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As always when Harry wanted the time to stop, or at least slow down, it went by even quicker than before.

It was the day before they all left for Hogwarts. The last day he would be able to spend with Sirius… and what bothered him more for the first time since he had ever learned that he had a godfather… Remus.

Remus hadn't gone to work that morning, but Harry got up early anyway. They wanted to spend another morning together. He really would miss these early mornings that was for sure. They still hadn't been able to tell anybody about what was going on between them, and when Harry lay there this morning, he nervously waited for Remus to break up with him.

Remus realized how tense Harry was and started moving his hands over his shoulders in slow circles, moving down his back and waited for the younger man to relax under his warm touch. It didn't happen though and Remus turned Harry towards him, so that he could look in those green eyes.

"What's wrong, love?" he asked softly.

"What's wrong?" Harry repeated.

"I love you. That's wrong. I love you and tomorrow I'll be leaving and there are going to be many miles between us… we won't be able to see each other… I'm sitting here, waiting for you to break up. That's okay, I knew it would happen. I can see the lust in your eyes. A perfect man like you doesn't have to stay in a relationship with some immature jerk!" Harry turned away to hide his tears. Remus let him hide them, but held on to Harry anyways.

"Harry, I love you, too!" The words sounded almost desperate.

"I don't care who else I could have. I love you and I will stay with you until you tell me to leave, because you're tired of an old wolf to keep you company. Love isn't something you deserve. It just is. And by the way… you should believe in yourself. You are totally amazing. Just because people made you think differently…" He paused. "They are jerks, Harry. They didn't have the right to break you down the way they did. I'm not going to break up and I'm not going to let the wolf control my being or who I'm with. It's bad enough as it is."

The last words came out slightly bitter. Harry looked up; afraid that he had hurt Remus, but all that he could see in those hazel eyes as worry and something else, something strong… it took him a moment to realize that it was love.

Harry leaned forward and when their lips met this time it was different than before. Harry wasn't careful, or scared, it was a kiss full of passion. Remus felt that hunger, while Harry's mind was still scared of anything more than kissing; his body was more than ready for it. He tried to control Moony while letting Harry push him down in the pile of pillows and blankets. Harry's hands were holding on to his shoulders, brushing lightly over his chest, why his tongue slipped into Harry's mouth.

After a few more seconds they both had to catch their breath.

Harry blushed and crawled back up to the wall of the small room. There he stopped, the hand on the doorknob and stared at Remus. Remus looked up at him confused and surprised.

"I-I'm sorry…" Harry murmured and looked down to watch his naked feet on the cold floor.

Remus just shook his head.

"There is no reason for you to be." He slowly rose, until he stood right in front of Harry, took the much smaller hands in his own, and then caught the soft lips of the younger man in another long, possessive kiss.

"I love you." He whispered breathlessly.

"I love you for what you are, for how you are. I love you and I wouldn't have you any other why."

Later on that day they all went upstairs to finish packing. A few weeks ago, Harry would have been more than happy to escape the loneliness of this house, the memories of sitting in this room, staring at the clouds moving past his window stuck in his head.

Times had changed though, and while removing last ropes from his wardrobe, he wasn't thinking of the loneliness he had felt. He thought of soft touches, understanding smiles and silent conversations.

Remembering another early morning he had spent with Remus, he overheard the knock on his door. When Sirius entered and sat down on his now empty bed Harry smiled at him a bit surprised while locking his huge luggage.

"Have you got everything that you need?" Sirius asked. They both felt strange. They weren't really used to this kind of situation. Fighting against Death Eaters side by side, no problem, or even realizing that they had lost a true friend during the battle.

Just the easiest things, the most normal things, reminded them of what Voldemort had destroyed: Harry's childhood. He hadn't had someone who took care whether he had got everything for school

Or someone who he would miss him when he left for another year of Hogwarts.

"I guess so," Harry replied quietly. It seemed that he should tell his godfather that he had a… well a boyfriend… but it seemed pretty awkward, considering that his boyfriend was the best friend of said godfather. He started pacing up and down his room without really noticing.

Harry? Is there something you wanted to tell me?" Sirius asked. Of course, he would notice. Harry should have known.

For a split second he saw Dumbledore before his inner eye asking him the same question. Remus had said himself that they both should never lie concerning their… relationship. It wouldn't feel right not to tell Sirius what was going on.

"I have a boyfriend." He choked out after a few minutes silence.

When he finally looked down into Sirius eyes, they shone happily.

"I'm so happy for you, Harry. Stop worrying that people are going to tell you that it's wrong. We all care deeply about you and we are happy that you've found the right person. We are your friends! We don't care who it is and both Remus and me will accept you the way you are." He smiled his typical smile at that.

Harry had already wondered when Sirius would mention his best friend. He had to tell the whole story, or he would feel insincere.

He was about to tell the whole story when the door was being opened and Remus entered. Harry was trying to react quickly, but his godfather was even faster.

"He's got a boyfriend." Remus stared at Harry for a moment and then – Harry didn't trust his eyes and ears for a moment – chuckled lightly.

Both Harry and Sirius stared at him in confusion, and then Remus crossed the room, took Harry's hands in his own and kissed him possessively.

Harry worried about what would happen for a moment, but then he realized that he just didn't care right then. He melted away and held on to Remus as if he was the only thing that kept him from falling down a fifty meters high cliff.

Sirius cleared his throat.

"Remus! What-"He looked in between them and then the bomb exploded.

"REMUS LET GO OF MY GODSON! FOR FUCK'S SAKE YOU ARE, I MEAN YOU CAN'T- HE IS JUST EIGHTEEN!" He jumped forwards to pull Remus away from him, but Harry quickly had taken Remus hand.

"Sirius, you said yourself-"

"I DON'T CARE WHAT I SAID! THIS IS DIFFERENT! YOU CAN'T FUCK MY GODSON SENSELESS LIKE HE'S A FUCKING DOLL OR SOMETHING HE'S TO YOUNG AND HE NEEDS SOMEONE WHO LOVES-"

"Are you about to say I don't love him? That I would use Harry?" For the first time that Harry could remember Remus sounded dangerous. His voice was a low growl, and for the first time that man reminded him of the wolf that slept within him.

"I understand that this may be a bit of a shock for you, but never ever, ever tell me I would use somebody, or hurt, or rape. I would never let Moony do this to somebody I care so deeply about. And if anybody knows this, Padfoot, then you. Calm down, relax and think about what you are going to say." He turned around and without letting go of Harry's hand he left his room.

Harry was in a shock. He wasn't exactly afraid of Remus, but it was a bit scary.

"Harry? Are you alright?" When Remus looked into those wide, green eyes he softly brushed Harry's forehead with his lips.

"Hey. I have myself in control. I can stop myself anytime, Harry. Did I ever hurt you?"

He looked down at him worriedly and Harry shook his head.

"S-sorry Remus, I was just-"he shook his head again, this time more to sort his thoughts.

"I need to fly. I'm sorry." He turned around and summoned his firebolt.

Before Remus could say another word he had reached the backdoor, opened it, swung one leg over the broomstick and disappeared in the blue afternoon sky.