A/N: Twilight belongs to SM!

TU 2 M!

This chappie is a little more sweet, with a little bit of naughty w/the bath! Don't forget to check out Dear Fate, I just updated it as well!

BPOV

I awoke on the little cot in Pops private doctor area. I wasn't sure how I got there. The last thing I remember was talking to Jasper and Dr. Jared. Then everything went black. I sat up slowly to make sure I wouldn't do another floor hug or up chuck. Once all systems seemed at a go, I got up and went out to find Pops.

He was at the nurse's station chatting with some of the nurses. The way his body was held, it gave me a sense of relief. If he was this calm while working, then Jasper must be doing better then we had hoped.

I went up behind him, and the two nurse's in front stopped talking. He turned around and smiled at me, then nodded at them. I watched as they left before turning back to Pops.

"How do you feel, ladybug?"

"Good. What happen?"

"You had a little spell while talking with the doc and Jasper. But you're fine. I had a nurse help me do a quick check of your vitals. You must have found something that triggered one of the bad memories and your body just couldn't handle it."

"Everything is going back to how they first were."

He moved closer, putting his arm around me. Then he led me back to Jasper's room. We went in, to find Jasper asleep in his bed, quite peacefully. Pops took me over to the chair and sat me down. He took a seat at the end of Jasper's bed.

"I've told you, ladybug, you need to work threw what happen. You've fought your way this far but that was because you were hiding everything. I don't blame you for not wanting to relive the incident deliberately. Neither does Jasper. But in your own way, both of you are suppressing things that need to come out. Its just a matter of time, but you blow up. Maybe that's what you need to do. Just let go and let everything out at once to feel better."

"I don't think I'm strong enough to recover from that."

He nodded, "OK Then try and work threw things in a time line. One at a time. Don't go any farther until you've gotten them out and worked threw. If helping Jasper, and taking care of him, gives you comfort then try using that."

"How?"

"Talk with someone after you've been with Jasper for a few hours. You're comfort level will be at peek condition. You'll feel stronger then normally. You'll be able to handle whatever it is that you bring up."

"I'll try anything, if you think it will help Pops. You've always been right in the past."

"I will always take care of you and Jasper, and the rest of my family, that includes Charlie. If we don't stick together we won't make it. I still haven't said a word to any of them about either of you. Its not my place. That's pretty hard, especially with Esme. She's my wife, I love her with my heart. But if I was in your place or Jasper's; I'd want the privacy that I deserve. She understands, and that's why she's never asked either of you directly. Some time in the future, you might want too, maybe even Jasper too, ask Charlie what he knows. He saw just about the same as I did, but in different events."

"If I can get past some stuff first. I'm not sure how much he knows about Troy."

Pops grimaced, "I didn't say anything, patient confidentiality. But I can say that he's a bright man. He's the police. He knows things didn't add up. Hell, even Jasper knows something was off, and he's only known you for about 2 days. But its not right for them to ask. I know you wouldn't mind, maybe in a few months, to share, but that would be your decision."

"OK"

"I'm just telling you, that if Jasper makes you feel more comfortable, maybe even talking to him about what happen would help you get things off your chest. If both of you liked talking to doc Jared together, you could try that again. We talked after both of you were taken care of. She liked talking with both of you. She said that the air was more relaxed. Things flowed more easily and even Jasper responded differently. He wasn't as close off. Usually she has to put his head in a bench press and turn until an ear comes off before she can get any juice out of him."

I laughed his description of Jasper, which made Pops smile.

When Jasper moved I never jumped. I looked up at him, noticing that he had been awake the whole time. His eyes were trained on me, but his demeanor was much more relaxed, even more so, from his usual rattle snake posture.

My opening up, even made him feel better. Maybe one day he'd do the same, not for me, but for himself. If he took the comfort and strength from talking in front of me that I did with him, we could go a long way.

Pops glanced over Jasper, "How much did you hear Jasper?"

Jasper licked his lips, "All of it. I heard you come in, but wanted to hear what you had to say. I didn't want to scare Bella."

