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IX.

No, no,no,no!

NO!

"David, why?"

I couldn't wrap my head around what was unfolding in front of me.

David was still smiling that horrible smile, "Because, Sarah, you've wasted enough time. You have no other choice, you might as well get it over with."

"I was supposed to choose for myself, David." My voice was barely a whisper. When there was just one person in the cave that could offer me what I needed, the urge was a lot stronger than when I was on the crowded boardwalk. It was almost unbearable. I felt my entire body wanting to walk towards the girl. I was weaker against the thirst than I'd ever been.

A pair of hands landed on my shoulders and Dwayne knelt down to whisper in my ear.

"Come on, Sarah. You knew this day would come."

"It's too soon." I had to force the words out, past that horrible burning in my throat that had started again. Star's voice echoed around the cave as she sang along to the song that was playing.

The adrenaline rushing through her veins, no doubt from the excitement of her evening, was making my thirst painful.

"Sarah," Dwayne's voice was gentle, but his tone was firm, he wasn't playing around anymore, "You can do this. I'm right here, okay."

I nodded, letting him push me forward slowly.

This was it.

Star was spinning in circle, with her arms above her head holding a shawl.

This girl's life was about to end.

She stopped when she saw me walking towards her, and she smiled warmly at me.

Because of me.

"Hi there. I'm Star, what's your name?"

My whole body was cramping painfully, that burn making me want to collapse. I couldn't speak, I couldn't answer her, all I could think about was that I was about to kill this girl.

"The boys didn't tell me they had a girl in their group." Her smile was fading now, a slight expression of fear in her eyes. She had no idea of how scared she should be.

My shoulders were given a hard squeeze. Dwayne's presence was supposed to comfort me, I mean for crying out loud we were a couple. A screwed up version, but a couple nonetheless. But knowing he was behind me, and knowing what he wanted me to do, made him more of a monster than I'd ever thought him to be.

The boys were all staring at me, with blank expressions. They were growing impatient.

I can't do this!

"Are you okay?" Star's innocent question, and her worry, was the last straw.

I let out a scream of pain.

I pulled myself out of Dwayne's grip and ran out the cave. Scrambling through the entrance I ran to the railing and, despite my fear, I gripped the wood and knelt over, letting the spray from the waves assault my face. The night was cold, the usual fog and being so close to the water dropping the temperature, and I took several deep breaths. I was no calmer so I took a few more, the sound of my breathing nearly drowning out the waves.

My hair whipped around my face in the wind, and I slumped further over the rail, the ends of my hair almost touching the water.

The sound of footsteps behind me made me straighten up a bit. I was still breathing heavily, fighting tears.

"Sarah, don't do this now."

I turned to Dwayne and shook my head, my face twisted in despair, "I can't do it, Dwayne. I can't."

I heard him take in a sharp breath, his posture changing.

"Sarah, you know what will happen."

"I know, I know that. I thought the fear of dying would be enough, but it's not. I can't do it."

I felt my knees give out and I fell to the floor boards, too weak to even slide gracefully. I let my tears fall then, putting my head on my knees.

Hands took hold of my face and lifted it to meet Dwayne's eyes. "Sarah, we're meant to be together, remember? Don't give up now. You don't have to choose this."

I looked into his eyes and saw such sadness there. It made my heart break to see him so scared.

For me.

Dwayne. Tall, dark, mysterious Dwayne that didn't give a damn, was scared for me.

"Don't make me kill her, Dwayne. Please."

"Okay, okay." He took my hands, "It's your choice Sarah, I won't try to make it for you."
I let out a laugh of relief through my tears, wrapping my arms around him and crying onto his shoulder. Dwayne may have been a monster, and he may want the same life for me, but there was no doubt in my mind, though he'd never say it, that he loved me.

To let me choose, even though he knew I could decide not to feed, was the kindest thing anyone had ever done for me.

"Sarah?"

I mumbled a reply, suddenly too exhausted to speak. All I wanted to do was fall asleep with Dwayne holding me. That thirst really sucked all your energy away. I wanted to forget what just happened. I wanted Star to go home and tell her friends about the awesome night she had with the weirdest people she'd ever met.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Yeah."

