*Author's Note*
Once again, a huge thank you to everyone reading this and reviewing. WARNING!! This chapter is definitely rated M. Hope you enjoy:)Chapter 10
Kylo returned to his room to find Rey reading one of the books that she had gotten off of his bookshelf. When he took off his helmet and caught sight of her looking at him, he could feel his stomach turn. This would be their last night together. Possibly ever. In one day from now, she won't be sitting on his bed. She will be aboard a ship on her way to the Resistance base while he would be here, possibly getting killed by Snoke. No, not possibly. Once Snoke knows that Rey got away, he would kill Kylo in the blink of an eye. Shaking his head, Kylo focused on the present. His last night with Rey. He was going to make it count.
"What wrong?" Rey asked him as he took off his boots. She could tell that something was off with him. She tried to slip into his mind but there was a barrier blocking her. He didn't want her to see. "I killed Hux," was all he said. He couldn't tell her the plan. If he did, she would try to make him come with her, and he couldn't. He needed tonight to be a happy night. "Kylo-"
"Rey I have to tell you something," he began as he made his way towards her and sat on the edge of the bed. He gently took hold of her hand, lightly chuckling at the size difference, and continued, "When I first met you, well, fought you back on Takodana, I felt a strong connection. I brought you back to Starkiller not only to get the map, but to explore the strange pull I was feeling towards you. When I started training you, I was amazed at your talent. You were so strong with the Force, so brilliant at exhibiting it's ways. Rey, you are stronger than I ever was. You have the ability to do so much, yet I keep you captive. You are almost finished with your training, but there's one more thing," he stood up and went over to his cabinet, pulling out a bag. Returning to her, he dumped its contents on the bed. Rey was confused when she saw all the scraps of metal pieces. "It's time for you to make your own saber. I can't tell you what to do this time. You just have to feel it and believe in yourself. I have to go talk to the new general, so I'll be back in a little while," he said, while pulling his mask back on. "May the Force be with you," Kylo stated as he walked out of his room.
Rey sat on the bed, not sure of what to do. She pulled her kyber out of her pocket and placed it in front of her. She looked all of the metal pieces over, and began to maneuver them to fit together. She placed her crystal in the middle and fashioned the metal to fit around it. She had seen many different lightsabers through Kylo's teachings and in the books she read. All of them were different to fit each Force-user's personality, so she did the same. She made two openings, one on each side of the cylinder that she had formed with the pieces. Finally, after about two hours, she had completed it. She ignited it then, and watched as the two golden spears shot out from each side of the base. She waved it around and laughed, feeling the pride swim through her body. I did it. I made my own lightsaber.
"A staff? You made a staff?" An amused Kylo said. Rey didn't even hear him enter. Turning around, she met his eyes and laughed with him. "I'm proud of you. It was the perfect choice," he began. He wished he could've told her the truth as to why she needed to make her lightsaber. It wasn't entirely because she was finished with her training. She would need it to escape the base, to escape him.
Kylo sat down on the bed and motioned for her to sit beside him and so she turned off her lightsaber and moved towards him. "Rey, what I told you earlier, I'm not finished. There's more," he said, turning slightly so that he was facing her. This was it. He needed to get this out. "When I found out about our Force-bond, I was ecstatic. That was the connection that I felt in the forest on Takodana and in the interrogation room. We are connected Rey, in a very special way that not many have experienced. But even without our connection, I feel as if I would have still felt what I'm feeling for you right now. I felt it all the way back when we were training here. I felt it on Naboo. And since then, it's only gotten stronger. Rey, you're bringing me into the light and I love it. I... I love you. You are my light, my... my everything. I wouldn't have gotten through this last month without you and your light. I love you so much that it hurts."