"I don't mind talking in front of you, Jasper. Pops is right, I feel better around you."

"Dad, can you leave us alone so we can talk?"

Pops looked shocked, which is how I felt. Jasper was being more open and talkative then normal.

"Sure. Dr. Jane will be in to check your arm in about an hour. We're hoping there is some change. She'll change your main bandage, and work with your tubes. If things are looking good, you might not need the full bandage."

Jasper gave him a weak smile, then nodded. Pops left and I sat quietly waiting to see what he wanted to say.

"Can you move closer, Bella?"

Jasper held his hand out, so I moved the chair back to the edge of the bed, taking it.

"Are you OK?" We asked the same question at the same time. It made me laugh and Jasper smile.

"I'm fine, Pops said it was the bad memories with the question that Dr. Jared had asked me. How about you?"

"I slept better last night then I have in years."

"That's good, Jasper."

He shrugged, then stared at me. "Do you want to talk about anything?"

"Like what?"

"What happened between you and Troy?"

Before I could think I spoke and instantly regretted it, "Will you tell me about your and your wife?"

Jasper froze, but didn't pull away. He looked down at his lap, swallowed and then looked back up.

"I'm going to be honest with you, Bella, if there was any one I really really wanted to share stuff with, it would be you. But I don't think I'm ready right now. Maybe in a few weeks, I could try. Other emotions are coming forward when I think about her and my babies. I'm remembering stuff that I didn't even realize that I had forgotten. Its a weird feeling."

"I know what you mean. I'm not going to rush you, Jasper. I'd just like to help you since you're helping me."

"I know. I'm going to try and not be the asshole that I normally am to my family. They really don't understand what its like to live when your life has been destroyed by something like that. I've come to understand that you do, and that makes you the first person who truly does."

I smiled because what he had said was a breakthrough by any standards. I was glad Jasper was going to try, no matter how long it took.

"I won't rush you. I'm learning to not be noisy and ask questions. The more I know you, though, it gets harder."

He half smiled, "I know what you mean. I'd like to know everything about you, and that's a first for me, for anyone. I didn't even really bother with my wife."

"You could say the same with Troy. I dated him because he paid me a compliment, how desperate does that sound?"

"Its not desperate, Bella. You wanted some love, everyone does. He just saw you as a sitting duck. When he knew no one was looking he buttered you up and then used that against you. Once you were attached to him, he knew he could control you, and you wouldn't fight back."

I blinked when I felt the tears, and swallowed a few times to hold them back. Jasper continued to hold my hand, like a partner would do. We sat in silence for a few minutes, until the door opened and in came Dr. Jane and the same nurse I had pissed off the first day.

I cringed inside, hoping we wouldn't get into another fight. I didn't need it, and neither did Jasper.

"Alrighty Jasper, its time to check your bandage. Bella, could you move please?"

I nodded, pushing the seat back and stood up. I changed places with the nurse who was standing at the foot of the bed. Jasper kept his eyes on me the whole time. They took his bandage off, painstaking slow, bandage by bandage. I was waiting to see a infected and oozy mess under it where all of the damage had been done.

In stead, the main cuts and wounds were a nice healthy pink. The stitches were clean and not oily. The medicine was working. Inside I was dancing a gig and screaming at the top of my lungs. Even if he couldn't use it, he'd at least be able to keep it.

I hoped.

Dr. Jane smiled at Jasper and then smiled at me.

"Its look wonderful. You're responding to everything we're giving you. How is your pain on a scale of 10?"

Jasper shrugged, looking her dead on, "I cut myself. I've been doing it for 3 years. Do you really think I can feel any physical pain anymore, no matter how bad?"

I was as shocked by his statement as they were. The nurse looked confused, and the doctor was gaping at him. Jasper just sighed and turned his attention back to me.

"I think its safe to leave off the whole arm bandage and just cover the select areas for now. The air to them will help heal things faster. You're not draining enough fluid from the wounds to keep in your tubes. Which is good as well. We'll take those out and I'll close the holes with skin glue in case we need to reopen them."

