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Alright here is the next chapter I am not the happiest with it but I hope you all can tell me if it is ok or not. Any ways read and review to let me know what you think.

Lust in all it's forms

Phoenix POV

It was great to have the Cullen's back at the Coffin club I forgot how much they felt like family and seeing Onyx's human I felt renown hope that Raven and me could work out. I knew that the upper house vampire's felt the blood lust 10 times stronger than lower house and they had to be careful around some human's that had blood that would sing to them.

Onyx once tried to explain her theory as to why upper house felt the blood lust so strong and it made a lot of since. Upper house vampire did not sleep, they could not eat, nor could they change into bats, they did not burn in the sun, and they were next to indestructible.

They needed blood to sustain them and that was all they could consume so where as lower house vampires could eat human food, needed to sleep in coffin's, and could change into bats. But it also made us more vulnerable. The sun could kill all but the oldest of us, we could starve without food, and we could be killed by a gun by a normal human if shot in the head or heart, decapitation would surely kill us as well.

But because of this the vampire curse as some upper house vampires see it is stronger for them blood lust, and animal like tendency's. at some times I am happy with my lot in life as a lower house vampire because we had something else that upper house didn't and it upset the Cullen's other sister to no end for obvious reasons. When we found our true mate our bodies go through a slight change becoming more human in a since we could have children.

But that was with only our true mates some went their whole un-life without finding their true mate. Others got lucky and found their mate and some found human that could be turned that were their mates like my Raven how I missed her. I had to come here to bring Valentine to his brother and it was then that I found out Jagger's plans to open the dungeon to the human world and the promise of immortality to the highest bidder.

I don't think he realizes what would happen if the upper house ruling vampires ever found out about his plan it would be judgment day for Jagger his followers and his family the Volturi would not let a one of them alive that could possible reveal our secret to the humans.

I sigh as I look once again at Onyx's human he seemed perfectly content to be here in the presents of vampires and werewolves.

I thought this odd really because most humans around lower house vampires are slightly on edge and feel that we are not quiet right but I have seen humans around upper house vampires like Onyx and her siblings and humans are always subconsciously pulling away and staying a distance uncomfortable being close to predators they always seem to know that the upper house vampires have a feral beast just under the human exterior.

No matter how well they hide it. Onyx must have been speaking because she reached over and snapped her fingers in front of my eyes. I jerked out of my thoughts and looked around at the Cullen vampires' trying to find out what I had missed. At the same time both Edmond and Onyx burst out laughing before playfully kicking one of my legs each and in perfect unison began talking with Alicessa grinning ear to ear as she tried to cover her chuckles behind her hand.

Onyx's human looked confused at what he had missed but I could guess. The twins as I found out had the ability to read people's thoughts. And I guess I already look comical seeing as I was wearing a purple haired wig and biker punk clothes.

"Earth to pod people we are in need of phoenix back in his body for this conversation to go any where! Over an out" they twins laughed as I embarrassedly smiled softly.

"Sorry I was lost in thought what were you saying?" I asked

Onyx smiled happily and tilted her head to the side.

'It's alright we were just discussing what you needed us to do for you to help with the Jagger situation." Alicessa asked softly.

"Jagger wishes to have a vote to see whom the dungeon will back in our dispute if he wins the lower house vampires will come out to the humans if I win Jagger will leave and go back to Romania and we stayed hidden from the public eye. I thought with your gift you could help- me find out whom I will need to sway to my favor to win."

I smiled hopefully at Alicessa that had smiled and Edmond whom nodded his head in agreement as Alicessa eyes went blank as she used her gift to look in to the possible future.

"You will be fine as long as you get the eldest vampires here and especially the one that are friends with upper house vampires that know what will happen if the lower house comes out that there will be war between that upper and lower house that the lower house could not hope to win.

Having us go to our acquaintances here and get our followers to agree to vote for you will give you an edge also call a debate one hour before the voting starts. And the win will be yours." Alicessa assured me.

I sighed in relief at this rate early next week at the latest I could be home with Raven again I missed her sparkling eyes and her warm and loving embrace god I could not wait to have her in my arms once again.

