Hey guys so im posting one of my one shots with this because it is based off current events aannnnnddd I need some love advice. I know a loser like me has someone I like too …..kinda…well tell me what you guys think, and if you want to skip it you can, the Soul eater story is the one not in bold soooooo…

How do you know if you love someone?

It was our senior year of high school and it felt that we were just going to be friends. I though you wouldn't think more of me because we have been friends since freshmen year. We were both a bit nerdy in our own different ways. You where nerdy as in an 'educated and every now and again fandom'. I was different I was nerdy in the sense of anime, cartoons and comic books. Were friends but I couldn't remember the exact moment when we became friends or even the exact moment we meet.

It could of been in our PE class, we were all new then I was a chunky, always joking, aggressive, talkative girl and you didn't talk much, your acne was begging, and you were kind, skinny, sweet boy. It was just simple chats and even then it made me happy talking to you. I had a small crush on you then and I never told anyone that, it was just something I kept to myself. This may be the closes I could narrow it down for when we first meet and became friends.

Through the next couple of year we remained friends and I always said you where annoying but I never actually meant it. You began to talk more and were a lot more playful, you made more friends and that once crush I had was pushed to the back of my mind. Other boys captured my attention and other girls captured yours but relationships just weren't in out cards.

You made a lot of other female friends and you seemed happy, but you still hanged out with us during lunch.

Senior year came around our appearance came a long way. I was, in my words, fat but my curves came in my chest caught many people's attention but my ass was lacking. You, got stronger still skinny but stronger, you worked out and muscles where forming and your hair got longer to where you could tie it back, your glasses was replaced by prescription colored contacts, but I always like your real eye color, your face cleared many people found you attracting. You looked older and you looked so different from freshmen year but your humor, your attitude, and your smile was the same. It made me feel different, it was a different feeling then what I had once felt during freshmen year, yet it was similar. You made my heart flutter and when I was around you made me feel special, and there were moments when we would just catch each other's attention and look at each other, you seem to captivate me and I looked away because I would feel embarrass. We would play fight and you would let me play with your hair, but you let others as well. Being with you like that made me feel different like I was pretty, and because of it I dressed in cloths that I hoped would catch your attention. It made me wonder if I had feelings for you but I didn't know. I knew what a crush felt like but this was different.

My few of my friends asked me if I liked you and I said yes because it believed it was true. One of my friends said I should confess to him, but at that time you had said who you kind of liked. The girl you liked was so pretty and thin, she was smart and talented and she was chill and I liked her too she was my friend. I started thinking... if you liked that kind of girl you wouldn't like me in that way. She was the opposite of me she was everything a girl should be and I wasn't.

Senior year was half way over and I got depressed, so many bad things started happening. I was either always sad or numb all the time. I cried the most I ever had, our friends comfort me and you did in a way as well. It was new for me because I didn't know how it felt to have that can of friendship the can that support you. Our group started hanging out more outside of the school and our group of 8 soon turned into a group of 3 me, you, and another girl.

We became our own group and we were having fun but I noticed small thing from the other girl, she liked touching you a lot, and when she smiled... you smiled. Maybe I thought too much of it but it felt that way.

"Do you like him?" I finally asked her one day, and she stood quite and then said

"No but he is attractive." I know her, she was like me, and she did but didn't want to say it out loud. I and she are good friends, and because of that I said to her. "I don't like him" I wanted her to be happy because she deserve too and she was happy with him.

Things continued, and my feeling remained the same.

Time went by, we stood the same

Prom came we danced part of a slow dance. More time passed.

We laughed

We talked

We hanged out

Graduation came and you were the only person I hugged. I don't like hugging people but I did hug you, it was automatic and I didn't think about it and it made me fall for you a bit more.

I knew I shouldn't, and I know it was stupid.

