Italics are thought, and "" are dialogue
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BTW THIS IS A EVENTUALLY SLASH, CARGAN AND A HINT OF KAMES. DON'T LIKE, DON'T READ. But do try =].
Chapter 10 - Illogical travel
It's a typical morning in 2J. Mrs. Knight made bacon, eggs, pancakes, both round and dinosaur shape and freshly sneezed orange juice. Everyone sans Carlos is sitting at the dining table grabbing things to eat.
"Where's Carlos?" Katie asks making herself a cup of coffee.
"No Katie." Mrs. Knight says grabbing the cup. "You're too young for coffee."
Katie sighs and grabs a cup of OJ instead, waiting for someone to answer.
"He's probably still sleeping. He was sick yesterday." Kendall says forking a bacon strip in his mouth."
"Nope. He ran out this morning to find something for his little lover." James says giving the blushing boy across him a wink.
"Well, whatever he is doing, at least he is not sick." Logan adds quickly.
Mrs. Knight joins them for breakfast sitting down drinking a sport drink. "So what is going on these days?"
"I'm this close to getting Dak to sign a contract with me." Katie gestures with her fingers.
"Sadly 'The Face' did not get a contract, again." James emphasizes sternly the word "again."
"I learned that I would jump off a cliff to save Carlos if SpongeBob told him to jump." Kendall chuckles sarcastically.
"And I'm still waiting for my mail from Columbia." Logan ends.
"You have friends in Columbia?" Katie asks.
"No, from Columbia University. I sent my paper to a professor there. The mail should have come already."
"That's funny." James says with a mouth fill of eggs.
"James, finish chewing first." Mrs. Knight commands.
"Wait, what's funny?" Logan asks scrunching his eyebrows.
James swallows. "I got a huge package for you like three weeks ago with a fancy seal."
"What did it look like?" Logan quickly asks with his eyes wide open.
"Chill Logan." James notices Logan fisting the table, his knuckle turning whiter than his skin. "I think it was a shield or something with three crowns and Latin words."
"In lumine Tuo videbimus lumen."
"Sure, I guess." He says rolling his eyes as if Logan expects him to know Latin.
"Where is my mail, James?" Logan explodes.
"Calm down Logan. I gave it to Carlos on Saturday, the week of your fight about cargan." He jokes.
"Cargan? What's Cargan?" Katie asks.
"Nothing Katie, don't worry about it." Kendall says elbowing James giving him the eye. "Hey mom don't you have something to do with Katie?" He turns and gives his mom a pleading face.
"Ah, right Kendall! I remember now. Just let me finish the dishes."
"James! Where is my mail?" Logan asks angrily.
"I believe Carlos said something about desk drawer." James finish saying as Logan dashes into his room. James and Kendall are gritting their teeth and Katie is in deep thought confuse about the situation.
"Wait. Is cargan supposed to be Carlos plus Logan?" Katie asks.
"Kaite, this isn't the time. Logan is going to freak." Kendall responds worriedly.
"Wait Kendall." James says grabbing Kendall's arm. "Logan didn't do anything yet maybe…"
"MOTHER AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" Logan's voice blasts through the apartment.
All their eyes are wide open anticipating Logan blasting through the room.
"Ok everyone just stay calm." Kendall whispers. "Logan is going to blow and we need to calm him. Katie, think of a math question. That should calm him."
Logan walks out with the angriest scowl, hands fisting the mail and eyebrows slanted. He stomps back to his seat, throws the stack of forms on the table and stares back at the worry, terrified faces of his friends. No one dares speak as they know Logan is a tic away from exploding.
Suddenly the apartment door swings open and a bubbly Latino struts in hold a bouquet of flowers. Everyone except Logan swiftly turns their head staring at Carlos. Kendall is shaking his head trying to signal "go away."
"Hi Logie. I found the flowers you love." Carlos says putting the flower on the table turning around to hang his jacket.
"Flowers? So there is a cargan?"
"Katie!" Kendall explodes twitching his head at Logan signaling that is not the best question to ask.
"Are you two dating?" She presses annoyed that she is last to know. Kendall smacks his forehead with his palm.
"Umm. Ask Logie. I don't know." Carlos stutters.
"Is it true Carlos?" Logan finally speaks controlling his temper.
"Ok, Katie I think you need to get going, right mom?" Kendall asks nudging his mom.
"No Kendall. I need to hear this." Logan says crossing his arms, staring intensely at Carlos as he stands up.
"Fine Katie. We have been date for three weeks. I didn't want to say anything because well I don't how you or Mrs. Knight would take that I love"
"No!" Logan interrupts slamming his fist on the table shocking everyone. He picks up the envelope showing Carlos the seal. Carlos drops his face. "Did you hide my mail from me?
"Ok Katie, let's go." Mrs. Knight says tugging Katie out the apartment. "We love you all." She chuckles before leaving, hoping that will alleviate the situation.
"Well Carlos?" Logan presses.
"Yea." Carlos whispers barely audibly.