Rey gasped as tears rolled down her face. She had never been loved before. She had never been told that someone loved her until this moment, and she had never told anyone that she loved them. "I love you too," she said as their eyes met. "I've never felt this feeling before, and it's so strong. I feel the love that you have for me, and I have the same feelings. I love you, so much that it hurts me too." He grabbed her face with his hands and moved so that their lips were mere centimeters apart. They didn't speak. They just looked into each other's eyes and felt their connection ripple through them. Slowly, they both leaned in and when their lips touched, sparks flew through the air. As their kiss became more intense and more passionate, both of their hands started to wonder. Rey felt his muscles threw his shirt as her hands explored his chest, while Kylo felt the curves of her hips. He could feel himself hardening and his mind immediately thought of Rey. Is she ready? What if she doesn't want to do this? "Rey," he said, trying to get out more but she silenced him with her lips. "Rey, do you-"
"Yes. I want to," she said while nodding. He repositioned himself so he could lean against the headboard and she climbed into his lap, straddling his hips. He reattached his lips to hers and she moaned into his mouth, making Kylo impossibly more hard. Rey could feel him against her inner thigh and she smiled into the kiss. She bit his bottom lip and he reciprocated the moan that she had made earlier. She could feel the pool forming in her panties. When she reached for the hem of his shirt, her fingers stopped and she looked into his eyes. She had seen him shirtless before, but never like this. He gave her a reassuring nod and she pulled his shirt up over his head, tossing it to the side. She ran her hands up and down his chest, fixated on the hard muscles and scars that lined his rib cage and pecks. "One day, I want you to tell me how you got each and every one of these," she said. Kylo gave her a nod, knowing that he would never get the chance.
He flipped them over then so he was towering over her, supporting himself up on his elbows so he wouldn't crush her. He buried his face into her neck and left her a mix of kisses, bites, and licks. He dragged his tongue to the spot right under her ear and bit down, eliciting another moan from her. He tended the bite with another lick and a few kisses and moved his way back towards her throat. He licked from her collarbone to her chin, and then made his way to her lips once more. His hands found the hem of the the t-shirt she was wearing and he stopped, looking at her for approval. She nodded her head, and he lifted the shirt above her head and threw it carelessly across the room. Her breast-band was the only thing standing in his way from her bare skin, so he took that off of her as well. His mouth immediately went to her right breast while his hand massaged the other. He swirled his tongue around her nipple and then put his mouth over it, sucking. Rey closed her eyes and reveled in the feel. He kissed his way across her chest to work on her other breast, giving it the same treatment. When he was satisfied with the work he had done, he slowly kissed his way back up to her mouth.
Rey could barely control herself when she felt Kylo's hands drifting lower and lower, until they landed on the waistband of her pants. He moved them down torturingly slow until they were off of her and across the room, joining her shirt. She was laying under him in nothing but her panties, and suddenly she felt a little embarrassed.
"You're so beautiful," Kylo told her as he undid his pants and pushed them off of him. Now, he was only in his boxers. He kissed her again, moving his hand underneath the thin cloth, making her breathe in sharply. He cupped her sex, his middle finger finding her entrance. Slowly, he stuck one finger inside her and started to move it in and out. She gripped his shoulders as he reached down and kissed her. Without breaking their kiss, he slid another finger in and continued pumping. Wow, she's tight. Rey whimpered when Kylo pulled his fingers out of her, wondering what he was doing. She opened her eyes, which immediately went downwards to stare at his manhood. Wow, it's huge! How will that even fit in me? Kylo heard this and chuckled, reaching for her panties and pulling them off of her. He hovered on top of her once more, lining himself up with her entrance. He paused to look down at her, once more asking for her permission. She looked him straight in the eye and said, "Make love to me, Kylo."
This was all he needed to hear. He slowly slid into her, making her cry out. It hurt, but it felt good at the same time, so Rey encouraged him to continue. Kylo went slow at first, but eventually picked up his pace. The room was filled with grunts and moans, and the occasional sound of one of them screaming the other's name. They watched each other the whole time, staring directly into their love's eyes. Rey wanted to flip them over and take charge, but since this was her first time, she didn't want to push it. She wanted him to do it. Kylo was almost at his breaking point when he spoke to her, "I want you to let go with me. Come with me." He reached down and rubbed her bundle until they were both screaming in ecstasy. He filled her with his seed and watched it drip out of her as he slowly pulled out. Rolling off of her, he gathered her up into his arms and kissed the top of her head.
"I love you."
"I love you too," she replied as they both drifted off into a deep sleep, dreaming about what they had just shared together.
Rey's eyes fluttered open and she sighed, thinking about what the two had done last night. They had both woken each other up at least twice each to continue their activities, and she was spent. Slowly, she tried to stretch her limbs but a pair of strong arms held her in place. Smiling, she leaned her head beck against his chest. She could feel his manhood pressed against her rear and she could feel her face get hot. She felt him stir as his arms loosened their hold, and she turned around to face him. His sleepy eyes opened slightly but closed quickly, the smile never leaving his face. Rey began to get out of bed when he pulled her against him. "Don't leave yet," was all he said.
She laughed and rested her hands on his. "I need to take a shower. I feel... dirty from last night."
"Can I join you?" Replied his tired voice.