After high school was over next came college, and you were leaving for it and I was staying at a community college. So the three of us hung out as much as we could before you left, we did simple thing but it was fun. The other girl was sad that you were leaving to the point she was crying but I didn't, I couldn't because if I did I probably wouldn't stop.

We hanged out every week as a group and it was fun. The other girl and I would talk about you, about things such as who you liked more. I said you liked us even but she said you like me more and I don't think that.

The day you left we hanged out the other girl cried and I just smiled and waved. You where snapchatting us and on your last snap chat I felt the feeling I've never felt before I relived I love you.

So much.

But I don't know if I love you in that way or another.

How do you know if you're in love?

The years are going to go by and I might forget the moments we had and my feeling I have now might change. We might stop being friends but I don't know, and I really hope we don't...

But for now, I love you.

BACK TO SOUL, MAKA AND THE GANG

Chapter 10

The weeks seemed to pass by fast since that night, they all visited me as much as they can and they tried their best to have me open up to them but they would usually fail. I wouldn't open up to them, I still didn't fully forgive them, and they all had yet to mention what they had been doing for the past couple of years.

With them coming over almost ever every day, and with them always asking me questions…I won't lie it was… annoying.

Soul had come to live with me once again and so did Emma. I kept my distance from them, I had a moment of weakness with Soul and I wouldn't do that again, he wasn't mine.

It had been two and a half week since they all returned, it had been two and a half weeks since I saw Alice, my thoughts where still flooded with what Alice had said to me, her words repeated over and over and over in my head…"He still looking for you."

My head shot up to see Emma who was holding too coffee cups, she was dressed in one big shirt which most likely belonged to Soul, and she looked surprised by my expression. Soul was in his pajamas sitting across from me he only glanced at me.

The surrounding came to light again. I was home in my apartment, sitting down and eating breakfast with Soul and Emma. "What?" She asked with purity in her voice, I shocked my head "Sorry I thought I heard you say something." I looked down at the book in front of me while stuffing eggs in my mouths. It tasted like Souls cooking, a smile flashed on my lips but quickly left as I reminded myself I can't be doing that.

"Maka," he started "Hmm." "You're gonna be late for school." My eyes darted to the clock, "Damn it! Why didn't you tell me sooner" I said as shot off my seat and picked up my dishes. "I'll clean them." He said while sipping his coffee. I ran to my room, no time for make up, I put up on the same jacket that I on had on a couple weeks ago, the black one with the yellow stripe on it. I put on a pair of blue pants with my roller-skates, and grabbed my ear phones then darted out of my room.

Soul handed me some coffee and a lunch bag, "Blackstar and Tsubaki said they wanted to talk to us about something so I'll pick you up after school" He said leaning against the door frame. I raised an eyebrow "I got my baby back." He grinned, I snorted "Thanks Soul I'll see you after." I said racing off.

I raced to school as my first class was just begging, I took my usual seat and switched of my rollerblades for my shoes. Class was begging, this class was for miesters and weapons who wanted to continue their education, and the teacher came in as he began class with the first order of business which is "Finals: For your final I want you to team up and a battle will take place in a month, to make it interesting I will assign you partners, and if your wavelengths don't match…. Make them match. "He began to call peoples name as he partnered them up.

…Are you kidding me! I don't fight anymore, I don't even know if I'm that felixable, I can't sense or see a soul either and he wants us to do that?! I don't even know if I can fly anymore…I COULDENT EVEN RUN UP THE STAIRS AT THE DWMA WITHOUT HUFFING AND PUFFING…. BUT I CANT GET AN F! I WANT TO HAVE THE TOP GRADE!...

I scratched my head in aggravation" Maka Albarn." "Y-yes." "Your partnered with Tadashi Yu." I gulped and nodded.

Tadashi Yu he had black hair that was tied into a pony tail and stunning blue eyes, he currently wore a sleeveless black and white striped shirt that showed his muscles and black pants he glanced at my direction and gave a wave. I had never even talked to him before, but he was quite talked about around school.

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Shit.