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I hope u enjoy: And the song for this chapter is "Congratulations" by Blue October
Why, Bella?
EPOV (a special request from a faithful reader)
"I love him," Her three words struck a pain inside I've never felt before. Even when she chose Jacob that summer day, I still thought there was a chance. But, not this time.
We stayed silent for a few minutes, deep in thought. I stayed strong for her. My face was blank, but inside, I was ripped apart.
Without any warning, my mind slipped into hurtful thoughts. I saw the way Bella used to look in my eyes, then I knew that was how she looked at Jacob. And her plump soft lips…against Jacob. He got to see her cheeks turn a warm red color everyday. I hoped he knew he was the luckiest man alive.
Those evil thoughts kept invading my head. And then I knew I couldn't hold it together, "Edward," her voice was soft; it drove me off the edge. I ran to the door.
It was no longer My Bella, it was His Bella.The soft grass sliding under my feet squished with every step. I couldn't go to school today. To see her so soon was a nightmare.
I no longer longed for her blood; I yearned for her soft arms entwined in mine. And her warm lips on my cold hard ones.
If I wasn't careful, I could get out of control and take her away. Keep her to myself, no one could see her.
Then I thought of the pain that would cause her. She didn't want to be with me. She wanted Jacob. After all he was the "perfect" man.
I couldn't face my family, they would want to comfort me. I wished to be alone.
This skips to where Bella is at Jake's house
I spent all day in Our meadow. This was the only place I was in peace, besides with Bella.
One thing I couldn't understand was the reason she dreamed of Jacob the way she did when I was in her room. I recalled her hurt cries, "No! Stop! Jacob!" And her calling my name. That meant something, well, I guess not.
What about Jasper? He could never be wrong about what she was feeling. Right? Jasper is never wrong. It was probably mixed feelings of some kind.
I could never doubt Bella and her beautiful smile. But, she was crying. Why would she be crying. Wait, and apologizing. WAIT! She told me she loved me!
I smiled and saw some hope. She loved me. No, she loves me! I couldn't stop repeating those words in my head. She loves me…me!
If she loves me, why would she tell me she loves Jacob? I couldn't understand Bella's mind.
My mind was going in circles. Just like a flower; she loves me, she loves me not, she loves me.
I just wish my ability was able to see her mind. I rested my head in my hands and knelt down into the green grass. "God, Bella! I need to know! Why can't you tell me!" I continued sobbing to no one. "Bella! Please. I want to know! Who do you love?"
My dry sobs couldn't stop themselves. I took sharp intake breaths and sobs some more. Bella is my life. No matter what.
I couldn't handle this, I carefully picked my knees off the ground and ran towards her house.
I was going faster then usual, until a small cry stopped me. I heard my name…once, twice. Then a scream of my name. I ran to that direction. My feet slowed beneath me.
I stopped behind a small tree. I spotted her small figure on the ground. Blood was traveling over her ghost-like arms. Then she laughed. I was taken back from her choice of sounds.
It took me a millisecond, but I saw a small sick in her left hand, covered in blood.
I leapt to her side and hugged her close. Carlisle appeared behind me. Alice. I had to thank her. I found my voice, "No Bella!" I held her wrist and felt nothing.
I returned with another round of dry sobs.
"Why did you do this Bella?" Her warm body was losing heat fast.
"Carlisle, help!" I managed to get out over my sobs.
My back was shaking, "She's gone."
So, am I evil or not!???!?!??!!!?!?! I know this was a VERY short chapter, but I wanted to give you guys some type of view in Edwards mind.
I hoped you guys liked it. It was so short because I have church tonight…I just REALLY wanted to get at least part of a chapter in there at once.
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