Oh Brother!
Hey! Guess what? I'M NOT DEAD!!!!!! Yeah, I've been gone for a while. Finals were hard-ish and started at like the beginning of June. (I accidentally said "this is Eric Clapton playing with Cream" instead of "This is Eric Clapton playing with the bandCream" during my music presentation. It was pretty bad :P) But yeah, overall I did pretty well and I'm on honour roll once again for having an 85 average! Well, enough of my rambling, on with the story!
Disclaimer: I'm definitely not Stephenie Meyer. Let's just leave it at that.
Chapter 10: Is this a Revelation?
BPOV
I internally groaned as I woke up after a LONG night with Emmett. It was NOTHING like I imagined it to be. Emmett was still lying there, half asleep but smiling sweetly at me. I smiled but felt a pang in my stomach. It wasn't a pain, but just like a flash of intuition going through me, telling me that I made a mistake. But I overlooked it and took it like a woman. I would definitely have to talk to Alice later and ask if it was normal.
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After breakfast, we headed over to the Cullen house. I kissed Emmett and ran up to Alice's room to find her and Rosalie reading fashion magazines.
"I slept with Emmett"
"WHAT!!!!!" Two screaming girls were suddenly launched at me.
"Tell us everything!" Alice screamed. I didn't want to give her a friggin play-by-play though, he was her brother after all. I only told her the lead up to how it all started.
"Soo… how do you feel Bells! You're a woman now!" Alice screamed again. Rosalie was still slightly smug the whole time.
"Umm, Alice? I think I passed that mark when I was twelve."
They laughed but urged me to continue on, which I didn't really have a problem with because I needed to know if this feeling was normal.
"Well, I don't know. I feel kinda funny now."
"Funny? What do you mean funny? Like sick?" Rosalie started.
"Umm, kinda. Like I feel sick to my stomach, almost guilty."
"Well, that usually comes after you do it the first time. Especially since you're pretty young. But it will go away by the end of today! Well, at least until you tell your parents about it." Alice said seriously nodding her head, Rosalie's head bobbing at the same time as hers.
Once I was reassured, I did feel a little better.
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The next day, I still felt weird about it. Emmett was staying closer to me than ever. He would never leave my side! It was almost as if he was being a bit too overprotective. Things have changed… but not for the better.
Mark came over today, without Emmett knowing. We sat in Alice's bedroom and decided to talk about my current situation… much to my dismay.
"So, what's up?"
"I slept with Emmett."
"What! Why doesn't anybody tell me this stuff?"
"Because, you're a guy! I don't usually tell my guy friends this stuff."
"Did you tell Edward?" I got a sinking feeling in my stomach at the sound of his name. He wasn't brought up all day, and I hadn't seen him for a while. It would break his heart if he knew what I did, even if Emmett is my respectable boyfriend.
"No, I think he might freak out about it."
"Well that's for sure. Isn't he under the impression that you're dating him?"
"Well, yeah. But he knows I'm dating Emmett. He's known that since he moved here."
"Oooooo, the plot thickens!" Alice decided to add her two cents.
"Shut-up Alice! We're trying to have girl talk." Mark said. I gave him the strangest look and he mouthed "Just go with it."
"Okay, so let me get this straight: you're dating Emmett, but cheating on him with Edward, and you don't feel bad about it?" Alice started to question me.
"Well I definitely feel bad about being in love with Emmett and Edward at the same time, especially because they're brothers! But, it just feels so natural."
"Uh-huh. Secondly: You sleep with Emmett, who is your actual legit boyfriend, and feel bad about it?"
"Yeah! I feel terrible, like I'm cheating on Edward, even though it's the opposite way around!"
"So then wouldn't the logical answer be that you're supposed to be with Edward?" Mark said, which definitely got me thinking. Was I making the right decision?
"I can see the gears turning in your head Bella! OH! BAM! THAT'S RIGHT! See! I'm just as good as you guys with all this relationship crap!" Mark cried, more like screamed. Alice just looked smug. She had a poker face on, which was kinda worrying me.
