Random: Hiiiiii! I know, I'm terrible.

Hikaru: You are.

Random: You are so nice Hikaru. -.-

Hiakru: :)

Random: So I' not even going to give you an excuse even tho it was justifiable ( I was moving out my dead grandmothers house and there was no wifi) so yeah. But I got this done! And I'm rather proud of it. I like how I wrote James' speech. His speech is exactly how I view what he is talking about. And it's a play off my favorite quote from the live action Peter Pan. "To live would be an awfully big adventure" God I love that quote! :D

Hiakru: So WARNINGS: I don't really think there is any...besides a reason for you to hate Random more! ;D

Kaoru: DISCLAIMER: She does not own BTR but she did go see-

Random: OMG I ALMOST FORGOT! I WENT TO ONE OF THEIR CONCERTS! AND I TOUCHED LOGAN AND CARLOS WAVED AT ME AND JAMES WAVED AT ME AND KENDALL LOOKED AT ME FOR LIKE 30 SECONDS AND ALKGDJBGALDGHIAGBADGKBABG! Yeah it was awesome! I was the fourth row Floor! I was so happpppyyy! And I got a Kames moment! They ran into each other and I swear James gave Kendall this little smile that melted me! GAH!

Kaoru: She had fun. Although their was these two little blond bimbos sitting next to her that barley even moved the whole time.

Random: Yeah, oh and Jackson Guthy is awesome. He has an amazing voice and he's good at getting the crowd going. I am now a fan! :D

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Kendall woke to warmth and his head slowly moving up and down. The first thing he realized was that his head was resting on someone's chest and that was why it was rising and falling, the second thing being there was only one other body in the bed besides his own, and the last thing was comprehending that it was James.

He looked up and smiled at the sight of a sleep rumpled James. "G'mornin'," James mumbled.

"Morning," Kendall replied, smiling.

James sat up, but kept Kendall close. "How you feeling?" James asked soothingly.

Kendall looked back down, not completely sure what to say. "I'm...I'm better, I guess."

"I'm so sorry."

Kendall sat up and shook his head. "No, James. This was not your fault. It's my mom's for not loving me like she should, it's mine for not talking to you guys and letting random guys use my body. It's not your fault." He said sternly.

"But-"

Kendall put a hand over James' mouth, "Shh, no. Not your fault." Kendall looked into James' sad eyes. "Please, James. This is the first time in months I've felt this relaxed and close to you. Let's...just let me enjoy being myself again."

James looked like he wanted to protest, but didn't, nodding so Kendall knew he understood. Kendall let his hand drop and he settled back into James' chest. James closed his eyes and breathed in deeply, smelling the overwhelming scent of Kendall's mint shampoo and the distinct smell of pancakes.

"Why do people let themselves fall in love?" Kendall blurted out suddenly. "Why do people get their hearts broken over and over again, why do they go through all that pain just because they are in love? It doesn't make sense." Kendall rambled, blushing right after his little rant.

James squeezed Kendall closer. "Because...Because it's an adventure." James replied, smiling at the warm feeling enveloping him. "And everyone loves a good adventure."

Kendall snorted, "Okay Peter. Faith, trust, and pixie dust." The blond mocked.

"No, really. People love the feeling of falling into someone. Learning their likes and dislikes, things that make them moan in annoyance and then moan in pleasure. It's like a treasure hunt, tracing the cracks in their armor and finding the gold that lies underneath the layers you dig away at. You get to feel the thrill of joy when they smile or the crushing fear when they are so mad at you, you can't breath. Exploring the depths of their personality, unlocking the parts you only get to see, figuring out the puzzle and defeating the boss on the other side."

Kendall stayed silent, looking up at James again, hands smoothing over James' chest, soaking it in. Then, James continued, "Because falling in love is an awfully big adventure. And, just like you said, requires faith, trust, and just a little pixie dust."

Kendall's heart seemed to snap back into place a little as James finished his speech. They locked eyes and the world seemed to fade. James' words seemed to describe it perfectly. He fell in love with James after years of trying to get close to him and figuring him out. But even now, he still couldn't completely figure the brunet out, even after knowing James since kindergarten, he was still such a mystery, an adventure Kendall was still questing.