"What happened to you?"

Through my tiredness I lifted my head and frowned at him. "What do you mean?"

"No other person I've ever known has been so scared of becoming one of us. You're pure. That doesn't just happen, so what made you that way?"

I could have answered that question with ease, there was no doubt in my mind about what had turned my life around so much. I valued human life. More than most. Because I knew personally about how easily it could end, especially when it wasn't meant to yet.

"One day I'll let you into my life, Dwayne, and you'll know everything about me good and bad. But that is not today. Please, don't ask me again."

He looked hurt for a second before he smiled and kissed my forehead, pulling me to him once more, "You are one hell of a puzzle, Sarah."

I let out a small laugh, "Well, you didn't want me to tell how old you were."

We sat there for a few more minutes before Dwayne pulled me up and led me back inside. Star was now sitting on the couch, chatting to Paul and Marko while David sat on his throne and listened.

That smile hadn't left his lips and when he saw me walking towards them, that smile deepened into a grin. He waved his hand to Marko and my heart leapt into my throat.

Star was too busy laughing at Paul to take any notice of me as I knelt next to David and whispered frantically to him.

"David, don't. I'm begging you don't do this to her."

David just smiled at me and took my hands, "Sarah, I think Star will adjust quite well."

"Somehow I get the feeling you said that about me too."

His eyes darkened slightly before he grinned again, "As much as you might think otherwise, little sister, this is a family we got going here. And Star needs a family."

He didn't care to say anything else to me because Marko was standing on his other side now, holding the special bottle. I wanted to reach out and smash it.

David held his hands out to Star as if to show her off, "A toast, to our new lost girl."

I felt a horrible pang in my chest when I heard that.

So there was the truth.

Just like that David had brushed past me and moved onto his next conquest. I was a failed attempt. I didn't want to accept his 'gift' so he was trying again with another innocent girl.

One he was only too keen to let die mere moments ago.

It filled me with an indescribable rage.

I was a play thing.

Nothing more.

I had never felt so betrayed in my life.

I looked over to Paul and Marko who were smiling knowingly at Star. They were excited.

That made my gaze move to Star who was staring at the bottle as it was passed to her.

I wished her luck.

She was going to need it.

Swallowing the urge to reach out and smash a brick over David's head, I stood up and walked calmly to the exit, ignoring the cheers that reached me as I stepped onto the steps.

Little Star had become one of them.

I didn't get half way up the steps when I received company.

"Where're you running off to?"

I felt my insides twist in anger, my grip on the railing turning my knuckles white.

I spun and glared at him. "None of your goddamn business!"

My scream didn't seem to upset him. Instead Dwayne raised his eyebrows, amused.

"Don't be upset, Sarah. I saw Star when we found her, she needs this. David was always going to turn her if you didn't..." he didn't have to finish the sentence.

"Really now, you think she would agree?"

"No, that's why we never ask anyone."

"I had no idea!" I didn't want to fight with him, he wasn't the one I was angry at, but I had to yell at someone otherwise I was going to throw myself into the ocean.

Dwayne just continued to smile, slowly walking up the steps. For every step he took, I took one as well, moving further up. I wasn't mad at him, but if he was going to carry on being so damn cheerful while I was clearly severely upset, then I was going to punch him.

"Dwayne, seriously. I am just a little bit pissed off right now, I would appreciate some privacy."

"Would you, now?"

"Stop it." My face was completely blank, but I could feel my eyes tearing up. Hopefully he couldn't see me blinking in the dark.

I sighed, giving up on trying to get him to understand what I was feeling. Why would he anyway? He'd agreed to turn me in the first place. A big part of me believed he didn't give a shit if something upset me. He might be my mate, and I believed that he loved me, but would he have looked twice had I not been turned?

Well, my night just reached a whole new level of shit.

"I want to go home."

I didn't say a word from when I started walking towards Dwayne's bike till I climbed off in front of my building.

