more post diner chatting and them being nervous around each other. Kinda like what I do when I'm nervous and make stupid jokes! Yeah! So whatever! Here is chapter 10. Hope you enjoy it as much as I loved writing it! Tell me what you think about it and what you think is going to happen next! Can't wait to hear from ya! Later Angels! - Roxy
(Sonny's POV)
"Your apartment?" I inquired hesitantly. "You sure that's a good idea, Will?"
"I'm confused. Why wouldn't it be a good idea? It's only a few blocks away from here, and from what I hear, the cook can make a mean plate of chicken fettuccine!"
Will seemed very enthusiastic to cook us dinner. The grin on his face said it all. If I didn't know any better, I would think he was more than a little high-strung on the concept.
I, on the other hand, was torn by his suggestion. I wasn't sure if I should voice my concerns or not. On the one hand, it felt wrong on many levels: lying to Will, pretending to be someone that I'm not, are only skimmed the surface of my concerns. I have this sinking feeling that this is not going to end well when Will finally finds out my true identity.
On the other hand, maybe this wasn't such a bad idea after all. Who knows? Maybe this will give us a chance to get to know each other on a more personal level, and when the time comes for me to confess to Will, having built more of a relationship with him might just soften the blow.
One way or the other, this was a f*cked-up situation in more ways than one. Now, all I can do is pray to God that one day, he will be able to forgive me.
"Sounds awesome!", I tried to sound more enthusiastic than I felt, and pushed all concerns aside for the time being.
"Sonny? Are you sure that you're okay with this? I mean, coming over to my place for dinner?" Will squinted those lovely blue eyes at me. "Because if you're not comfortable, then we can go somewhere else."
"No! Your place sounds fine" I lied. It just seemed easier than telling the truth. At least for now.
Come to think of it, how hard can it be to be on the same room as the person you're totally in love with? Can't be that hard, right?
"Are you sure? Cause if you're not-"
"I'm sure, Will." I cut him off a little harshly trying to reassure him that everything was fine.
"Good! Because we're here!" he said as we approached a three-story building, "Welcome to the humble abode of Will Horton!"
Will lead the way inside the building. I could see him smiling nervously as we walked up the stairs. He gave me a quick glance, "Can I tell you a secret?"
"Should I be scared?" I asked, wondering what secret Will could possibly have that would cause him to act so giddy. I was curious, but for some reason, I was a bit nervous at the same time.
"Maybe you should be scared."
"Wait! Is this the part where you're going to tell me that you're some sort of CIA agent and that you actually invited me over to kill me?" I joked as I followed closely behind him.
"Ha ha! Very funny!" Will chuckled and winked playfully, "Though the CIA part might be true, that's not my secret."
I sighed taking the bait, "Well, what a relief. You had me going there for a minute. I was just about to turn around and walk the other way."
"Well, you still have about a ten-second chance to make a break for it." Will teased back.
"I'll take my chances. So, are you going to tell me what your secret is or do you plan on keeping me in suspense all evening?" I questioned as we came to a complete stop in front of what I presumed was his unit.
"This is me" he informed me and pulled out his keys. His hands were shaking rather intensely as he tried to unlock the door, "So...Yeah...Here's the thing...", he paused and took a deep breath, "I've never invited anyone over since I moved here," and he added in a whisper, "And I'm rather nervous about it."
I smiled at the idea of being the first person to ever come up to his place, "Really? Is that why your acting so nervous? Cause you're afraid that I wont like your place?"
"Well, yeah!", he looked worried, "There's that, and..."
There was hesitation in his voice.
"And?" I pried, cause I wanted to know what other reason he had to be nervous.
"And...", he stuttered, "Uh..."
"Come on! Whatever it is, you can tell me. I'm not going to judge you."
He smiled and shook his head, "I can't believe that I'm about to say this out loud", he giggled nervously at himself before he continued with what he was about to say. "Look Sonny, I'm not gonna hide that fact that I find you very attractive and to tell you the truth, you're the first man that I've invited up to my place... So...Yeah..."