Jasper didn't even acknowledge what she was saying. He just stared at me. I attempted a smile, which I was surprised when he returned. All at once I felt lighter. Jasper was a true sweetheart inside, I just had to find where he was hiding.

He didn't move a muscle or bat an eye while they worked. Dr. Jane cleaned his arm with special disinfectant before covering where she had worked on.

All together it took almost an hour. By the time they were done and the trash was gone, it was time for dinner. The nurse brought it in, sitting it on his table.

"Are you eating with me, Bella?"

"I'll go done and get something and then come back up to eat with you."

His face went dark, "Call and have them bring it up. They can that. It won't kill them. Dad is one of their best doctors."

I gave in so he wouldn't fight anymore, picked up his phone and dialed down to the kitchen. I placed my order then took the seat next to him.

"Do you want me to help you with anything? Open your juice or cut up your turkey?" I had ordered the same thing they brought him. Turkey and all the trimmings.

Jasper just stared at me, it was odd how he became a statue within seconds. Like a fly on the wall. I started to twitch in the chair because of how nervous he made me.

Finally he nodded, then gave me a sneak of a smile. I returned it, standing up.

"Juice, please."

I nodded, and happily opened it for him, then slid the straw into the top. Jasper started to eat slowly, taking his time with the food.

"Are you in pain?"

"Why do you ask?"

"You're eating pretty slow. I'm not trying to pick at you, but if you want me to help, I will."

He opened his mouth, then closed it, thinking about something.

Then a smirk appeared and it made the hair on the back of my neck stand up.

"I could use some help, I'm not used to using my left hand. Could you feed me?"

That simple question made fire shoot threw my veins and I shivered because all at once I wanted to jump into bed with him. Frankly, it wasn't to take care of his wounds, either.

Jasper's eyes narrowed, and I knew he was able to read my mind. I was seeing whole new sides and emotions from Jasper within just one day. It was a wild ride, and I enjoyed it fully.

I moved to sit beside him on the bed and then picked up his folk. I fed him piece by piece. Watching the way his lips moved and his tongue come out to lick the corners was driving me crazy. I was squirming in my clothes, needing friction.

Jasper's eyes dropped to my lap, and lingered there. Time stopped and it was like we'd been together for years. I was still innocent in ways that would have shocked even Pops. Troy had never wanted me that way until the last 5 months that we'd been together. Before that fateful night when I had refused yet again, this time setting him off.

His eyes came up to meet mine, and all I could do was sit and stare back at him.

"You have no idea how much I want you right now, Bella. I haven't felt lust in years, especially the kind I'm feeling right now. Its new to me and it scares the hell out of me."

"Why?"

"I'd kill the next male that looked at you, even in the friendliest ways."

I gulped, feeling my nipples pebble. As if on cue, his eyes fell to them, and stayed. He watched me breathe, each time my chest lifted and fell. We stayed in our trance until another nurse brought in my tray of food. She rolled it in on an extra table, like the one Jasper had to go over his bed. Without a word, she left.

That was enough to snap both of us out of whatever it was we were in.

I continued to feed Jasper, then ate myself. When we were done, I cleaned up and took the trays out for pick up.

Going back in, I found Jasper watching me from black eyes. His body was radiating sex, and I felt like jumping his bones, no matter how broken they might be.

But as much as I wanted Jasper, in every way, I was scared to death of what might happen once we got together. Jasper was even more threatening in his manner then Troy had ever been. Even the night the attack had happened. Between the two, Jasper would win without even breaking a sweat.

"Are you suppose to give me my bath, or is it the nurses?" To be honest, even if I wasn't suppose too, which I was, I would have said yes so that they didn't get any extra chances to see Jasper naked. Cuts and scars be damned, he was a handsome man and had the body to boot.

He may not have seen it like I did, but he was GQ status in my book.

"Yes. Do you want to take it now?"

He raised one eyebrow, and smirked.

"That and a few other things. I don't want to scare you away so I'll stick to a bath."

"Maybe in a few days, if you get better we could try and explode that if you are ready too?"