I heard two soft sighs as I looked at both Edmond and Onyx. Both had their eyes closed and looked to be in contentment then I realized what they were doing they were looking at my thoughts and soaking up what I was feeling like a sponge. If I could blush I would have both snapped their eyes open looking ashamed Alicessa laughed at their faces they looked like they had both just been caught with their hands in the cookie jar.

"Sorry we didn't mean to listen to your thoughts" again they answered together at times I wondered if they did that on purpose speaking in unison I mean. As the thought crossed my mind they both shook their heads in the negative.

'we have been together so long that it is just second nature" This time it looked like it took effort for Edmond to answer without Onyx.

"We really didn't mean to pry into your thoughts we can't really help it" Onyx answered finishing what Edmond was going to say when he stopped for a breath. Alicessa and I both burst out laughing and from the look on the twin's faces they would be blushing scarlet if they could.

"Um I think I just missed a huge part of that conversation and I am a bit confused." Lucious said as he looked back and forth between the vampires sitting with him.

" I t is alright just about everyone misses parts of conversations with these three. Alicessa and her mate Edmond and their sister Onyx's gifts all compliment each other so well that they don't have to open their mouths to speak and unless they take notice with whom they are with they could go on and leave everyone else out of the loop.

You see Alicessa sees the future decisions the twins make and the twins read her thoughts so the twins hear Alicessa thoughts and she sees their response when they make a decision on how to answer. So they go a lot of times through large parts of conversations before they realize they need to fill the rest of us normal people in on what they are talking about" I laughed out to Lucious whom now caught on to the inside joke.

"But we all find it funny when Edmond and Onyx are experiencing others thoughts and emotions and then the unison normally gets everyone laughing, though my favorite time that the twins found themselves listening to Crimson and Emory's thoughts last they were here both turned paler than they are now and in unison yelled for them to stop thinking about the bedroom fun they had for the week end planned" Alicessa said.

Lucious and I laughed hard but Edmond and Onyx looked like they were trying to find something other than the topic of conversation to be in their thoughts.

"Well we are so happy that we entertain you bunch but why don't we put your master pla…" Onyx trailed off as she stared hard at the girls that had just walked into the dungeon.

"Onyx are you alright?" I asked as I placed my hand on top of hers and squeezed softly. She did not respond and when I looked at Edmond he had the same look on his face and he too was staring across the room.

I turned in my seat and looked over the twins shoulders to see who they were looking at and I thought my cold hear t would slam out of my chest. There across the room was Raven. The twins knew her from my thoughts and where she should be in her home town which she lovingly referred to as Dullsville.

To say I was upset was an understatement. What was she doing here, how did she get down here in the dungeon and why was she with scarlet. I looked up as Onyx stood and tilted her head in Edmond and Alicessa direction.

The mates both nodded and then she turned to Lucious and leaned over to whisper in his ear but the other Cullen's and I both heard her though she did try to make Lucious feel It was private.

I would have to figure some way to keep a close eye on Raven without her noticing me to much she had already looked over here and was watching me but I could guess she could not see into our darkened alcove to well because she only focused on me. And she only shifted her eyes to the others and squinted her eyes hard trying to see them.

I sighed until a hand rested on my shoulder and looked to see onyx watching me closely.

BPOV

I had seen her only in Phoenix's thoughts but I knew her already she was Raven Phoenix's girlfriend well actually Alexander's girlfriend whom happened to be Phoenix's real name and she had no clue that Alexander was Phoenix so he was trying to figure out how to watch over her with out Jagger finding out who he really was and to keep Raven out of trouble I didn't like my options but I would do it for my friend Alexander and I am sure as long as Jasper stayed with Alicessa and Edmond he would be kept safe from all forms of monsters.

So I made the decision I would go spend time with my old friend Scarlet and make a new friend with Raven so that she would not get suspicious of me watching out for her. I watched out of the corner of my eye as both Alice and Edward nodded their head in agreement to my plan about both Raven and Jasper.

I glanced to look at Jasper and wished I didn't have to leave. I wanted to spend more time here with him alone like we had planned. I cursed Jagger and his stupid ass drama and then I thought about it and cursed the human girl that Alexander was worrying over why was it that some humans just couldn't learn to behave themselves and stop throwing their safety to the wind and putting their lives literally in us monsters hands. Hmm maybe I should try to teach that lesson to Jasper as well…

Oh well I leaned into Jasper to whisper even though I knew the other three could hear me loud and clear.