Rey chuckled to herself and removed his hands from her stomach. "Fine," she said as she hopped out of bed. She was a little sore and she could tell her walk was a bit off, but she decided to just walk it off.
Their shower was filled with a couple rounds of love-making and by the time they left the bathroom, it was already noon. "I need to go check up on things. I'll be back soon. I love you," he said before giving Rey a peck on the lips and shoving his helmet on. Rey watched him leave the room and sighed, falling back onto the bed. She thought about everything he told her last night, and everything they did. She was so incredibly happy. She decided to meditate in order to sort out all of her feelings and to relax, since her stomach fluttered every time she thought of him.
She was awoken from her spell because of a loud siren. Kylo's room was blinking red and the siren was so incredibly loud. What's going on? Rey could feel the presence of... no. That's impossible. There's no way that they're-
Kylo walked through the door and straight up to Rey. "What's going on?"
"Just follow me," he said as he walked out the door, with her behind him. The hallways were flickering with the same red lights that were in his room and the sirens continued screeching. He could sense where the trio that would take Rey to the Resistance base was. He felt them, a couple turns away, and he turned to her. "You have to listen to me very closely. I'm going to tell you where to go to meet up with your friends. You'll go with them without me to the Resistance base. I've seen the entire map to Luke Skywalker, and I will share it with you. You will go to him and complete your training as a Jedi. You will forget about me and live the rest of your life as a Jedi. Do you understand?"
There were so many thoughts going through Rey's head. She wouldn't go. Not without him. "What about you? What will happen to you?"
"Don't worry about me."
"He'll kill you. Won't he? That's why you're making me leave. He'll kill you and he'll kill me too. Well I'm not leaving," she said putting her hands on her hips and standing her ground.
"Rey listen to me. It will be worse for you if you stay. There's a chance he might not kill me," he lied, but continued, "And if I go with you, Snoke will hunt me down and kill me no matter what. I'm giving you your freedom. Take it." Kylo was hurting. His chest burned with every word he said.
Rey was crying now. "I don't want my freedom. Not without you. Please come with me," she begged.
Kylo wanted to, he really did, and she wouldn't go without him. "Okay, I'll go, I just have to go and speak with one of the officers first. Continue down this hallway and take the next left and then a right," he told her. He hated lying to her. Of course he wasn't going to go. There was no way he was getting on that ship. Especially with Han Solo. They couldn't be together anymore.He kissed her again and walked off in the opposite direction. He needed to find Han Solo. He had no choice. The only way that he would make himself let Rey go was if he could disappoint her so much that she didn't want him to go with her. He would make her hate him.
Rey did what Kylo had told her and took a left. When the next right came, she sharply turned and ran right into a large fuzzy thing. "Chewie!" She yelled, hugging the Wookiee tightly. When she pulled away, she saw Finn and Han and hugged them both. "What happened to you? Did he hurt you?" Finn asked her. "What are you guys doing here?" She asked him, ignoring his question. Chewie roared, and Rey understood him. "What did he say?" Asked Finn.
"That it was your idea," Rey said while hugging him again. "Thank you."
"How did you get away?" He asked Rey.
She didn't want to tell him. "I can't explain it. And you wouldn't believe it." She could tell he wanted to ask more, but Han interrupted him. "Escape now. Hug later," was all he said, motioning for them to follow. Kylo, where are you? She asked him through the bond. She got no reply.
Finn and Rey were to wait until Han and Chewie placed bombs around a specific part of the base. She was so worried about Kylo. He wasn't replying to her, no matter how hard she tried. She was also worried about Han and Chewie. They were taking a very long time. Finn and Rey made the decision to go in and check on them. They entered through a door that was on the upper level. Walking in, Rey looked down and saw Kylo and Han facing each other on a walkway, and they were gradually getting closer. A pit surrounded them, a pit so deep that Rey couldn't see the bottom. Suddenly, she felt worried. Worried for Han and worried for Kylo. Light from the doorway they had entered in from shown down on the two, making a spotlight. What are you doing? She asked him. His mask tilted up to her for a second, and then back on his target. He didn't reply.
"Take off that mask. You don't need it." Han said to him.
"What do you think you'll see if I do?"
"The face of my son." Rey gasped. Kylo was the son of Han Solo? Oh no.
They were still a distance apart, but Kylo's hands went up to find the buttons on his helmet and he took it off. She could see his face from where she was standing, but not clearly. She could feel the rush of emotions going through him. Fear. Regret. Conflict.
