Murdoc stood on the balcony over looking the ocean; sometimes he had to admit it actually looked beautiful here. When he looked past the garbage that his mansion was built on and the things coming after him, he wondered if the pirates would ever just leave him the Hell alone. He was pretty sure Cyborg had gotten rid of quite a few of them in the past couple of weeks, but there always seemed to be ten more to take each dead ones place….Hell sometimes some of them were dead.

He felt a body press against his back and looked down to see hands on his lower stomach. He smiled and leaned back against the taller man as he took a long drag from his cigarette before dropping it to the metal floor and stomping it out with the toe of his boot. Warm breath tickled the side of his neck followed by the flick of a tongue against his skin.

"I love yew" 2D whispered before kissing the other man's neck.

Murdoc placed his hands over the younger man's and tilted his head to the side.

"Yew scare the hell out of me" The older man replied shivering as the blue haired man bit into his neck.

"How do I scare yew?"

"I'm scared I'm going to lose yew again or hurt yew physically."

"I'm not goin' anywhere t'is time, promise." 2D said as he slid his hands up under the bassist shirt causing the older man to shiver.

"I'm always going to love yew Stu, no matter what I say or do to yew."

He turned around in the younger man's arms looking up at him studying the less red looking cuts on his face. He reached up running the tips of his fingers over a few bruises on 2D's neck then moved up to his face tracing his index finger along a rather large red cut on his cheek. The black eyed man leaned down kissing him deeply; Murdoc wrapped his arms around the singer's neck groaning as nails raked down his back. He nipped at the taller man's lower lip earning a small moan; the bassist pushed his tongue into the other man's mouth rediscovering the taste of cigarettes and booze.

2D broke away from the kiss smiling lazily.

"Is it okay if I use t'e shower in yer room?"

"Yeah go ahead luv"

"Do yew want to join me?" The blue haired man asked blushing slightly.

"I don't t'ink so pet….I need to go check on Cyborg and some other t'ings, I'll meet yew in t'e living room." Murdoc said pulling away from the taller man's grip.

The younger man looked slightly disappointed, but nodded and smiled before turning and going back into the bedroom.

Murdoc leaned back against the railing and sighed. It was weird trying to go back to normal, not like anything would be really normal….Then again nothing had ever been exactly normal. He would love to take an opportunity to see the younger man naked, but he didn't want to yet. He didn't even feel like he deserved what he was getting right now, he'd never been good enough for the singer, but now he felt like he had no right to have him at all. It confused the hell out of him how 2D could just take him back; pretend the marks on his body were no big deal. Murdoc couldn't look past them; he couldn't get past how he had been treating the vocalist over the past few weeks. He wanted to make up for it, for everything, but that was such a stupid thought.

He thought back to the nightmares that he always used to have. The ones where he would beat his boyfriend constantly scream at him, and then there was the one nightmare where he had actually murdered him. He had never told 2D about that one, he almost had, but he couldn't manage to. That one always haunted him; all of those nightmares haunted him. He still had that fear that they would come true, that he would mistreat him.

He tried pushing the thoughts from his mind as he made his way back inside and down to the area where he kept the robot locked up. He flicked on the light groaning as the room was washed in white; he closed his eyes tightly before opening them again giving himself a moment to adjust to the sudden brightness. He looked around the room at the various screens, wires, and switches lining the walls and ceiling. In the middle of it all the robot sat lifelessly her chin resting on her chest, arms lying limply at her sides. Sometimes it scared him seeing the robot in her sleep state; he probably should have made her look like anything else other than Noodle. He hated seeing a dead version of her, knowing she possibly could be dead somewhere.

He really needed to stop thinking like that; he needed to stop thinking about a lot of things. Maybe Noodle was alive, maybe Russel wasn't out for his blood, maybe Boogieman wouldn't get his soul, and maybe he could be with 2D without hurting him anymore. He didn't even believe the thoughts as they entered his mind, he couldn't help, but laugh at them. Murdoc went over and began pulling the wires off of the robot before switching it on. He stepped back and watched as the machine twitched, its head shot up eyes glowing white before fading to their usual near black color. The robot's dark flat eyes settled on him its head cocking to the side as it continued to stare at him. He felt a bit scared of it sometimes.

"Stop staring at me like t'at yew stupid machine." He growled before smacking it in the back of the head.

Cyborg slowly rose to her feet her head bowed a weird sound coming from her mouth before she shoved past him and made her way out of the room. He waited until he was sure he wouldn't run into the robot before leaving the room and making his way back up to the living room. He wondered what was with the robot lately, he remembered the last time that it had a slightly violent glitch and nearly murdered him. He hoped it wasn't going to do that again, he had been lucky when the damned thing ended up shutting down before it had the chance to pull the trigger.

Murdoc sat down on the floor next to the coffee table, he pulled his laptop over to him flipping it open and turning it on. He went through the forums and the usual things wondering what people were saying about him and the things going on lately. Mostly people were still calling him a prick, thinking he'd murdered his band mates, and of course a few people still talking about Noodle and her disappearance. A few people had posted the video for El Manana trying to say that it was all planned; he bit at his bottom lip and clicked out of the web site when tears came to his eyes blurring his vision. He rubbed at his eyes with the back of his hand cursing under his breath. His mind went back to that day, watching the fear on the young girl's face, and the people around him screaming. He remembered having to pull 2D away from the edge before he fell off, he remembered the singer punching at him, and sobbing.