His smirk fell away, leaving a very vulnerable Jasper in the wake. "I don't know what I'm ready for, Bella, to be honest. But with you, I'd try anything once. Something compels me too."

"Me too."

He nodded, and without another word, I got the bath kit and water ready. I slid a bag over his arm, tying it off on his shoulder so it wouldn't get wet. Jasper laid it on a pillow so it wouldn't get bumped. I took the sponge, dipped it in the water and cleaner and started on his feet. He laid watching me as I took my time.

I went up one leg to his hip, then down the other. Next came his stomach. Jasper sat up as best he could so I could get most of his back, before laying back again. I finished with his arm and neck. His face was last. When I got close enough, I could see his wonderful blue eyes. They were like little gems.

Just as I got the hair kit ready, Pops came in.

He stopped by the door taking in the picture of us. Jasper, still wet from his bath, air drying, me hovering over him, getting his shampoo ready. It was like we were playing bad nurse.

"I see the bath went well." He smiled, coming closer. "I came in to check on everything. The nurses told me you two just ate. Did you think about whether or not talking with doc Jared would help?"

"I don't have a problem." I looked to Jasper for his reply.

"Me either."

"Great. I'll let her know. I'll come in once more before I leave for the night. Bella, there is something in my room for you. Alice gave it to me last night, but I forgot to give it to you."

I nodded, then smiled. Pops gave me a hug, patted Jasper's shoulder then left.

Once we were alone, I did his hair, and then cleaned up.

"I'm going to take a shower and get what Pops wanted me to have. Will you be OK for a while?"

"Sure."

I kissed his forehead then headed out to get clean scrubs. I went back to Pops little area and took a quick shower. Once I was dressed I looked around the room to find what he was talking about. I noticed a bag on the floor by the bed. I picked it and placed it on the bed.

There were presents inside. Confused I opened them one by one and then started to cry. They were the books I had picked out for my brothers.

Even if it had Alice's touch of wrap, I knew the thought was from Jasper. It filled my heart with love and gave me a boost of happiness. I tossed the wrap into the trash, then piled them back into the bag. Looking at the clock, I knew it was late, but one of my brothers should have been still up.

I dialed home, sitting on the bed with the bag in my lap.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Emmett."

"Hey kid sister, how are you holding up? Jasper OK?"

"Yeah, yeah. I was calling for a favor."

"Shot."

"Could you bring me some clothes out to the hospital."

"Sure thing. How many days do you want?"

"At least a week. If things keep going well with Jasper, he should be allowed home."

"Are you going with him to stay and help?"

"I'd love too, if he wanted me."

"OK I'll drop them by sometime tomorrow."

"Thanks, big brother. Love you."

"Love you too, sis."

"Tell Eddie and dad I said hi and I loved them as well."

"OK"

We hung up, but I stayed on the bed, thinking about the past day. Things were coming at us faster then I thought. But in a good way. Jasper, at least, was making progress. With the help of Dr. Jared, I hoped I would be too in a few days.

Once I was in control of everything, I got up and took the bag with me to Jasper's room. He was laying on the bed with his eyes closed. When I came in, they opened and looked at me. I smiled at him, holding up the bag. He knew without words what they were.

When a blush came over his face I was shocked. It warmed me. I laid them by my bed in the corner then went back to sit beside him. He took my hand, tugging me close. When he pressed his lips to mine, I nearly fainted.

It was like heaven. When we pulled apart, I just sat blinking.

"Thank you, Jasper. You have no idea how much they mean to me."

"I know you wanted them. It took a pretty long time to pick them out. I watched you, even though I didn't want too."

I shook my head. "Not that, I meant because you got them for me, after I left."

"I shouldn't have been so mean to you. But I didn't know anything about you, only that I wanted you when I shouldn't have. Now I don't care about what I should or shouldn't do. I just know that I want to give us a try."

"Thank you."

"Your welcome."

"Do you want to go to bed?"

"Yeah."

I got up and kissed his forehead again, before turning the lights off. Jasper relaxed and closed his eyes. I got into my bed, pulled the blankets up and then checked to make sure he was OK.

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