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I'm beyond unforgivable, but I'm still extremely sorry for the REALLY LATE update!
And I am completely flabbergasted and flattered by your response to this story! I know that it's not the best, but please deal with me since its the first time my writing is being read by an audience other than my close friends! Hugs and Kisses to all of you!
And in case you guys might be wondering, the date on top of the chappie is the date in the story not the date i published/wrote/thought up the story or neither is it the real date!
So without further ado I'd like to present Chapter 9!
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Chapter 9: Of Revelations and New Lights
Day 2 of Plan MERHDLM – 8/12/2009 Tuesday
When we (Alice and I) were in 8th grade, Alice had had her first boyfriend. While I was really glad for her I was also a bit jealous, not because she had a boyfriend and I didn't, but because she was ditching me to hang out with him.
While Alice had been the one of the popular I was one of the nerds. This obviously meant that Alice had gazillions of friends besides me and I had no other friends beside her.
Alice had gotten so wrapped up in her boyfriend that she often wouldn't notice me there at all. And truthfully it had hurt a lot, not only because she was my only bestest friend but also because I once again began to feel the abandonment and pain I had felt when I had abandoned once before. It really wasn't easy to move on when one someone you truly loved abandoned you.
On day when I had finally given up on her noticing me and had planned to never talk to her again, she came over to mine with her eyes overflowing with tears and telling me about how she had caught her boyfriend cheating on her with a senior cheerleader.
And me being the softy that I am I forgave her and on that day we both promised that no matter what happens we would stay friends forever and wont let anything as inconsequential as boyfriends ruin our consequential friendship.
And since that day had been a Monday (the exact date has been forgotten) we promised that no matter what on every Monday Alice and I would have a GNI. And ever since than every single Monday no matter what happened we would make time for our best friends.
Ever since I joined C&M co. Rosalie would often join us, but normally it would be only Alice and I.
Last night Alice had wanted to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory whereas I had wanted to watch The Hangover. We tossed a coin to see who chooses the movie first and since Alice chose heads and heads surfaced first we watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory first.
While I had hated the movie, seeing it yesterday had ignited a new love in me for chocolaty movies.
I had only begun plan MERHDLM yesterday and I was already running out things to do for the rest of the 59 days, so I came to the conclusion that everyday I would only carry out one phase each day instead of one stage each day.
And watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory had given me inspiration for more immature, annoying, bratty behaviour. My most favourite had been the girl that would always chew gum, nothing annoys someone more than a person over your head chewing gum and not just any gum, gum that has been behind your ears!
And my second most favourite had been the rich, spoilt daddy's girl. No one liked being around someone who couldn't stop boasting about themselves and was always demanding for something.
So today I was going to only carry out P1, which consisted of acting like I had no manners, no etiquette's, and definitely no hygienic morals.
As I sat on my desk and stared at my pipes screen-saver I couldn't help but ponder over Kate's cold shoulder towards us after I had introduced Edward. Was it possible that they knew each other? If they did, why didn't Edward or Kate say anything about it?
I had only seen Kate once without light in her eyes and that had been when her sister Irina had visited the restaurant to inform Kate about their sister Tanya's death.
I didn't know Irina or Tanya much, but what I did know was that Irina lived in Oregon, and Tanya had been living in Chicago.
When Kate was informed of Tanya's death the smile that always graced her lips and the light in her eyes had been instantly killed. Apparently all three sisters had been really close and because of some major argument, the whole family had been ignoring Tanya for a little more than six months before she died.
I had seen the regret on their faces and had vowed to myself that I would never ever ignore or not talk to anyone I loved for more than an hour at a time.
I had tried calling her multiple times at night but each time I would reach her inbox, which meant that she was either a) really busy being a mom and wife or b) she was trying to avoid talking to me. Option b seemed more likely in this case.
My pondering were cut short when I heard someone knocking on my door.
"Come in," I called out to whoever it was on the other side. It was Angela.
"Hi Ang, how's Ben?" I asked her as she came in and set the papers and envelopes in her hand on my desk.
"He's doing much better now, he kinnda pushed me out the door and forced me to come to work today." She replied timidly, her eyes trained on the floor and a faint blush colouring her cheeks.
I don't think I really wanna know how he forced her.
The blush says it all, the blush says it all!
Lets just hope that she's forgotten all about the bouquet Edward sent me on Friday!
"So how was your weekend? Anything special? Did you find out who sent you that colossal bouquet?" Angela asked.
Apparently not!
"Yeah…. umm…. Actually…. Umm…. I kinnda…" as I stammered through my reponse I was glad to hear my cell phone ring.
Saved by the phone again!
My joy at being saved from answereing was short lived when I saw the who was calling me.
"I'm sorry Ang, but I've gotta take this," I told her apologetically. She nodded her head in understanding and left me to my phone call.
"Good Morning Bella, I hope that you've been having a good day." It was Edward.
"Good Morning Edward, yes thank you," I replied just as formally.
Geesh, couldn't this guy not talk like he was giving formal orders?
Or simply not talk formally at all?
"I called to tell you that today I won't be able to have lunch with you, seeing that I have a conference meeting, so I would like you to join me for dinner. I have a few things I would like to discuss with you." He said.
"Sure," I replied hesitantly, still not forgetting that the last time he had said the exact same thing I had ended up in tears and my life had flipped from normal to abnormal.
"Good to know, I'll be there to pick you up from your apartment at exactly 8 pm. Be ready." And with that he hung up, not saying goodbye and not giving me a chance to say so either.