"I totally saw this coming right from the very beginning. I knew Edward's charm would win you over and I was right too! I was going to tell you to wait a bit longer to see if Emmett was really a good idea, but my mom talked me out of it. She said she didn't want me interfering. I was soo gonna do it but I didn't like a good little girl, and look where we are now." Alice just revealed to me. I just wanted to kill her!
"Alice! If you thought that me and Emmett weren't gonna last, why didn't you just tell me! I could have saved myself all this trouble! Emmett would probably be happier with someone else, and I wouldn't have had all this deranged guilt built up inside me!"
"I'm sorry! But, you definitely learned a lot from your mistake, didn't you. You guys should have broken up before he left, in my opinion. For example, how do you know that you were his first?"
"Umm, well, I trust him?"
"Bella, Emmett's a college guy now. He's in a bigger fish pond. How do you know that he didn't do to you what you did to him?"
"Well, I don't have a sister for one." Alice rolled her eyes. It was silent for a minute until Mark burst out laughing.
"All jokes aside, Bella, you really should have either finished it before things got so complicated, or told him about Edward. Because obviously, by the sounds of it, you feel more guilty about sleeping with your boyfriend than kissing his brother." Alice had a really good point. I had to find Emmett and Edward and tell them what a horrible person I've been.
"So is this a revelation?" I asked.
"I think it's a revelation." Alice looked back at me and smiled before I left the room to go find Edward.
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I found him in the living room playing video games with Jasper.
"Jazz, do you think I could steal Edward from you for a bit?"
"Sure! Go ahead! I was losing anyways" He said with a smile. You could always count on Jasper to help out the situation… in a good way of course.
"What's up? Is something wrong?"
"Umm, no, yes? I really don't know. Look can we just talk somewhere quiet?"
"Sure. You seem a bit, jumpy. You do know that if there was something wrong you could tell me, I'll always listen."
"I know, that's why I want to tell you that… that… umm…"
"Don't worry, if you don't want to say it then don't but if you want to, then just let it out."
"Please don't be mad."
"Don't worry, I could never stay mad at you."
"Um, okay. Here it comes… I slept with Emmett." His face looked pained for a second before he took a deep breath that softened his eyes and looked at me.
"Is this you choosing him over me then?"
"Not exactly, This is me having a revelation. This is me figuring out that I feel guilty when I sleep with my boyfriend, but not guilty when I kiss his brother. This is me telling you that I love you with all my heart and I understand if you never want to see me again. So pretty much, this is me being the biggest jerk ever."
"It definitely isn't because I have wanted to hear you say that since I came home from school!" He smiled, I smiled, and pretty much, it was like a fairytale moment. We kissed like they do in the movies, all giddy and excited, a little scared at how powerful the emotion is, but so in love that it hurts.
"So, how are we going to tell Emmett?" He asked me.
"Well, I wasn't really thinking about him while we were making out. Can we just go back to that? Because I would feel a hell of a lot better if we did."
"As much as I would LOVE to take you up on that offer, we've got to tell him. It's the right thing to do."
"Whatever, Mister Righteous." I smiled and kissed him one more time before heading in the house.
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EmPOV
Someone knocked on my door, which interrupted my train of thought. I was thinking about how great of a girlfriend Bella is. I have always considered her my girlfriend even though we didn't start dating until the beginning of last year. But, I feel bad. I feel terrible about what's going on at school. I mean, Bella is so cute and she is such a great girl, but Red, she's hot. She doesn't hold back like Bella does, Red is always in there. I am NEVER going to tell Bella about Red. I thought about it for a while and I thought about how she'd feel, but I quickly threw the thought away. She would not be cool with it. So, I thought that Red would just be my little secret. Well, until she started showing up at my bedroom window late at night. Damn, how she does it, I will never know. I always thought that Red was just for a little bit of fun, but now, I really think that I am falling for her. I spend a lot of time with her at school, and I've always spent a bunch of time with her here, but I've never really thought of her as my girlfriend. Just Red.
Well, back to the knocking sound. I yelled for them to come in and it was Red dressed up in a white bathrobe. I smiled a genuine smile (well for me) and then she took off that bloody bathrobe. And underneath was some red lacy piece of fabric. I couldn't take it anymore, I ran, and grabbed her.
"So, you like the outfit baby?"
