My God! It's the 4th of July and Little Monsters are having a war on Twitter! There is a dumb fight between AlwaysLadyGaga and BellaLilGaga and the funniest part, those two aren't mad at each other. It's purely between their followers. Lol. Little Monsters are supposed to love and NEVER hate. Way to make assholes out of everyone, those of you who took part in the stupid conflict. :P

-INTERMISSION-

So I thought that we could take a short break and go over a few things. Don't worry. I promise that there is a shorter chapter after this so this update is not just me talking. You could skip down to the story, but please don't. First off, I'm not sure how I feel about the last chapter. I mean, I liked finally getting somewhere, but still. I went off of my planned timeline, but if I had followed that they'd have kissed around like chapter 16 or something. We need ACTION! I need as many suggestions as you guys can think of. I've never written a romance before and I am sort of winging it. I am very nervous and your suggestions as to how I should proceed will help greatly. Any takers? If you help me out, I PROMISE to tell you the title of part 2 of the Equilibrium series. :D

Also, I need to know what other site you guys would follow me on if any. I want to be able to send you pictures, links, updates, and just my general thoughts, which I can't do here. Simply tell me if it's myyearbook, twitter, livejournal, etc. If I don't get feedback, I'll assume that nobody will follow me on anything, which will make me very sad. :c

Third and last point, the playlist for part 2 of the Equilibrium series. I have over 20 songs on it so far and am in need of people to help me thin it down to 15 or so. Please PM me if interested and you'll get a sneak peek into the playlist. :J

Okay, I'm sorry for cutting into your reading. I'm done for now. Enjoy the story! I know I said that this would be a journal entry, but... I LIED!

Chapter 10: What Now?

"Edward..." Jacob said softly, knowing that he would be heard.

"Yes?"

"Can we talk?"

The vampire walked to the couch, frustrated that he couldn't pick the shifter's mind.

"Why did you kiss me?" he asked blankly as he stared off into space.

"Because I wanted to," replied the vampire.

"But why did you want to, Edward?"

"I don't know," he replied with a shrug.

"Is it because I'm all that's left of Bella?"

Edward's jaw gaped slightly. "Jacob!"

"Well you never know!"

"How could you think that?" asked the vampire, more than clearly offended, "Jacob, that's just... cruel."

The was an awkward pause.

"I'm sorry," apologized the shifter, "I'm just confused. You're a vampire, a male vampire, and I-"

"Forget it," he spat darkly, "I just though that-"

"That what, Edward?" demanded the shifter, "It make no sense!"

"That's the thing about love, thought. It'd doesn't have to make sense."

Jacob was stunned. "LOVE?" he spat out, "What do you mean, love? I've only been here for a few days!"

"But that's just it, Jake. I-"

"Jacob," interrupted the shifter.

"Sorry," Edward apologized before moving on, "I know that you felt it too!"

"Edward, I have no idea-"

"Don't lie to me!" he shouted back desperately, "You know that I was in your head up there in that tent. We said that if we weren't both chasing Bella, that you'd be so close!"

"Yes, but..." Jacob trailed off. His head hurt from everything that was running through it.

"But, what? Don't you see it, Jacob?" the vampires amber eyes glowed with a fire that the shifter had never seen before.

"Edward-"

"I loved Bella, yes, but-"

"Edward!" screamed out Jacob, "Stop it! You're confusing me with all of this and..." He winced from the pain in his head. It felt like someone was pumping far too much hot air into it and that it would pop any second.

"Jacob..." Edward consoled, reading the pain off of Jacob.

"Can't you just... keep things simple for once?"

Edward smiled softly. "I can but... will you let me?"

Jacob paused. "Yes."

Edward smiled and snaked his fingers in between the shifter's and pressed his forehead against Jacob's. "I love you."

-Later That Night-

Carlisle walked up to a silent home. His home should, of course, had been silent. Only two people were in it, and one of them would be asleep at four in the morning. He opened the elegantly decorated glass door and walked in, followed by his daughter.

"Can you check on Jacob while I go talk with Edward?" Alice asked.

"Sure thing," Carlisle replied. "Edward?" he called in a normal voice, knowing that he did not have to shout to be heard.

His son stepped down the stairs. "Hey, dad?"

Carlisle was caught off guard by the overly casual tone in his voice. "Yes?"

Edward chuckled slightly, reading this thought. "Could you wait until morning to check up on him? He just got to sleep." (I know what you're thinking and no, they didn't.)

"I suppose..." he shrugged and walked into his office to type out God knows what one his computer.

"Alice," he turned to his sister. She was wearing a black pencil dress with a thick vertical gray stripe down the center, black leggings, and short black boots. "You wanted to talk?"

"Yes," she nodded, confused by the strange atmosphere, "Can we take a walk?"

Without responding, he walked out into the night. The two walked for a long time in silence, but Alice eventually stopped him.

"Ed, I'm worried about you."

He stopped walking. "Is that why you aren't with the others?"

"Yes," she replied as she sat on a flat boulder. "I can't... see you."

"I'm here right now, aren't I?" he smiled at her.

"That's not funny, Ed!" she stood up and walked over to him, "You knowwhat I mean."

"Well, yeah, but Alice," he chuckled, "Think about it. I'm looking after Jacob. Of course that would happen."

"But I can see everyone else just fine, Edward," he crossed her arms, "This happened with Bella, too. Edward, you reallyneed to tell me if anything is going on!"

"Why?" he demanded.

"Because," she snapped back, "Either something is going on that you need to tell me or you're going to die."

He sighed, "Guess it can't be helped, huh?" he turned and looked up at the sky, disappointed but not surprised to discover that a layer of clouds had hidden the stars.

"Yes it can, Ed," she put a hand on his shoulder, "We can take extra measures to protect you. The Volturi aren't coming so it's nothing we can't prevent if we-"

"Alice," he interrupted, "It's Jacob."

He dropped her hand. "Oh," she replied with a sense of knowing. She wasn't ashamed or disgusted, but... "Are you... sure that that's what you want?" she asked, not making eye contact.

"Yes."

"Well then," she hugged her brother, "It's what I want."

He smiled and hugged her back. "Thank you."

"Anything to see you happy again," she pulled away, "I want to see that Edward that took over when Bella came around. I'm really not a fan of the sad, lonely Edward." She started laughing.

"What?" He smirked, not even thinking to read her thoughts.

"Rosalie!" she managed to spit out through her hysterical laughter.

He joined her. "She's going to flip!"

The two laughed together as they made their way back to their home, imitating many possible reactions that Rosalie might have. Alice came up with the funniest one. In one imitation, she made out Rosalie as jealous, always secretly wanting Jacob for herself.

Okay, I know this chapter ends on an odd note and is shorter than usual, but my head hurts and I feel like throwing up. I'm posting this and taking a nap. Sorry.

Jacob: -whips out a sparkler- Happy 4th of July! I've got a-

Me: Sorry. Not in the mood. -goes to bed-

Jacob: ._. (awkward moment) Um... -clears throat and moves on to dedications- This chapter is too short. Devoting it to anyone would be, in Judas's words, "an insult" so... Next chapter is devoted to mcflyforlike024, also know as Tara! Love you!

Reviews are loved! Happy 4th of July!