If someone would have told me that tonight of all nights, would have been the night I'd find myself at a loss for words over the simple fact that Will Horton was nervous because he was attracted to me, then I would have looked you straight in the eyes and called you a liar.
Struggling to find a response, I just stood there silently, with my mouth half-opened, completely stunned by Will's confession.
"Could you say something? Cause you're making me nervous and I'm freaking out over here!" Will admitted as he continued to fumble with the lock.
"Uh...I'm not sure what it is that you want me to say here, Will."
"Just say something! Anything!" The excited look on his face was now replaced with one of embarrassment and frustration.
I panicked...
And in the heat of the moment, I just said the first thing that popped to mind, "Thank you?"
"Thank you?" Will repeated and gave me a questioning look, "Did you really just thank me for admitting that I find you attractive?"
What am I? Twelve?
"I guess I just did. I'm sorry. It's the first thing that came to mind," I shyly lowered my eyes to the ground. "You must think that I'm an idiot."
"No, not at all. That's just not the reaction I was expecting," Will said and was able to muster a small smile, "But I suppose I'll take it as a compliment."
After a few more attempts at the lock, Will finally managed to get it, "Here we go," he said as he pushed the door open inviting me in and tried to sound as eager as he did before, "Welcome to Casa de la Horton!"
(Will's POV)
"Wow! This place is amazing, Will", Sonny eyes grew wide as we entered the living area, "How did you ever manage to find such a huge place?"
"The perks of being the grand son of the owner might have something to do with it", I giggled, "Plus, the rent is kinda cheap."
"Figures", Sonny grinned as he looked around the apartment. It was obvious that he liked what he saw, "Wish my place was bigger. I barely have enough room for all of my books."
"So, you read a lot?", I asked, taking the opportunity that presented it's self to get to know Sonny a little better.
Sonny blushed furiously at the question which I thought was extremely cute. "Yeah, uh...mostly poetry and romance novels."
"Awe, so you're a hopeless romantic then?"
Please say yes! Please say yes!
"Pretty much", he smiled shyly and lifted his eyes and met my gaze, "But seriously, Will. This place is great. I don't know why you would be nervous about showing me your home. I would love to have a place like this someday and trust me, I would defiantly not be afraid to show it off."
"Yeah, well...Bigger doesn't always mean better", I informed him as took off my jacket and threw it on the sofa.
"Well, I guess it depends what you're talking about, because sometimes, bigger is definitely better.", Sonny wiggled his eye brows at me and flashed a flirtatious smile in my direction which completely caught me off guard.
The smile of his is enough to drive a man wild. Which was exactly what was happening to me in this very instant.
I immediately became flustered when I realized what Sonny was referring to as "bigger is better", "Yeah...Okay...", was all I managed to say cause suddenly, I kinda forgot what we were actually talking about.
"Sorry, I couldn't just pass up on the opportunity to make an ass of myself yet again in front of you."
"Oh is that what that was? I just thought that you where trying to size me up!"
"Size you up?" Sonny cocked his head to the side and gave me a questioning look, "That's not, I mean-"
"I know that's not what you meant. I'm joking. Well, at least trying to...Never mind. I suck at this", I let out and embarrassing laugh.
"Oh come on! You don't suck. You're just...", Sonny suddenly stopped and busted out laughing, "Nah, you really do suck at this."
"Well thanks for the encouragement!"
"You're most welcome! But seriously, what did you actually mean by bigger doesn't always mean better?"
"Seriously? Or are you just trying to mess with me again?"
"I'm being totally serious right now, Will. So come on. Tell me?"
"Okay, well...for starters, this place his way to big for one person. I spend most of my time at the office so, I don't really see any benefits from having all this extra space."
"You say that like it's a bad thing?", he inquired further more.
"Well, I guess that takes me to the other reason that I'm not very fond of this place."
"Which is?"
"It gets lonely being here all alone at night," I sighed deeply and looked up at Sonny, "Now don't get me wrong, this place has its perks. The bed room is huge, with probably enough closet space for an entire family. There's a hot tub on the balcony and-"
"Did you just say hot tub?" Sonny cut me off rather quickly as soon as the word hot tub slipped out of my mouth.