"Your son... is gone. He was weak and foolish, like his father. So I destroyed him." What is he doing?
"That's what Snoke wants you to believe. But it's not true. My son is alive."
"No. The Supreme Leader is wise." He had to do this. He had to make her hate him.
"Snoke is using you for your power. When he gets what he wants, he'll crush you." I know. I want him dead just as much as you do. There's something we have in common. "You know it's true."
There was a long pause in the conversation, which made Rey uneasy. She knew that Kylo didn't have a good childhood. Was it because of him? She was worried about what Kylo would do to him if it was his fault. "It's too late," Kylo said.
"No it's not. Leave here with me. Come home." You have no idea how much I want to. Not for you, but for her. The woman I love. "We miss you."
Once again there was a long pause in the conversation until Kylo spoke. "I'm being torn apart. I want to be free of this pain. I know what I have to do but I don't know if I have the strength to do it." Rey's heart broke at his words. What is he talking about? It's not... It can't be. "Will you help me?"
"Yes. Anything." They were face to face now. Rey could feel Kylo's mind battling against different scenarios. What is he planning on doing?
Kylo dropped his helmet and undid his lightsaber from his belt. What? They looked each other in the eye as Kylo held it out to him. She felt his hesitation, his struggle. Han placed his hand on the saber as the light from the outdoors dimmed. Rey took her eyes off of the two for only a second for the first time since their conversation started. She looked back at them and that's when she felt it. She knew what he was going to do a moment before he actually did it, but her mind didn't register. Everything happened so fast. Kylo hit the button, illuminating his red lightsaber, and it pierced through Han, sticking out of his back. She heard Chewie roar. "NO!" she screamed at the top of her lungs. Tears were falling down her face as she watched the two's interaction. Kylo pushed the saber impossibly deeper, and said "Thank you." before he pulled it out of Han's chest. He raised a hand and put it on Kylo's face before Kylo let him fall into the abyss surrounding them. Rey could feel his emotions, his conflicts, but all she heard was another one of Chewie's roars before he shot him with his bowcaster, making Kylo fall to his knees. Immediately, Rey sprung into action. She ran across the ramp and down the flights of stairs faster than she had ever moved before. She was livid at Kylo, but she had to get to him. She hated him now, but she wouldn't let him lay there and bleed.
She sprinted onto the walkway, ignoring Finn's calls for her. As she approached him, she knelt down in front of his hunched-over body and grabbed his bloody hand. "What are you doing?" he asked her. This was not his plan. She was supposed to be disgusted by him and leave him there to rot, not save him. "I love you, remember? No matter how much I hate you right now, I can't just let you bleed out," she explained to him. "Now come on, we need to get you to the ship," she ordered. I just killed my father for nothing. Kylo didn't think he'd ever feel so vulnerable. He hated his father, that's for sure, but when his saber went through him, he wanted to cry. He'd disappointed his father, his mother, Rey, and himself.
She wrapped her arm around his waist, pressing her hand to his wound to try to stop the blood. He had his arm around her shoulder as she helped him walk. They had to be very careful, for one little misstep could result in them both falling off into the pit. Once they made it across safely, Rey made her way for the stairs and pulled him along, step by step. She was afraid that he wouldn't make it, but they had to keep going. "Rey, leave me," he huffed out. She ignored him and continued to drag him along.
Once outside, she met up with Finn and Chewie. "What are you doing? Did you not just see what he did? What he's capable of? He's a monster!" Finn yelled at her. She knew all of these things were true, but bit her lip. "Where's the ship? Lead me to it."
The four trudged through the snow, with Kylo and Rey leaving behind trails of blood. He was walking more, rather than being dragged, but he still couldn't move fast enough for Rey's liking. Finally, the ship was insight, and low and behold, they had brought the Millenium Falcon. Before they could board, Kylo stopped her. "You know that if I go with you then Snoke will find me and kill me. This will put you and all of your friends in even more danger." Rey swallowed and looked up at him. She was glad that they left his helmet behind. "That's a risk I'm willing to take. I'm not leaving you here," she said as she pulled him up the ramp and into the ship. She laid him down on a cot and sat beside him long enough to speak one sentence. "I'll be back once we take off," was all she said as she got up and sat in the pilot's seat. She shared a glance with Chewie before they took off, flying away from Starkiller and towards the Resistance base.
*Author's Note*
Well, this chapter was jam packed! Please please please leave a review! Next chapter should be up by either Tuesday or Wednesday.