It was now 12 p.m. and almost the whole faculty was either gone out or in the café on the 5th floor. As I rearranged the papers and files on my desk, I heard the unmistakable ring tone of my cell phone alerting me of a new text.
-B
How's your day been so far?
Tell me all about it during lunch!
Meet me and Rosalie at the 'Amigos' behind
the office.
You better come or else!
-Alice
At least now I won't have to spend the lunch at the office cafeteria all alone in one corner. Quickly replying with my conformation, I picked up my bag and made my way out.
In less than ten minutes later I was at 'Amigo's' looking for my two friends who ere supposed to meet me here. And, obviously, they weren't too hard to spot.
Tiny pixies and blond bombshells don't exactly blend in with the average crowd, now do they?
"Hey guys," I said as I slid into the booth next to Alice.
"Hey to you to stranger," said Rosalie, "what's been up with you? I haven't seen you in the office at all this week."
"Today's only Tuesday," I told her.
"Yesterday I came to see if you were available for lunch but you totally bailed on me, even before I showed up," She said, pointing a perfectly manicured finger at me.
"How can I bail on someone if they're not even there?" I asked, trying to divert her attention from asking where I was.
"You just can, just like you did." She replied.
"Whatever," I said as I diverted my attention to the menu infront of me, hoping that she would drop this before the questions got more and more inquisitive.
"Geesh, if I didn't know any better I would think you had a secret boyfriend or something that you're trying to hide from us," Rosalie said as she rolled her eyes at me.
Around 3 Pepsis and a full tummy later, Alice, Rose and I were making our way back to the office. Alice was coming with us because needed to 'collect' some things from Rosalie and apparently it was some big secret that I couldn't be in on.
Which makes it the much more scarier.
It was during lunch that I had once again started to get the 'I'm-being-watched' feeling. As unnerving as it was it was also quite annoying, why the hell would anyone be watching me, and supposing if someone was wouldn't they have contacted me in some way by now?
Maybe that person has contacted you….
Maybe you do know the person….
Aaaah! Even my inner dialogue was now acting weirdly! Had 'The-world-is-supposed-to-get-weird-and-nothing's-supposed-to-stay-normal-day' already passed?
Apparentely so!
**mental snort**
I had been so wrapped up in my thoughts that I hadn't realised that we were almost there when Alice said the one name that I was dreading from hearing.
"So Rosalie, how's Edward doing? How's he liking being back in Seattle after such a long time?" she asked.
Deep down inside – ok, maybe not deep down – but inside I was panicking, but somehow I was able to keep a calm and collected exterior.
"He's getting on well. He says he found everything he's been looking for. I'm really glad for him, he seems to be over Tanya's – his fiancé's – death. It's pretty good to see him smiling, I don't think I've seen him so happy ever since after ma's death." Rosalie replied sombrely.
His fiancé?
Now I'm interested…
"What happened to his fiancé?" I asked Rosalie.
They both looked up at me, surprised that I was actually listening.
"Ever since Edward and I were born people have been after us like bears to honey, and because of this we could never be sure of who was actually genuine and who was only with us for the fame, fortune, glitz, glamour, money and all the shit that comes with being the heir to C&M co. so we've always had to be sure of who we get close to.
"And while I got off easy with my bitchy façade, Edward was never like that. He's a really a trusting and loving kinnda guy, and some girls took advantage of that. Long story short a lot of bitches took advantage of his emotional and almost ego less self and he got more than his share of heartbreak.
"But Tanya was the first girl who genuinely loved him for him and only a few day after their engagement she was diagnosed with lung cancer and a few days later they found out that the cancer had spread all over the body including the brain. Chances of survival were really low, but they still kept up hope and when she passed away, Edward was devastated. He really was heartbroken, and now he finally seems to be over it!" she explained.
To say that I was speechless after hearing that I was surprised.
No wonder the man's like that, with a story like that who wouldn't be upset and afraid of his feelings!
But that doesn't mean that he has to fuck up everyone else's life only because his had been kinnda fucked up!
Just thinking that made me feel sick to the core. How could I think about myself when there was obviously layer after layer of hurt underneath that skin of his.
Like an onion for example, there are many layers under the skin and peeling each one makes you cry!
Couldn't get more ironic now could it?
Again I was surprised at my extremely inconsiderate and insensitive thoughts. Hadn't I agreed to be Edward's girlfriend because of the pain he seemed to be hiding? Then why the hell was I thinking so insensitively?
"Oh," I replied, I know it was inadequate but I was a loss for words.
"He really is a nice guy at heart; I just hope that he eventually finds someone like what Emmett means to me." Rosalie added quietly, throwing me a noteworthy look I would have not noticed if I wasn't already looking at her.
Note to self- He's a really nice guy at heart…
I really do hope he is…
As I sat on the couch waiting for Edward to arrive I couldn't help but replay the conversation I had with Rosalie earlier in my mind.
…he got more than his share of heartbreak…
…and when she passed away, Edward was devastated. He really was heartbroken…
…he really is a nice guy at heart…
By the time I had gotten home, Alice had already been here and gone. I only found a note from her, saying that she was with this Jasper guy and she would be back by midnight, she seemed to be really serious about this new guy.
At least one of us is in a happy-lovey-dovey relationship!
I was jolted out of my inner monologue by the sound of the doorbell ringing.
Opening the door I was taken aback as I realized that I now saw Edward in a whole new and different light…
Broken - Lifehouse
The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can start tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart
I'm barley breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you
The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
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