It was funny how much my life could pinball all over the place. Things went from fun to crap and back in the space of a day.

Dwayne's hand wrapped around mine and he pulled me so that I was leaning against the wall next to the door. His hands were on either side of my head.

"I didn't fall for you because you were turned, Sarah. You were turned because I fell for you."

"I thought you said you'd never tell me you loved me?" I couldn't speak above a whisper because my heart was racing so much. Could he hear it? Probably.

"I lied." And he brought his lips to mine in one of the most passionate kisses I have ever had.

The events of the night disappeared, as did my anger and hurt, as I melted into his embrace.

I threaded my hands into his hair as his arms encircled my waist and pulled me as close as he could without crushing me.

"Get a room!"

We pulled apart as a group of boys walked past and one yelled that.

Dwayne looked up at the stars with a very annoyed look on his face, making me laugh.

"Goodnight, you." I stood on my tiptoes to kiss his cheek, but his hands went to my waist and held me in place.

"That's it?"

My eyes widened slightly, but I was smirking a little as well, "And what else could you possibly want?"

His lustful grin was the only answer I needed.

I don't think there are words for an experience like that.

For a while we only kissed, his hands never straying further than what was considered 'safe', until I started tugging on his jacket and he pulled away and gave me a serious look.

I groaned inwardly, thinking he was about to ask me if 'I was sure about this', but he didn't.

Instead he said, "I could hurt you, Sarah."

I gave him a small smile, "This won't be my first time, Dwayne."

"No, I mean I could hurt you."

I realized his meaning and shook my head, telling him it was okay, "I trust you."

After that it was like he exchanged all control for desire, and I lost all emotions except for pleasure and love for the man I was with.

He wasn't there when I woke up at around noon. Normally I'd have been insulted and gone after him with a kitchen knife.

But expecting Dwayne to stay would mean ashes. I don't think he cared that much.

When I tried to sit up and pull on my jersey, I realized how sore I was.

Damn it. Dwayne was not exaggerating when he warned me.

I ran my hands along several light bruises on my arms noticing that the ones further up and around my neck had little teeth marks that tingled when I touched them.

Love bite.

Haha, very funny Dwayne.

But despite being nearly unable to move, I was happier than I could ever remember. I was still in a daze as I got up and went to shower before work, but this time it wasn't out of thirst and it wasn't from being in the sun. By the time I arrived at the store, the bruises and bite marks had vanished, leaving behind untouched skin. So being a vampire had some perks.

The boys were hanging out near the concert arena when I left work, the band sounding pretty cool, but for once they did not look happy.

I walked up to them and asked, "Why so glum, guys?"
Marko scoffed and David said darkly, "Star is being… difficult."

I couldn't help but smirk at the turn of events.

"Difficult how?"

"She's been throwing tantrums nonstop since the sun set, we left her there about an hour ago. Gave up trying to help her." Said Paul, his arms folded and an annoyed scowl on his face.

No smirk.

This was serious.

I shrugged my shoulders, looking at all of them, "Well, I'd say you guys have a problem there don'tcha?"

David gave me a dirty look, "You're enjoying this aren't you?"

I licked my lips and sighed, "Immensely."

Dwayne stepped up next to me and took my hand, obviously trying to be the reasonable one, "Look can you help?"

"With what exactly?" I had a feeling I knew exactly what they wanted me to do, and was I going to help. Probably not.

"Just… calming her down." Marko sounded as if he'd tried multiple times and failed.

"Oh, but despite what I might think this is a family thing you got going here, and Star needs a family."

Oh, if looks could kill, being a vampire wouldn't have kept me alive.

I sighed loudly, "Alright, alright. But if she throws something at me I'm not going to be responsible for her injuries."

Little did I know how appropriate those words were.

The boys took me to the Bluff and said they'd give the girls a moment alone. So I trudged down the steps and called out as I stepped into the cave.

"Anyone home?"

I was greeted by something glass smashing on the wall right next to my head. I can't say I was surprised, and I think Star was a little more than pissed that she'd missed and that it hadn't at least given me a fright.