"How can you do this to me Carlos?" Logan yells releasing all his frustration. Carlos just stands there gritting his teeth staring at the floor. "You know how important this is to me. You know I've worked on this for months trying to achieve my dream. And to think you actually love me."
"I do love you." Carlos quickly retorts.
"Then why did you hide my application!"
"Because you would leave me." Carlos cries. "I know if I gave you the form, you would choose going to New York over staying with me even though you promised to be with me."
"Get out." Logan commands with has head down not wanting to look at Carlos' shock face.
"What?"
"Get out of here!" Logan screams causing the tearing Latino to scramble out the door.
Logan stands still breathing heavily as the other two teens stare at him.
"Logan, are you ok?" Kendall says sincerely.
"I'm fine. I just going to fill out the forms and find the earliest flight to New York." Logan replies collecting the papers in a neat pile.
"What is your problem?" James stands up and jumps in front of Logan.
"James, don't start."
"Shut up Kendall. When were you going to tell us you were going to leave us?"
"I don't know James. I didn't even know I got accepted. I just want to know if I would…"
James reaches to grab the forms but Logan retracts. "Well give me the forms then, Logan. You only want to know, right?"
"James, stop it." Kendall intervenes. "Logan can choose to go if he wants to."
"Shut up Knight!" James shouts back. "He doesn't know that leaving is going to destroy all of our dreams, all five of ours, including Katie's."
Logan cocks his eyebrow. "Five dreams? My dream wasn't to become a singer in LA James. I was perfectly fine in Minnesota studying for the MCAT!" His blood is boiling and Kendall notices the Logan's face becoming red.
"Ok Calm down Logan. James just feels"
"Selfish? Like an ingrate? If you haven't notice Kendall, this is his dream. He's the one who want to be famous. I wanted to be a doctor. And looky here, an application for just that!" Logan yells back at Kendall, all hopes of calming down disappears.
"Logan, stop yelling and calm down. I don't mind you leaving to follow your dream. I rather you be happy but… what about Carlos?" Logan tenses at hearing his name.
"I hate him. He is ruining my dream. Why should I care about him?"
"Because you still love him." Kendall genuinely answers. "I can see it in you eyes. No matter what happens, you still love him."
"GRRR! Stop analyzing me! You have no right telling me about love when you can't even tell the guy you love that you love him. So stop lecturing me, god!" Logan shouts stomping to his room.
"Wait Logan! We are not done yet!" James shouts walking towards him, anger building up to his nose. But before he can take another step, Kendall grabs his wrist. "Get off Kendall! I'm going to break him just as hard as he is going to break up Big Time Rush."
Kendall waits until he hears the door lock clicks before opening his mouth. "Let him go James. We shouldn't stop him."
In Logan's room
Logan closes all the blights and shades darkening the room to a pitch black before turning on the little lamp on his desk. He already knew he is going to choose the second proposal and go straight to Columbia University. He takes out a pen and starts filling out all the forms.
Filling out the forms only took him an hour as he memorizes all details of his passports, birth certificate and other paper works. The only things need to be sign are the lines for Mrs. Knight to sign. Finding a flight to New York is relatively easy too as he finds ten different flights to New York for the morning. He chooses the earliest flight at 6:30 hoping that no one would wake up, giving him an easier time leaving.
Once he was done, he starts packing his clothing in the suitcase. He is completely immersed in getting ready to travel that he doesn't notice the door open and Carlos sitting on the edge of his bed playing with his fingers. Carlos looks over at the computer screen seeing Logan just booked a flight at 6:30 in the morning.
"So I guess this is it?" Carlos asks sounding as if someone just kicked him. Logan completely ignores his question as he rolls his shirts.
"Logie?"
"Don't call me that." Logan coldly states. "Only my boyfriend calls me that." Carlos continues plays with his thumb holding back his tears from the painful comment.
He picks up his head and watches Logan pack away. He chuckles a bit through his frown noticing Logan accidently pack away his shirt. "That my shirt Logie." He says hoping Logan would cheer up.
But that doesn't work. Logan throws the shirt at Carlos' face. "It's Logan, Carlos L-O-G-A-N!" Logan shouts before continuing packing. "Don't you have better things to do like hide James' cuda sprays or Kendall's hockey stick? Or better yet, hide Gustavo so you can ruin James' dream of getting famous."
Carlos takes the shirt off his head revealing his red eyes and a trail of tears. "Logan, I'm"
"Stop talking Carlos. I don't want to talk to you." Logan gets up and opens all the drawers throwing all his clothes on the floor.
"Then just listen, Logan. I'm sorry. I'm double, triple, whatever the biggest number is sorry. I know I promised I will never lie to you but… I had to. I felt like I was losing you, my best friend." Carlos starts crying more staring at his back. "I know I lost the best boyfriend in the world but I don't want to lose my best friend too."
Logan walks across the room to his desk opening and throwing everything out onto the floor. Not once did he look at Carlos as he walks around the room.