"Jasper I am going to help phoenix out you see that human girl over there with the vampire in red well she is important to him and doesn't know that he is here in the dungeon tonight and that if he goes to her she will not recognize him and it will put her in danger so I am going to go look after her I already asked if Edward and Alice would hang out with you unless you want to go back to the hotel." I said while secretly loving the heat his body was putting out.

I could sit there all night and soak up his warmth.

"Sure I would love to hang out with your brother and sister I am sure we will become good friends. Go on and help out phoenix he looks like he is ready to have a fit. Being confused, happy, excited, joyful, dread, and love must take a hell of a toll on him. It would drive any normal person crazy I would think." Jasper replied.

I looked at Jasper oddly how did he know what Alexander was feeling?

"How do you know what Phoenix is feeling?" I asked.

Jasper just shrugged his shoulders.

"I don't know I just do it is almost like I can feel a ghost of his emotions or maybe taste them would be more accurate I don't know for sure really just do I have always been able to tell what people are feeling sort of." He explained I was baffled to be honest I never heard of a human developing gifts like that without the change.

I smiled at him and leaned in and gave him a sweet long soft kiss in good bye before getting up from the table. But I had to do other things first so I stood up but before I left the booth I touched Phoenix on the shoulder.

"I'll look after her tonight alright you and my siblings go do what needs done I will back you up when the time comes." I said as I slid out of our booth and made my way toward the two girls I heard Alexander's voice in my head thank me for doing this for him. I nodded my head without turning around.

I pulled out my cell phone and quickly dialed the other girl that went by Onyx by all but her friends and family to them her name was Dianna, which she didn't want just anyone to know so here at the dungeon she was known by onyx also.

It was funny really she and I had the same height, and face structure with only subtle differences that most humans couldn't tell apart from. It took her three rings to pick up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey there Dianna can I ask a favor?" I asked softly so my voice would not carry along the catacomb walls.

"Sure whats up Onyx?"

I never did tell her my real name but she understood with my ability it was impossible for me to stay out of her head and let her keep her secrets. So she didn't mind sharing a name with me here in the dungeon.

"I am at the dungeon tonight and I have been asked by a friend to watch out for a human that seems to have struck a friendship with our friend scarlet I was wondering if you could please txt Scarlet to let her know that she is not to let on that there are two Onyx's that she knows and that I am being you tonight and any time that this human named Raven is about alright I would like to be informed immediately"

"Sure I can do that for you my parents wanted to spend some time with me any ways so this is as good an opportunity as any give me five minutes and Scarlet will be informed."

"Thank you again Dianna."

"No problem. Later" after her parting she hung up the phone and a few minutes later I watched as Scarlet looked at her txt message and nodded her head and looked over at me with a grin.

Scarlet was unlike many lower house vampires she liked hanging out with some upper house vampires where as most felt threatened by our overwhelming strength.

I waved as I got closer to the two girls. Scarlet Excitedly waved in return before filling in Raven that I was her friend that we hardly ever left each others side and that she had been wondering where I had been.

"Hey girl I though you were going to meet me her and hour ago? Not that I am complaining to much look here I made a new friend her name is Raven. She got stopped out side the dungeon she lost her key and couldn't get in so I helped her out and brought her with me to hang out tonight cool huh?" Scarlet twittered excitedly.

I smiled warmly flashing my fake fangs with my two onyx stones embedded in them. I watched as Raven stared at my fangs before wisely adverting her eyes. Scarlet had her real fangs embedded with ruby's which she showed to Raven as well.

She smiled at Raven and looped her arm through one of Raven's and started to lead the way around the edge of the dance floor and off toward the catacombs and lounges. I walked to Raven's other side and took her other arm lightly with my own.

"So Raven are you visiting or do you live around here?" I asked sociably to find out how much truth the silly human would divulge.

"Um no I am visiting a relative to be precise and I am looking for someone." Raven admitted I had to applaud her she gave enough truth without giving out to much information well except that when she answered she thought about what she wanted to say and I heard the truth in her thoughts.

Raven was here looking for Alexander whom had stayed in town much longer than she had thought he would after finding Jagger and reuniting him with his younger brother. She was staying with her aunt whom lived not far from here and worked in theater. She had followed Alexander here by finding out where he had been sending flowers to her from.