"Damn straight, Red."
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BPOV
Edward and I walked up the stairs to Emmett's room to hear giggling. I thought maybe he was watching a funny movie in his room. I looked at Edward who squeezed my hand and gave me a look of re-assurance before walking in to meet my fate.
I didn't even think to knock because, hey, it's Emmett. But I really think I should have.
There on his bed, was a red lacy bustier-clad Rosalie straddling a very naked Emmett.
"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!" Edward screamed. "AND TO THINK THAT BELLA JUST CAME UP HERE TO APOLOGIZE TO YOU FOR FALLING IN LOVE WITH ME." That's when the tears started streaming down my eyes. Apparently, Emmett started crying too.
"Here I thought I was the ass for kissing her and loving her, but look at you. You're a fool. You think that just because you're in college now, you can fool around. Sure, I kissed Bella, but that's as far as it went. I didn't take advantage of her just because I felt like it, or just because I wasn't happy with my current relationship situation. You are such a pig Emmett Cullen."
"Would you care to explain yourself, Emmett?"
"Bella, I never thought you would find out. I thought you moved on too. I love you and that's why I slept with you a few days ago. I felt obligated to prove to you that I was still committed. Obviously you weren't."
"Yeah, Emmett, that's right. As I fell in love with you, I was slowly falling in love with someone else. And not to be rude or anything, I love him more. And this is exactly why. Edward was never careless about our relationship. He probably felt very guilty about it. And, he also helped me decide to be the bigger person, to tell you that I've fallen in love all over again. I can't do this anymore, Emmett. You're a great guy, well you were one, before I saw this. I trusted you. I gave you my virginity for crying out loud! And I was naïve enough to believe that you did too. I feel terrible for not telling you about Edward, but he was just a kiss here and there, I really started feeling guilty about it when he told me he loved me. I didn't tell him that I loved him back because I loved you more."
"Bella, stop." Rose started. "This whole thing is my fault. I liked him when you started dating him, and when I found out that we were going to school together, I started getting weird. Obviously, I took it too far. I feel so terrible about this whole thing, I should have never come here. I've just made your situations worse, I should leave now."
"No, Rose, Don't go. I want to hear what Emmett has to say for himself."
"Bells, Rose is right. I was being easy and looking for someone who would openly share a bed. I looked to Rose because I knew she would take me up on my offer, I knew she's liked me for years. I'm really sorry that it had to end like this, that you had to see that. I feel like a sick bastard now. The sad thing is, I really like Rosalie, but I think she thinks I'm a sick bastard too."
"Em, I don't think you're a sick bastard. Well, I love you." Rose said.
"After today, I don't really know how I feel about you yet, Rose. But I'll definitely keep that in mind."
"Emmett, I want to say that I hate you, but I don't. I extremely dislike you right now, but not hate. I'm upset that my better judgement had to lead to me seeing this, but truth be told, I understand where you're coming from. I don't agree with it, but I understand. This whole situation would have been so much better if I told you about Edward sooner. But, I guess I'm learning from my own mistakes. Not that you were a mistake, but you know, learning from… experiences."
"Then this has been one hell of an experience." Emmett said.
"That's for sure."
"So, this is goodbye?"
"I guess so. Bye Bells, it was great while it lasted."
"Yeah. Have fun with Rose. I won't interrupt you guys as long as you don't interrupt us?"
"Deal."
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I was still upset about Emmett, but I guess I was kinda doing the same thing to him. I know now that I will always be truthful in me and Edward's relationship. But then again, I would have missed out on a lot of fun in our relationship. Sneaking out was a big part of all the joy I felt with him.
A/N: Okay, so how was that to take in? There is lots on that plate today. And I thought this chapter was going to be short.
So about a minute ago, the entire chapter gets erased, and it's like seven pages or something. So I pretty much freaked out until I realized I could undo what I just did. So, I got my work back!
Anyways, that chapter was really long and rambling and I don't think it was that good. So please A REVIEW TO TELL ME HOW I DID WOULD BE EXTRA NICE :D
Oh another thing, how would you guys feel about me doing a Twilight-Harry Potter crossfic? Yes? No? review/ PM me and tell me your thoughts :D