Summary: John made a huge mistake letting her go, she was just like him. All he had to do was say those words she wanted to hear. Now he has to fight the biggest battle he never thought he'd have to fight. He has to fight to win her back. Has someone else come in and taken his glory? Has someone taken his spot and what will he do to win it back? Will John Cena win or is getting her back Against All Odds?*_*A/N: SORRY FOR SUCH A LATE POST!!!
My laptop is gone
therefore I can't really post like I want
like I'm doing this from my college lab ha ha ha
ANYWAY
here is a new chapter...
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Summary: John made a huge mistake letting her go, she was just like him. All he had to do was say those words she wanted to hear. Now he has to fight the biggest battle he never thought he'd have to fight. He has to fight to win her back. Has someone else come in and taken his glory? Has someone taken his spot and what will he do to win it back? Will John Cena win or is getting her back Against All Odds?
Chapter 10: The Answer To My Question
JayCee's POV:
"...I wanted you to love me as much as I more than humanly possible love you. Instead you marry Liz…" I started saying before tears started to build in my throat and eyes. It was something about looking at him in that suit that made me wish it was me he truly did love.
I wanted to hold his hand and be happy for him. Today was his day and he deserved nothing short of the best today. Today John was getting married, something he always told me he wanted to do someday in life. However every true John Cena fan knew he was an easy man to please; all a girl really needed was a nice ass and to say 'hi' and you'd hook him in. John dreamed of having his own wife one day, maybe a kid or two with a house that could fit all his cars.
Now here he stood in a suit he swore he'd never wear because he hates them. Here he stood in front of me, looking extremely fuckin' uncomfortable and tight in the jacket; worry lines and bags started to show under his eyes, showing how he hadn't really slept so well in the past few days...or maybe even weeks. It didn't matter to me how he looked. I didn't care if he looked best dressed or like pure shit, because I loved him with all my heart. All I wanted was John Cena, even when I was young its all I wanted.
Apprently it was asking for too much if he was marrying Liz.
"Baby girl, you know I've always been about you-"John said before a scoff left my lips. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. If he had always been about me, why is he marrying Liz? There was no way he has always been about me, because where was he when I needed him to know I loved him and wanted to give him one more shot at this relationship?
Oh, that's right! He was off, planning a wedding with Liz....
"Until Liz came back around…"I managed to whisper. I lifted my arms close to me as if I were going to hug myself. I was broken inside and no one understood how broken I truly was. I plastered on this dumb ass mask, hiding all pain and heartache. The only flaw was that when I was around John, that mask shattered and crumbled; that mask would disappear, showing John my true pain. I looked into John's eyes and sighed. "When you're getting married, and you see your wife coming toward you. Think is she the one you wanted to see become your wife. If you say I do… then the best of luck to you and I'll see you when we come back to work…"
Watching the glimmer in John's blue eyes, I sniffled and walked away. I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my chest when I was able to tell John how I felt. It was a sense of release for me, cathartic even. I knew I felt better because big words ended up in my fuckin' vocabulary. Its exactly what I needed to move on with life and feel better about myself when it came to John...
However the harsh truth was I wasn't ready to move on because I wanted to move on in life WITH John. I didn't want to see him get married and move on with someone who didn't even deserve to hold his hand let alone wear a matching ring as him. He deserved a girl who knew how to make him laugh when he was at his lowest. John deserved a girl who knew him better than anyone else in his life, because she was exactly like him. The perfect girl for John was just as foul mouthed, dirty minded, comeback hitting, invincible, Randy Orton hating but loved to have him around, down to Earth as he is.
I AM that perfect girl for John....
I walked out from the back of the church and toward the front. Everyone was slowly piling in and Randy was in his place at the altar as the Best Man. Randy motioned for me and my mascara running eyes to walk over to him and Sam. Sam smiled at me, holding Alanna and looked at Randy who only nodded at Sam. Randy sighed and started wiping away the running mascara from my eyes.
"So you must be his annoying little sister at the show Jaycia..." Sam minorly joked. I smiled and helped Randy wipe away my crappy eye make-up. "You're the one Randy always complains about teasing him...but he adores"
"I never pegged thunderthighs to care about anyone" I poked at Randy who sneered and pushed my head. I giggled along with Sam who pushed Randy back for me. Sighing, I smiled and hugged Randy. "He's the greatest older brother at my job that any girl who grew up sort of hating the jerk"
"I swear you will not live to see twenty-two you fuckin'-" Randy started before I quickly covered my hand over his mouth. Sam gasped and then giggled. Randy rolled his eyes and sighed heavily into my hand.
"Stop cursing in a church Randy. Obviously you haven't read the bible" I whispered while chuckling. I removed my hand and smiled at Randy who in return smiled back.. "You should read the bible, I heard its a good book you heathen"
"What is up with people calling me a heathen? Being a heathen isn't that bad you know? We curse like sailors, drink harder than alcoholics and live a sick and twisted life..." Randy stated. "Sure we're going to hell, but at least I'll be warm"
Stifling laughs with Sam, I felt a hand gently grab my upper arm. I turned to see my date to the wedding, Ted look me in the eyes. Standing next to Ted's charming figure was my female best friend, Maryse. Of course the buxom blonde looked stunning in her gold and red dress and Ted matched me with a ryoal blue dress shirt and lavander tie. My eyes were still red apparently, because Ted pulled me close into a hug that relaxed my whole body.
"No need to cry Jay..." Ted spoke into my hair. Stroking my hair and planting light kisses on top of my head, Ted started swaying me gently. "Did you find John where Johnny Fabulous said he'd be?"