Smart girl. Would have been smarter if she had not shown up here in the dungeon unescorted by a vampire strong enough to protect her if something should happen. I would have to let Alexander know that next time he pulled a disappearing act that he should just tell her where he is and what he is doing to keep this from happening in the future.

I lead Scarlet and Raven as far away from where the debate was currently taking place so as to help Raven keep a low profile.

"So who are you looking for your boyfriend?" I asked again

Raven looked like she was nervous and wanted to avoid pointed of questions.

"Oh no are you really is he human or vampire?" Scarlet asked softly. With a look of pure curiosity, I could hear in Scarlet thoughts that she truly liked Raven and wanted to become good friends.

I smiled again as Raven floundered for a moment trying to think of a response.

"Vampire I am just worried he has not come home yet and I want to make sure he is ok but I am having trouble finding him when he wants to disappear buddy he sure can pull a disappearing act." She mumbled while flushing a soft pink blush.

I inhaled a deep breath as I smelled her blood she smelled mouth watering. I quickly snapped my thoughts away from her blood and onto what Scarlet was saying.

"Well that's too bad that you can't find him then again there have been a lot of new faces here lately what with Jagger tearing the dungeon to pieces with his plans for power." Scarlet scoffed annoyed anyone even Jagger whom she had crushed on for a long time in the past would have the gale to threaten her home and safety.

Raven looked confused for a moment and I wished I could have stopped Scarlet from saying anything about the Jagger situation but it was to late now and any ways she probably would have heard from somebody what was going on.

"What do you mean that he is tearing it apart I mean I noticed that everyone down here seems tense but I had no idea why" Raven asked as she and Scarlet took seats at the table. I sat down and noticed that there were only a few people in this lounge and sighed in relief softly.

"Jagger wants to go public with our secret about being vampires and offer those willing to pay a high cost to be turned into vampires like he can't see that blowing up in his face you know." Scarlet answered.

From there Raven must have spent close to two hours with us drinking her cherry coke which had been Jasper's drink of choice earlier and made me pine for him even more perhaps what Alice said was the truth and he was my destined mate.

When I noticed the time I realized that the voting would be starting soon and I wanted to get Raven out of the dungeon so that she was not mixed up in this fight that would no doubt take place because Jagger would be so full of his self he would not let a single person that was a vampire not vote, all the humans had wisely left earlier except for my Jasper which was safe with my siblings and Raven who was not as safe as she would have been with some one else.

Ever since she had sat close to me in the small lounge that had the heat system on recycle I have smelled her blood. It smelled so sweet, it was not as potent as Jasper's was to mach but it would be the next best thing and so close too… I broke away from those thoughts quickly the moment I realized what I was doing.

"Raven didn't you say you had to get home before your aunt tonight it is a little after 11 p.m. now…" I trailed off and she blanched.

"Crap I forgot um do you think that you can walk with me those guys giving support to Jagger have been staring at us for a real long time and they are starting to creep me out." Raven asked, as she got jumpy seeing the time.

I nodded and looked to scarlet who agreed to walk with us. Again Scarlet and I each looped one of our arms through Ravens as we walked toward the exit. It was then out of nowhere the excitement levels went through the roof and all of Jagger's supporters started to whoop and hauler like wild animals running around in the tight corridors of the catacombs. They grabbed at us and pulled this way and that as I tried to keep a firm hold on Raven and Scarlet and force our way through.

It was then that I heard Raven scream for me and turned to see one of Jagger's followers grab Raven had pulled her from my grip and push her into the wall getting set to drive his fangs into her throat. I cursed I had had to let go so as not to crush Raven's wrist to dust. I without a thought and grabbed him by the throat and drove my own teeth into his neck and they sliced through like a knife through hot butter.

I reached around the guy I was draining and pushed Raven into Scarlet's waiting arms. As soon as the lower house vampire was drained of all his blood I grabbed his head with one hand and his shoulder with the other and yanked hard beheading him and watching as his body turned to dust lower house vampires are easy to kill.

I looked up at the rest of the crowed and kept Scarlet and Raven between the wall and my back as I lowered into a crouch and let deep throaty growls rip from my chest and dared anyone else to dare challenge me.

