Beck walked downstairs holding the dark book and saw his friends on the computer so he dropped it on the table to catch their attention, they immediately turned to him and saw his almost red face, he still had tears in his eyes and a furious facial expression.

"I guess you finished" Tori said as she and the rest of them walked towards the living room.

"When did you find this?" Beck asked.

"A couple of weeks ago" Andre responded.

"And why DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?" He screamed madly.

"Because we didn't know if you would take it well, Jade doesn't need you yelling at her that she's a whore" Tori responded and he shook his head.

"You should've told me" Beck said coldly as he tried to calm down.

"Beck, Jade's only been a victim her entire life, it wasn't her fault... what you saw here was Alex molesting her" Andre commented and Beck looked at him.

"I know, Andre, I read it" Beck informed. "You all thought that I'd be mad at Jade for being the victim of a fucking pedophile and his friends? What kind of person do you think I am?" He questioned angrily and they looked at each other not knowing what to say.

"Well, we weren't sure if you would take your rage out on her I mean, you haven't stopped insulting her since the day you saw her with Alex in the kitchen" Tori commented. "We were afraid you would end up hurting her more, as you can see she is not really stable"

"I am not so blind, Tori, I would not take my anger out on her...god, that's the last thing I would do, you should've told me, I shouldn't have said all those things to her" Beck said, guilt and pain dripping from his voice, he only wanted to go back in time and undo his mistakes. "I've been a jerk to her for weeks, I basically harassed her today during class…I did exactly what that monster does!"

"Well, yeah…" Cat said sadly.

"She did seem very uncomfortable, even a little scared" Tori added and he sighed upset with himself.

"Jamie, so Jamie is Jade...or well, the sad twisted version of her" Beck said as he sat down still in shock. "He said they'd go to Jamie's birthday party today, what the hell was that supposed to mean?"

"At first we thought he said it to intimidate her, he knows that by mentioning Jamie he can scare her but when he left her at the school, you saw her, she had the ice cream just like on her twelfth birthday and she looked very affected, I think we all know what happened" Andre commented sadly and Beck covered his face in frustration.

"Did you guys see her wrists? They were all bruised like she'd been tied or someone had been grabbing her too tightly" Tori commented. "And I still can't get over the way she hugged me, I could feel her fear and her pain, she was trembling and she was sticking her fingers into my back, she really needed that hug…I could feel her breathing and she was trying not to break out crying, it was heartbreaking to see her like that, I get chills remembering it" She said sadly and Beck closed his eyes in frustration.

"And she had another bruise on her face, you know, besides the long one" Cat added.

"She said she tripped but I highly doubt it, he is doing it to her…he hit her" Tori said sadly, every word they said made Beck feel worse. "I think she wanted to tell us what happened, she was very overwhelmed but it was obvious she needed to get it out…"

"And I stopped her" Beck said and covered his face regretfully.

"Yes, you did" Tori responded emotionlessly.

"If I had known I wouldn't have let him take her with him today, you knew, you all knew and you didn't do anything" Beck commented angrily.

"We couldn't, she doesn't know that we know and if we tell her she is gonna lose it, Beck" Tori affirmed.

"She needs to know that she is not alone" Beck insisted.

"No, do you realize what she went through? She was brutalized by her cousin for years and on her twelfth birthday she spent a whole weekend in a house full of pedophiles, god damn it, she even tried to kill herself at eleven, she's not well" Tori commented and more tears streamed down his face as she said all those things. "We don't know Jade West at all, I thought I did, you thought you did, we all thought we did but we really don't, we don't know if she does things that she doesn't write, we don't know what her reaction might be if she finds out that we know what happened, she could even..."

"Kill herself?" Beck finished and Tori nodded, he knew she was right but he needed to hug Jade so bad, he wanted to ask her to forgive him.

"Yes and she is older, she knows more, I'm sure that if she tries to do it now she won't fail" Tori commented mortified.

"As much as I hate to say this, she's considering it again and it's partly because of you" Andre said to Beck and he closed his eyes in frustration because he knew it was true.

"I know, god, I know and I hate myself for it" Beck said sincerely. "I can't believe this is happening, please tell me it's a dream, please tell me Jade wasn't raped by who knows how many pedophiles, please tell me there isn't pornography of her as a kid on the internet, please tell me she is not living with her rapist and being abused again, please tell me this isn't real" He begged with endless tears running down his face.

"It is, Beck, unfortunately it is real" Tori said sadly and sat down next to him.

"Yes, as far as we know Alex started taking pornographic pictures of her when she was seven or so, then he started raping her when she was eight and according to her he got more violent as she grew up, then she tried to kill herself out of fear when she was eleven, after she was violently abused by all those pigs when she was twelve and then she was free at thirteen when he left" Andre said.

"But now he is back, he is raping her again and she won't talk because she is terrified of him" Tori added sad and angrily.

"Do you guys think Jade is aware that probably her pictures and videos are on the internet being watched by thousands of men?" Robbie questioned.

