Sorry it took such a long time to upload! Ive just been out of it with this story and stuff. This isn't the FULL chapter just part of it just wanted to give you guys a preview : ) so review and tell me if you are still with me My life since I met Tyler had become completely different. He had the power to make me do basically whatever he wanted. His words made me weak. I definitely wasn't the same girl he met. A part of me had changed and a part of me didn't like that, the fact he had such power over me whether he knew it or not. My guard that I had put up for these past years was coming down completely I couldn't push him away now, cause I needed him. With out him I probably wouldn't know what to do anymore. No one had ever treated me or cared for me like he had the last few weeks. He made me want to be a better person for him. I felt like we were moving to fast though, but I couldn't dare to tell him to slow down. He practically lived at my place he was always there. I needed some space, at the same time I just needed him. Look at me a fucken girlfriend a person full of girly emotions. What if couldn't give him what he wanted? What if one day he would want kids and a wife? I wouldn't want that. I could never imagine myself a wife with kids. Would he ever want that? I didn't want any of that. I couldn't do this. The thought of all of that made my heart speed up. I pushed his hand away and got up from the bed. "Are you okay?" he asked more asleep than awake. "Are you hurt?" "I'm fine... I just need some air. Go back to sleep." I grabbed cigarette and went outside. He didn't ask any questions or followed me, I was thankful. The cool night summer air hit me as I opened the front door. It felt nice to have fresh air to clear my mind a little. I went and sat on the front steps and lit my cigarette. I needed to think, this was speeding up way to much. We needed to slow things down or I needed to stop freaking out. Tyler was everything any girl could want. Somehow I couldn't be happy without worrying. "I'm such an idiot." I whispered. I couldn't pull him away now even if I wanted too. I put my mind blank and sat there for a few minutes. The door opened and arms wrapped around my waist. "What's wrong?" he whispered in my ear causing me to shiver. "I just couldn't sleep." He sat down behind me setting me between his legs. "Things on your mind?" I shrugged. "Nah." I undid one his arms from around my waist and grabbed his hand in mine. "You don't have to stay up with me. Go back to bed if you want you have to work tomorrow." "And waste this precious time with you?" he squeezed me tight. His words made me smiled. Here I was thinking how maybe I could leave him and he was being all cute with me. "I don't deserve you." That wasn't suppose to come out. His lips touched my neck. "Don't say that... you're an amazing woman. And I'm lucky to have you in my arms right now." "See what I mean? All those beautiful things you tell me." He turned his head so I could look at him. "Because they are true Mallory. I mean them. You're so brave.. you aren't afraid to speak you mind sometimes. You have a side of you that you don't let many people see and that's your sensible side." "Oh Tyler!" I was in complete aw with him. I moved so I could sit on his lap and wrap my arms around his neck. "You're amazing," I whispered. "No I really am not, but you make me want to be it," he said. I was about to say something, but he kissed me making me forget what I was thinking. He stood up and carried me back in the house, not breaking the kiss. He laid me on my bed and climbed on top of me. No matter what he said I knew I wouldn't ever deserve him. He took off my tank top followed by my boy shorts. "You're so beautiful," he said against my skin. His lips and hands roamed my whole body filling me with pleasure I just wanted to explode. He pulled his lips away from mine and looked into my eyes. I felt like crying he cared he fucken cared. Pushing back the tears I brought his lips back to mine. He made me forget every worry with every touch and kiss. The warmth from the sun was hitting my back when I woke. The bed was empty and the room was filled with the smell of pancakes. I smiled and rolled to my back stretching my body out. My clothes were on the floor from last night. The memories filled my head, making me smile. Last night something was different, the way I felt was different and I liked it, I had been so overwhelmed with feelings. I sighed and put on my tank top and some boy shorts I put them on as I walked towards the bathroom, stopping and kissing Tyler's neck. "Morning," he smiled looking at me. I ran to the bathroom and brushed my teeth quickly so I could get back to him. "Thanks, it looks good," I said giving him a kiss, my pancakes were on a plate ready for me. "You're welcome...what are you doing today?" I shrugged. It was hard to find a job I still hadn't found one and I was running low on money. Tyler insisted that he could pay the bills. Of course I said no. "Nothing I think. Wait no I'm gonna go look for work." "I'll help you look once I get off work," he smiled. I nodded. "Thanks." As soon as he was done eating he left. He worked till 3 today. I sighed and washed the dishes. Where the hell was I suppose to work at? What am I suppose to say? "Oh I was formally a stripper. I'm an expert at blowing your fucken mind" I changed into some jeans and a T-shirt and headed over to the library. I needed Tyler for this. Through out the years I did go to school I was a huge fan of reading and now I hadn't read one in years. As I walked in through the door I tried to think where Tyler could be it was a pretty big library. I ended up looking for a book I liked. "Could I help you with something beautiful?" I jumped and turned around, of course it was Tyler. He had his arms around his back smiling at me. "As a matter of fact yes, I'm looking for a book called Wuthering Heights." "Are you now?" he smirked. "Yes, it's one of my favorites ever." God I wanted him now! "Follow me miss." I would follow him anywhere. Okay where did that come from?! He stopped and reached for a book handing it to me. "Here." "Thanks." "Anything else?" "Yes would you happen to know a man about your height with crystal blue eyes? He can be very annoying sometimes." He pouted at my last words making me giggle. "He's my boyfriend," I finished. "What a lucky man," he whispered. I blushed at his words. "No, I'm the lucky one." He took the last tiny step towards me, his eyes looking into mine. "You have the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen." "Thank you," I breathed. Just him being this close to me took my breath away. "Do you really think I'm annoying?" he asked as he ran the back of his hand along my cheek. I shook my head. "Good." he leaned in and brushed his lips against mine. I wanted more! The book fell from my hands landing with a BOOM on the floor, but I didn't care my arms wrapped around his neck my fingers finding his hair and pulling him closer to me.