Drinking a lower house vampire is like drinking a bottle of Jack Daniels whole compared to humans but their blood is cooler than humans and is not really satisfying to your thirst. It is like giving a dehydrated person in the Gobi desert a tablespoon of ice-cold water when really you are dying for the gallon jug full they poured it from.

But the same effect always occurred our eyes would turn pitch black as if we had not fed in a week and it made us blood drunk and practically panting for more. I grabbed one of Scarlet's wrists tightly in my hand and then grabbed one of Ravens too watching closely how much pressure I put on her wrist to make sure I didn't hurt her.

If I had been able to ignore her blood earlier easily I was having some very bad problems now, her skin felt scorching hot though I know it was from drinking the vampire that was making me think that way and not really true. All my senses were tingling and extremely sensitive and not in a good way.

We entered the main room of the dungeon and were forced into voting booths. I quickly went in and came right back out almost in 3 seconds to make sure someone was out here for Raven. As soon as Raven came out of the booth I forced her through the crowed with Scarlet almost running to keep up with my pace behind me.

I got them to the entrance to the club and gave an order to Scarlet to make sure Raven made it to her aunts door step before handing them into Dragon's hands with a threat that if anything happened to either girl I would make his life hell before killing him slowly! I watched as Dragon escorted the young girls out of the dungeon and up to the coffin club above before returning to the meeting in the dance floor area.

I was still growling and hissing at each and every lower house vampire that was supporting Jagger that got to close. I still had the vampire's who I had drained head clutched in my hand I guess that was why I had seen Scarlet grimacing it wasn't that my holed on her was too tight it was I was getting blood all over her.

Jagger looked pleased with himself as he stood on stage confidently. I looked at Phoenix he stood calmly and not giving away that he already knew the out come of the vote I had looked at Alice and she had flashed a smile and a nod to let me know.

I was making my way to Jasper who had his hand held out waiting for me to take it when I noticed that they had just announced that the new dungeon master was Phoenix and Jagger was not taking it to well.

"He cheated there are two mortals here tonight that voted and they have masters that are on his pay roll do you really think that the renown Onyx would really go with his cause seeing as she killed and drained someone tonight and he is trying to make us drink only blood packs here!" Jagger demanded I snarled and many that could see me on and off stage looked at the head I raised in my closed fist.

"This is exactly why you should never hold power here you think my killing this low life that dared lay a hand on a human in my care tonight not to mention of your own lower house vampire and condone it should rule you are out of your fucking mind! Hear me and listen well you lower house vampires that think Jagger's little plan for fame and fortune and to be known among the humans world wide stand together now and let me demonstrate what will happen!" I demanded to the crowed.

Five of the young and stupid lower house vampires stood up together cockily. I smirked and they never knew what happened one minute they were looking down at me from the stage and the next they were all a pile of ash at my feet.

"What you just saw was what will happen to each and every lower house vampire that dare challenge the ruling upper house vampire's secrecy and you will be nothing but ash and we will use it to salt the air. Is this what you want your oh so great leader Jagger to do for you stick a large target on your back because you know if it came to war he would not be in the front lines but hiding behind mommy and daddy ion Romania." I snapped.

The crowed quieted, watching me like a cornered animal and looked on astonished and terrified that they would be next if they rallied to Jagger's cause again. Upper house vampires never had a reason to fight any lower house vampires for this reason they were no match for us they would lose and when losing meant you ceased to exist then it was a very high cost to pay. I hated the old ways but one thing I have learned from history when dealing with a mob.

Eliminate then the leader or his credibility, then the threat, squish the idea with cold hard logic, and strike fear and obedience into those without the power to do anything with out massive numbers and superior strength with an object lesion and terror!

My eyes I knew were a hard black burning abyss and they were staring down anyone that was one Jagger's side of the room down into submission from me. Drinking from that vampire I realized was probably a pretty bad idea seeing as it triggered my thirst and also my aggression.

I watched as one by one all of Jagger's support and power he had held in the dungeon evaporated, his supporters seeing the logic and the example of what would happen to them making their trust in their leader fade completely.

Phoenix came forward on the stage and began his speech about what his plans and new rules for conduct and codes would be. I knew better than to let my guard down after I had pissed a poor loser like Jagger off who always had an underhand last tactic to take others down with his fall. Jagger was nothing but a bully and when he did not get his way tried to take all those around him down with him.