"I honestly don't know if she's aware of everything that happened, she stopped writing for a long time and I've heard that some victims block their memories, maybe she doesn't remember everything" Tori commented. "We can't be sure and that's what scares me about telling her that we know, maybe she won't take it well, traumas like this usually come with consequences, Jade lived the past five years normally so I don't think she has had a breakdown and I don't want her to have it now"

"I don't want her to suffer either but I am almost sure she is aware of everything and she's getting closer to suicide again, we can't let her fall off the cliff...literally speaking" Beck affirmed.

"Guys, I don't want to be negative but even if Alex went to jail and Jade stopped being abused, do you really think she could ever lead a normal life?" Robbie questioned sadly.

"Of course, she is young and she is strong enough to overcome it, she did it before and she will do it now" Tori affirmed.

"I don't know, Tori, Robbie is right and as you said, she hasn't really had a breakdown since Alex left, how can we be sure that she won't have it in a few months or years? She is not a normal person" Andre commented.

"It doesn't matter, I'm not giving up on her, she has to live, she deserves to be happy more than anyone" Beck said and Tori nodded. "And she isn't abnormal for what happened, okay? Don't say that she is in front of her because I'm sure it wouldn't help"

"Yes, we need to find a way to help her without hurting her more and that's gonna be difficult but not impossible" Tori affirmed.

Next day at school Tori, Beck, Andre, Robbie and Cat were waiting for Jade near the sodas machine, she walked into the school wearing something that covered up her whole body but the bruises on her face were still there.

Beck couldn't see her the same way after what he'd learnt, none of them could, they started paying more attention to the little details of Jade's behavior to determine how she felt and it wasn't so hard to tell, at that point in her life she was just miserable.

Jade opened her locker and saw the dark book in it, Beck and the rest of them had managed to open her locker to return it to her so as soon as she saw it she smiled, she'd been worried that somebody would read it. Jade grabbed the notebook thinking she'd simply missed it when she'd been looking for it and exhaled relieved, there weren't people in the hall so she thought it'd be okay to use it there, she hadn't seen the gang hiding across the room so she sat down on the stairs and opened the notebook.

"She is gonna write something" Cat commented.

"After these days of hell, she probably needs it" Tori responded sadly and they sighed while watching her.

Jade was holding the pen ready to write but she wasn't writing anything, she was just staring into space, she was remembering everything that had happened the previous day and everything that had happened when she was younger, the gang couldn't really see her face because she was looking down but then she looked up to take a deep breath and they saw the tears streaming down her bruised face.

"Oh no..." Tori said sadly, they all wanted to hug her so bad but they couldn't.

Jade took a deep breath and wiped the tears off her face before she finally started writing, it took her several minutes and then she stopped but when she did she broke out crying, nobody except the gang was there but they were hiding so she thought she was alone, she closed the book and started crying her eyes out into her hands, she covered her mouth to stop herself from being too noisy and closed her eyes.

Her friends were just watching her and feeling so much impotence and sadness, Beck had tears in his eyes while desperately wishing to go hug her, Cat and Tori were crying a little as well because seeing Jade cry was heartbreaking and the boys were just looking down sadly.

All the sudden Jade's phone rang and she immediately picked up. "Hello" She said trying to sound normal. "Hey Nathan, what's up?" She asked as she wiped the tears off her face. "Crying? No, of course not, you're imagining things, I think I'm getting a cold" she lied and her friends looked at each other as they listened. "No, Beck hasn't insulted me again-Yes, I'm sure, he hasn't even spoken to me, I'm fine, I'm actually really happy right now" she lied again and they shook their heads sadly because she was good at lying and they didn't know if maybe she'd lied to them in the past, especially Beck. "Well, I am happy because you're here and I'll get to be with you for the rest of my life" she said trying to sound happy but looking down. "Yeah, I know you're leaving in three months, it was just a way of saying it" she said and her friends looked at each other worriedly.

"Alex is picking me up? But, no, no, no, it's not necessary, I can take a cab" Jade said nervously and they nodded in agreement. "What do you mean you and mom are leaving? Where?" she questioned. "And when are you coming back? -In two days?" she said and closed her eyes in frustration. "You know what? It's okay, I actually just remembered that Cat invited me to a sleepover so I'll spend the day with her and tomorrow we have a project to work on so I'll be with my friends" Jade lied and they looked at each other sadly because she was desperately trying to stay away from Alex but that was understandable. "Yes, so tell Alex that he doesn't have to pick me up-okay-I love you too, bye" Jade hung up and took a deep breath.

"Alright, where do I spend these nights?" Jade asked herself and started thinking. "Whatever, I'll just go to some hotel..." She said and then started fixing her makeup; she stood up and changed her face to look normal. "Here we go again" she said coldly and started walking so the gang ran to the janitor's closet and watched her walk by like nothing had happened.

"We need to get the dark book again"

Yeah, at least now he knows...

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