And in this moment, it seemed like the last bit of falling in love fell into place, the pixie dust finally sprinkling it's magic on them. They moved closer together like the opposite charges of magnets, pulling together and couldn't be stopped. Kendall could feel James' breath on his lips, almost taste him on his tongue. The blond reached up and placed a hand on James' cheek, stopping him from moving any further. Kendall's eyes were closed to prevent himself from looking at the boy he wanted most. Because if he did, the last ounce of his self control would evaporate.

He took a moment to just feel the warmth on his lips from James' breath and the heat radiating from his body. But he couldn't have this...

Carlos.

"Is this what you feel about Carlos?" He whispered, lips barely brushing against James'. This was enough, he could live with this.

"Yeah," James whispered back, moving his head farther away, his body farther away. "Yeah, Carlos." Kendall opened his eyes to look at James, but he was turned away and getting out of the bed, heading to the bathroom.

Kendall laid back down and tried not to cry. He had no idea what just happened or what it meant. James was in love with Carlos...or at least he thought. He didn't know what was going on, but it felt like James was holding something back. He just didn't know what...

Deciding that he would figure it out later, he got out of bed and went to the kitchen, seeing Logan making breakfast and Carlos and Katie at the counter.

Katie jumped out of her chair and ran to Kendall, jumping into his arms. "I'm staying with you, big brother. She shouldn't have done that to you."

Kendall felt his heart mend just a little more. "But Katie, she didn't do anything to you, just me. You should still see her."

"No!" She said firmly, "I don't care if she didn't do anything to me, no one should get away with not taking care and loving their only son. And until she sees what she has done is wrong, she also no longer has a daughter."

Kendall felt his eyes well with tears. "I love you, baby sister." He said softly.

Katie pulled back with a choked laugh. "Put me down before I start crying." She giggled.

Kendall smiled and set her down. "You're getting too big for that anyway." He joked. She rolled her eyes and punched him, going over to the couch to play with her IPad. He sat down next to Carlos. "What's for breakfast?"

"Pancakes." Logan said, setting a plate down in front of Kendall.

"Hey! I was here first!" Carlos groaned.

"I like Kendall better." Logan teased, sticking his tongue out at Carlos, but serving him shortly after.

James walked in after a while, looking distracted. "Hey," he said, kissing Carlos' cheek. Kendall caught James whispering something he couldn't make out before he pulled back. Logan handed him a plate and he sat down to eat.

Kendall finished rather quickly, jumping up and smiling at everyone. "Welp, I'm going to the pool to hang with Jett and his brother."

"Jett has a brother?" Carlos asked.

Kendall nodded. "Um...yeah, the guy you saw me with."

"They look nothing alike!" Logan exclaimed.

"Half-brothers" Kendall said with a shrug.

"Oh...but we wanted to do something together."

"You can come with me. I'm not going to just dump Jett and his brother because I have you guys back. I'm so happy about that, but Jett and Eric were there when you weren't. I have a bond with them that you wouldn't understand, just like they don't understand my bond with you guys." Kendall explained, looking at each of them. "I'm not fixed guys, it's going to take some time for me to feel normal again. So you can come with me or not." Kendall shrugged, stealing some of Carlos' bacon and walking out the door.

"He just stole my bacon!" Carlos gasped, scandalized.

Logan rolled his eyes, handing him more bacon, "Yes, Carlos. That was the most important part of that whole speech." Carlos grumbled at Logan as he took a bite out of his new piece.

"Well," Katie cut in, "I'm off to Rocque Records, because Gustavo just texted me and needs me to talk Griffin out of some baaaaaad plan. See ya, dorks!" She said, waving to them as she walked out of the room.

Logan took off the apron he'd been using and moved the pans off the stove. "I'm going to take Kendall up on his offer and hang out with him at the pool. Get to know Jett and that other dude, seems like they're sticking around. You coming?"

"Yeah, in a minute." James answered. "Carlos and I have to talk about something first."

Logan looked between the two for a second before shrugging. "Alright then. See ya in a bit."

James watched Logan walk out the door then to Carlos' curious gaze. "I think it's time to stop this."