So I will never understand why I did but I know the moment my eyes locked with Jaspers and saw the fear he had of me for how ruthless I had been I knew that he was never meant to be in my world. He was disgusted with me and he had finally seen how truly evil I could be. I only focused on Jasper and that would be my downfall.

I never saw the girl or where he had been hiding the human but I do know that Alice never got a chance to see what would happen to be able to warn me. I had just jumped off the stage and was getting close to Jasper when it happened.

Jagger took out a hidden knife from his pants and slashed the girls shoulder deep the blood started to pour. On instinct I turned around just as Jagger threw her on to me. There was nothing that could have saved that girl and her face will forever haunt me. She was maybe as old as 17 years.

The minute she landed on me I lost all control. I ripped her off me and slammed her to the ground with me on top her eyes looked scared as hell and then she screamed as my teeth sank into her and started to drink deeply. I groaned in delight it had been too long since last I had drunk from a human.

It was only four years after I had been changed and Esme and Carlisle had deemed it safe for me to start school around human children to build up my control. A child fell and a large rock went into their hand and that was all it took I had drained four humans before I realized what happened.

Luckily it had been on a field trip to the nature trails at the state wild life preserve. I had easily caught and killed the other 12 students. I was remorseful and knew without a shadow of a doubt that I was a monster. I had taken those students bodies and the teacher to the crater near the hot springs on the mountaintop and dumped them in to it before staging a rockslide that would have killed them.

I had spent years not talking to anyone and being a shadow of who I once was. Then I started to live again for Edward whom had finally came back to the family and apologized for thinking that a criminal's life had any less value than a innocent. I had helped Edward get his control back to drinking from animals only after that.

It was the time period the family referred to as Edward's rebellious years, which had lasted almost 15 years. But Edward would never know that his drinking from rapist, murderers, and many other low lives would never compare to those innocent children's lives I took like the girl I had just drained she never asked to be food or for her life to be taken away from her yet I took it without a second thought until after I had drained her dry.

Why I will never know why Jasper moved threw the crowd of rushing bodies trying to get to me while they tried to get away from me and my loss of control. I had triggered several vampires to go into a frenzy over the girls blood and they had turned to fight each other.

But at that moment it was only Jasper and I in the room no one else mattered. He was nothing more than a delicious smelling human I had to have. He meant nothing to me other than food with my blood lust raging. The foolish human came right into my arms yelling something about us needing to get out of here. But first I was so thirsty.

I licked his pulse and he shivered and then he cried out softly in pain as my teeth sliced into his neck and took a long pull on his wonderful blood it was like nothing I had ever tasted before. I had pulled another mouthful in before someone flung me across the mostly empty room now.

I rolled to my feet instantly and was charging back for my meal when I was tackled to the ground I thrashed against who ever dared try to steal my prey. The male vampire that was attacking me yelled something over and over again but I could not hear him I was focused only on the thundering wet sound of the boys pumping heartbeat. I whimpered as I kicked the male off me and turned to stalk closer to the human in the small dark haired females vampire arms.

Just then the male vampire had grabbed me from behind and slammed something gritty and sticky down my throat I knew it was human food and tasted like shit the minute I swallowed what was in my mouth I started to puke it back up.

Once I had stopped dry heaving I turned to glare at the vampires that had stolen my prey only to come face to face with a mirror and in that mirror I could see my face and body up close.

Over the years sustaining from human blood had made my features looked softer and not as sharp. My eyes stayed a beautiful gold color. Now my eyes were bright red like a newborn's would be and my face and body were too still and too tense and sharp I looked like a monster and the perfect killer.

My clothes were ripped and blood stained, I looked like I had just came from a bar fight and I guess in some sense I had. But mine was in a fight with a vampire. It was then it was enough to clear my senses. I heard a tortured scream come from the other side of the mirror. When I looked around the mirror Edward was holding I could see Jasper I had broken his wrist and one shoulder blade when I had grabbed him. I had bitten Jasper!

I dropped my head into my hands and roared in grief I had hurt the one person I had loved with all my heart. I had kept myself from thinking about the name for what I was feeling for Jasper and now he would hate me for an eternity and never know my feelings. I had just effectively taken away the last of Charlie's family and I have also just tuned the one human that was to be my mate against his will.

