13. Break up

I had to tell Philip. Explain things in way he understand. But how could make him understand when I barely did myself? I known Shane for only four day and I was in love. Logically it did not make sense, but heart knew it was true. Besides Philip had someone else anyways. Could we not be civil.

"Andrea, I need to tell you I am sorry. I have been a real asshole. Cheating on you, and keeping you home all the time. That was for my selfish reasons. If you come back home it will be different. I'll look for a new job where I can be with you and the girls more. Please say your give us another chance," Philip pleads with me.

"It's too late. And I can't," I answer sadly.

"Why? Because you had sex with some stranger? Look whatever you feel for him isn't real. I promise you," Philip replies.

"My feelings for Shane are very real. I can't explain it, but with him I know," I said walking away.

"Know what?"

"That whatever was missing in our relationship, isn't with Shane. You know something was missing with us. But Shane makes me feel alive and I can't get enough of him. He is all I think about. I know he is my soul mate, and that is the kind of the love I deserve. You deserve it too. Someone else will love you in away I can't. We are never going to work Philip. Deep down you know it's true," I whispered. Philip looks deep into my eyes, and for a moment I think he gets it. I have made him understand, but then he speaks.

"This asshole isn't your soul mate. That shit isn't real. You have watched Pretty Woman too many times, Andrea. But if anyone is your soul mate, I am. Who came to your condo and stop you from killing yourself? Tell me that wasn't fate? A sign we should be together? And who held your hand while you talked about your sister for hours? Who gave you those two beautiful girls? Does our life with have together mean nothing to you? Do you not understand what our marriage vows meant?"

"I'll always treasure the time we've had, but I am not in love with you anymore. I stopped along time ago. And I can't do this anymore," I said staring into his light brown eyes.

"We can fall back in love. I'll be different. I can change. And this feeling you have with him will be over in a few months and you will regret losing our family. Now come on baby. Let's go home," Philip says holding his hand out to mine.

"I am not going with you. You cheated on me. And I didn't even sleep with Shane until I saw you with her. I can not be with someone I don't trust," I yelled. He wasn't going to give up, I thought. He was determined to get me to stay with him.

"Enough is enough. Get your ass over here," Philip yells.

"No."

"Andrea, you are going home with me. I tried to reason with you, but I am tried of these damn games," Philip says with an evil look in his eyes. And I know now he has finally snapped. I warned one day he was going to get angry enough at me and lose control. He is pulling me with full force and I can not break free. I am laying on the ground in Shane's yard and he is on top of me covering my mouth with his hands. I cannot breathe. He is going to kill me right here in front of everyone, I think. I start to fight back with everything I have. Kicking him hard.

"Say you love me Andrea," Philip says now holding a gun to my head.

"I love you," I said softly.

"Good girl. Now we are going to go back home. If you do what I say your new boyfriend won't get hurt," Philip whispers in my ears.

I want nothing more to tell him to go hell, but I am scared shitless so I just nod in agreement. I hear a noise coming from behind me, and see Shane. He got here just in time. His eyes meet mine, and know he is going to save me. Shane was hero again. My sexy hero.

"Get your fucking hands off her," Shane shouts pointing his gun at Philip.

"You shoot me and I shoot her," Philip smirks.

"Let her go or you will have hell to pay," Shane promises. He moves closer, and I close my eyes praying I make it out alive. I have so much to live for. I want to drink more beers with Shane, take my daughters to movies, and so many other things. Shane and I have a whole future to look forward too. Philip can't take that away from us now. He can't kill me. It's not my time, I think.