I looked from the shards on the floor to her with a very annoyed look on my face.

"That was not very nice."

I only hoped I didn't look like that when I first turned.

Star looked like crap.

Dark circles were under her eyes, and she was pale even in this dark room.

I stuck my hands into my pockets and looked around, trying to avoid her furious gaze.

"Sooo, how's it going?" I know I sounded like a fool, but I did not want to talk to her anymore. I mean, the girl had just tried to smash my head in with a vase! It didn't inspire much of a kind attitude I'm afraid.

"What's happening to me?!" she shrieked. Her voice was shrill and scared.

I knew there was no point in trying to sugarcoat it, "You're turning into a vampire, Star."

"The boys said so, but vampires don't exist!" I could see a slight shimmering on her cheeks. Poor thing.

"Well, I doubt it's the flu, hon."

Star looked at me with such fear and sadness in her eyes, I actually felt a little pang. She looked so helpless. Kind of like how Laddie looked that first night.

She sank down to sit on the floor, pulling her knees up to her chest and hugging them.

I sighed and walked further into the room, having not moved since I was greeted so politely.

"Look, I know it's terrifying, alright? I've been where you are, quite recently, I know what it's like."

My voice was a lot gentler, and it made Star at least look at me with a little less anger.

So I carried on, sitting down on a broken piece of pillar next to her, "It's not the end, okay? As much as you might think it is, this isn't the end of your life."

It would be the end of mine if I didn't feed soon, but I didn't tell her that. She had enough to worry about already.

"Is that what they told you?"

I laughed despite the grim situation, "No, the boys seemed to have preferred to let me figure it out on my own. But you're lucky," I nudged her shoulder with my elbow, "You've got me. And I'll be here."

Oh God why was I being so nice?!

It was because I knew now how much I wished someone had been so kind to me when I was changing.

Being that support for someone else made my suffering a little easier.

Star wiped her eyes and looked up at me, "What's it like?"

"I'm not a vampire yet, I'm half, like you. But your life is in the dark now, and if you want to survive you're going to need the boys."

They hadn't been all that helpful to me, but I hoped since she was having such a hard time maybe they'd show her more compassion.

Don't be so naïve Sarah!

"I thought you said you'd help me?"

"I will, but we're going to need all the help we can get."

"She's right Star."

We both turned to David who was standing just below the entrance.

He walked forward, "We're lost boys… and girls," he said with a smiling glance in my direction, "we look out for each other."

That much was true.

I had yet to be abandoned by the boys, despite them pissing me off repeatedly.

I took Star by the arm and pulled her up, going to the exit.

"Come on, chick."

David stepped into my path, earning him a glare, "Where're you going?"

"She's going to spend the night at my house."

"Sarah-"

"David." I interrupted him before he could try and exert his power on me. "Just trust me on this, okay?"

He looked ready to argue, but then after a moment he nodded.

Outside the boys asked where I was going and after I told them, Dwayne took hold of my arm as I tried to leave with Star.

"You don't want a ride?"

I shook my head at him, "Nah, I think Star could use the fresh air." I reached up and pulled his head down to kiss him briefly, "Besides, I know you'll follow us anyway, so do me a favour and stay out of sight?" I wasn't being cruel or anything, but I also didn't want to feel coddled all the time.

He smiled as if he'd been caught out, which he kind of had, and kissed my head before saying, "I'm really jealous of Star right now."

"Why?" I could feel a smile growing on my lips, butterflies in my stomach and all that cliché stuff.

"Because she's getting all of your attention."

"Aw, don't worry, I'll be back soon."

And I turned and left, threading my arm through Star's.

As we walked, she kept asking me questions about my life and what I knew about the boys, which now that I thought about it wasn't much, and more questions about being a vampire.

Then, just before we reached the boardwalk she asked me her most important question.

"How do we put makeup on without a reflection?"

"Carefully."

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A/N: So Sarah has a new BFF!

Unfortunately I won't be updating again for a while, I'm going on a course for work and there will be no time for creativity.

Until we meet again, my lovely readers.