I rose to my feet and looked over at Jasper as he clung to Alice's small frame. I walked over to him not breathing so I would not lose it again. He opened his eyes a little bit and saw me reaching out my hand to touch his shoulder so that I could offer some type of comfort.

Jasper flinched away from my reaching hand and It had felt like he had just ripped what was left of my broken heart out of my chest and crushed it to a fine powder. I guess my heart was worthy of such treatment after all now I truly was a heartless monster.

"I am sorry Jasper you will never have to see me again. Alice, Edward please take care of him and get him to the family." With that I turned on my heel and started away.

Alice yelled for me to stop and come back. Something about there was a way to save him to stop him from turning. Good I hoped there was though I had never heard of a way it was all the more reason for me too leave so that if they did stop the change I could not hurt him and if they could not at least he would not have to see his murderer every day for the rest of his existence.

I was out of the club and running as fast as I could to the old house here in Seattle that the Cullen's had owned. I went straight to the garage and into the house. Once I was in the room I used to own I opened the safe and took all the money and credit cards and bank account and safety deposit box codes out. I grabbed a fast shower and out the door I went with a fresh set of clothes on. I was in my Midnight black Mustang and flying back down the driveway out onto the freeway.

I drove for the next nine hours never making a decision or even paying attention to where I was going I could never go back so what did it matter. I though about going to the Volturi and having them end me. Then I thought about a large bonfire after pissing off some vampire covens in the south to chase me down and kill me and taking as many of them with me as I could. But then I would think of Jasper and whine.

I knew I would be unable to kill myself so I just drove until I needed refill the gas tank. I pulled into a gas station in a small city in Christian County in Kansas. As I was filling my gas tank I realized suddenly that some sun came out and glanced of my arm sending rainbows in all directions.

I looked up into the window of this old mom and pop back road gas stations and saw an old man staring at me. I sigh as I stopped filling my car and walked into the store.

The older man was terrified and rightfully so I was not hiding my blood red eyes and was staring at the pulse thudding at his neck. It could not be avoided he had seen me so in a swift move I had him by the throat and already sucking deeply at his vein. I drained him and found that he was by himself all-alone.

I took the money from his cash register and all the booze, I made sure there were no cameras taping surveillance finding a gun I drug him out back making sure no one could see me and shot the man in the neck and chest a few times before cleaning the gun with bleach and dropping it next to him going back inside I took out all of his extra gas tanks that he was selling filling them all up I loaded my trunk full and taking 5 barrels out to where his body laid I soaked them in gasoline and stuffed rags into the tank tops catching it all on fire and getting the hell out of there.

I took a pair of dark sunglasses; a hat, leather gloves and a light pull over jacket to cover my exposed flesh to keep from making the same mistake twice. After that I pulled out on to the road as fast as I could to get the hell away from there before anyone notified the cops or fire department. I was long gone before I heard anything on the news.

After three days driving endlessly I finally stopped in Arkansas and bought a hunting cabin and 200 Acers of land to keep humans away from me unless I was in the mood to hunt.

After I moved into the log cabin like house it had a large kitchen, bathroom, living room, and den/ study on the first floor, on the second there were three bedrooms and a bathroom, not counting the master bedroom with it in suite bathroom.

It had a wood shed out back a two car ports and lots of wilderness all around and the best thing of all nothing that would remind me of my family I could not stand to let see me after every thing I had done.

I had disappointed them all and I didn't think I would ever be welcomed with them ever again not to mention the one person I wanted to see more then anything was jasper it hurt to even think about him so I went outside and took the axe and started out into the forest. I started to chop down a thick pine tree even though I could have punched it till it broke with my fist I wanted to take my mind off thinking all together and try to act as human as I could.

I started on one tree and worked at a human pace all through the night trying to remain as numb and unthinking as I could. I would fill up both carports and wood shed with split wood before I would allow myself to go into town again. I had left my phone turned off in my pocket it was the last lifeline to the Cullen's. And it was the last reminder I had that I didn't always use to be a monster.

All right what did you think now you must tell me if I should allow Jasper to turn or will Alice or Edward have the strength to suck out the venom and save Jasper from the change? Will Bella come back right away to Jasper after what ever happens with him happens? Well you will have to review to find out I want 20 reviews before I update again!