"Stop it Logan." Carlos cries as Logan jumps around grabbing everything that is his.
"Stop talking to me, Carlos. I'm busy."
"Just for one minute. Just look at me." Tears roll fast down Carlos' cheeks. "Just talk to me for minute and I promise to leave you alone."
Logan stops packing and stands still facing away from Carlos.
"Logan. Why won't you talk to me?"
Logan sharply turns around. "Because you going to change my mind!" He shouts at the trembling Latino. "Look at you! No matter how mad I get, if I look at you I'm always happy. When you pout, I drop everything just to do what you say. I can't resist your puppy dog eyes." Logan's starts cry. "I hate you so much right now but you won't let me hate you."
Carlos looks down at his finger letting the tear gently fall. "I'm sorry Logan."
"I'm not done yet." Logan snuffles. "I worked half a year on this paper and worked seventeen years on becoming a doctor. This is my dream. This is my life. My life rests on that stack of papers and you come here for one minute trying to change my mind. And I know you know that if you start talking for 60 seconds, I will stay. So stop it! I hate you so much." Logan bursts out everything on his mind. Carlos finally gets up and walks to the door.
"Wait! Where are you going?" Logan asks.
"I'll sleep on the couch tonight." He whispers looking back. "I'm sorry Logan, this is your dream. Please don't be mad at me." He ends, slowly closing the door behind him.
Logan walks over to the suitcase and leans against the wall. My dream is to be a doctor. He cries in his head covering his wet face with his arms.
3:00 AM
Logan quietly grabs his suitcase hoping that if he leaves early enough everyone will be sleeping. But as he rolls out of his room, everyone is awake surrounding his door as if they expected Logan to pull this kind of stunt.
"You thought you were going without saying goodbye?" Kendall says jumping the boy in a hug.
"Kendall I'm not"
"Here to change your mind." Kendall finishes his sentence. "We just want to wish you the best in New York."
"Thanks Kendall." Logan smiles back as Katie jumps for her hug.
"If you meet someone famous, call me ok?" Katie whispers in his ear.
Logan chuckles. "Sure. I'll tell them what a great manager you are."
James is next as he grabs his hand in a handshake still staring at the floor. "Go make your dream come true." He murmurs.
Logan smiles knowing that this is the last thing James wants. "Thanks James. It means a lot to me that you said that. If I meet a model agency, I'll show them a picture of you."
James unexpectedly pulls Logan in a hug. "I'm sorry Logain. I'm derk."
Logan sniggers remembering when James combined d**k and jerk into a new word. "No, you're good friend."
After Logan peels himself from the surprisingly tight hug, Mrs. Knight comes in for her. "Travel safely ok, hon? I'm going to miss you."
"Bye Mrs. Knight. You'll been really supportive of me and you kind of grown on me as if you're my own mother." She smiles widely. "Thank you for all you've done." He whispers in the hug.
Finally five hugs down, the last and hardest one to go, Logan thinks to himself as he looks at Carlos stuffing his hands in his pocket kicking the floor as if an imaginary ball was there.
"Do you guys mind if I speak to Carlos alone?" The five of them smile and leave the room. Logan could have sworn he hears James sniggers "bow chicka wow wow" but he disregards it as he walks to Carlos.
"So this is goodbye?" Logan whispers to his moping friend.
"Yea. I guess so." He responds still kicking the floor. "I'm sorry Logan. I was a horrible boyfriend and a worst best friend."
"Yep you were. What kind of boyfriend sleeps with dinosaur sheets?" Logan tries to break the tense. Carlos still stares at the floor sulkingly.
"I understand if you're mad and you'll never forgive me." Logan shakes his head and wraps Carlos in a hug.
"Who can stay mad hugging you?" Carlos returns the hug and tightly embraces Logan.
"Then please stay with me." He finally breaks down crying. "I promised myself that I won't make you stay but I can't. I love you, Logie."
Logan starts crying as they stay there embracing each other as if the world will end. "I have to." Logan whispers.
"I know, but I can't help it. Please just stay with me. I promise I will never lie again. I promise I will be a better best friend. I promise to be the boyfriend you want."
Logan pulls away even though Carlos tightens his hug more and wipes Carlos' eye with his thumbs. "Please don't cry Carlos. This is hard for me too. I don't want to go."
"Then stay."
"But I have to follow my dream. I'm sorry, Carlos." Logan whispers.
"I know. I just have to try one last time." He says pulling away wiping his tears. "Hey, Logie, can I have one last kiss?"
"Sure Carlos." Logan answers without a second thinking. He closes his eyes, puckers his lip and lean forward. Expecting Carlos' soft lip on his, he is surprise feeling Carlos kiss his cheek.
"I'll miss you." Carlos says opening the door for Logan. Logan wheels out his luggage out the door and turns to look at Carlos once more. He closes his eyes and leans forward placing a quick, chaste kiss on Carlos' lip.
"I'll miss you too." Logan finishes as he walk down the hallway placing his hand to the cheek Carlos kissed, a tear rolling down the other.
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