He felt a hand on his shoulder and jerked away, he felt hands wrap around his wrists trying to tug his hands away from his face. He lowered his hands but didn't look at the blue haired man; he looked back at the computer screen for a moment before turning the laptop off and shoving it away from him. Fingers combed through his hair, Murdoc smiled sadly.

"Wot's wrong, come on yew can tell me." The younger man said his voice soft, gentle.

"I'm sorry I let Noodle go missing, I really didn' mean to….I swear I would trade places wit' her, I had no idea t'at they would take her."

"Yew didn' know t'at woul' happen to her, maybe she's still alive…We don' know, she could 'ave survived."

Murdoc nodded slowly in reply. He liked how positive 2D was trying to be about it, but they both knew better than that.

"Sorry….Somebody posted t'e El Manana video online, jus' made me start t'inking about it….I'm sure yer right pet, she'll come back, and so will Russ….We can get rid of t'e robot when t'ey get back." Murdoc said smiling slightly

"It's a'right, I fink about wot happened too….Wot else are people saying?" The blue haired man asked trying to change the topic.

He wrapped an arm around the older man rubbing his hand up and down his bicep.

"The usual, people saying I cheated on yew, some t'ink t'at I murdered everybody in t'e band, and t'at's why I'm all the way out in the middle of nowhere….Same things people have been talking about ever since I burned Kong down."

"Why would t'ey fink t'at yew killed us?" 2D asked sounding confused.

Murdoc laughed and turned to look at the younger man.

"If yew haven't noticed luv I'm not exactly all there mentally…Happens when yer alone for so damned long, except t'at sodding robot."

He thought back to how the robot had looked at him earlier and couldn't help the cold chill that went through him. He had a horrible feeling she was going to go into another homicidal horror film fit; hopefully she would just shut down again before she could cause too much damage.

"Yew aren't t'at crazy and yew got me now…I still really hate t'at robot, why does she have to look like Noodle?"

"I didn't really want to replace her and I just figured it'd be easier to use some of her DNA and make it look like her….For awhile just told people t'at it was her, of course by now people know it's a robot…I think t'at stupid thing is part the reason I started losing it, didn't help with the guilt much….If….When Noodle comes back I'll most likely shut the stupid thing down."

"Yew really fink t'at she'll come back?"

The bassist looked down for a bit thinking over it before looking up at the younger man and nodding.

"Yeah, yeah I think so…Things will go back to normal, eventually, and then yew'll have somebody else to be around other than me." Murdoc said smiling

2D placed his hand on the older man's cheek and stared at him for awhile like he was trying to read everything in his mind.

"I like being around yew, just yew…I love Noodle and Russel, but t'is is kind of like back in England when it was just t'e two of us…I always liked t'at, yew always seemed more like yerself t'en."

"I don't even feel like myself anymore."

"Yer still yew, just a little lost….Did yew know yer eyes are t'e same color?" 2D asked curiously

"Yeah they've been like t'is for awhile ever since one of my deals ended."

"T'ey look really nice brown, yer still really gorgeous y'know."

"Yew've got awful taste luv."

2D leaned in kissing him; he placed his hands on the older man's chest pushing him back onto the floor. The singer settled on his lap, Murdoc placed his hands on his hips sliding them up under the younger man's shirt lightly raking his claws over his sides.2D moved down to his neck running the tip of his tongue down along the side of his neck, he felt hands slide up his shirt and fingers brush over his nipples causing him to groan. The younger man bit into his neck sucking, Murdoc tangled his fingers in his hair tugging slightly. 2D sat back and removed his shirt dropping it to the floor; the bassist leaned up removing his own. He placed his hands on the vocalist hips pulling him onto his lap, he leaned in kissing along his collar bones the running the tip of his long tongue down the center of his chest tracing along every cut and bruise. Fingers tangled in his hair, he could feel nails clawing at his scalp and moaned in reply to the slight burning sensation. He flicked his tongue over the younger man's nipple earning a small moan, 2D ground his hips down against his and Murdoc smiled against his skin. He moved back up kissing the other man passionately forcing his tongue inside of his mouth, he laid the black eyed man back on the floor running his hand down his body stopping at the hem of his jeans. 2D wrapped his legs around the older man's back pulling him closer, Murdoc broke away and laughed at the neediness in the other man's actions, the singer looked up at him blushing.

"Fuck yer beautiful" Murdoc whispered before capturing his lips in another passionate kiss.

He heard a sound in the distance and ignored it until the sound of foot steps came closer. He broke away and looked over to see the cyborg standing there a gun in her hand held limply at her side, her dark eyes were on the two of them. Murdoc growled and pulled away from 2D, he stood up and walked over to the robot who was still staring at the blue haired man.

"What in bloody hell do yew think yer doing up here? Don't yew have something else to do yew idiotic piece of scrap metal?"

The robot continued staring not paying attention to what the bassist was saying. Murdoc growled before smacking the machine in the face finally earning its attention. He felt less angry and more afraid when those black eyes were set on him now.

"Now get outside and guard t'is hell hole and stop staring at him like t'at….stop staring at me like t'at for that matter." Murdoc mumbled as he grabbed the machine by its shoulders and pushed it away from him.

He watched as it slowly walked out of the room and went into the elevator giving the Satanist one more dead look before the doors went shut. Murdoc leaned back against the wall and ran his fingers back through his hair groaning.

"Wot t'e hell was t'at about?" 2D asked sounding scared

He looked over at the singer who was now sitting on the arm of the couch looking up at him through wide white eyes.

"I don't know I t'ink she's malfunctioning again, I'll check on it later t'is week…Come on we should work on the record some more." Murdoc said not wanting to go any further into the subject of Cyborg.