I giggled. "Yeah, It's over there on the balcony. I've never even tried it out yet."
"Seriously, Will? You're telling me that you have a hot tub on the balcony and you've never used it?"
"Dead serious!" I nodded my head, "Don't see the point of having all of this when you have no one to share it with, you know?"
Sonny gave me a sympathetic look, "Yeah, I guess you have a point there, but I'm sure it will happen for you someday, Will. You will find someone to share your life with. Who knows? Maybe your prince charming is closer than you think."
"Yeah, maybe you're right. You have to kiss a few frogs before-," I paused and gave Sonny a questioning look, "Wait a minute, what did you just say?" I was astonished when Sonny adverted to finding my special someone as prince charming and I wanted to make sure I hear him right.
"I said, that maybe your prince charming is closer than you think," He repeated while hovering a worried look upon his face, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that, Will. I didn't mean it like the way it sounded."
It's was probably just a simple coincidence that Sonny used the words prince charming in reference to me finding the right person to share my life with. Or is it a sign that maybe he standing right here, just a few subatomic inches away from me, patiently waiting for me to make up my mind about this messed up situation. If Sonny only knew the real reason why I can't act upon my feelings for him, maybe he might understand why all this is so difficult for me.
"Sonny...It's not that I don't like you. It's just..."
"Complicated?"
I nodded, "Yeah...", I complied, "Complicated!"
"Will...You've already made it very clear that you're not interested in anymore more than friendship with me and I respect that, It's just...", he slightly paused before he continued, "I should probably go." Sonny repulsed.
I could see where Sonny was going with this, and it wasn't fair to him to string him along until I was one hundred percent certain that things between my anonymous were over before pursuing him. However, I couldn't just stand there and watch him walk out that door and walk out of my life without telling him the truth about why I've been so chary towards him.
I owed him an explanation, "Sonny, please don't go. You know, if you'd like, maybe we could talk-"
"Will...please. Don't ruin this, okay?"
"Sonny...Please. Just hear me out, Alright?"
Sonny took a step back and ran his dexterous fingers, skillfully through his hair a couple of times before answering, "What exactly is it that you're trying to say here Will?"
"Look, I know that I've sent you mixed signals ever since we left the office, and I wouldn't blame you if you'd walk out of here and never wanna look back, but...", I swallowed hard, "I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't want you leaving here without knowing the reason why my life is so messed up at the moment. I like you Sonny. I really like you and I don't wanna mess things up between. So please...Will you at least give me the chance to explain myself over dinner before deciding whether or not you wish to end this friendship before walking out that door?"
"You're making it very hard for me to say no, Will."
"Then say yes, Sonny. Please? I promise you that I'll be on my best behavior. Pretty please?", I batted my eyes, hoping that this would be enough to make him to reconsider his decision of leaving. I was desperate.
Sonny busted out laughing, "Are you seriously batting those pretty blue eyes of yours in order to convince me not to leave?"
"It's working isn't it?", I viciously smiled back at him and winked. Generally speaking, I think things where finally looking up for me and that Sonny was just about to cave in to my lovableness.
Sonny shook his head in disbelief, "Alright, but you better stop it or else...Be ready to suffer the consequences of your actions, Mister Horton."
"Oh, I'm so scared!", I tantalized him.
"You should be scared. A hungry man is not someone you should mess around with."
"Oh really, is that so? Well, in that case, I better hurry up and tell the cook to get his butt out here and cook you some dinner. And while I'm at it, why don't you take a look around and make yourself at home. I'm just gonna change real quick and head on over to the kitchen. And afterward dinner, if you're up for it, maybe we could talk?"
"I would like that, Will. Very much."
"Okay, so...Yeah. I'll be right back."
"You sure you don't mind if I take a look around?"
"Not at all, Sonny. Knock yourself out", was the last thing I said to him before I heading towards the hallway and straight into my room, closing behind me and quickly locking it shut. I rested my back against the door for a few minutes so that I could wrap my mind around what was happening, "What the hell am I gonna do now?", I asked myself as I fumbled around my room, trying to find something to wear and get back out there before Sonny changed his mind and left.