I managed to nod slowly as I felt Maryse's hand rub my back. There was that goddamn pity I didn't want to feel ot receive from anyone. Thankfully everyone who knew me, knew that I didn't want the pity. Maryse, Cody, Ted and Randy were showing me they cared. Maryse wiped a tear and leaned over to kiss my cheek. I felt Ted let go of me and stiffen up as I looked up. Wiping my eyes and standing straight, I weakly smiled at the figure before me.
"Thank you for letting me see John before the wedding sir. I got to speak with him..." I responded to the smiling and nodding man. "Is there something wrong Mr. Cena?"
"First, call me Dad. I see you in my son's life for a ridiculously long time so I might as well get used to you calling me by a title I want to hear a female that can handle that special education level of a son I have named after me..." John Cena Sr., joked. "Second, its obvious you found him and told him how you feel. The wedding hasn't started and you're crying"
"Well I'm sorry to be the sour puss" I joked, smiling at the elder man. "But I do thank you so much, I'm going to head out before the wedding starts and I'm stuck watching my worst fear..."
"You sure you don't want to stay?" Maryse inquired with a caring smile.
"We're here for you, you do understand that right?" Ted asked me.
"I know.... but I know I won't be able to handle it. I'm sorry for being so rude Mr. Cena... I mean dad. I hope you understand..." I stated
John Cena Sr., nodded at me and I walked out the doors of the church. The wather was hot and extremely sunny. I don't know why I expected anything less of the weather in the middle of the summer, July to be exact. Maybe I expected cold air, cloudy skies and such an unwelcoming feeling because of how I feel at the moment. I feel the rain drops falling from the sky because the tears are building up in my eyes. I feel cold because John isn't around to make me warm all over again.
And then I walked back to the door. I stood outside the wooden doors, listening to the wedding intently. My heart raced and beat extremely hard, as if it were going to pop out of my chest. Blocking out the rest of the world, I listened to the voices inside the church. I heard John's voice and I swallowed hard, almost choking on the tears in my throat.
His vows were deep and heartfelt. He went on to say how they had their ups and downs, but no matter what she stuck by his side. John said how things were simplier in high school, but now they were adults and he didn't plan to leave her side. Then I pictured him saying those cheesy yet beautiful words to me and I started to feel a tear escape from my closed eyelids. I closed my eyes and continued to listen for what seemed like the part I waited for deep down inside.
"....if anyone objects to the matrimony of this man and this woman, speak now or forever hold your peace...."
I sighed and gripped on tighter to the doorknob. I digged deep into my own being and gathered strength beyond belief. I closed my eyes and saw myself opening the door, yelling that I object to the wedding because John Cena was madly in love with me as I am with him. I saw him smile and walk to me, happy that I saved him from his doomed marriage.
My hands grew hot and I opened my eyes. I was still standing outside the church, knuckles white from how tightly I was gripping the knob.
Releasing the doorknob, I walked back and exhaled sharply. I slowly sat down on the step and let the tears roll down my eyes and face. I let him marry her. I let the love of my life walk away from it all and I now know I could have stopped it. Instead I didn't, as if I were pushing him to her.
And then I cried hard.....
I felt the tears become stronger than me and I let it all go. Fuck any make-up or whatever was on my face, all I wanted was my Johnny. The world seemed to stop and I felt my heart shatter. My tears were not under my control; my sobs were heavy and I sighed and thought about what I did have with John.
Slowly I smiled to myself and shook my head. "Well Johnny..." I whispered to myself, thinking he would hear me. "...we had a great run together. I hope you're happy... and I'll always love you...."
Suddenly the sky seemed to become brighter than I remembered; the heat started to ease and a cool breeze ran through my hair and over my body. I closed my eyes and thought everything I just said in my head. I whispered what I thought to the wind, hoping it would carry the message to John. I opened my eyes and smiled while slowly crying again. "I'm stupidly in love with you and your stupid ways. I'm in love with everything about you... and I hope Liz makes you happy...." I spoke.
I was so out of it. I didn't hear cars honk, birds chirp, dogs bark...anything. Not even the church door open or footsteps behind me. Although two words broke me from that world.
"She doesn't....."
My head slowly lifted and I shifted my body to turn and see him standing behind me. His suit jacket off and his tie undone, yet he still managed to take my breath away. Slowly I stood and stared him in the eyes.
"John.... your... your wedding" I mumbled before slowly walking toward him. John's hands were stuffed into his pockets and his eyes were brighter blue than just a few hours ago.
"Liz doesn't matter or is she the one for me...." John started while taking one step closer to me. My heart raced and I felt the corners of my mouth curve up along with his.
"But you were just in a church, looking ridiculously tight in a suit jacket about to marry her. Randy almost died from cursing in a church and Liz planned this whole thing, in which you sir decided to go along with-" I rambled until I was silenced. John pulled me to him and grabbed my face, passionately kissing me. I hadn't felt that kind of passion from him in so long, I damn near melted. My hands wrapped around his neck and I lightly moaned into his mouth.
John's hands gripped my lower back and slowly broke the kiss. "Done speaking?" he asked with a smirk. I nodded and he smiled. "I realized... that the perfect girl for me, is you. I am stupidly and utterly in love with you Jaycia..."
"Oh John…" I sighed before one tear of happiness escaped from my eyes. John chuckled and pressed his forehead against mine. I was happy, truly happy.
"Come on baby girl…" John said holding my hand tightly and slowly pulling me to follow him.
"Where are we going?" I asked with a giggle.
"Anywhere we can be alone and catch up…" John joked and stopped to hold me.
And that's all I needed to hear before kissing him once again and then running away to my car with the man of my dreams...
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